steph's saturday!

so saturday.
an eventful day, kinda.
i spent the whole day being out in the same chillax outfit;
shorts, slippers, and some stupid brown striped polo top.
and i opted for sunnies over my beloved yellow umbrella (eh eh eh)
and yes, it poured the whole day. PFFT.

started the day at 8,
in school by 10 for the internship launch.
waste of time if you ask me.
melissa made me a cupcake, me li-ke.
i know you li-ke too.
off to lunch with muna, haha, and pika.
han's sucked! the one at tampines is really bad.
it was nice talking to the girls,
over stupid stuff, and drunkard moments.
2 of em left, it was muna and i.
so we wasted about 2 hours walking through the malls,
before we headed to shimo's to head to YCK for the bucks vs bedok kings game.
went to buy beers, and they wanted to check our ids.
(what the?!)

got over to shimo's but we were still early,
so we played "go fish" on the elmo cards.
god i suck at these kiddy games.
*'L' over the forehead*
hannan was done in school, so we walked down and hopped into his car.
and we never made it to the game,
coz we got involved into a car accident.
thank god it wasnt that bad.
it was like a pendulium of 4 cars, us being #2.
#1 stopped too abruptly, so #2 had to too,
barely touching each other.
car #3 on the other hand went BISH straight into us,
so hard the boot popped open, and his whole bumper and what not, was totalled.
car #4 just played bumper cars with us.
back and forth with multiple impacts.
held up, and muna and i needed to pee.
car got towed to the workshop, we met the couple there.
after everything was settled, we cabbed back to shimo's to get her mum's car to drive out.

met hadi at YCK and watched the blacks vs scc match.
wasnt too interested in watching them play, but whatever.
we tried to hook muna and hadi up,
but poor boy just wasnt in the mood.
*tickles his chin*

went to beach road after for some food.
which was too spicy for me at that time! :S
headed to molly's to meet up with the girls,
who told me to get out of my hole,
coz i was sooo darn short compared to them in heels.
hopped around to bq, and back,
and to bb's with kami and pia, with carmel popping by.
then to chinaone. where i had a hella time!
i think i must've bumped my head or something.
coz on any other ordinary day,
i don't think i'd actually do something like that.
but it sure gave me a good laugh,even throughout the hangover day.


tagged by the 'bucks women's rugby'
and my name and number along with it :)



pia couldnt stop laughing.
neither could i.


and i'm done. look casual.
so guys, try not to get drunk when i'm around.

and this whole time, there was a dude in hat that watched me from afar,
arms folded, watching this monkey marking out her meat,
all he needed was a popcorn box in hand.

soon after, one of the bucks boys i think had too much to drink,
he abruptly brushed passed us, and plonked on a chair,
and started puking.
MAN DOWN!
so being the good simaritan that i think i am,
i petted him on the back hopeing he'll feel better,
but he was flinging his arms around randomly,
almost telling me he just wanted to puke discretely.
er, OKAY.
i didnt even realise he was puking on his pants.
and i was so brave to tell the manager and bouncer to go away. HA.
the manager returned, only to ask if i've dropped my phone.
OMG yes *blush* phew.
he was brought out by some of the boys.
low and behold, the same fella with folded arms was there,
watching me.
i bet he was thinking "gosh this girl likes her men PISSED DRUNK"
LOL.
it was pretty funny to admit.
pia left, so i spoke to him awhile,
trying to assure him that NO i do not 'attack' drunks.

headed to MOS to meet up with marli and the rest.
the bartender asked me if i wanted 'something extra' for my drink coupon.
and he came back with a lychee martini for me.
you're the shizzles!
next one was the same,
and i remember kissing him on his hand, HA!
but i hate those martini glasses, especially when you're tipsy, like happy high.
coz i swear, my toes drank more then i did.
saw albert, just as i was leaving.

i was too zonked by the time i got home.
god.
thus the motto,
"keep holy the hangover day"
wasnt that hungover, surprisingly,
but i was just too sleep deprived! :(


i miss you, booboo face.

my letter to you

dear you,

you never fail to amaze me,
and it is torture.

you put the colour back to my greyscale,
and i can imagine you making my mornings afloat on cloud 9,
being my back support of warmth in silence;
that kiss at the back of my head.

you're my perfection, you make me feel perfect.
i can't stop thinking about you,
and how it could never happen.

i hate how its so far-fetched,
a whisper of impossibility that doesnt root me anywhere near my sanity.
you're too much of a yearning,
of completion.

however the cards will be played,
will our lives change?
i feel a good thing coming,
only dashed by the bungy cord back to reality

things you'll never know, or i'll never say,
it's just the last i needed voice out,
before you go on your way, and i do mine.
you're just precious, and there's no one like you.

sometimes it just feels so right, that you can't ignore
and sometimes, you gotta stop telling lies to yourself.
when its so hard to do, but so easy to say,
sometimes you just have to walk away.



and i feel so stupid.

girls night out

my wednesday was packed.

started off with school at 2,
i got a c for coursework for organisational behavior.
and i know nothing about the subject, so good luck during my exam.
class ended at 4, me and mel went for food.
met shimo, and then we browsed the bucks online store.
so many many thingssss. sigh.
and then we went for our "girls' night out" captain's ball game.
i've not played that in a long while,
and trust me, after getting into a sport like rugby,
with the nature of the game, and the shape of the ball,
its hard to cope!
especially when people are so much taller then you.
but i did score quite abit, shimo played very well.
and the whole time i kept bulldozing people over.
funny how on grass and the pitch i get more bruises and scraps,
versus on a concrete. :)
got into abit of a tiff with one girl who had no sportsmanship,
funny how the guys didnt try to break us up.
but it was stupid,
then after she apologised.
i appreciate the effort, but i dont care about the drama.
i really enjoyed the games though, i love having monkey fun with these girls.
we came in third, ended early, so i rushed home toget ready to meet the girls,
for a real girl's night out.

waredrobe mulfunction.
picked naomi and shawn in a cab and headed to clarke quay.
the usual london bridge.
and then we went to mos.
hopped over to chinaone for a beer.
then to pump room where rachel joined us.
lychee mojitos are lovely.
rachel just loves quick fucks.
there was a naomi version of a guy, who fell asleep on the dancefloor.
freaking hilarious, while standing too! gosh .
to gotham to check out the scene.
but nah, so we went back to mos
studio 54 is pathetic on wednesdays!
apart from the good looking guy who made out with another guy on the dancefloor.
smoove was the only crowded place,
not disgustingly pack as always thank god.
so i set out on my task given by rachel. ha.
i ended up dancing with this chinese dude, alan.
he dances well, and he seems like a great person.
we all went for breakfast at macs after.
the 2 london blokes who were trying to order food were reallllly hilarious.
alan sent me home, was online till about 7ish,
and i got about what was collectively 2 hours of sleep.



and i'm really starting to feel so pudgy.

its lovely.

i can't believe i was in on a friday night.
and now, saturday night too.
man what a life.
and i know just what i need.


that's the side of you i knew you always had.

my wonderwall

the game with the australian army wasnt that bad afterall.
10-0 to them. but it was a great game on our part.
i'm lovin' it.
everyone did well, esp in coming together.
captain kami broke her wrist! :(
get well soon darlin!
bq for drinks on the never ending bus ride.
sometimes people just make singapore seem so big i swear.
11pm by the time we got there.
we won the boatrace! :)
oh i love to dance, so did their hooker who can hella dance BTW!
kudos to her, and hellen for the bartop danceoff.
their full back is too hot i swear. (shocking steph!)
karen just wanted to rape their roo, tsk!
and it's national day. (wah)
and and PIA"S OFFICAL 30tH (WEEEE! )

headed to chinaone with raph, carmel, pia, becs and hellen,
the last 3 disappeared to the hospital to visit kami.
we partied at chinaone for abit, mvpuki carmel was clobering people with her shaft.
even the hot drummer! HAAH.
to mos with raph. met marli and some other touch ruggers there.
ad! ju! :)
i just left my bag at 54, and guess what, the bouncers kept it! :S
and i met raph's (hot) friend of a friend, albert.
who was alright, not too bad and i thought he'd be a nice guy.
TEH. wrong again steph.
yeah well. i know i deserve better,
but the real question is, can i get better?
anyhoots, so when we were leaving, i made a big whooha about how my wallet's not in my bag.
only after talking to the bouncer, making reports and rumaging through my bag,
did i realise it was with albert.
PFFFFFFFFFFFFT.
oh me so hungry!

next day, woke up at 3ish to get ready for the bbq,
happy timerlion day,
in commeration of tim's little merlion escapade.
naomi came over first to help me with stuff that needed foil,
coz i suck at those.
then we had so much spare time, we made cupcakes!
with nice cookies and cream frosting. SUPERBLY SCRUMPTIOUS!
rachel came, we started out fire.
cooked abit, then felix came, then the rest of the jimbos.
cooked all the food, and we cleared up, tim felix naomi rachel and i.
the best part was when we sprayed water onto the porch, felix trying to reach tim who stood by the sliding door (widely opened)
i was afraid he might have gotta water into the house, so i just tickled felix!
and smart boy let the hose go, and walah.
sprinkler fest on rachel naomi and i.
that was the most fun we've had all these while,
of not having time to come together, since out bintan trip.
i missed my moments like these.
and the black weeners and damn cockroached plastic bag.

the boys were watching troy, the girls were half alseep
and for some reason, no one drank much.
didnt even finish a botle of absolut.
we put season 10 of friends on after.
drinking games were so, on and off.
woohoo (?)
:)
everyone cleared out at about 2am
and i left the room clearing up to the next day
somehow this year wasnt as fun as the last

i didnt go to schooooooooooool anyways.
tsk.
didnt manage to get my ass across the island to watch the aussie army vs blacks.
that would've been one hell'eva game.

and people, please start texting me your contact numbers,
coz i have a replaced sim card with zero contacts.

i feel like a nomad with my life.
and come september i'll be swarmed.
hopefully i get to go on a holiday before that. please.


you are like my armchair,
my invisible safety net.
take me to the umbrella room,
afterall, you're my woderwall.

hit by a boat

the weekend was smashing!

saturday was the killer $30 cab ride all the way to like, near malaysia!
wtf.
raffles marina! where i use to go when i was way younger.
so yes, it was pia's 30th!
and we got a boat! :)
freakin awesome.
it was rania, becs, pia, kami, helen, barbara, julie, liz, carmel and beth.
went out to reclaimation island for a swim with the floaties!
when i got back on board, i slipped! and it was hilarous how i hung on for dear life,
laughing like a broken violin,
instead of letting go and falling into thw water. BAAAH
then ross and muse put on the barbie.
we swang on a rope from the front to the back of the boat.
my go just was slicing the surface of the water with the bum.
we played never ever, and it was juicy.
barbara, you're very active i had no idea. good on ya!
and it wasnt a god combination for her, with the booze and rocking boat,
coz she was sick after, but she was a good sport for sticking it through.
chat over drinks on deck was nice
and they LOVED the cupcakes.
or at least they were drunk and polite i think. :)
docked at 830 at sentosa. we didnt even shower!
we just got into our sailorette outfits and headed to bq.
the boys wernt there coz they don't know how to party like us.
so we went to molly's. then walked to pump room
and inbetween that trail, MY PHONE FELL OUT OF MY POCKET!
and there it went. bye bye phone.
so now, i'm pretty uncontactable.
all my contacts, messages, pictures. SIGH.
oh my baby. :(
or if anyone's seen a white erricson somewhere along boat and clark quay,
FIND ME.
pump room was great!
we raided the bartop again. awesome.
met kate and her friend tom there.
and we left the sailorettes for chinaone.

this dude who wanted to light a ciggarette tried to pick me up for a quickie ah.
pity, he was gorgoues. very good looking. henry.
who wanted to pull me away from chinaone and take me home to his house across the river.
and say i can come back after. jackass.
toooooooooooo bad you are goodlooking.
i cant believe it still, kate's leaving :(
boooooooooogied with her always makes my saturday.
i cant wait for pictures!

forced myself to wake up today coz of the game with blacks.
by 12 i was up and feeling like SHIT.
and OMG I HAVE A MILLION BRUISES!
arms, legs, thighs, shin, tummy!
its not like small ones. its HUGE AH.
and the one under the bum takes the cake.
size wise, and colour.. gosh. i'm giving it 2 weeks.
i'll take pictures of it soon. sucks that i dont have my phone :(
i made 2 packets of instant noodles and finished it in gulps! along with tea.
still no better. just fatter
ebo offered to gimme a ride to turf city. my savior.
i really didnt trust myself to get me to turf city in one piece.
reached there and this cab in front of us suddenly stopped, and started reversing!
LIKE WTF! he whammed into us. lucky it was slow speed, both parties.
but it was so WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU TRYNA DO ?!
we have our new kit! the shorts are HUGE ! i could roll em 3 times in!
warmed up and i felt like my head was 3 seconds behind me.
i really dont know how these girls handle their hangovers.
in the end, the game got cancelled because our dear david ash who was suppose to ref,
didn't even show up or inform anyone. pffft.
how could someone just do that?
wasted pitch, we got our opponents out somemore, its not nice.
not even for US. sigh.
and poor katie, her last game with us and it didnt happen.
newton for dinner with helen and pia.
laksa was alright, katong ones are still besttttt. but pia's prawns looked WOWZERS
took the train home, and i hate how people pick their nose in public,
like really go in for it, gold diggers.
and how people, especially phillipinos just RUSH to get on the train, without letting people get off, and they seem all giggle about it, and they giggle to the people who were waiting to get on the train but they conveniently shove them kinda.
like, have you heard of the word, civilised?
sheesh.

ive got a final project sudmission on wednesday, and ive not even started.
good luck steph!
to do this week:
* project
* appraisals
* trainings
* wednesday's australian navy game
* national day bbq
* be home for my sim card delivery on tuesday
* touch on saturday
* sushi with the girls
* gym
* find a damn bf
* BAKE MORE CUPCAKES!
* understanding art mask

WHOEVER BLOODY FOUND MY PHONE AND CHOSE NOT TO RETURN IT,
FUCK YOU BITCH.
I HOPE YOU'LL LOSE SOMETHING TOO.
OR MORE.
AND THAT BOILS WITH PUS OOZING OUT WILL BE ALL OVER YOUR DAMN FACE,
AND NETHER REGIONS.
coz you make me sad.
DIE MOFO!
*bishbishbishbish!*

i knew it was gon happen!!

i knew it! I JUST KNEW IT.

so it starts off with a rather productive day,
getting my slides together, with pointer notes as well,
for my presentation at 4.
and the usual stuff.
i thought i would be late (again)
(and ironically i wore the 'little miss late' shirt today)
so i hurried to the bank, wanting to replace my atm card.

and you know your life is mundane when you start your 10 min walk to the bank,
untangling your mp3 earpiece while attempting to j-walk across the road.
so by 3.25, i got to the bank, and dear me,
service has really been so much emphesized upon nowadays,
and the people at DBS should be ambassidors i swear.
i went to the information counter to enquire about how i can get a replacement,
and she was like "OH i'm so sorry to hear about your loss."
unnecessary, perhaps, coz what's it to her,
but hey, i didnt see that coming!
the queue was zzzzz, but it moved.
in 10 it was my turn, and i promoted my lost card to a debit one.
and by 3.45 i was outta there.

cabbed down to school, and reached with 10 minutes to spare
little miss not-late, HA!

then i got lost tryna find the relocatted classroon, ended up 10 minutes late,
even after being rescued by jeric.
i was the last to present. some of the previous presentation were hard to sit through,
no, PAINFUL.
from the poor attempt to read artistic names and words,
which obviously they just cut and pasted on a chunk basis,
and being seen for the first time,
to being pasted it in a distastful colour scheme that even the presenter himself couldn't decipher.
i felt over prepared, coz i really spent time doing each slide perfectly.
my presentation of it could have been better, but the mood was just so, informal.
anyway, i guess it paid off,
i got 17/20. WHOOP WHOOP.
i really hope it pulls up my grade for this subject, which pulls up my gpa.
my art review was quite a letdown, 14/20.
well, i really need to work for the last assignment to make up for the first which i pathetically flunked.
BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAh!

headed to bouna vista to meet bird, and to uwc for training.
good session, great seeing old faces! :)
mostly everyone's back from vacationing.
i really hate that kate's leaving soon. :(
the field was shaite! the chunks of slob and mud, phew!

cabbed straight (OH MY I CAB TOO MUCH!) to simpang for late dinner with rachel and felix.
boy was i stuffed.
chatted, stocked up my fridge.
BUSSED home.
and to my utmost I KNEW IT WAS GON HAPPEN horror,
there it was.



my freakin' lost atm card, sitting nicely on my desk
JEEPERS BAJANGJANGNESS OF A FUTHAMUCKER garrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrl.

the bucks merchandise is out,
looks pretty good.
i wanna get the shorts, and the socks, and the gym shirt, and the white t-shirt, and the bag
and a sugar daddy who's gon buy them for meeeee. :)

last presentation i'll ever do in school tmr (AWWWW)
debate-role playing one,
i like!

off to bed now!
love,
the belly tubby.

next stop

so i just signed my letter of appointment today.
i'm officially contracted by the events company, staging connections.
i'm quite excited and looking forward to spending my time there,
hopefully i do get overseas opportunities.
but just signing it makes me start to worry again,

its another reality checkpoint.

what am i gonna do next?
graduation is soon, just upon completion of the exams,
its straight to interning, and i'll be slapped with a diploma,
and be told to fish off and worry about my life's next step.
give me a compass instead? :S

but seriously, work or school?
i dont mind work,
get my foot in the door perhaps with this internship opportunity with such a reowned company,
and tap into the potential i.r. market coz well,
my diploma is related?
or continue with school while im still young,
like all at one shot,
and possibly miss work opportunities that my peers might have?
i dont even know what or where i wanna do my next step of studies.
abroad definately.

its not that i want time to stop passing me by,
so i can take my time and not make so many decisions at once.
but rather, i want assurance
in my investments of decisions that i am about to make.
oh yes, that's my other not-so-impressive trait of being indecisive.
what can or should i do next?


one....
two...
threeeeee....



MEGA SIGH!
and frown.
whoever it is who took my atm card, please give it back.
if not, you'll get boils where the sun don't shine,
HMMPF!