baaaaaaaaaah

the weekend was a rather rough one.

saturday was a quiet day in.
till vini and emily called me out for chinaone boogeying.
the crowd was good.
and that same cute kiwi guy kaleb was there!
gosh. i wanted to talk to him,
but i got 'interrupted' by this guy from finland,
juha, andhis friend mika.
"i hope you dont mind a hieneken"
:)
never heard that one before.
he smells good!
headed to attica with them after for a little dancing



me and juha, gosh my face looks so round and fat


mika!

i felt so sick in the morning, i'm thinking its the mix of beers and vodka.

ordered in macs in the afternoon,
got it to go, headed down to yio chu kang to watch the finals between src and blacks.
src put on a really good fight. commandable.
still felt sick, i couldnt stomach my food.
more food from the buffet table, with awesome eclairs.
headed to molly's after. the girls did it again,
beat GUYS at a boat race.
freakin awesome!
they were the american navy boys.
kinda spoke to one of them after,
(the cutest of the bunch)
zach he was.
i enjoyed the conversation.
and sometimes guys can have such hearts.
he spoke so much and greatly of his fiance,
its just so lovely to hear.
sad, that he's taken coz he was cute, and sweet to top it off,
but its just an awwww in the heart hearing how he can't wait to get home to her,
coz he asked her to marry him 2 days before he 'travelled around the world'
it just makes me feel hopeful,
and a little awful.
*pouts*

i really can't help but think there's something wrong with me,
and that i can't measure up, or that i don't know how to,
its like a wicked sign and inclination from up there, that i don't deserve it.
and it really sucks.
coz all i want is just a place to 'go home to'
a place in a person, a place that'll be my rock.
i know theres so much more to me, but i'm just so put down.

to pump room after,
with pia, becks, kami and kate
where off to a slow start coz i was freeeeeeakin sober.
then onto the tabletops.
we make sunday nights fun ;)
heeeeeeeeh.
i left early coz, well i was still sober
and i felt lke a fish outta water.
and i just wanted to be alone, at home,
feeling all miserable, and seek comfort under my comforter.
and just be with that familiar calming.

i so need something to look forward to.
i don't think i can hang on much longer.
and guys, please remember to take out your trash.