Does your name begin with: S
For you, it is pleasure before business. You can be romantically idealistic to a fault and is capable of much sensuality. But you never loose control of your emotions. Once you make the commitment you stick like glue. You could get jealous and possessive. You tend to be very selfish often regarding yourself as the only human being on the planet.. You like being the centre of attention. You are very caring sensitive, private & sometimes very passive. Turned on by soft lights, romantic thoughts. When it gets down to the nitty-gritty, you are an expert. You know all the little tricks of the trade, can play any role, or any game, and take your love life very seriously. You don't fool around. You have the patience to wait for the rightperson to come along. You are very generous & giving, often selfless. You are kind nature & sweet which is found to be attractive by many. You are a good friend.
JANUARY
Ambitious and serious
Loves to teach and be taught
Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses
Likes to criticize
Hardworking and productive
Smart, neat and organised
Sensitive and has deep thoughts
Knows how to make others happy
Quiet unless excited or tensed
Rather reserved
Highly attentive
Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds
Romantic but has difficulties expressing love
Loves children
Loyal
Needs to improve social abilities
Easily jealous
Capricorn
Turn ons:
Capricorn are strong and dependable hence if you want to put your money on anyone it is of course this zodiac sign no matter how many difficulties (that incidentally are many) The goat has to undertake to achieve the goals. They are practical and conservative in their outlook and they expect you to blend in their color. They set certain standards for themselves in their life and they will always try to maintain those standards. For them social status and image is very important in life.
Turn offs:
Do not expect a Capricorn mate to open their heart and pour everything to you. They are very secretive and reserved people. They are very thorough in all their affairs and hate any kind of sloppiness. Capricorn is very tightfisted and economical. Do not expect lavish gifts from them and if they do give you any gift (that is very rare) it will have some practical use (no romance please) but that does not mean you will be deprived of anything on the contrary you will be well provided.
true? some.
ok, most
if you're interested to get yours, leave me a msg, ill forward to u.
thanks to my source, nurul.
Tuesday, October 31, 2006
Friday, October 27, 2006
spanking week!
so many many things to do this week!
full afternoon full full afternoon.
terror shift.
friday off day, better rest first.
had lots of fun at choi's place.
I MISS THAT GIRL!
bumped into liting in the train, ruby hopped on later and to yo chu kang we went.
dee dee came later.
long walk in ah choi!
say so near. LOL.
first we got ready the bbq stuff
iron chef steph marinated the chicken.
liting and deedee did the egg mayo sandwiches
then we were talking in a way that had two meanings kinda,
especially when we were sticking sticks into the sotong balls and sausages.
stick it in more, if u know what i mean. :)
then to swimming we went!
*pictures to follow!
SELAMAT HARI RAYA!
so many customers piss me off ah.
so a point where i slammed down the phone on one
who made me waste time checking stock for her and take anew piece blazer,
only to say "its ok"
and another who i told my collegue in her face that 'she is very irritating'
dude she wanted to change a t-shirt she bought for 19.90 bcoz of i dont know what.
and she made me take out a million new pieces for her to chose the best,
but all not good enough, coz all had fold lines,
which according to her after stretching it abit, that its a different colour from the shirt.
so after 10 mins of the same arguement with my collegue i decided to offer to iron it.
so with the stem iron there were water spots.
THEN SHE SAID ITS OIL STAIN.
whatever whatever.
next time go giodarno ok.
but then got this indian customer say i pretty,
and that i have nice eyes.
wahh.
just after the bitch manager say im gonna be fat just coz she sees me in the office on break alot.
bitch bitch bitch!
then i had to husle to get my culinary stuff.
went to school in the morning for lecture which i missed 20 mins of.
darn nonsense lecture, accounts.
i think ever since i started work the second time my temper had become bad.
i get ticked off easily and im not afraid of showing it.
(which explains rightn now WHY IM NOT AFRAID TO SLAP YOUR FACE IF U TRY ANYTHING)
yes you, jaws.
i hate you for the shit youve said just to put pple down coz uve been put away.
yes, u are trash. YOU SHIT.
your the gum under my shoe.
you want to know who just ask
u think its u, come ask me.
if i slap u then u know CONFIRM u
anywayy, during lecture i had outburst of "faster!"
and after class i zoomed out and trained to outram.
decided to take a bus frm thre, but i got lost!
so end up, cab. PFFT.
then then while walking out the exit, and indian man was walking towards my direction,
he was on the phone,
and when he passes me, he pulled his phone away and said
"hi you look very beautiful"
i sombong him continue walking,
10 secs later i smiled
:)
i think only indians say i pretty
why ah
anyway, the only thing i was looking forward to the whole time was
RACHEL MERRIE CHONG'S 19TH BIRTHDAY!!
kumars it, then MOS!
she met me after work, we cabbed down.
met nao, in we go.
1-for-1 jugs pls!
kumar is getting hotter by the day.
she asked me, if i eurasian or malay.
wahh.
when she got off her first set, she touched my leg ah!
freaky.
but its nothing compared to her backup dancer squishing her boobies in my face.
fun yes?
timo eugene and pan came after,
another round of drinks.
and the saboing begins.
up on stage rachel!
not much action though.
but i must say, kumar has goooooood taste
she brought this ang mo guy up on stage,
HE'S OOZING HOTNESs.
but yeah, saboing didnt get that far,
rachel so defensive againt kumar.
and that chinese girl was too drunk that she was irritating!
margeritas for rachel, and waterfall!
oooh.
SHITLOADS OF PICTURE.
hawt ones ah.
(and they is all GONE NOW. GONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) :( :( :(
becoz someoneeeee accidentally deleted all.
i admit, I DARN SAD I TEARS WITH A MEGA WATT NEVER-SeEN-BEFORE pout
MOS we went, the boys left.
darn fun.
saw zul there, as always.
i miss this bald headed big eyed boy.
studio 54 crowd, not as good,
but i still like.
went home right before 4.
sure hope rachel have a ball!
next day, CULINARY CLASS
and timo decided to call me,
5 mins BEFORE calss started.
WAH DARN THANKS /
i just went back to slp
poor boy carried my knieve set to sch (and back)
HEH.
i quite bummed i missed lesson
but oh well.
even if i had made it, id be dead as a fish in class.
went for driving, which went well.
i think im getting the hang of it,
i cant bloody wait.
then training.
the next day jalan raya with the zara people.
went to sch for lecture first,
and bummed out doing nothing at all till i met esther,
make me SOOOO angry .
trained to bedok to meet fizah.
i look sooo like a malay girl in the kebaya la!
to kak pah house, her son DARN CUTE and chubby
then to fizah's, and chisty's
and lastly, ifah's
i didnt realise how near to techno she stayed.
and the mee soto was YUMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMy!
i like ifa's mama's one better, but this was a close similarity.
stayed with her a little while longer,
and it sucked to see her down.
which reminds me how relationships could sometimes be an aimless fall to the bottom
where something you cannot control no matter how much you try,
because the other person aint making it possible,
or isnt giving you much to make it feel its worth it.
as much as i dont know if i can handle that kinda state of a relationship,
it would be nice to have just someone,
strong and patient enough to hang on,
to know its worth it, and let me know it is.
though if you'd ask me while would i prefer,
being alone, or facing problems in a relationship,
i cant decide.
facing problems should hurt more,
since the basis of a relationship should require already, feelings.
dont have to reach the love stage as yet,
just, feelings enough for you to highly consider.
and everytime it reaches close to make a decision,
a landslide washes it all away.
i'm the impatient soul, asking for you to be patient with me.
coz when i decide,
i'll make it last forever.
cross my heart, hope to die.
i'll make it all worth it if you are.
full afternoon full full afternoon.
terror shift.
friday off day, better rest first.
had lots of fun at choi's place.
I MISS THAT GIRL!
bumped into liting in the train, ruby hopped on later and to yo chu kang we went.
dee dee came later.
long walk in ah choi!
say so near. LOL.
first we got ready the bbq stuff
iron chef steph marinated the chicken.
liting and deedee did the egg mayo sandwiches
then we were talking in a way that had two meanings kinda,
especially when we were sticking sticks into the sotong balls and sausages.
stick it in more, if u know what i mean. :)
then to swimming we went!
*pictures to follow!
SELAMAT HARI RAYA!
so many customers piss me off ah.
so a point where i slammed down the phone on one
who made me waste time checking stock for her and take anew piece blazer,
only to say "its ok"
and another who i told my collegue in her face that 'she is very irritating'
dude she wanted to change a t-shirt she bought for 19.90 bcoz of i dont know what.
and she made me take out a million new pieces for her to chose the best,
but all not good enough, coz all had fold lines,
which according to her after stretching it abit, that its a different colour from the shirt.
so after 10 mins of the same arguement with my collegue i decided to offer to iron it.
so with the stem iron there were water spots.
THEN SHE SAID ITS OIL STAIN.
whatever whatever.
next time go giodarno ok.
but then got this indian customer say i pretty,
and that i have nice eyes.
wahh.
just after the bitch manager say im gonna be fat just coz she sees me in the office on break alot.
bitch bitch bitch!
then i had to husle to get my culinary stuff.
went to school in the morning for lecture which i missed 20 mins of.
darn nonsense lecture, accounts.
i think ever since i started work the second time my temper had become bad.
i get ticked off easily and im not afraid of showing it.
(which explains rightn now WHY IM NOT AFRAID TO SLAP YOUR FACE IF U TRY ANYTHING)
yes you, jaws.
i hate you for the shit youve said just to put pple down coz uve been put away.
yes, u are trash. YOU SHIT.
your the gum under my shoe.
you want to know who just ask
u think its u, come ask me.
if i slap u then u know CONFIRM u
anywayy, during lecture i had outburst of "faster!"
and after class i zoomed out and trained to outram.
decided to take a bus frm thre, but i got lost!
so end up, cab. PFFT.
then then while walking out the exit, and indian man was walking towards my direction,
he was on the phone,
and when he passes me, he pulled his phone away and said
"hi you look very beautiful"
i sombong him continue walking,
10 secs later i smiled
:)
i think only indians say i pretty
why ah
anyway, the only thing i was looking forward to the whole time was
RACHEL MERRIE CHONG'S 19TH BIRTHDAY!!
kumars it, then MOS!
she met me after work, we cabbed down.
met nao, in we go.
1-for-1 jugs pls!
kumar is getting hotter by the day.
she asked me, if i eurasian or malay.
wahh.
when she got off her first set, she touched my leg ah!
freaky.
but its nothing compared to her backup dancer squishing her boobies in my face.
fun yes?
timo eugene and pan came after,
another round of drinks.
and the saboing begins.
up on stage rachel!
not much action though.
but i must say, kumar has goooooood taste
she brought this ang mo guy up on stage,
HE'S OOZING HOTNESs.
but yeah, saboing didnt get that far,
rachel so defensive againt kumar.
and that chinese girl was too drunk that she was irritating!
margeritas for rachel, and waterfall!
oooh.
SHITLOADS OF PICTURE.
hawt ones ah.
(and they is all GONE NOW. GONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) :( :( :(
becoz someoneeeee accidentally deleted all.
i admit, I DARN SAD I TEARS WITH A MEGA WATT NEVER-SeEN-BEFORE pout
MOS we went, the boys left.
darn fun.
saw zul there, as always.
i miss this bald headed big eyed boy.
studio 54 crowd, not as good,
but i still like.
went home right before 4.
sure hope rachel have a ball!
next day, CULINARY CLASS
and timo decided to call me,
5 mins BEFORE calss started.
WAH DARN THANKS /
i just went back to slp
poor boy carried my knieve set to sch (and back)
HEH.
i quite bummed i missed lesson
but oh well.
even if i had made it, id be dead as a fish in class.
went for driving, which went well.
i think im getting the hang of it,
i cant bloody wait.
then training.
the next day jalan raya with the zara people.
went to sch for lecture first,
and bummed out doing nothing at all till i met esther,
make me SOOOO angry .
trained to bedok to meet fizah.
i look sooo like a malay girl in the kebaya la!
to kak pah house, her son DARN CUTE and chubby
then to fizah's, and chisty's
and lastly, ifah's
i didnt realise how near to techno she stayed.
and the mee soto was YUMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMy!
i like ifa's mama's one better, but this was a close similarity.
stayed with her a little while longer,
and it sucked to see her down.
which reminds me how relationships could sometimes be an aimless fall to the bottom
where something you cannot control no matter how much you try,
because the other person aint making it possible,
or isnt giving you much to make it feel its worth it.
as much as i dont know if i can handle that kinda state of a relationship,
it would be nice to have just someone,
strong and patient enough to hang on,
to know its worth it, and let me know it is.
though if you'd ask me while would i prefer,
being alone, or facing problems in a relationship,
i cant decide.
facing problems should hurt more,
since the basis of a relationship should require already, feelings.
dont have to reach the love stage as yet,
just, feelings enough for you to highly consider.
and everytime it reaches close to make a decision,
a landslide washes it all away.
i'm the impatient soul, asking for you to be patient with me.
coz when i decide,
i'll make it last forever.
cross my heart, hope to die.
i'll make it all worth it if you are.
Friday, October 20, 2006
what hurts the most
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do
It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' It
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that
I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken
And never knowing
What could have been
Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
mount e!
i'm sick!!
so mc work on monday.
shan dont believe me ah,
darn thanks.
i'm bloody coughing like an old lady
with a old record scratchy throat
and roller coaster fever.
sorry ah hat im more human then u .
went to tp to clear my insurance claim stuff.
i gotta remember to post out the original reciepts!!
argh.
then thought of going to training,
coz im really darn worried about my security of a position in the ips team .
esp with my not so regular attendence due to work commitments.
i really want to play, because i want to make a difference.
sigh.
dilema to train or not, my body really darn tired,
but no choice.
in the end lucky/unlucky training cancelled due to haze.
thursday i confirm cannot trian ill be at work.
so i really dont know how the selection would go .
it really depresses me that i cant do anything .
so to kfc with the girls to break fast .
sat with the girls and talk cock.
from sex to insertions to rings to condoms.
then shifted seats to outside kfc,
then to bubble tea shop .
darn fun.
if its one thing the cancellation brought,
it was time together for us to enjoy each others company.
its just been a long while.
at least especially for me who's somewhat evolved into an involunteery workholic.
on tuesday it was my formal off.
met ifah and her bf on the train
she help me chop seat.
ester was already at paya lebar.
geylang!! :) deng deng here i come!
the last time i went there with adi the deng deng not that good.
and i saw a damn terror rug !
like thick black border with animal prints,
fucking kinky!! I WANT!
and this time i couldnt find it!
ester bought a $10 kebaya. ifah a $60 after a looooong hunt.
she so different from work,
in front of her bf she so meragok.
but shes a girl with great substance and character.
very true to herself, which is great.
unlike ester,
who kept STEPPING ON MY FOOT!
and swinging her hair into my face!
ARGH!! :/
and again, the same person id bump into at geylang.
dearest ken .
unexpected, but yeah, it was good to see him,
even if it was for a glimpse.
id say it now, it took me a long while to decide if it was worth it,
and then get over the whole thing and he was the last thing on my mind.
but that was a long time ago .
a part of me still has a fixed mindset that he'll never get serious,
so just let go.
who knew that a glimpse could bring back so many things.
but then again i had a part to play,
i prolly demanded too much from him,
especially his time.
i still dont know if that was right or wrong,
but what the heck, its over, gone, kapooshit.
so sometimes its better to be alone,
but sometimes not.
indecisive now ah steph .
oh well, somethings are better left to rest.
anywayyyys. ikea was the initial plan,
but the kebaya hunt for ifah took too long,
so just straight to meet naomi at clarke quay,
then to mount e to see felix.
we first planned to pack him a happy meal with a toy and all,
but naomi's basket put together was lovely.
final touches included an overpriced rose,
and a cute lil sunshine card, which i wrote,
"dearest felix, sorry we didn't get you beer. READ ----->"
and it pointed to the 'get well soon' printed on the card.
sometimes i think we;re just darn cute.
we arrived to a sleeping felix with rachel sitting on his bedside,
and his mum worried in the corner,
i so can cry.
i'd never wanna be in her situation .
we girls then sat at the main area, eating and drinking and talking ,
then walked rachel out, then came back his parents went to eat.
then he woke up when the nurse came in to take his bp.
HI FELIX!! fiona xie is on tv! LOL .
poor boy. the op really took a toll on him,
and will continue to in the long run.
his crutches are EXTRA LONG. lol.
he cant even talk properly, he's sooooo drained from the morphine,
pukish without even eating yet.
and you know how fast that boy sweats up when its hot, and the place was darn stuffy .
i really hope he does get well soon.
his parents were worried sick. and can see the concern with the way they stroked his head and shoulders.
yes, its when you're vulnerable that you really know who are the realy people who care,
and would stay by your side.
which reminds me how much for the first time i saw my mum loved me when i was in hospital on my 16th .
how i long for that again.
oh well, i want to faster pass my driving,
then i can drive this poor princess around.
if he brave enough to sit my car la. HEH .
walked around town for abit with naomi,
waited for adi till 940.
went on to siglap cheesecake cafe, but closed.
jio charlotte along too.
i just had cheesecake cravings.
but starbucks packed,
anyway i remember they dont have cheesecake.
so to macs we sat!
talk talk talk talk talk talk.
adi brought cookies he made to let us try and grade.
cute, not bad actually.
just weirdly shaped.
then we sat at the park behind charlotte's house,
all the way till 140!
adi fell asleep ah!
but yes, it was just fun talking to charlotte,
its not often we get to talk,
but i really do enjoy talking to her,
she's so open to conversation, and shes a listening ear,
unlike adi the snorer.
adi sent me home, so tedah! here i am.
second time i wear skirt take bike ah,
darn thanks.
work tmr!
but dropping by to visit princess.
making him my get well soup!
thats if he can take it, STUPID MORPHINE!
ho hum.
forgive and forget,
it not, at least move on.
so mc work on monday.
shan dont believe me ah,
darn thanks.
i'm bloody coughing like an old lady
with a old record scratchy throat
and roller coaster fever.
sorry ah hat im more human then u .
went to tp to clear my insurance claim stuff.
i gotta remember to post out the original reciepts!!
argh.
then thought of going to training,
coz im really darn worried about my security of a position in the ips team .
esp with my not so regular attendence due to work commitments.
i really want to play, because i want to make a difference.
sigh.
dilema to train or not, my body really darn tired,
but no choice.
in the end lucky/unlucky training cancelled due to haze.
thursday i confirm cannot trian ill be at work.
so i really dont know how the selection would go .
it really depresses me that i cant do anything .
so to kfc with the girls to break fast .
sat with the girls and talk cock.
from sex to insertions to rings to condoms.
then shifted seats to outside kfc,
then to bubble tea shop .
darn fun.
if its one thing the cancellation brought,
it was time together for us to enjoy each others company.
its just been a long while.
at least especially for me who's somewhat evolved into an involunteery workholic.
on tuesday it was my formal off.
met ifah and her bf on the train
she help me chop seat.
ester was already at paya lebar.
geylang!! :) deng deng here i come!
the last time i went there with adi the deng deng not that good.
and i saw a damn terror rug !
like thick black border with animal prints,
fucking kinky!! I WANT!
and this time i couldnt find it!
ester bought a $10 kebaya. ifah a $60 after a looooong hunt.
she so different from work,
in front of her bf she so meragok.
but shes a girl with great substance and character.
very true to herself, which is great.
unlike ester,
who kept STEPPING ON MY FOOT!
and swinging her hair into my face!
ARGH!! :/
and again, the same person id bump into at geylang.
dearest ken .
unexpected, but yeah, it was good to see him,
even if it was for a glimpse.
id say it now, it took me a long while to decide if it was worth it,
and then get over the whole thing and he was the last thing on my mind.
but that was a long time ago .
a part of me still has a fixed mindset that he'll never get serious,
so just let go.
who knew that a glimpse could bring back so many things.
but then again i had a part to play,
i prolly demanded too much from him,
especially his time.
i still dont know if that was right or wrong,
but what the heck, its over, gone, kapooshit.
so sometimes its better to be alone,
but sometimes not.
indecisive now ah steph .
oh well, somethings are better left to rest.
anywayyyys. ikea was the initial plan,
but the kebaya hunt for ifah took too long,
so just straight to meet naomi at clarke quay,
then to mount e to see felix.
we first planned to pack him a happy meal with a toy and all,
but naomi's basket put together was lovely.
final touches included an overpriced rose,
and a cute lil sunshine card, which i wrote,
"dearest felix, sorry we didn't get you beer. READ ----->"
and it pointed to the 'get well soon' printed on the card.
sometimes i think we;re just darn cute.
we arrived to a sleeping felix with rachel sitting on his bedside,
and his mum worried in the corner,
i so can cry.
i'd never wanna be in her situation .
we girls then sat at the main area, eating and drinking and talking ,
then walked rachel out, then came back his parents went to eat.
then he woke up when the nurse came in to take his bp.
HI FELIX!! fiona xie is on tv! LOL .
poor boy. the op really took a toll on him,
and will continue to in the long run.
his crutches are EXTRA LONG. lol.
he cant even talk properly, he's sooooo drained from the morphine,
pukish without even eating yet.
and you know how fast that boy sweats up when its hot, and the place was darn stuffy .
i really hope he does get well soon.
his parents were worried sick. and can see the concern with the way they stroked his head and shoulders.
yes, its when you're vulnerable that you really know who are the realy people who care,
and would stay by your side.
which reminds me how much for the first time i saw my mum loved me when i was in hospital on my 16th .
how i long for that again.
oh well, i want to faster pass my driving,
then i can drive this poor princess around.
if he brave enough to sit my car la. HEH .
walked around town for abit with naomi,
waited for adi till 940.
went on to siglap cheesecake cafe, but closed.
jio charlotte along too.
i just had cheesecake cravings.
but starbucks packed,
anyway i remember they dont have cheesecake.
so to macs we sat!
talk talk talk talk talk talk.
adi brought cookies he made to let us try and grade.
cute, not bad actually.
just weirdly shaped.
then we sat at the park behind charlotte's house,
all the way till 140!
adi fell asleep ah!
but yes, it was just fun talking to charlotte,
its not often we get to talk,
but i really do enjoy talking to her,
she's so open to conversation, and shes a listening ear,
unlike adi the snorer.
adi sent me home, so tedah! here i am.
second time i wear skirt take bike ah,
darn thanks.
work tmr!
but dropping by to visit princess.
making him my get well soup!
thats if he can take it, STUPID MORPHINE!
ho hum.
forgive and forget,
it not, at least move on.
Monday, October 09, 2006
weekend
weeeekend.
friday full shift.
xian.
but i played x-men with this customer's kid.
he had alot of straws, he put between his fingers.
he think he wolverine.
so i take clip hanger ,and bazonker him.
hah hah .
then i wolverine him back with broken hangers.
and i bow and arrow him too.
fun la.
leen teaching him nonsense by diging her ass with the hanger!
he had toothpicks ah! he blew through the straw!
naughty boy names rusell.
but i still like the jap baby boy best.
he like, 2 yr old kind.
i clap clap my hands together he from darn far away,
RAN TO ME WITH THE BIGGEST SMILE ON HIS FACE,
arms lifted up.
he wanted to be carried ah!!
darn cute.
i want to steal .
as compared to the worse 3 monkeys to come with they expecting unshy mother.
they make darn alot of noise in the fitting room.
till one customer came out and shouted at them, they still continue,
and of corse the mother never say anything .
-_-"
looks like the closest id ever get to meeting the opposite gender,
are babies.
i'm not complaining,
they're adorable.
well, most of the time .
esp those mixed babies.
MOTHERFUckINGLY CUTE AH!
oops.
saturday morning shift.
thought want club after.
but thank you, havnt pay me yet!
and felicia very bad.
she made me feel bad the whole time thinking if i was at fault.
bad bad girl! :(
anyway, met naomi as planned.
missed the shuttle bus,
so we went the conventional way .
so to suntec to meet rachel and the boys.
wine fair they wanted to go .
dinner first at carl's jr.
bumped into paulo's family.
his youngest brother now very handsome.
and his mum was saying she opened a restuarant at lucky plaza!
yum! expect me there sometime soon! :)
filipino cuisine is YUMMY!
i miss paulo bear! he's always too busy .
so yes, narnsense talking over dinner.
darn funny.
sometimes i wished someone was contantly filming us and our nonsense.
it'll make a good sitcom cum documentary cum live version of f.r.i.e.n.d.s.
and so the indecisive people went to carrefour to see what we could buy .
in the end, ended up with anchor and tiger.
we look like drankards la, our basket all beer.
and i suggested, to top it all off and freak the cashiers out,
to take a shit load of condoms and dump it into the basket!
and even ask them if they had more.
it would have been darn funny ah.
so we walked out to esplanade to sit.
the haze is darn bad ah.
suddenly i have a strong love for the environment.
the boys as ususly, complaining about us girls wanting to take a loooong walk.
whiny the poops.
booze away! more narnsense talking .
needed to pee so wlaked back to esplanade.
me and rachel sabo naomi again, like in barks. LOL .
she was taking her pee when we threw a soaked tissue at her and rannnn out.
then we pretended that we were outside and that the lady inside did it.
but naomi just stormed out to the provision store where she wanted to get her nuts.
we hugged her from behind, and things were fine.
(we hoped) heh .
till she started throwing her kachang at us!
darn pain those nut bullets!
and it tastes like powder ah! -_-"
back to the boys and we had our little counterstrike with nuts.
we even tried throwing nuts at a empty can trying to knock it into the river.
then they played basket ball with me.
lets just say i ended up looking like a have nipples at my belly.
put two and two together.
and i fell ah! lol. i didnt see the step there.
it was darn stupid, somemoe i fell while i was dissing felix.
paiseh la.
last train home. and the ususal whinning about singlehood.
met the javin signh on the train .
well, that was it.
sunday,
afternoon shift,
started the day darn pissedly.
wanted to lunch with my mother.
so pick tiffy at church there.
already rushing for time, since work starts at 130 .
time was 1230 when we reached eastpoint.
then nvm no, she still want dilly dally.
i tahan abit, till she say "so annoying."
fuck i just lost it ah .
such a bitch. i'm sure if it was you, you would have reacted worse!
this is was i mean that people dont appreciate my efforts of making time with them.
nor do they consider my feelings with the things they do or say .
so much so that sometimes i wished the same day i'd die.
so at least id leave them with guilt for the rest of their fucking lives.
chee bai.
and worse of all, my mum didnt call me to ask why i left.
i wish she had coz i knew exactly what i wanted to say,
"YOUR FAVOURITE DAUGHTER IS A BITCH, thats why"
and the sad thing is, i'll alway lose,
because i always come in second place when it comes to my sister,
or last with sisters.
whatever, i don't know how to suck up as greatly as you .SORRAY.
anyway so met fizah on the train to o together .
work was alright.
A SMALL GIRL WAS DARN CUTE!
she in her prem i like play play with her,
she ignore me, nvm. i went back to do my stuff.
then she put out her hand, and said, "COME!"
LOL so cute! small fingers!
and she kissed me ah! on my cheek!
i also want to steal!
sales was bad.
even kids and mens were better.
i think the haze is reallllly a bitch .
monday off so driving at 1020 first.
went alright. close to completing my module one.
then to shimo's! to hang out with her and her bf,
aka my owners.
(my whole long story abt how i'm their cat!)
they prepared a play pen for me!!
got a matress and toys on it!
how cute is that!
ill scan it soon!
heh.
brought dvds. we watched the devil wears prada
over ice cream, pudding and MIRANDA orange.
and wasibi chips which they cannot tahan! lol.
well, i left the peas for timo, hes the only champion who can handle them with TLC.
while watching tom and jerry, which was darn funny,
we all fell asleep! lol.
coz i was laughing ot myself suddenly and i saw that shimo had her eyes shut,
so i had mine too, after popiahing myself in the comforter.
next thing i know, 520! :)
just nice to get redy to leave for training.
day 1 of fitness again.
but lucky syah had us easy.
training not that bad.
i realise that im somehow informally unallowed to play in the centre
coz i just never get the chance to .
sad.
after training, showered and dinner with naomi, shimo, hannan, feeeelix and jasomething.
cant spell his name. heh.
at habibie.
then bus home.
and i missed greys anotomy! :(
oh well .
its a danm tight budget week !
with my concession expired, exlink on low balance,
contacts unclaimed and half unpaid for.
and still no pay.
butoooooh!
uploaded pics in previous entry!!!
there's gotta be a heaven somewhere.
friday full shift.
xian.
but i played x-men with this customer's kid.
he had alot of straws, he put between his fingers.
he think he wolverine.
so i take clip hanger ,and bazonker him.
hah hah .
then i wolverine him back with broken hangers.
and i bow and arrow him too.
fun la.
leen teaching him nonsense by diging her ass with the hanger!
he had toothpicks ah! he blew through the straw!
naughty boy names rusell.
but i still like the jap baby boy best.
he like, 2 yr old kind.
i clap clap my hands together he from darn far away,
RAN TO ME WITH THE BIGGEST SMILE ON HIS FACE,
arms lifted up.
he wanted to be carried ah!!
darn cute.
i want to steal .
as compared to the worse 3 monkeys to come with they expecting unshy mother.
they make darn alot of noise in the fitting room.
till one customer came out and shouted at them, they still continue,
and of corse the mother never say anything .
-_-"
looks like the closest id ever get to meeting the opposite gender,
are babies.
i'm not complaining,
they're adorable.
well, most of the time .
esp those mixed babies.
MOTHERFUckINGLY CUTE AH!
oops.
saturday morning shift.
thought want club after.
but thank you, havnt pay me yet!
and felicia very bad.
she made me feel bad the whole time thinking if i was at fault.
bad bad girl! :(
anyway, met naomi as planned.
missed the shuttle bus,
so we went the conventional way .
so to suntec to meet rachel and the boys.
wine fair they wanted to go .
dinner first at carl's jr.
bumped into paulo's family.
his youngest brother now very handsome.
and his mum was saying she opened a restuarant at lucky plaza!
yum! expect me there sometime soon! :)
filipino cuisine is YUMMY!
i miss paulo bear! he's always too busy .
so yes, narnsense talking over dinner.
darn funny.
sometimes i wished someone was contantly filming us and our nonsense.
it'll make a good sitcom cum documentary cum live version of f.r.i.e.n.d.s.
and so the indecisive people went to carrefour to see what we could buy .
in the end, ended up with anchor and tiger.
we look like drankards la, our basket all beer.
and i suggested, to top it all off and freak the cashiers out,
to take a shit load of condoms and dump it into the basket!
and even ask them if they had more.
it would have been darn funny ah.
so we walked out to esplanade to sit.
the haze is darn bad ah.
suddenly i have a strong love for the environment.
the boys as ususly, complaining about us girls wanting to take a loooong walk.
whiny the poops.
booze away! more narnsense talking .
needed to pee so wlaked back to esplanade.
me and rachel sabo naomi again, like in barks. LOL .
she was taking her pee when we threw a soaked tissue at her and rannnn out.
then we pretended that we were outside and that the lady inside did it.
but naomi just stormed out to the provision store where she wanted to get her nuts.
we hugged her from behind, and things were fine.
(we hoped) heh .
till she started throwing her kachang at us!
darn pain those nut bullets!
and it tastes like powder ah! -_-"
back to the boys and we had our little counterstrike with nuts.
we even tried throwing nuts at a empty can trying to knock it into the river.
then they played basket ball with me.
lets just say i ended up looking like a have nipples at my belly.
put two and two together.
and i fell ah! lol. i didnt see the step there.
it was darn stupid, somemoe i fell while i was dissing felix.
paiseh la.
last train home. and the ususal whinning about singlehood.
met the javin signh on the train .
well, that was it.
sunday,
afternoon shift,
started the day darn pissedly.
wanted to lunch with my mother.
so pick tiffy at church there.
already rushing for time, since work starts at 130 .
time was 1230 when we reached eastpoint.
then nvm no, she still want dilly dally.
i tahan abit, till she say "so annoying."
fuck i just lost it ah .
such a bitch. i'm sure if it was you, you would have reacted worse!
this is was i mean that people dont appreciate my efforts of making time with them.
nor do they consider my feelings with the things they do or say .
so much so that sometimes i wished the same day i'd die.
so at least id leave them with guilt for the rest of their fucking lives.
chee bai.
and worse of all, my mum didnt call me to ask why i left.
i wish she had coz i knew exactly what i wanted to say,
"YOUR FAVOURITE DAUGHTER IS A BITCH, thats why"
and the sad thing is, i'll alway lose,
because i always come in second place when it comes to my sister,
or last with sisters.
whatever, i don't know how to suck up as greatly as you .SORRAY.
anyway so met fizah on the train to o together .
work was alright.
A SMALL GIRL WAS DARN CUTE!
she in her prem i like play play with her,
she ignore me, nvm. i went back to do my stuff.
then she put out her hand, and said, "COME!"
LOL so cute! small fingers!
and she kissed me ah! on my cheek!
i also want to steal!
sales was bad.
even kids and mens were better.
i think the haze is reallllly a bitch .
monday off so driving at 1020 first.
went alright. close to completing my module one.
then to shimo's! to hang out with her and her bf,
aka my owners.
(my whole long story abt how i'm their cat!)
they prepared a play pen for me!!
got a matress and toys on it!
how cute is that!
ill scan it soon!
heh.
brought dvds. we watched the devil wears prada
over ice cream, pudding and MIRANDA orange.
and wasibi chips which they cannot tahan! lol.
well, i left the peas for timo, hes the only champion who can handle them with TLC.
while watching tom and jerry, which was darn funny,
we all fell asleep! lol.
coz i was laughing ot myself suddenly and i saw that shimo had her eyes shut,
so i had mine too, after popiahing myself in the comforter.
next thing i know, 520! :)
just nice to get redy to leave for training.
day 1 of fitness again.
but lucky syah had us easy.
training not that bad.
i realise that im somehow informally unallowed to play in the centre
coz i just never get the chance to .
sad.
after training, showered and dinner with naomi, shimo, hannan, feeeelix and jasomething.
cant spell his name. heh.
at habibie.
then bus home.
and i missed greys anotomy! :(
oh well .
its a danm tight budget week !
with my concession expired, exlink on low balance,
contacts unclaimed and half unpaid for.
and still no pay.
butoooooh!
uploaded pics in previous entry!!!
there's gotta be a heaven somewhere.
Thursday, October 05, 2006
dee 21st!
work has been, long.
maybe its because my off days are for things to be done.
not to rest.
thats why im always so worn out,
at the end of every week, everyday.
I PASSED MY ADVANCE THEORY!
on my first try!
wee!
actually quite easy. and the questions are smart.
makes u think of what u SHOULD do,
not what u THINK is right.
nvm .
but wee!
and my pays not in yet.
so i cant make more bookings.
not as if our time table it out also.
but i didnt know princess and agnes has alot of slots .
boo.
bummed out la, but what for la hor.
not say my father want to pay for me so i have to work for it.
he smart, dont want me drive his car.
but when i can, he cant stop me
heh heh .
met bobby at the kopitiam there awhile,
he kuku walk in and our of camp twice to buy drink,
coz i missed him the first time round.
kway chap with felix,
darn full.
bus to bedok and had yummy goreng pisang,
(i'm a goreng pisang bitch)
plus sugar cane.
somehow i miss seah im .
nvm, soon soon when school starts.
this the first time i actually took for myself to rest.
catch up on some sleep.
first time in a long time i slept like a baby when i got home at 5 from the centre.
forced myself to wake up if not at night cannot sleep .
the girls training today for saturdays game.
i really no energy to train.
plus tmr full followed by morning shift.
talk abt no rest. :/
this saturday for 3rd and 4th placing.
against UWC.
it seems only months ago when we played our first NTL,
when i just joined n 2005.
and a year later,
this is how far we've come.
a team with blood sweat and tears,
in good standings in the league,
with an awesome season and awesome blooming of leaders, teamates and friends.
yes, we've come so far.
more to come with upcoming competitions,
all asian schools, oasis touch, IVPs.
well, its not alot i get to be proud of,
and saying how much i take pride in the team and the sport,
is an understatement.
i wanna take up more other sports.
golf, wakeboarding, kickboxing.
takers?
anyway,
HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY DEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!
hope you had a blast on your first day of 'freedom'
heh.
so myself and shimo made the plans.
to go sakura at eastpoint at 615 for dinner with miss birthday.
then last monute change of plans while i was at the driving centre.
and missy shimo was smsing dee's old number.
so she didnt get updated plans.
so while we were heading to sakura downtown at 630,
dee was already at eastpoint.
LOL.
they arrived first,
i second at like close to 7.
ate and ate and ate! :)
the food quality defnately went down!
anyway dee opened the gift myself, shimo, hannan and lu shared for her,
a key pendants necklace! wee .
plus the 20 red roses and 1 purple one.
ate ate ate ate.
first time ever i gave up fast at a buffet.
sub concious guilt of the tummy .
3 different waiters wanted to clear dee's undone plate.
it was quite funny.
too efficient? heh, right.
moving on to desert.
we pilled up on the bite size cakes.
then shimo and dee went back for fruits.
whilei took out the candle shimo brought.
so when they came back i fast handedly put the candle in,
thats when the lighter played me out. dang.
so just ask dee close her eyes.
lit the thing and me and shimo went mad taking pictures.
DARN CUTE! i'll get hold of them soon.
and what a better way to top of a 21st birthday,
other then going to ak umar show!! :)
last minute plan to watch kumar at chinaone.
since rach got us a table there already .
extremely the last minute.
shimo refused to wear slippers there,
so we went to hers first so she could wear he spanking white heals.
then we cabbed there, and picked rachel on the way .
marli was joining us too, frm her training at padang.
but detour to home to get changed.
met naomi. waited for kumar. frm 10 wait till 1030.
marli came with sujan,
finally started. but the dj play wrong song, so he/she still not yet come out.
she came out to rhianna's unfaithful.
drag sia! long time no see!
her crew cannot make it.
one too fat, one too guy, one too horse ugly,
even kumar said so.
i swear he and russel peters should have a battle.
darn racists.
first half was not bad, during the break one jug of ours already empty.
darn thanks la rachel!
2nd set, sabo time!
dee up on stage!
yeah!
:) funny la.
shall not say much, picutre speaks a thousand words,
what abt videos? HAHA!
and a guy tried to pick me up ah!
Guy : "are you really paying attention to this shit"
Steph:" yeah, coz its my friend up there! her 21st! :) "
Guy : "oh shit, that young?"
Steph:"ha, well, I'M YOUNGER"
Guy : " OH SHIT, i better stay away from this table then"
ye, go, shoo!
balding muthafarker.
end of set, needed to peee!
took rachel with us whose forehead kissed the table all through the second set ah.
and while me and naomi were heading out,
someone had to puke know. suddenly of a sudden.
at the entrace.
the bouncers face fucking funny.
priceless. like
"oh no, she didnt, darn. she did, no. dang!"
hahah!
a few steps later, again ah rachel!
mee siam you ate.
bringing her into the toilet baddd idea.
she sat her ass down, and kept saying 2 mins later she'll go.
after water she'll go.
NO AH! one hour later then.
after much persuasion from audrey, her sister and another rachel.
darn funny la. eurasian cheesiness.
rachel's adress was written on andrea's hand in eyeliner ah!
she also abit gone.
and they is all going go home together.
LOL .
naomi and myself still could play tic tac toe on her back! :)
and i sooooooooooooooo beat her.
audrey wrote a HUGE rachel rocks my socks.
and our names on her back .
lol! cool la, ang kong siao.
an hour later, we walked her out to a cab at mos there.
and to think that girl actually throughout asked us to go ahead first.
dude.
we is no leave you behind love.
not especially if you're a cow.
a drunk one at that.
cow, no cow, drunk no drunk.
steph is love you .
so dont stupid and ask us to leaveeeeeeeeee again next time .
then to mos.
met naomi's ex.
couldnt picture them together
but he's a kind person .
very nice boy.
mos was just alright.
the music sucks at all the rooms.
2 indian guys tried to dance with us.
quite a few scc boys were there.
my feet were killing me.
mos is getting boring .
i is need find good place.
studio 54 is gooood.
the dj quite cute.
the crowd could have been better!
picturesssss!!
naomi lee pui san's gorgeous!
and he ex bf got us one last drink before hitting the clubb.
STUDIO 54 is lovvvvvvvve!
end of the night, i cabbed home myself.
it just would be nice to have someone to come home to,
and cuddle and drown with kisses till i fall asleep.
more importantly,
someone who'll just be by me.
to hear me whine and bitch and complain and nag and talk .
i'm soooo tired nowadays,
i dont even know where my head is sometimes.
when i dont have the time, i make time.
just make effort to show me, you know i am trying .
coz i know what's worth my time and effort.
just let me know, i am too.
to my future boyfriend/husband/soulmate
FASTER FIND ME la.
i've forgotten how love feels like.
maybe its because my off days are for things to be done.
not to rest.
thats why im always so worn out,
at the end of every week, everyday.
I PASSED MY ADVANCE THEORY!
on my first try!
wee!
actually quite easy. and the questions are smart.
makes u think of what u SHOULD do,
not what u THINK is right.
nvm .
but wee!
and my pays not in yet.
so i cant make more bookings.
not as if our time table it out also.
but i didnt know princess and agnes has alot of slots .
boo.
bummed out la, but what for la hor.
not say my father want to pay for me so i have to work for it.
he smart, dont want me drive his car.
but when i can, he cant stop me
heh heh .
met bobby at the kopitiam there awhile,
he kuku walk in and our of camp twice to buy drink,
coz i missed him the first time round.
kway chap with felix,
darn full.
bus to bedok and had yummy goreng pisang,
(i'm a goreng pisang bitch)
plus sugar cane.
somehow i miss seah im .
nvm, soon soon when school starts.
this the first time i actually took for myself to rest.
catch up on some sleep.
first time in a long time i slept like a baby when i got home at 5 from the centre.
forced myself to wake up if not at night cannot sleep .
the girls training today for saturdays game.
i really no energy to train.
plus tmr full followed by morning shift.
talk abt no rest. :/
this saturday for 3rd and 4th placing.
against UWC.
it seems only months ago when we played our first NTL,
when i just joined n 2005.
and a year later,
this is how far we've come.
a team with blood sweat and tears,
in good standings in the league,
with an awesome season and awesome blooming of leaders, teamates and friends.
yes, we've come so far.
more to come with upcoming competitions,
all asian schools, oasis touch, IVPs.
well, its not alot i get to be proud of,
and saying how much i take pride in the team and the sport,
is an understatement.
i wanna take up more other sports.
golf, wakeboarding, kickboxing.
takers?
anyway,
HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY DEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!
hope you had a blast on your first day of 'freedom'
heh.
so myself and shimo made the plans.
to go sakura at eastpoint at 615 for dinner with miss birthday.
then last monute change of plans while i was at the driving centre.
and missy shimo was smsing dee's old number.
so she didnt get updated plans.
so while we were heading to sakura downtown at 630,
dee was already at eastpoint.
LOL.
they arrived first,
i second at like close to 7.
ate and ate and ate! :)
the food quality defnately went down!
anyway dee opened the gift myself, shimo, hannan and lu shared for her,
a key pendants necklace! wee .
plus the 20 red roses and 1 purple one.
ate ate ate ate.
first time ever i gave up fast at a buffet.
sub concious guilt of the tummy .
3 different waiters wanted to clear dee's undone plate.
it was quite funny.
too efficient? heh, right.
moving on to desert.
we pilled up on the bite size cakes.
then shimo and dee went back for fruits.
whilei took out the candle shimo brought.
so when they came back i fast handedly put the candle in,
thats when the lighter played me out. dang.
so just ask dee close her eyes.
lit the thing and me and shimo went mad taking pictures.
DARN CUTE! i'll get hold of them soon.
and what a better way to top of a 21st birthday,
other then going to ak umar show!! :)
last minute plan to watch kumar at chinaone.
since rach got us a table there already .
extremely the last minute.
shimo refused to wear slippers there,
so we went to hers first so she could wear he spanking white heals.
then we cabbed there, and picked rachel on the way .
marli was joining us too, frm her training at padang.
but detour to home to get changed.
met naomi. waited for kumar. frm 10 wait till 1030.
marli came with sujan,
finally started. but the dj play wrong song, so he/she still not yet come out.
she came out to rhianna's unfaithful.
drag sia! long time no see!
her crew cannot make it.
one too fat, one too guy, one too horse ugly,
even kumar said so.
i swear he and russel peters should have a battle.
darn racists.
first half was not bad, during the break one jug of ours already empty.
darn thanks la rachel!
2nd set, sabo time!
dee up on stage!
yeah!
:) funny la.
shall not say much, picutre speaks a thousand words,
what abt videos? HAHA!
and a guy tried to pick me up ah!
Guy : "are you really paying attention to this shit"
Steph:" yeah, coz its my friend up there! her 21st! :) "
Guy : "oh shit, that young?"
Steph:"ha, well, I'M YOUNGER"
Guy : " OH SHIT, i better stay away from this table then"
ye, go, shoo!
balding muthafarker.
end of set, needed to peee!
took rachel with us whose forehead kissed the table all through the second set ah.
and while me and naomi were heading out,
someone had to puke know. suddenly of a sudden.
at the entrace.
the bouncers face fucking funny.
priceless. like
"oh no, she didnt, darn. she did, no. dang!"
hahah!
a few steps later, again ah rachel!
mee siam you ate.
bringing her into the toilet baddd idea.
she sat her ass down, and kept saying 2 mins later she'll go.
after water she'll go.
NO AH! one hour later then.
after much persuasion from audrey, her sister and another rachel.
darn funny la. eurasian cheesiness.
rachel's adress was written on andrea's hand in eyeliner ah!
she also abit gone.
and they is all going go home together.
LOL .
naomi and myself still could play tic tac toe on her back! :)
and i sooooooooooooooo beat her.
audrey wrote a HUGE rachel rocks my socks.
and our names on her back .
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lol! cool la, ang kong siao.
an hour later, we walked her out to a cab at mos there.
and to think that girl actually throughout asked us to go ahead first.
dude.
we is no leave you behind love.
not especially if you're a cow.
a drunk one at that.
cow, no cow, drunk no drunk.
steph is love you .
so dont stupid and ask us to leaveeeeeeeeee again next time .
then to mos.
met naomi's ex.
couldnt picture them together
but he's a kind person .
very nice boy.
mos was just alright.
the music sucks at all the rooms.
2 indian guys tried to dance with us.
quite a few scc boys were there.
my feet were killing me.
mos is getting boring .
i is need find good place.
studio 54 is gooood.
the dj quite cute.
the crowd could have been better!
picturesssss!!
naomi lee pui san's gorgeous!
and he ex bf got us one last drink before hitting the clubb.
STUDIO 54 is lovvvvvvvve!
end of the night, i cabbed home myself.
it just would be nice to have someone to come home to,
and cuddle and drown with kisses till i fall asleep.
more importantly,
someone who'll just be by me.
to hear me whine and bitch and complain and nag and talk .
i'm soooo tired nowadays,
i dont even know where my head is sometimes.
when i dont have the time, i make time.
just make effort to show me, you know i am trying .
coz i know what's worth my time and effort.
just let me know, i am too.
to my future boyfriend/husband/soulmate
FASTER FIND ME la.
i've forgotten how love feels like.
Saturday, September 23, 2006
my love
If I wrote you a symphony,
Just to say how much you mean to me
What would you do?
If I told you, you were beautiful
Would you date me on the regular?
Tell me would you?
Because, I can see us holding hands
Walking on the beach, our toes in the sand
I can see us on the country side
Sitting in the grass laying side by side
You can be my baby
You amaze me
Ain't gotta do nothin crazy
See all I want you to do is be my love
Now If I wrote you a love note
And make you smile with every word I wrote
What would you do?
Friday, September 22, 2006
mossss
mos has been like my haunt.
havnt been able to update about the last time i've been there.
which was siti k's surprise birthday on the 2nd of sept.
sheema picked me, and we picked marli and sujan.
it was their SUSPENDER party! heh.
i didnt have one, initially, coz i not SRC crew. boo.
ad, her aunt and couz was there.
anne goh, adi, alan, src pple and other rugby pple.
main arena was packed, and i swear there was racial segretion.
like the 2nd floor was the ang mo area. oh hum .
not bad crowd.
to smoove though the music was GROSS.
where is the love? some kinda superstar. EWW.
went to house section at main arena, and i swear im startin to like it.
mad dancing.
went back to smoove and it still was boring!
decided to get tenquila pops, 1-for-1.
by the time i popped one and downed it, there was a raid.
thanks la.
45 mins of bright lights .
as soon as the lights went out, everyone shouted.
and I'M BRINGING SEXY BACK!
awesome line up of songs all the way after!
london bridge, buttons etc etc.
DARN FUN!
i borrowed ad's suspenders
most fun was when i challenged alan.
he kept dancing and pulling the suspenders over his head.
so i challenged him to see who can pull higher. HEH !
and yes, the taller dude won, DUH.
though i was good competition. nly my skirt was getting higher and higer.
then we challenged, who can hook the most number of people! :)
he had 5. i think me too.
only that he took all the skinny people and still could have gone on,
i couldnt coz the suspenders clipped off of my skirt and smacked sheema and adi.
OH DEAR!
danced the night away.
and who else appeared but zul! again.
went to 54 with adi to hunt abdul down. WEEE
young hearts, run free!
mad dancing there. suspenders make u feel sexy i swear.
i saw hiM! weee! but he was already sloshed, so forget it.
went back to smoove.
danced abit more.
and ah, throughout the whole night ah,
there was this SOMEONE who kept trying to dance with me.
i couldnt tell if it was a he or she.
but she kept looking at me, or he. OH MY.
and ad just kept sheidling me away.
danced with alan. then zul
and that person actually went to touch zul's bald head
omg the traumatic look on his face!
but ya! throughout the whole night!
ok it was abit of a complement or flattery,
but it got a lil awkward.
bumped into someone who was initially alright,
till he said he was going home but he went to drank abit more
then he kinda forced himself on me as i was leaving.
i felt so violated.
maybe so because i know him and know people who know him
or that he was drunk when he did it,
or the act of forcing itself.
too bad i was too short and all i could do was push his face.
what better way to end ending the awesome night.
PFFT.
and wednesday night was fun!
well the crowd was shitty, but we had our fun.
pre drinking on the bridge first. felix and his first gulp.
present was him, me, naomi, rachel and lu.
after we finished the bottle,
i just had to do it again.
so i wrote your name in it,
and threw it into the ocean. (river actaully, lol)
and 2 secs later, the boat came frm below the bridge!!!
any later, people would have died dude. :
then mos here we come!
loving the camera at the entrance,
free photos what, so we take like mad.
but i like this the most.
to studio 54 it was! chilling, and more pictures!
agnes was there too!
lu left to meet the rest at cube for drinks.
i love studio 54!
anyway, just got this black dress from zara. after work.
was with sam from there, and she dissappeared.
oh well.
and yes, my shoes from novo.
$100 damage ple.
and of corse, my bandage for the stitches. HEH.
mad photos with mad people.
went to smoove and we decided that we just wernt high enough .
so king albert scotch had to do.
back to the bridge!
and yes.
we couldnt finish. and i had a lovely chat with rachel .
with her i feel i could say things without anyone judging.
anyway, house, rnb, old school
we were all over mos.
naomi and i went to house,
and 2 hot dudes tried to dance with us,
and naomi, who's face constantly flashed on the screen with the oval,
coz she's miss gorgeous,
ignored them.
:/ fine.
to smoove, then 54!
my favourite.
the whole dance floor to us! WOOOO HOOOO!
blame it on the boogie.
then naomi whined about the 2 dudes, DUDE!
pfffffffffffft.
and while walking to take a seat, i tripped over a stool ah!!
omg FELL ON MY KNEE!
thanks gawd it was still in one piece.
ended off the night at house on the podium .
mad shitheads dancing their arses off.
went outside, to find again our merlion .
goodness girl.
WE FORBID YOU TO DRINK THIS MUCH AGAIN.
tsk .
anyway mos is getting from old to older news.
the crowd is getting bad.
i need to find a good place
with good people.
then i can sing the janet jackson song la.
maybe we'll meet at the bar,
he'll drive a funky car,
i'll be the girl of his dreams,
MAYBE.
wah what only.
havnt been able to update about the last time i've been there.
which was siti k's surprise birthday on the 2nd of sept.
sheema picked me, and we picked marli and sujan.
it was their SUSPENDER party! heh.
i didnt have one, initially, coz i not SRC crew. boo.
ad, her aunt and couz was there.
anne goh, adi, alan, src pple and other rugby pple.
main arena was packed, and i swear there was racial segretion.
like the 2nd floor was the ang mo area. oh hum .
not bad crowd.
to smoove though the music was GROSS.
where is the love? some kinda superstar. EWW.
went to house section at main arena, and i swear im startin to like it.
mad dancing.
went back to smoove and it still was boring!
decided to get tenquila pops, 1-for-1.
by the time i popped one and downed it, there was a raid.
thanks la.
45 mins of bright lights .
as soon as the lights went out, everyone shouted.
and I'M BRINGING SEXY BACK!
awesome line up of songs all the way after!
london bridge, buttons etc etc.
DARN FUN!
i borrowed ad's suspenders
most fun was when i challenged alan.
he kept dancing and pulling the suspenders over his head.
so i challenged him to see who can pull higher. HEH !
and yes, the taller dude won, DUH.
though i was good competition. nly my skirt was getting higher and higer.
then we challenged, who can hook the most number of people! :)
he had 5. i think me too.
only that he took all the skinny people and still could have gone on,
i couldnt coz the suspenders clipped off of my skirt and smacked sheema and adi.
OH DEAR!
danced the night away.
and who else appeared but zul! again.
went to 54 with adi to hunt abdul down. WEEE
young hearts, run free!
mad dancing there. suspenders make u feel sexy i swear.
i saw hiM! weee! but he was already sloshed, so forget it.
went back to smoove.
danced abit more.
and ah, throughout the whole night ah,
there was this SOMEONE who kept trying to dance with me.
i couldnt tell if it was a he or she.
but she kept looking at me, or he. OH MY.
and ad just kept sheidling me away.
danced with alan. then zul
and that person actually went to touch zul's bald head
omg the traumatic look on his face!
but ya! throughout the whole night!
ok it was abit of a complement or flattery,
but it got a lil awkward.
bumped into someone who was initially alright,
till he said he was going home but he went to drank abit more
then he kinda forced himself on me as i was leaving.
i felt so violated.
maybe so because i know him and know people who know him
or that he was drunk when he did it,
or the act of forcing itself.
too bad i was too short and all i could do was push his face.
what better way to end ending the awesome night.
PFFT.
and wednesday night was fun!
well the crowd was shitty, but we had our fun.
pre drinking on the bridge first. felix and his first gulp.
present was him, me, naomi, rachel and lu.
after we finished the bottle,
i just had to do it again.
so i wrote your name in it,
and threw it into the ocean. (river actaully, lol)
and 2 secs later, the boat came frm below the bridge!!!
any later, people would have died dude. :
then mos here we come!
loving the camera at the entrance,
free photos what, so we take like mad.
but i like this the most.
to studio 54 it was! chilling, and more pictures!
agnes was there too!
lu left to meet the rest at cube for drinks.
i love studio 54!
anyway, just got this black dress from zara. after work.
was with sam from there, and she dissappeared.
oh well.
and yes, my shoes from novo.
$100 damage ple.
and of corse, my bandage for the stitches. HEH.
mad photos with mad people.
went to smoove and we decided that we just wernt high enough .
so king albert scotch had to do.
back to the bridge!
and yes.
we couldnt finish. and i had a lovely chat with rachel .
with her i feel i could say things without anyone judging.
anyway, house, rnb, old school
we were all over mos.
naomi and i went to house,
and 2 hot dudes tried to dance with us,
and naomi, who's face constantly flashed on the screen with the oval,
coz she's miss gorgeous,
ignored them.
:/ fine.
to smoove, then 54!
my favourite.
the whole dance floor to us! WOOOO HOOOO!
blame it on the boogie.
then naomi whined about the 2 dudes, DUDE!
pfffffffffffft.
and while walking to take a seat, i tripped over a stool ah!!
omg FELL ON MY KNEE!
thanks gawd it was still in one piece.
ended off the night at house on the podium .
mad shitheads dancing their arses off.
went outside, to find again our merlion .
goodness girl.
WE FORBID YOU TO DRINK THIS MUCH AGAIN.
tsk .
anyway mos is getting from old to older news.
the crowd is getting bad.
i need to find a good place
with good people.
then i can sing the janet jackson song la.
maybe we'll meet at the bar,
he'll drive a funky car,
i'll be the girl of his dreams,
MAYBE.
wah what only.
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
stitched
finally i get an off yesterday!
and YES monday.
means RUGBY DAY!
went early, met lu at the bus stop with plans to gym
she got mea red bull
so tweet.
by the time we got to school,
we didnt gy,
instead we did 1 and 2 with zaki, alan and char.
by 6++ warm up game, then warm up as usual.
lateral passes and then working on defence.
so had to have live crashing attack.
and after a few rounds,
i went to take a touch a suria, when i somehow tripped over he boot while splitting to the side.
and i flew forward on all fours.
went again towards the side of the feild,
till nurul said stop,
"clean that off first, at the boot scrub"
i looked down. OMFG!!
blood till my socks!
i ran to the toilet, knowing full well the bootscrub water was leftover rainwater -_-"
by then the blood reached my boots.
plonked my thunder thigh onto the sink while splashing water onto my wound.
i could have pissed myself with the sound of the water.
i still didnt even feel pain.
had to squeeze the cut together so i could use the twisers to remove 2 impalled grass blades in it.
ive never seen vie freak out like this ever.
and i remembered how haha said she doesnt like talking in toilets coz of germs.
heh .
anyway ruby was a darling who kept helping me wash and apply cream and all.
the bleeding stopped, i sat at the side while they did drills.
marli thought i fell on my own, the clumsy style-a-way.
after that they did a try-line defence drill kinda thing.
thats when i joined in,
after the lovely haha bandanged my wound up tight tightly.
even got to play in the 10 mins of game after, weee!
oh well, thurs im not able to make training.
got chance i wont get to play on sat though ive got off.
PFFFT.
and someone kinda ruffled my feathers.
but i wont say much, due to the fact that ive gotten over it,
and i know where my time and effort should be invested in now.
i wont say as much about it, if not itd just be on the same level.
mummy came to pick me up,
and she says need stitches.
i know she means well, but could she have spoken to me better?
like as if i want to fall and want to have this cut and want to have an ugly scar.
though i still doubt it needs stitches.
what do u think?
got to the hospital by 10.
i swear its not me knee that needs stitches,
its my heart.
never have i felt much coldness before.
and i still dont comprehend why hospitals paint their walls green.
like those sickly green when they are suppose to make people feel, unsickly.
first i had to take some anti-rust jab
which i swear the nurse just jabbed my muscle or something, it still hurts BTW .
then to the operation theathre to wait.
mummy went to floss her teeth. thanks la. left me alone.
so i made friends with an indian uncle who was waiting to get stitched also
only thing is he was still bleeding!
ok so yes. long wait.
and OMFG. the anasthetic was BLOODY PAINFUL LA.
i swear the needle prolly extended to the core of my knee on the cut itself :(
darn pain .
and he could still use the needle to poke poke my leg to test if it hurts.
it didnt but NEED YOU DO THAT!
and i swear when he snipped that bit of skin off blood squirted,
not that i saw, but after it was done, i saw a blood line. heh.
didnt feel much, but i could feel when he thugged on the thread.
6 stitches! gawd
bride of frenkenstien!
yes children. be kind to your knees,
ud never know when you're going to miss them.
its so freaaaaaaaaakin hard to walk when this knee.
always at the back of my mind im soooo afraid to rip my stitches.
SO SO AFRAID.
next day working full shift somemore.
wednesday clubbing somemore.
terror.
take care knee!
and stephaknee.
thankew to the concerned people!
made everything a lil less painful and barable.
and YES monday.
means RUGBY DAY!
went early, met lu at the bus stop with plans to gym
she got mea red bull
so tweet.
by the time we got to school,
we didnt gy,
instead we did 1 and 2 with zaki, alan and char.
by 6++ warm up game, then warm up as usual.
lateral passes and then working on defence.
so had to have live crashing attack.
and after a few rounds,
i went to take a touch a suria, when i somehow tripped over he boot while splitting to the side.
and i flew forward on all fours.
went again towards the side of the feild,
till nurul said stop,
"clean that off first, at the boot scrub"
i looked down. OMFG!!
blood till my socks!
i ran to the toilet, knowing full well the bootscrub water was leftover rainwater -_-"
by then the blood reached my boots.
plonked my thunder thigh onto the sink while splashing water onto my wound.
i could have pissed myself with the sound of the water.
i still didnt even feel pain.
had to squeeze the cut together so i could use the twisers to remove 2 impalled grass blades in it.
ive never seen vie freak out like this ever.
and i remembered how haha said she doesnt like talking in toilets coz of germs.
heh .
anyway ruby was a darling who kept helping me wash and apply cream and all.
the bleeding stopped, i sat at the side while they did drills.
marli thought i fell on my own, the clumsy style-a-way.
after that they did a try-line defence drill kinda thing.
thats when i joined in,
after the lovely haha bandanged my wound up tight tightly.
even got to play in the 10 mins of game after, weee!
oh well, thurs im not able to make training.
got chance i wont get to play on sat though ive got off.
PFFFT.
and someone kinda ruffled my feathers.
but i wont say much, due to the fact that ive gotten over it,
and i know where my time and effort should be invested in now.
i wont say as much about it, if not itd just be on the same level.
mummy came to pick me up,
and she says need stitches.
i know she means well, but could she have spoken to me better?
like as if i want to fall and want to have this cut and want to have an ugly scar.
though i still doubt it needs stitches.
what do u think?
got to the hospital by 10.
i swear its not me knee that needs stitches,
its my heart.
never have i felt much coldness before.
and i still dont comprehend why hospitals paint their walls green.
like those sickly green when they are suppose to make people feel, unsickly.
first i had to take some anti-rust jab
which i swear the nurse just jabbed my muscle or something, it still hurts BTW .
then to the operation theathre to wait.
mummy went to floss her teeth. thanks la. left me alone.
so i made friends with an indian uncle who was waiting to get stitched also
only thing is he was still bleeding!
ok so yes. long wait.
and OMFG. the anasthetic was BLOODY PAINFUL LA.
i swear the needle prolly extended to the core of my knee on the cut itself :(
darn pain .
and he could still use the needle to poke poke my leg to test if it hurts.
it didnt but NEED YOU DO THAT!
and i swear when he snipped that bit of skin off blood squirted,
not that i saw, but after it was done, i saw a blood line. heh.
didnt feel much, but i could feel when he thugged on the thread.
6 stitches! gawd
bride of frenkenstien!
yes children. be kind to your knees,
ud never know when you're going to miss them.
its so freaaaaaaaaakin hard to walk when this knee.
always at the back of my mind im soooo afraid to rip my stitches.
SO SO AFRAID.
next day working full shift somemore.
wednesday clubbing somemore.
terror.
take care knee!
and stephaknee.
thankew to the concerned people!
made everything a lil less painful and barable.
Wednesday, September 13, 2006
GOODBYE!! :)
dont have to be torn between 2.
because i pull myself of this rat race.
where i can never measure up,
to whom i want to be.
to already have a new begining means to already have an end.
so why try to put on a puppet show,
when its just inevitable.
yup, i knew no one can take care of my heart,
better then myself.
anyhooots.
blew another of my off days.
oh well, anyway would be the last day that im freely free.
all my other off days in weeks to come are dedicated to rugby or driving.
hannan got his lisence, pffft.
u wait u wait, i also will.
chiong ah!
advanced theory in 2 weeks,
practicals in 1 weeks time,
then mad booking of lessons.
i cant wait!
ok, today is the last day i look at things in a darker light.
i need to start painting in neons.
get back my aura and zen. LOL.
i should take yoga i swear.
here's to the night,
save me from this darkness.
oh what the heck,
GOODBYE!! :)
because i pull myself of this rat race.
where i can never measure up,
to whom i want to be.
to already have a new begining means to already have an end.
so why try to put on a puppet show,
when its just inevitable.
yup, i knew no one can take care of my heart,
better then myself.
anyhooots.
blew another of my off days.
oh well, anyway would be the last day that im freely free.
all my other off days in weeks to come are dedicated to rugby or driving.
hannan got his lisence, pffft.
u wait u wait, i also will.
chiong ah!
advanced theory in 2 weeks,
practicals in 1 weeks time,
then mad booking of lessons.
i cant wait!
ok, today is the last day i look at things in a darker light.
i need to start painting in neons.
get back my aura and zen. LOL.
i should take yoga i swear.
here's to the night,
save me from this darkness.
oh what the heck,
GOODBYE!! :)
hypothetically.
what if i surpressed it?
is it wrong for me to want you to stay?
would you rather have me tear you away from the family you know?
or is it just too big a secret to keep it on the low?
hypothetically of corse,
are theres somethings better left unsaid.
would you want to know instead?
hypothetically of corse,
are there some wars not worth fighting,
some tears not worth crying?
hypothetically of corse,
what if this happened to you,
what would you want me to do?
would you want to know?
tell would you do?
would you walk away or would you stay?
would you want to leave the past behind us?
or are you afraid that one day it would find us?
would it even matter?
could it even matter?
should it even matter?
hypothetically of corse.
is it wrong for me to want you to stay?
would you rather have me tear you away from the family you know?
or is it just too big a secret to keep it on the low?
hypothetically of corse,
are theres somethings better left unsaid.
would you want to know instead?
hypothetically of corse,
are there some wars not worth fighting,
some tears not worth crying?
hypothetically of corse,
what if this happened to you,
what would you want me to do?
would you want to know?
tell would you do?
would you walk away or would you stay?
would you want to leave the past behind us?
or are you afraid that one day it would find us?
would it even matter?
could it even matter?
should it even matter?
hypothetically of corse.
Tuesday, September 12, 2006
rollercoaster.
off today! !
great chance for me to catch up sleep.
ellen de genereous is freaking funny la.
anyways, work has been, tiring.
i miss the old people there,
but the new ones are kinda the same pattern .
i dont like the new managers.
i sold this guy a $299 trenchcoat, only to let one of the managers k-po
want to entertain, until in the end he dont want to buy. good for you, bitch.
met a racist customer, under my conclusion. LOL.
a customer who asked if i was eurasian and say no wonder so pretty.
not shy la steph.
yup. 3rd day and im still surviving.
2 days breaki n a row, then 2 days full.
no rugby for me at all this week.
we'll see how that goes.
hung out with rach and felix at her place.
didnt stay long. all shagged.
what was suppose to be a drinking session only resulted in 2 cans of beer. LOL.
i just need to swollow all the heartache.
but i was just too tired to even.
i swear my eye infection is coming back .
now im so confused.
and for once, i feel the ache of losing something that could have been, great.
but everything holding me back are fears and insecurity,
of myself which i come to conclude i can never get over,
which affects everyone above myself.
and this time, when i say i dont know,
i really dont.
and i think ive learnt very much to hold things back,
especially my tears.
on saturday after my game, everything just climaxed to my brink of destruction.
firstly, was the game. i just felt, blank.
because i dont know what im doing well, or not well,
but it was certainly a game that we underperformed.
was on the way to yck to catch a match,
and there everything just went mad.
almost like, it was fate shouting in my face, that it wasnt meant to be.
to i went the other way around, and just bit my lip the whole way home.
holding back the tears.
luckily i had someone who was willing to put time aside,
just to keep me company.
so i stopped at paya lebar, and by the time he arrived,
i just broke. i just cried.
i couldnt hold it anymore.
but at least im glad he took time to be there for me.
even though i didnt share much, he was patient.
he made me feel alot better by just making me not focus on the bad,
but rather the good.
yes, sometimes it helps to not talk abt the bad things,
but rather talk about nonsense stuff that makes u just smile,
coz a smile makes you forget.
or at least, lessens the impact of all the bad bad bad stuff.
for a brief time of someone who isnt always around,
its just nice to know that people you dont expect to be there,
are readily ready to be there.
which makes everything, worth a shot for struggling a little bit more.
and attitude plays a bit part.
so now i'm trying to learn how to walk with a spring in my step .
and ive just got the best news.
which reminds me to put my wants and goals in check,
to move me to do things, i love.
what a rollercoaster.
great chance for me to catch up sleep.
ellen de genereous is freaking funny la.
anyways, work has been, tiring.
i miss the old people there,
but the new ones are kinda the same pattern .
i dont like the new managers.
i sold this guy a $299 trenchcoat, only to let one of the managers k-po
want to entertain, until in the end he dont want to buy. good for you, bitch.
met a racist customer, under my conclusion. LOL.
a customer who asked if i was eurasian and say no wonder so pretty.
not shy la steph.
yup. 3rd day and im still surviving.
2 days breaki n a row, then 2 days full.
no rugby for me at all this week.
we'll see how that goes.
hung out with rach and felix at her place.
didnt stay long. all shagged.
what was suppose to be a drinking session only resulted in 2 cans of beer. LOL.
i just need to swollow all the heartache.
but i was just too tired to even.
i swear my eye infection is coming back .
now im so confused.
and for once, i feel the ache of losing something that could have been, great.
but everything holding me back are fears and insecurity,
of myself which i come to conclude i can never get over,
which affects everyone above myself.
and this time, when i say i dont know,
i really dont.
and i think ive learnt very much to hold things back,
especially my tears.
on saturday after my game, everything just climaxed to my brink of destruction.
firstly, was the game. i just felt, blank.
because i dont know what im doing well, or not well,
but it was certainly a game that we underperformed.
was on the way to yck to catch a match,
and there everything just went mad.
almost like, it was fate shouting in my face, that it wasnt meant to be.
to i went the other way around, and just bit my lip the whole way home.
holding back the tears.
luckily i had someone who was willing to put time aside,
just to keep me company.
so i stopped at paya lebar, and by the time he arrived,
i just broke. i just cried.
i couldnt hold it anymore.
but at least im glad he took time to be there for me.
even though i didnt share much, he was patient.
he made me feel alot better by just making me not focus on the bad,
but rather the good.
yes, sometimes it helps to not talk abt the bad things,
but rather talk about nonsense stuff that makes u just smile,
coz a smile makes you forget.
or at least, lessens the impact of all the bad bad bad stuff.
for a brief time of someone who isnt always around,
its just nice to know that people you dont expect to be there,
are readily ready to be there.
which makes everything, worth a shot for struggling a little bit more.
and attitude plays a bit part.
so now i'm trying to learn how to walk with a spring in my step .
and ive just got the best news.
which reminds me to put my wants and goals in check,
to move me to do things, i love.
what a rollercoaster.
Friday, September 08, 2006
back to work.
freaking shagged.
back to work today, day 1.
i dont know anyone there!
except for shirley cashier, and mas nino's.
working full. fizah and dina
i miss them so.
got to know afew and abit abt the other girls.
floor was boring.
fit was mad.
customers are evolving into bitchy people.
leaving their clothes they tried in the fitting rooms.
#(*&$@^#%!!!
so what if have GEMS and what fuck.
doesnt give them the ticket to be inconsiderate.
fuckers.
and its true,
working around clothes too much,
makes u want to blow ur first pay cheque on most of the stuff there.
help me. sponsor me : )
trained home with siti and fizah.
glanced past a picture of you and me.
and yes, i miss u a very little bit.
but i miss being massaged more.
i missed being kissed. LOL.
i miss being given flowers.
i miss being free.
and now i'm having a mindphuck.
where i'm just numb, but aching all through my body.
and my mind's a heavy lump of mud.
but not as heavy as my eyes and eyebags.
oh my achy breaky back.
tmr got game with the blacks.
i better take a looooong nap
im uber shagged.
and i'll just snore myself to sleeeeeeep .
gdnight.
back to work today, day 1.
i dont know anyone there!
except for shirley cashier, and mas nino's.
working full. fizah and dina
i miss them so.
got to know afew and abit abt the other girls.
floor was boring.
fit was mad.
customers are evolving into bitchy people.
leaving their clothes they tried in the fitting rooms.
#(*&$@^#%!!!
so what if have GEMS and what fuck.
doesnt give them the ticket to be inconsiderate.
fuckers.
and its true,
working around clothes too much,
makes u want to blow ur first pay cheque on most of the stuff there.
help me. sponsor me : )
trained home with siti and fizah.
glanced past a picture of you and me.
and yes, i miss u a very little bit.
but i miss being massaged more.
i missed being kissed. LOL.
i miss being given flowers.
i miss being free.
and now i'm having a mindphuck.
where i'm just numb, but aching all through my body.
and my mind's a heavy lump of mud.
but not as heavy as my eyes and eyebags.
oh my achy breaky back.
tmr got game with the blacks.
i better take a looooong nap
im uber shagged.
and i'll just snore myself to sleeeeeeep .
gdnight.
Thursday, September 07, 2006
rainbows aint forever
i dont want to have to pay for mistakes,
that wasnt mine to make.
and i know the rainbow wouldn't last forever.
i just never knew it to be this fast.
everytime i act like wonderwoman.
from trying to carry loads of stuff at one shot just so i need no make a second trip,
to building a wall in my head, and welling in my mind,
thoughts that i am invincible and nothing can break me.
but who am i kidding.
it dont even take a bulldozer to remove the foundation of my wall.
so now im crumbling under the rubble.
isolated in an environment that once was second nature.
people, who once were second nature.
familiar faces have evolved to backs, walking away.
correct me if i'm wrong, but it just says alot not about me,
but those who's left behind the weak, strengthless to even cry.
is it better or worse, that i call you my friend?
its alright, you have somewhere else better to be.
yes, the rainbow doesnt last forever.
and somehow i have lingering feeling in my bones,
that something bad is going to happen.
nothing to do with me, but just, something bad.
that wasnt mine to make.
and i know the rainbow wouldn't last forever.
i just never knew it to be this fast.
everytime i act like wonderwoman.
from trying to carry loads of stuff at one shot just so i need no make a second trip,
to building a wall in my head, and welling in my mind,
thoughts that i am invincible and nothing can break me.
but who am i kidding.
it dont even take a bulldozer to remove the foundation of my wall.
so now im crumbling under the rubble.
isolated in an environment that once was second nature.
people, who once were second nature.
familiar faces have evolved to backs, walking away.
correct me if i'm wrong, but it just says alot not about me,
but those who's left behind the weak, strengthless to even cry.
is it better or worse, that i call you my friend?
its alright, you have somewhere else better to be.
yes, the rainbow doesnt last forever.
and somehow i have lingering feeling in my bones,
that something bad is going to happen.
nothing to do with me, but just, something bad.
Wednesday, September 06, 2006
PASSED MY BASIC!!
I PASSED MY BASIC THEORY BIIIIAATTCH!!
so did felix and ageness too!
omg my hert stop a minute before they show the results.
cheetot.
PASSED. wah. i smiles to my computer screen .
today is an AWESOME day .
i knew it the moment i woke up. :)
woke up at 8, to meet dee at 9 for marketting.
for shimo's surprise bday party!
we just bought fry-able stuff.
and we went back to mine, and left for her's at 11.
reached there, with lu and meow into her house to deco the place.
supi and yam came after .
we blew balloons,
or rather me and meow blew most of it
coz we have power lungs!
and the balloons were rubber of stone!
yes, they looked obscene, like tits and condoms and cocks.
wtf right.
had a bird, and we made a caterpiller, bee and weight out of a few.
darn cool.
we hung a 'happy birthday' streamer, and i topped it off with her name tag,
so it says "happy birthday shimo neo" and her chinese name, heh!
hid our stuff under the bed, we hid in the toilet.
saw her through the mirror when hannan brought her home,
she hesitated to go into her room, when she did,
we chionged out, and HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!
hehe! she just smile. that one not so bad.
when we went down to cut her cake and sing song,
she kept hiding behind hannan coz she shy,
darn cute la. smile until cannot see eyes.
shimo shimo.
cannot even take photos. LOL .
the cake was good, the food by the time was already soggy.
stayed for 5 mins mre, then off to khaki ukit i went.
wanted to take a cab, which took rather long.
then a maxi cab stopped in front of me, i refuse to take,
coz i tot its expensiver.
then the lasy rationed that it was the same.
and persuaded me to take it nonetheless.
so i did, one person in the beeeeg cab,
i didnt know where to sit. HEH!.
reached also i can stand up to pay then go backto my seat to take my stuff.
terror, though the starting fee was 2.80.
its the new in rather then the merc cabs.
I AM THE KING. lol.
reached there, met felix and agness at the entrance.
and then i realise, WAH NEVER BRING IC.
an the fella REFUSE to let me in.
she bloody bitchy.
so yes, i went to counter, lucky the lady nice.
sat for the test, and PASSED lor.
even though i didnt know quite alot of the questions, LOL.
tricky shit.
but yes. heeee!
but i couldnt print my form.
neither could i apply for PDL.
coz NO IC.
stoooopid me.
i so freaking happy.
and i called shan,
and yes, she gave me the job!
even though it'll eat into my first 2 weeks of school
and some ntl's i''d have to miss :( trainings too.
triple sighs!
but i reallllly need the cash, to cover my driving.
went ot the counter, we signed up for advance and trial tests.
and i took any practical slots avaliable,
the two already have their own, so i'd be taking it alone.
the only thing that bothers me is that i still dont know how to go there by bus,
and that i'd have to find my car before the lesson through all the car parks
and confirm i kena accident.
either i trip.
or forget something,
so kena honk for anyhow crossing road. whatever.
but yessss.
815 darn early, but YAY!
excited.
gyming later.
no more zouk for me tonight. SIGh.
was quite looking forward to it.
but i paid good (and alot) of money for 100mins of practicals.
plus i need to buy concession.
then need to buy pdl tmr.
cock sure broke.
and i and wan made a pact,
to take bike lisence sugela! :) :)
prolly take it concurrently.
excited.
and getting the job is REALLY a load off my shoulders.
everything is about choices.
and i'm sure consequences would follow the ones i made.
alot of things would be affected.
for things that i'd have to forgo, or sacrifice.
personal time and space, friends, imf, school, RUGBY esp. :(
perhaps now, i'm thinking more for myself.
i need to take one day at a time ,
yet plan ahead.
im so gonna burn myself up,
and beat myself up if i lose certain things along the way.
but ive got to go down this path, for now.
to top today off, CARE BEARS ARE ON KIDS CENTRAL!!
YIPEEEE! !
lesson of the day: when happy, dont go to timo,
he'll say U SIAO.
happy = lisence to use vulgarities, to qualify emotions.
right right right.
i'm mad. FUCKING mad. LOL.
laters!
so did felix and ageness too!
omg my hert stop a minute before they show the results.
cheetot.
PASSED. wah. i smiles to my computer screen .
today is an AWESOME day .
i knew it the moment i woke up. :)
woke up at 8, to meet dee at 9 for marketting.
for shimo's surprise bday party!
we just bought fry-able stuff.
and we went back to mine, and left for her's at 11.
reached there, with lu and meow into her house to deco the place.
supi and yam came after .
we blew balloons,
or rather me and meow blew most of it
coz we have power lungs!
and the balloons were rubber of stone!
yes, they looked obscene, like tits and condoms and cocks.
wtf right.
had a bird, and we made a caterpiller, bee and weight out of a few.
darn cool.
we hung a 'happy birthday' streamer, and i topped it off with her name tag,
so it says "happy birthday shimo neo" and her chinese name, heh!
hid our stuff under the bed, we hid in the toilet.
saw her through the mirror when hannan brought her home,
she hesitated to go into her room, when she did,
we chionged out, and HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!
hehe! she just smile. that one not so bad.
when we went down to cut her cake and sing song,
she kept hiding behind hannan coz she shy,
darn cute la. smile until cannot see eyes.
shimo shimo.
cannot even take photos. LOL .
the cake was good, the food by the time was already soggy.
stayed for 5 mins mre, then off to khaki ukit i went.
wanted to take a cab, which took rather long.
then a maxi cab stopped in front of me, i refuse to take,
coz i tot its expensiver.
then the lasy rationed that it was the same.
and persuaded me to take it nonetheless.
so i did, one person in the beeeeg cab,
i didnt know where to sit. HEH!.
reached also i can stand up to pay then go backto my seat to take my stuff.
terror, though the starting fee was 2.80.
its the new in rather then the merc cabs.
I AM THE KING. lol.
reached there, met felix and agness at the entrance.
and then i realise, WAH NEVER BRING IC.
an the fella REFUSE to let me in.
she bloody bitchy.
so yes, i went to counter, lucky the lady nice.
sat for the test, and PASSED lor.
even though i didnt know quite alot of the questions, LOL.
tricky shit.
but yes. heeee!
but i couldnt print my form.
neither could i apply for PDL.
coz NO IC.
stoooopid me.
i so freaking happy.
and i called shan,
and yes, she gave me the job!
even though it'll eat into my first 2 weeks of school
and some ntl's i''d have to miss :( trainings too.
triple sighs!
but i reallllly need the cash, to cover my driving.
went ot the counter, we signed up for advance and trial tests.
and i took any practical slots avaliable,
the two already have their own, so i'd be taking it alone.
the only thing that bothers me is that i still dont know how to go there by bus,
and that i'd have to find my car before the lesson through all the car parks
and confirm i kena accident.
either i trip.
or forget something,
so kena honk for anyhow crossing road. whatever.
but yessss.
815 darn early, but YAY!
excited.
gyming later.
no more zouk for me tonight. SIGh.
was quite looking forward to it.
but i paid good (and alot) of money for 100mins of practicals.
plus i need to buy concession.
then need to buy pdl tmr.
cock sure broke.
and i and wan made a pact,
to take bike lisence sugela! :) :)
prolly take it concurrently.
excited.
and getting the job is REALLY a load off my shoulders.
everything is about choices.
and i'm sure consequences would follow the ones i made.
alot of things would be affected.
for things that i'd have to forgo, or sacrifice.
personal time and space, friends, imf, school, RUGBY esp. :(
perhaps now, i'm thinking more for myself.
i need to take one day at a time ,
yet plan ahead.
im so gonna burn myself up,
and beat myself up if i lose certain things along the way.
but ive got to go down this path, for now.
to top today off, CARE BEARS ARE ON KIDS CENTRAL!!
YIPEEEE! !
lesson of the day: when happy, dont go to timo,
he'll say U SIAO.
happy = lisence to use vulgarities, to qualify emotions.
right right right.
i'm mad. FUCKING mad. LOL.
laters!
sunshine princess
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
SHIMONA & MUNA! :)
have an awesome ride through the legal world babeh!
is it me, or are people not what you thought they were.
to the one you, contant in my last thoughts before i sleep.
you're no longer there.
coz you're no longer what i thought i needed.
because i know my heart won't be in a secure place.
and i can't beat myself up thinking,
when will you ever know,
or realise that i am there.
have an awesome ride through the legal world babeh!
is it me, or are people not what you thought they were.
to the one you, contant in my last thoughts before i sleep.
you're no longer there.
coz you're no longer what i thought i needed.
because i know my heart won't be in a secure place.
and i can't beat myself up thinking,
when will you ever know,
or realise that i am there.
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
dear you
it the things like this that you do.
that tells me in my face how important i am to you.
and why is it that each time, i always expect the same outcome,
when actually i'm expecting you to prove me wrong.
don't say you depend on me,
because it only seems that you depend on me to be there,
when others arnt.
i'll play my part, i'll go the mile,
just go that one small step for me.
i don't know what to say anymore,
it'll just be the same over and over again
that sometimes i question how much longer i can put up with this treatment
i'm hanging by a thread.
all in all,
you're not helping me find the me that i once was,
and that i can be.
that better me.
Monday, September 04, 2006
chasing cars.
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes
They're all I can see
I don't know where
Confused about how as well
I just know that these things
Will never change for us at all
I don't quite know how to say how I feel
Those three words are said too much
They're not enough
Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads
I need your grace to remind me
To find my own
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes
They're all I can see
I don't know where
Confused about how as well
I just know that these things
Will never change for us at all
I don't quite know how to say how I feel
Those three words are said too much
They're not enough
Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads
I need your grace to remind me
To find my own
Sunday, September 03, 2006
Thursday, August 31, 2006
hot tempered.
how hot tempered are you? -- based on horrorscope.
CAPRICORN DECEMBER 21 - JANUARY 19
Few will believe that a hardcore practical and materialistic person like you is capable of sensitivity and genuine emotions. You project a hard exterior but are actually very sensitive, a trait you successfully hide from others. You can see things with anger but will not betray your feelings. But then, there are times that even you cannot control your temper. Under such circumstances you can shout and scream, more with frustration at the situation than with anger at any particular person. Your outbursts can shock others and can make them feel guilty too.
utterly true i feel.
especially about the part where if and when i lose my temper,
its not at people but rather situations.
am i a closet materialistic person? hmmm.
then again i'm the last day of capricorn, oh well.
but does my outburst shock an make people feel guilty?
tell me!! TELL MEEEE! !
anyway thanks nurul for the email.
for the complete list of all the horrorscopes,
drop me a note, i'll forward the mail to you.
oh i'm sick. :(
terrible don't get worse then this.
CAPRICORN DECEMBER 21 - JANUARY 19
Few will believe that a hardcore practical and materialistic person like you is capable of sensitivity and genuine emotions. You project a hard exterior but are actually very sensitive, a trait you successfully hide from others. You can see things with anger but will not betray your feelings. But then, there are times that even you cannot control your temper. Under such circumstances you can shout and scream, more with frustration at the situation than with anger at any particular person. Your outbursts can shock others and can make them feel guilty too.
utterly true i feel.
especially about the part where if and when i lose my temper,
its not at people but rather situations.
am i a closet materialistic person? hmmm.
then again i'm the last day of capricorn, oh well.
but does my outburst shock an make people feel guilty?
tell me!! TELL MEEEE! !
anyway thanks nurul for the email.
for the complete list of all the horrorscopes,
drop me a note, i'll forward the mail to you.
oh i'm sick. :(
terrible don't get worse then this.
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