little miss whoops

so i brought my woof woof to the vet.
a hefty $101. plus a follow up 2 weeks later.
first time i saw her so vulnerable and scared.
and my heart ached.

met haha.
i havnt seen her in so long!
i hope things turn out for the best for YOU,
coz you deserve better then what's being dealt for you.
we went around buying food. heh.
my tummy was rumbling, and as much as i'm trying to have a healthy diet,
i'm not gonna starve myself.
we got ruby a present!
a little miss and mister men book,
little miss WHOOPS she was :)
then to training we went, bus 5 and a walk to the sports complex.

training was alright.
we took so long trying to perfect the first drill,
that we didn't have time for a game.
my ball handling is getting to bad again.
and this is the last time i'm eating like less then 3 hours before training.
i kept burping and feeling uncomfortable.
oh well.
fitness was the same sprint jog sprint jog.
i couldnt feel my legs halfway.
i swear i need to spank them awake or something.
after training gave ruby a traditional splash off.
she read aloud her book, she loved it!
"OMG this is so me la! " heh.
showered and we went off for a drink opposite school.
shimo and i sat at the void deck,
i'm getting slow with sudoku!
and the racist jokes started!
it was darn funny.
cabbed home with dee after.
unexpected call.

tomorrow its to the beach with muna!
finally, like after 4 weeks of trying to liase.
i hope the weather will be good.
then prolly dinner with my favourite girls.
this weekend's gonna be a clubbish one,
with so many different options,
plus games this week is postponed.
i'm spoilt for choice.

walking alone under the moonlight, i'm watching my world suddenly plunged back into black and white.

28/03/07

i didn't go.

for various reasons actually.
anyways, tomorrow its to the vet i'm going.
the jack russells' having an inflamation on her elbow.
then its to training i'm going.
should i attempt to jog there? :)

anyways, games are cancelled/postponed by 2 weeks.
last week's game put us back on the table,
now we're in 3rd.
blacks are looking good, with no losses,
but its UWC that has the highest points scored,
only that they've lost to blacks.
so i'd say the UWC and blacks game is quite important for us,
if we want to meet our objectives this season.

yesterday's training was not too bad.
its starting to feel like a team again.
rachel joined us for training.
ruby and i had our own runs prior to training,
followed by more running during the drills and fitness.
i have a feeling my diet is not working,
so i'm going to compensate with more jogging.
i'm slowly learning not to hate it.
and my ankle's a bitch,
its so weak.
with sudden pressure in certain angles,
and it snaps or locks itself,
only to hurt like a bitch after.
and the pain will go away after 5 mins, kinda.
pms ankle.
i can't stand it, literally.

Wonderful

Wonderful, isn't it wonderful now

I close my eyes when I get too sad
I think thoughts that I know are bad
Close my eyes and I count to ten
Hope it's over when I open them

I want the things that I had before
Like a Star Wars poster on my bedroom door
I wish I could count to ten
And make everything be wonderful again

I hope my mom and I hope my dad
Will figure out why they get so mad
I hear them scream, I hear them fight
They say bad words that makes me want to cry

Close my eyes when I go to bed and I
Dream of angels who make me smile
I feel better when I hear them say that
Everything will be wonderful some day

Please don't tell me everthing is wonderful now
I go to school and I run and play
I tell the kids that it's all ok
I have to laugh so my friends wont know

When the bell rings I just don't want to go home
Go to my room and I close my eyes
I make believe that I have a new life
I don't believe you when you say that
Everything will be wonderful some day

Promises mean everything
When you're little and the world is so big
I just don't understand how
You can smile with all those tears in your eyes
When you tell me everything is wonderful now.

I don't want to hear you tell me everything is wonderful now.
I don't want to hear you say that I will understand some day.
I don't want to start over again

I just want my life to be the same
Just like it used to be
Somedays, I hate everything,
Everyone and everything
Please don't tell me everything is wonderful now.


there's just something weighing on my mind,
and my options are running wild.
as much as i understand the reasoning and logic,
i just can't let go, of either.
not when i've worked for it,
and looked forward to how things would turn out, for both.
i feel like just running further and further away,
and try to make sense of everything.
i don't want to have to chose.
not when things are actually starting to seem,
wonderful again.
and yes, the storm came.

zzz

i predict a storm .

and there's training today.
its either gonna be damn good,
or bad with ball handling.
at least it'll soften the field up.

rachel found the song i was soooooooooo looking for!
keyshia cole - love.
thanks love!

well, yeah thats about it.
omg i need excitement.
i need to adjust my sleeping clock.
friday cafe del ma please don't rain!

i need to get my data from nurul's hardisk!
i'm tired of playing the same songs on replay,
and having a few photos to look at.
thursday aiights darl?

anyway, check out this link.
its singapore's very own online magazine,
to save the tree/paper.
thus the name. HAHA.
its a pretty good read, casual.
but graphics are good.
most of all, its free.
and monthly,
so check itout, and spread the word round
http://www.sotmagazine.com/


yup ok bye.
thank you come again.

my visual DNA

Read my VisualDNA™ Get your own VisualDNA™

i got this off ad's blog.
fun, easy and visually appealing 'quiz'
which really just interprits your character.
refreshing. try it.
few little things that came out about me was thirst for affection and high sex drive,
that i'm a creature of habit with bold personality and a wild side,
and a romantic dreamer.

read for yourself.
after clicking on the link to 'read my VisualDNA',
click on switch view to see what mine says about me.

mood check: grumpy

couples night

st james last night!
with marli, sujan, mag, ju, ad, and the rest of their friends
with taking danm long to decide what to wear,
i got out of the house BARELY even before the first raindrop broke.
HENG!
and on the way walking down my road past the ulu ulu field,
there he appeared.
MY NEIGHBOURHOOD STALKER!
heh.
at first i thought shit, is it it.
till he, 'STEPHANIE?"
wah thanks.
ask me where i going, ask if i have a sister?
coz he said he saw someone who looks like me on this road.
zomg.
but no, my sisters and i do not look alike, all of us.
naomi called me just in time and i picked up and went.
it was darn scary that lighting and thunder was everywhere!
especially in that open field!
and we saw the same lightning though she was all the way at clarke quay!
got into a cab and picked the 2 from the mansion and to st james in the pouring rain we went.

jazz room is our favourite drinking room.
the usual 5-10. then we had our hai dai championships square off.
and alas, witness the birth of tpruuuuuuuuu, right ju? HAHA!
but the jazz room is really cool.
the live band singer like very, broadway crooner. smoothh.
and good lookingly (gay)
this time with more people we still couldnt finish the bottle.
HUR!

to the boiler room!
the initial time was fun,
shouting, head banging, putting lighter and handphone up to sway to music.
and making fun of the damn action gutarist.
rawk never dies brooo.
and i never did realise that the singer was hardy mirza!! haha!
but thanks. i was behind a pillar only to catch a good glimpse of the gutarist rawker
after that we just wormed our way to the front for some lancing.
and it hit me.

omg its couples night.
so i take back the last para off my last entry!! :(
i think theres something wrong with me.
everyone around me, or people i know are slowly coming with another half.
like they have stories and chapters of their life together.
and they look, happy.
not them i'm currently not,
but it'll just be nice. and warm.

the dancefloor cleared out abit after 3,
it was left with mag, ad, ju and myself.
so we headed to the latin room.
worming the way out was tough!
first this who initially was dancing near us stuck out his phone hoping for a number.
then this other dude stared me down.
further up this dude chatted me up.
A+ for courage i guess? but F- for common sense.
he just kept repeating himself in malay. me just going huh? what?
so on and on he went in malay till i went
I AM NOT MALAY.
oh.
mag called me a heartbreaker.
i just explained my mut magnet theory to her.
and how i kinda hate it.
and how i'm quite bitchy about it.

the latin room is a confused room
it kept playing weird songs.
from latin to samba to hiphop to oldies.
wtf.
the crowd was different.
danced around abit, and we left at about 4.
cabbed to drop mag home first,
and in the tunnel a cab that drove beside us had someone who looked quite cute.
but then again he sat in the shadow.
he had like slightly long hair. tied up i think? and a goatee or some form of facial hair.
it kinda look like our situation, 4 people share cab after clubbing home kind.
so i looked over, he looked back.
we both at the far corner of the cab from each other.
suddenly he put a peace sign.
WAH. LOL.
so i peace back la.
then one by one we all started waving at each other.
what cheap thrill! lol.
they were heading to the thompson area i think?
i dont know im not a west or central side person.
if fate has it we'll meet again.
what a cool story it'll be. like,
"hey were you the girl/guy who stuck out the peace sign?"
lol.

got home just in time to see mum leave for the sunday golf in malaysia.
'wah come home early ah'
didnt know she had some sarcasm in her.
went to the kitchen for food.
lucky earlier on i couldnt finish my sushi i had for dinner.
so chomp chomping away.
then it was getting ready for bed,
and for the first time in a long while i had uninterrupted sleep.
all the way till 2.30.
waking up just in time to get something to eat,
and then watch my extreme makeover: home edition
no tearing today PLEASE. lol.
oh, it reminds me, i soooooooooooo exceeded my calorie count yesterday. wtffff.
week3 starts tmr.

it'll just be the icing on the cake.

high.

darn tired la.
can fall asleep standing.
i think my sleep clock is really screwed up.
and it choses the worse time to act up.
i'm having trouble sleeping.

every saturday is a stl game.
and without fail on friday nights,
no matter how early i get into bed,
i just roll and toss and turn.
IT FISHING SUCKS.

todays game was alright.
my virgin try this STL season.
she fell for my fake, and the gaps on both sides were quite big.
second break through from a quickie and their offside,
though i didn't get support.
i think my legs sleeping. i felt like i was a tortoise. HA!
my favourite was the last try.
it was on the 5M mark, and i held the ball for abit,
and initially i decided to dump on the 5, but nooo.
i drifted to the left, and from that created a 3 vs 2 situation,
and then fast hands to the winger lorain to score. WOOOOOOOOOOOOOP woop.
it was just, inciatiable.
(i know i spelt that wrongly)
yes, i'm still overwhelmed with excitement so i'm rambling on about the game.
BUT its a great come back from last week.
13-0, TPIRANHASssSsssSssSSss.
though its a bigger test to see if we can keep things up as a team.
good going girls! :) :) :) :)
XOXOXOXOXO!!!!

contact training was brief. basically just passes.
for about 40 mins and we were done
they had a game after,
anyway the turnout was terrible,
just rania, kate, ruby and i.
we stayed to watch the bucks margarita's game,
(my mistake from the initial post, kami's from margaritas, not mohitos)
there was a damn bottle on the official's table, labeled,
cream susu kambing.
translation: cream of goat's milk.
WTF.
and bryan was saying he put some on his calf. HEH!
oh well, it did smell like deep heat.
and we met 2 boys, daniel and anthony.
they're sooooooooooooooooooooo adorable.
they caught a gecko! HEH
though i still have my suspicion that its a gecko.
i swear its a serpant. like a little snakc with legs. eww.
it freak the shit out of me of corse.
but they're so brave.
and we kept giving them suggestions on what to name it.
onto the field we went to watch the game.
i enjoyed rather, the little chat i had with ruby,
about my dating woes.
i love ruby. she makes people feel special. and loved. and good enough. :)
especially with insecure steph.
but i guess what she had to say made sense. i kinda felt that way but it wasnt for me to say,
that perhaps guys think i'm intimidating?
or high maintenance?
or a bitch.
or just goofy?
or demanding?
or they just leave me out of their league coz they label me as out of their league.
arghhhhhhh.
and she said i'm looking in wrong places.
maybe i should check under rocks. :)
perhaps that's how i become a mat magnet?
enligten me.
after that we spent the rest of the first half comparing and complaining about bellys.
sushi dinner at home for steph!
bird had laksa and she couldnt stop laughing with the cheeseball joke abt it i made. HEH/
her turn to be hooked on prison break ;)

i could do with a relationship,
someone reliable to rely on,
and be goofy with me
and pig out in front of the tv with mr ben and miss jerry,
and then tahan my whining about me being fattttt.
and getting caught in the rain with
and to carry the umbrella. :)
and argue over what movie to watch or who turn it is to turn off the lights.
and lends me his sweater though he's shivering his balls off.
it'll be nice.
but i can do without.
i'm pretty content at where my life is.


i hope clubbing today's fun.
to make up for the sober ladies night this wednesday.
let's disco babeh!

prison break!

OMG i'm done with season two of prison break!!
WOOOOOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOO.
from 5pm all the way till 1am.
having a lil headache,
but my goodness, it was goooooood.

stl game tmr, versus another bucks team.
then after bucks contact training at the same place.
heh.
if i'm not wrong we're playing kami's team,
that'll be, hmmm, interesting?
clubbing after!! :)
schedule overload for tmr,
to make up for a schedule underload today?

i really hate how things have become,
and its a shame,
especially since so many people have fought for it for so long.
and how too much was sacrificed and lost along the way.
don't spoil things now.
don't make something so hard fought to be achieved,
just go down the drain
because of disagreements of views or discontent.
play a part.
fight for something you've help earn.
defend it,
and not just yourself.
don't make it a battle we fight among ourselves.
its evil.

why are you doing this?

I scored 32.

Dr Phil's Test

Answers are for who you are now, not who you were in the past.
Have pen or pencil and paper ready.
This is a real test given by the Human Relations Dept. at many of the major corporations today.
It helps them get better insight concerning their employees and prospective employees.

It's only 10 Simple questions,
so grab a pencil and paper, keeping track of your letter answers to each question.

Ready??
Begin...

1. When do you feel your best?
a) in the morning
b) during the afternoon &and early evening
c) late at night

2. You usually walk. ..
a) fairly fast, with long steps
b) fairly fast, with little steps
c) less fast head up, looking the world in the face
d) less fast, head down
e) very slowly

3. When talking to people you..
a) stand with your arms folded
b) have your hands clasped
c) have one or both your hands on your hips
d) touch or push the person to whom you are talking
e) play with your ear, ! touch your chin, or smooth your hair

4. When relaxing, you sit with..
a) your knees bent with your legs neatly side by side
b) your legs crossed
c) your legs stretched out or straight
d) one leg curled under you

5. When something really amuses you, you react with...
a) big appreciated laugh
b) a laugh, but not a loud one
c) a quiet chuckle
d) a sheepish smile

6. When you go to a party or social gathering you..
a) make a loud entrance so everyone notices you
b) make a quiet entrance, looking around for someone you know
c) make the quietest entrance, trying to stay unnoticed

7. You're working very hard, concentrating hard, and you're interrupted.......
a) welcome the break
b) feel extremely irritated
c) vary between these two extremes

8. Which of the following colors do you like most?
a) Red or orange
b) black
c) yellow or light blue
d) green
e) dark blue or purple
f) white
g) brown or gray

9. When you are in bed at night, in those last few moments before going to sleep you are..
a) stretched out on your back
b) stretched out face down on your stomach
c) on your side, slightly curled
d) with your head on one arm
e) with your head under the covers

10. You often dream that you are...
a) falling
b) fighting or struggling
c) searching for something or somebody
d) flying or floating
e) you usually have dreamless sleep
f) your dreams are always pleasant

POINTS:
1. (a) 2 (b) 4 (c) 6
2. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c) 7 (d) 2 (e) 1
3. (a) 4 (b) 2 (c) 5 (d) 7 (e) 6
4. (a) 4 (b) 6 (c) 2 (d) 1
5. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c) 3 (d) 5 (e) 2
6. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c) 2
7. (a) 6 (b) 2 (c) 4
8. (a) 6 (b) 7 (c) 5 (d) 4 (e) 3 (f) 2 (g) 1
9. (a) 7 (b) 6 (c) 4 (d) 2 (e) 1
10. (a) 4 (b) 2 (c) 3 (d) 5 (e) 6 (f) 1
Now add up the total number of points.

OVER 60 POINTS : Others see you as someone they should "handle with care." You're seen as vain, self-centered, and who is extremely dominant.. Others may admire you, wishing they could be more like you, but don't always trust you, hesitating to become too deeply involved with you.

51 TO 60 POINTS: Others see you as an exciting, highly volatile, rather impulsive personality; a natural leader, who's quick to make decisions, though not always the right ones. They see you as bold and adventuresome, someone who will try anything once; someone who takes chances and enjoys an adventure. They enjoy being in your company because of the excitement! you radiate.

41 TO 50 POINTS: Others see you as fresh, lively, charming, amusing, practical, and always interesting; someone who's constantly in the center of attention, but sufficiently well-balanced not to let it go to their head. They also see you as kind, considerate, and understanding; someone who'll always cheer them up and help them out.

31 TO 40 POINTS: Others see you as sensible, cautious, careful & practical. They see you as clever, gifted, or talented, but modest. Not a person who makes friends too quickly or easily, but someone who's extremely loyal to friends you do make and who expect the same loyalty in return. Those who really get to know you realize it takes a lot to shake your trust In your friends, but equally that it takes you a long time to get over if that trust is ever broken.

21 TO 30 POINTS: Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy. They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder. It would! really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment, expecting you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then, usually decide against it. They think this reaction is caused partly by your careful nature.

UNDER 21 POINTS: People think you are shy, nervous, and indecisive, someone who needs looking after, who always wants someone else to make the decisions & who doesn't want to get involved with anyone or anything! They see you as a worrier who always sees problems that don't exist. So me people think you're boring. Only those who know you well know that you aren't.

** i scored a 32. i guess the friends and trust part hits the nail on the head, and it applies to all types of relationships in my life.

anyways.
what a lazy friday .
the del ma plans went down the drain, again.
MUNA!! :(
note to self. wake up early.
the package has been delivered, over.
roger that, opening it and embarking on a marathon, over.
affirmative.
prison break II marathon today, over and out!

(thanks deedee, and mag!)

hot cheese slice.

so today is the team's agm.
official handing over of posts.

it started late, so as always i couldnt just sit and wait,

i needed entertainment.

sooo...

win, lose, or draw!

yesss.

categories and topics made up by me.

like jimmy eat world. or polly pocket. or or captain planet! LOL

quite fun la.

though some people dont want draw.

and deedee keep guessing it right.

and half the time people just, dont give a damn what the person is drawing.

wartever.

meeting started when ifa came.

achievements of the past year.

handing over of commitee and jobscope.

expectations of the year 07/08.

and she had her 1st annual, last and only ifa bubu awards ceremony.

where prizes were given out for recognition.

like best defense for vie.

most commited for shimo.

speedy gonzelas for haha.

miss bubble for nic claire.

most agressive for aini.

best cheerleader pauline.

most passionate for charlotte.

basically everyone had a best something .

well i got..

hottest tpiranha!

WAHHHHHHH. lol.

so if you have a beer belly, thunder thighs and bye bye arms,

don't fret.

still got chance, like me :)

dinner after at habibie.

18 pax!! first time ever.

i don't recall having a meal with the team,

esp the yr1s, only since the camp .

oh how time flies.

the food was alright.

i miss the santa claus unclee! :(

our whole table conversation revolved around sex.

and rape and sex and sex related jokes and kumar.

WAH.

take home moment of the day was ifa's oh so quick reaction to the 'in between' joke.

i miss watching kumar!

soon soon right shimo? :)

home it was,

and i wanted to test out the new bus service number 5.

which is oh so awesome!

it goes to both my busstops off the 2 main roads on each side of my house.

and it goes to town! and novena! right to naomi's!

and and, it passes by the safra nearby school.

so its another option of bus.

but i hate taking bus, alone.

moreso when the destination is nearby, but i need to change bus.

its irritating.

ANYWAYs, i took a bus to that stop. and waited for bus 5 to come.

blasting my mp3, i notice this guy walk form the front seat thing and sat next to me.

and i hear his 'excuse me'

ignore once, twice, thrice.

very rude la, so i just YES?

apprantly his friend sitting in front wants to get to know me.

ok.

persistant little fella who i think finds entertainment in my different versions of excuses of 'no.'.

finally he left. his friend followed after,

of corse after tripping over a parked bicycle. HEH.

i didnt know i still had it in me.

but why whywhy!?!

am i a MAT MAGNET!?!

maybe i also choosy la ah.

after all he did say he wanted to be friends

but one can never be too careful.

don't tell me you've never seen graffittis of people's number and explicit content that may or may not be true.

but then again i'm hyprocritical.

i'd rather a prince charming who'd just sweep me off my small feet.

then i'll give my number, address, email, friendster. WAH.

lol. just playyyyyyyying.

after all, i am one of those in a packet of kraft cheese slices...

single.

unladies night

met lu to go to town today.
wanted to get the canterburry shorts which i reserved last week .
first time i was early and lu was surprised!
oh well.

went to far east first to get chippys!
yes yes, my diet count violator!
then walked around far east.
then to wisma.
then to taka.
felix met us.
MY TRAINING CANCELLED.
that boy called me at 10am just to tell me he passed his driving.
but not bad la, terror can pass.
like i knew he would anyways.
tim and pan came after.
shimo too. then the 2 girls went off to do threading.
we went to heeren for my shorts,
then take for food.
cranky naomi who hung up the phone on tim and myself came after the boys chomped down their mos burger.
according to tim its the best burger in the world .
anways, to POOL! :)
yess. first time i've played pool with these people, esp my lil mimi.
couldn't help but feel the place was very, bedok. or pasir ris.
you figure it out. :)
played till 11PM! my gosh.
rounds and rounds, even got partnershipss and the battle of the sexes.
80% of game time was for thinking says felix.
then we went our seperate ways to avoid the midnight taxi charge.

met rachel at city hall.
went to supper at simpang.
the same uncle tried to sell me his nasi lemak again.
maybe he got commission or something LOL.
chilled and cabbed home after.
felix flying off tmr morning for aussie land for 2 weeks.

oh well.
pretty much a straight forward day.
first time since the holidays started that we were sober on a wednesday.
i need some exercise!!
goodnight world.

japan hour.

happy 19th to darren.

the chalet was alright.
i hate bbqing food.
esp when the smoke gets in your eyes.
but i had fun making the burgers with naomi.
the 'flamed grilled panties on the buttered buns.'
LOL darn funny la.
SLAP THOSE PANTIES (patties) ON!
china man was not as fun as other times.
maybe the group big la.
i swear out of the 3 rounds i never took more then 3 sips.
versus darren, de li, xavier and felix who kept killing themselves by just,
not shutting up.
seriously, the cannot speak english rule totally nailed you guys.
chilled at the pool with the girls after while waiting for tim to be done with his poker.
lester made us balloon flowers on our wrists.
so rachel had hers on, and hers was white petals with a red centre.
so when i asked to checked the time, she flung out her watch and asked,
WHAT TIME?!
so steph said... can you guess?




japan hour.


WAH!
ok perhaps it was funnier there and then.
so after gazillions of mozzie bites we went back into the chalet to get our stuff
nao, rach tim and i shared a cab.
dropping me off first, at the main road.
and i had to walk in the looong ulu pandan rambutan way in.
halfway through i spooked myself.
i just don't like walking around at night when there are ALOT of trees around.
worse walking below a tree.
and not to mention that the school in front of my house is freaking haunted.
so i phoned naomi.
what a wuss.
but really laaa.
all those pontianaks and what nots like to camp on trees,
plus i've had people ever tell me they can see it there,
and i've heard noises as if they were jumping from tree to tree,
and smelt the infamous frangipani scent.
call me superstitious or just a pussy.
but these things do freak the bageesus out of me.

slept through most of the monday.
rushed to watch music and lyrics with felix.
last min plans.
chilled and ate.
and ZOMG i broke my diet, again. :(
met trev to simpang.
which part of nasi lemak is in my diet you tell me?!?

anyway trev was telling me things that were weighing on his heart,
and it just got me thinking.
hey i'm like that too sometimes.
so it was a refreshing insight to a guy's point of view.
on how they read girl's signals.
so as much as i was tongue-tied because of guilt whilst trying to reason out and defend the female species,
i could empathize with why he's feeling how he is.
walked home form simpang was funny and interesting and gross at the same time.
and only between us. LOL.
beansprouts!
but i do hope trev, that things do turn out for the better.
i'm still a precher of things happening for a reason.
and its just a matter of time till you find the reason and work around it.

and it just struck me, that i shouldnt be soooo surprise why i've been like, single for 2yrs plus.
there are things that perhaps i could have handled better,
feelings i should have taken care of more.
and somehow i just wish i could work around my own insecurities and stop victimizing people as a result of it,
or even myself.
i just wish somehow, i could just stop thinking so much,
follow my heart over my head without thinking of what ifs,
just leave it to fate to put everything into perfect prospective
and live happily ever after.




but of corse, that only happens in fairy tales :)

outsmarting teachers.

how kids outsmart teachers.
the classic way.


the elimination method.


again.


then there's common sense?


and creative problem solving.


or the ol' try till you die method and not leave anything blank.


testing luck..


and aplying what television teaches you.

making sense of the question.

and the best classic one...

technically, he's right.







boring sunday.
dindin with dad laters to god knows where,
then chalet for darren's 19th .
no training till tuesday.
bobby and i have a packs challenge (which i will win FYI)
maybe la, but hopefully.
with the drinking after training for bucks tradition,
is abit of a scary feet, especially for the beer belly.
i'm halfheartedly complaining can you tell?
beer after training IS undeniably, gooood.
extreme makeover home edition is evilllllll,
make people cry only :(
oh well.


strange how in new environments, you feel more welcomed and appreciated,
like they make it worth your time, and theirs.
if only people would realise,
and take steps for changes.
changes for the better.

home stay

room update!!
heres what i have left to get:

* curtains
* extention cord for the lamp the dears bought for my birthday!
* phone!
* disco ball
* amplifiers
* dustbin
* photo frames (LOTS!)

that's pretty much about it.
i got a mini fridge as a side table.
my lava lamp bulb already replaced.
i very lazy to measure curtains.
my fabric dye was pathethic.
my table is in a mess.

i've still yet to pick a room warming date.
maybe the week before school starts :)
we'll see.

spent the whole day at home today.
i woke up at 3.30! ZOMG.
mummy's home. she's not well.
spent most of my day browsing online for recipes.
which obviously led to cravings.
and me, violating my calory count.
i had half a chocolate bar, potato chips. forbidden foods!
zomg.
i'm implementing a 1.5L water intake a day as well,
i read somewhere it increases matabolism rate,
seeing how mine is DEAD altogether.


i forgot to mention,
I NEARLY GOT BANGED DOWN!!
yes.
happened when i was on my way home from town,
when i met up with rachel, felix, timo, eugene, pan, darren and aisyah on tuesday!
i was walking home, already 11+.
then then. i was about to cross the entrance of the HDB carpark.
and just out of nowhere,
this old man came out from the corner.
just VERY suddenly.
scared the peanuts out of my ears!
but i think i scare him more la ah. heh.
he stop, i stop, i walked, he went.
like those irritating little indian dance head bobbing around a coconut scene incident.
and so yes,
ladies, gentlemen and good children,
be careful of bicycles when crossing the road.


and that concludes another exciting episode of my oh so colourful life.

i'll never fall in love.

What do you get when you fall in love?
A guy with a pin to burst your bubble
That's what you get for all your trouble.
I'll never fall in love again.

What do you get when you kiss a guy?
You get enough germs to catch pneumonia.
After you do, he'll never phone you.
I'll never fall in love again.

Don't tell me what is all about,
'Cause I've been there
and I'm glad I'm out,
Out of those chains, those chains that bind you
That is why I'm here to remind you

What do you get when you fall in love?
You get enough tears to fill an ocean
That's what you get for your devotion.
I'll never fall in love again.

What do you get when you fall in love?
You only get lies and pain and sorrow.
So, for at least until tomorrow,
I'll never fall in love again!

i love this song.

what a coincident to how i was feeling,

on my way home from zouk last night

I HATE ZOUK BTFW.

anywayss. updates for the past weeeeek.

i've had lots of time to think .

and time to myself.

and i just think. i deserve much better then what life/love has thrown at me of late.

last wednesday was just a reflection of people

and their roles in my life.

who i need, and dont need.

who i can rely on, and who i can't

and sad to say, among all who were with me,

there's only that ONE significent you that falls in the latters.

so i've decided, to let myself go.

from you.

its just a recollection of what happened last week,

seeing how i didnt have the capacity to actually know or remember.

and everything's been pieced together for me by people who were there.

i won't lie, its hurts.

i know, again, not to rely on you to be there,

when actually i think, you just can't or don't want to be.

its such a pity, to how great you can be,

undearneath that facade of yours.

i never want a repeat of last wednesday.

it was utter misery.

physically and emotionally.

i hated the state i was in.

i don't know why i allow myself to hurt me so badly.

but that shall be the last time steph! LOL .

results are out!!

i'm quite pleased with how i did.

its enough motivation for me to work harder next sem .

my GPA went up by 0.3!! WEE!

my accounts coursework was a F and after the paper

(which i did in an hour due to driving)

IT WENT UP TO A D+!! heh!

2 grades up! why did i start studying earlier.

its quite easy and understandable.

b+ for culi

B for lodging

C+ for F&B ops, facilities management (went down a grade!) and mice

i thought i'd do worse la.

considering how 'deligent' a student i was this sem.

or year ratherr..

i'll sure miss sentosa.

i'm just afraid in the next year i'll have less time to spend with people whom i'm always with.

tampines campus is so big, and spaced.

no more bumping into familiar faces as much .

plus. i'm hesitant to know who's gonna be in the same class as me again next year.

i just have a problem adjusting comfort zones, initially at least.

oh wellllll.

rugby's taking most of my time.

or evenings rather.

trainings and games.

and my earlier part of the day i'm still Zzzzzzzz. lol.

my ankle pains are coming on and off at the worst times!

and my body hasnt had the time to recover from aches.

hopefully it'll only get better.

I BOUGHT MYSELF NEW CANTERBERRY SHORTS!!

the half green half white one.

reserved a pair and i'm eyeing a backpack.

and wearing a mouthguard is a bitch.

it feels, painful. cant even close my mouth.

but its addictive to chew on (shhhh)

doubt ill use it often anyways.

prior to zouk was out before, and then went to ccab for training.

it wasnt as heavy as expected,

seeing how david mentioned he wanted to do fitness.

phew!

and alas! blooper of the day.

i foreseen it coming,

seeing how i did stupid things thoughout the day.

my bag VERY fat,

so while walking to the mrt station to meet shimona,

i pulled out my training gear and out plonked my pink and black panties.

ZOMG.

then then, during training,

while going for a takle on the tackling pad with speed,

i just BOUNCED back, onto lu and rania.

LOL.

i SWEAR it was david putting more weight and strength onto the pad.

it was darn funny, very cartoon like.

embarassing pls!

especially if people were watching from far.

ANYWAY.

i've started myself on a diet.

i'm counting calories now.

not exceeding 500 calories a day,

and only raw foods,

meaning beans, seeds, fruits, vegetables yadder yadder.

so far so good. of corse the occasional snacking whilst giving into cravings. LOL

but thats forgivable, i AM A GIRL!:)

i feel my love handles melting away slowly,

but surely *wink*

FASTER LEH!

i dont want to remain fat.

i give myself 3 months, TOPS!

chop!

bathe change then flu and myself went to fetch naomi go zouk,

chop then clinic and momo for drinks

then back to zouk for lancing mambo!

i dont like the crowd and crowdedness!

phuture totally packed.

mambo podium with people i love and know is awesome.

even though we werent doing that syncronised shit.

got video camera somemore! LOL .

naomi totally ditched me for a guy while we were at phuture for awhile.

we went back to phuture again the last few mins before closing.

and they played the song "sexy love"

zomg, emotion rush.

just very, feeling. LOL.

'she makes the hair on the back on my neck stand'

darn sexy la the song, and it just makes me feel miserable.

and THEN. got an oi oi OI situation.

naomi la! LOL.

got people keep shoving into our space,

(i mean DUH its packed)

then she just anyhow WHACK and shove someone.

sui sui is shove wrong person, who just so happen to be walking past.

AND he thought it was felix who shoved him.

then a 3 sec staredown and oi oi OIs.

then pan 'deng deng deng DENG" *superhero soundtrack*

emerged from the back of felix and formed a great wall of china.

ZOMG. LOL.

a little pulling of the boys back then act like nothing.

just only pan's face darn black.

and my feeling feeling emo mood was spoilt. LOL.

at the corner of my eye, i saw naomi like smiling and not affected when there was tention.

now i know.

when we went out of the club she admitted it was HER who pushed the fella.

and my dear girl,

we are buying you a lanyard,

and photocopying 'missing report' forms of all the clubs we frequent.

all in precaution of your deportation.

and you being broke.

the cab driver who drove us east siders home was very nice.

this coming from a person who cab drivers hate. swear.

cab count of the day - 5.

and it felt comforting being alone.

solace in the silence.

innocence.

a long time friend mr augustine soong sent me his flicker site.
and zomg.
emotion rush!
his photographs were, i found, were very artistic and tastefully taken.
its a redefination of savouring the moments in life.
awesome.



and it was hard to chose a one favourite
i like the seagull one, and the lizard one,
and father and son, and stroll!
but i only wanted to upload one picture,
and i picked this.

its just such reminance of the past. or of childhood.
where parents let you do whatever the hell you want
right or wrong, you could get away with anything.
and the curious side of a toddler infused with innocence.
darn cute la.
see the baby fat. the diapers. the CURLY HAIR!
I WISH MY FUTURES KIDS LOOK LIKE THAT AH.
and he's trying to catch the water in the cap!
(assuming its a boy la)
HOW ADORABLE!
this picture may not be the most artistic of the lot,
but i was just so drawn to it.
like i just wanna go back to when i was yay tall,
and just be, carefree.
don't have to worry about anything,
not even where to take a shit or pee.
unknown to what the nex day brings, you don't care.
just as long as you see colours and familiar faces around you.
and just being innocently cute, as if it were a crime,
and taking comfort in being snuggly loved.
and of corse smelling fresh of baby powder :)
and the power of a cry and how it attracts adults to you at 85km/hr

don't you wish you were there again, once upon a yesterday?

navy touch photos!

i finally managed to get hold of pictures from the navy games!!
not all yet though,
so check back! :)

day started off with witness of a horrific crash between several vehicles.
of corse i took note of the number plates :)
it was nearby, but a long-ass drive in to the place itself.
here goes!


my bus buddy.


boot up!

*followed by both teams having games, so no photos.
during the lunch break its when the cam whores come out!
GRAWL!*





steph, shimo, yam and deeee!


redbull gives you WINGSSS! (and the shits)


sunburnt steph and sunshine shimo.

then we decided the stand were too boring for us.
and so the real adventure beginsss!




official poster of the day,
and cockster steph just had to do that pose.
then we had fun with out two new bestfriends.


shimo: "hi miss, pleased to make your aquitence. do you mind several photos?"


aparently not! :)
but we more interested in the hunk!


ooooooooooooooh yeah!


pimpinnnnnn'!


now get down, literally.
LOL. explicit stuff there!
kids close your eyes!


aie yai captain!
tiko la he.


ok maybe he not tiko!
we too hot action for him,
he cannot take it and pang san on us.
ruby and i tried our best to re_erect him! LOL!
moving on!


we love balls.


yup, we do.


and we love jumping too! :)


or at least trying to.


ting! :)


ahhh, just pose also easierrrrrrr.
the people in the background prolly think we are nutcase bimbos.


yam and myself.


runaway extinct tortoise!
(i wish i was this slim! )


and so the picture madness concludes with us being locked up
in the mental asylum.

BACK TO THE GAMES!
we played each other
and it got down to the sudden death to determine who was the up winner and runner up.
in the end, it was the other team that prevailed,
with a finishing run by the miss legs nicole.
nonetheless, we had fun! :)
and it was a good day.
go home time!

my hottest face of the day!

on our plaque we won! LOL!

here mr lawrenz, we won this! WAH!
metamorphosis of a tortoise to a pig.

poor shimo sat on the floor,

no guy was gentlemanly enough to let her sit on the seat.

pigs.

since my com is temporarily up,

i can log online,

and since i can log online,

i'm getting past photos which i havnt gotten.

and so look for news of past entries update with photos promised.

that's all for now.

chao dude.

p.s. i've put up my birthday photos! go take a look see. its in january 2007 archibes

macbeth!

so today was mummy's bday.
she was at home in the day, she didnt go to work,
she went for a check up instead .
the only time i saw her was when she was napping.

after i came out of the shower, i realised she was going out too.
so we left the house together,
at least she wanted to, coz it was raining.
and she knew her daughter all too well,
in that she wouldnt want to carry an umbrella.
so she wanted to shelter her.
so sweet right.

and i still havnt wished her.

planned la.
like since she going out,
then when she come back we have a cake ready for her and celebrate.
so i went to meet naomi at bugis, rachel after .
naomi meet me always late.
we went to han's for food.
alfredo pasta for me please!
naomi had her super beed burger. ooooh.
she spread the chilli on the bun and pattie like bread and jam i swear.
we went to the library where we were going to meet rachel.
macbeth here we come!!
naomi's sister was macbeth and it was their play, thus us watching.
and and, while loitering around the lobby, this lady approached us,
and offered to give us tickets to titaodao.
(or however you spell it)
apparently she's a teacher and her students were suppose to come,
but somehow they didnt and she wanted to give the extra tickets to us.
$47 ones ah! shiok.
dont be surprised if tmr i go there and wait and see if i get free tickets again.
i wish! LOL.

so we went in. it felt more like an african play, initially.
i think that was the setting or theme or something.
costumes and stage was dressed up in that way,
even the drums.
but overall it was good.
hard to understand, so much so that at one scene i just, blanks and stoned out.
and snapped back to earth.
i cant imagine remembering thaaaat much lines, in that language.
theres this one actor, that really connects with the audience with eye contact,
so much so that it tickles me.
there was a scene where he repeatedly goes "take my hand"
and directed it to one of the front row audience, and goes softer each time he says it.
i giggled at the thought of her ReALLY standing up to take his hand ah.
that would have been something to look for.
then then, this same actor, when it was the time to kill macbeth part,
stood in front of me,
and i dont know, is it a tactic to focus on one person or what,
but when he recited his lines, it was like directed to me,
that he reallllllly wanted to kill me. i swolled hard. LOL .
then he did like, killing actions .
wah thanks .
bumbum pains! :S
and the most frequently used words :
1. MACBETH! *said with accent*
2. thy breaSSStsSSS *emphesis on the 's'*
3. thy bloooood
4. thy cousins


food at macd's after.
naomi gave rachel her word that she'll get ice cream for her.
rachel plonked the money down, she refused.

naomi: "i thought you meant ice cream on me."
steph: "no la, not on you. on the cone! "

*burst out laughing of the rachel and steph again. naomi and her signature stare to follow*
and claim we always bully her.
NO LA NEVER!
just that little silly silly things you do and say here and there,
that makes us have our daily ab's exercise.
love you doll!

after that rushed home coz i heard mum was already on her way.
by the time i got home, she not surprised already la.
so much for not wishing her today and surprising her.
but tmr we taking her to dinner.
(oh no, food again! :( )
still havnt really decided on where.
sigh .

i rather enjoyed today, with people i love.
just for that one, who wouldnt let me know if he's staying, or going.
dear rachel, next time your house rain, call starfunny.
dear naomi, yes, you are special!
and i love you both many much.
like a fat kid love cake.


goodnight world.

what does your sign say.

.:CAPRICORN:.
The passioate Lover

Love to bust. Nice.
Sassy. Intelligent.
Sexy. Predict future.
Irrestible, awesome kisser.
Loves being in long relationships.
Great talker.
Always gets what he or she wants.
BY FAR the BEST in BED.
Very sexy. Coolest.
Loves to own Gemini's in sports.
Extremely fun. Loves to joke.
Loves to be your first. So you'll never forget.
Smart.


** for full list, find meeeee.

its over, not!

and so its officially over.
the academic year of 06/07.
gonna be a final year student next time school starts.
and what the hell am i going to do after i graduate?!?!!

oh well, thats another thing to think about.

today is moody day.
i don't know what's wrong with me,
and whats that lurking pre-occupation on my mind,
that i can't seem to chake off, or figure out what is it.
i just know, its eating me up from inside.

the papers flew by, i feel like i'm not using my brain cells.
no i'm not dumb, neither am i genius.
everything just felt, blank.
WHAT IS WITH THE MOODY DAY?!

after the 9pm mice paper,
it was the sweet freedom .
of corse the usual indecisive people couldnt decide to go where,
so i had dinner with my favourite girls,
at my homie's place, mr habibie!
from far far away he wave at me, naomi got scared! LOL.
stingray, kang kang, and hotplate beef was shiok.
the drink auntie talk to me in malay i talk back to her in chinese.
i terror or what :)
chatted after in what to do during the holidays and we came up with the nonsense,
that rachel needed to poop i needed to pee.
and together it makes, poop-pee-poop-pee.
and popeye (thought it doesnt make much sense)
then naomi say NO LA ITS pooo-eeee
and steph the bitch went
IS IT LIKE POOOOII SAN?
rachel and steph burst out laughing to a stiffed face naomi,
staring at the goofballs like it wasnt funny
though she knew it was and was about to laugh too,
and then rachel said stummy and she giggled abit.
ah, i can't wait for the holidays with these bum bums.
bali pleaseeeeeeeeeeeee.

cabbed home coz i reaaaaaly couldnt hold my bladder,
my stamina no bladder, right.
home, and then realised i still have to plan mum's birthday.
and i've got no clues.

and sometimes i wish people would give me a break.
give me a hug to show they miss me and that i should come back to earth,
versus a sister whos raising her voice coz mum's birthday is still unplanned,
and she has not even thought of what to do also.
or or, when i just come online and before i can even do anything,
i just a million pop up jamming my not very working laptop
and demanding to know WHY I'M LIKE THAT .

i dont want to blame my moody day,
but i can't help that i'm like that.
i dont like how you suffocate my space,
and just push in my face that i should be something or someway else.
it is that you'd value pretense for that moment's gratification.
don't talk down to me, you just remind me of the ugly past i once had.
maybe there is something wrong with me,
allowing bad experiences to cripple me,
and let my emotions and moody dead-headedness cloud my heart.
but i just need a break!
or maybe once again, its just me.



so much for the freeeedomness of the end of exams.