great 22nd nov

OMG i havnt been going to school much of late! !
die larrr steph.
back from hong kong still like on holiday mood.
(entry will be up when i get all my pictures and videos)

anyway, yesterday was a good day .
the bestest wednesday ever.
not that because i didnt go school,
but it just felt like a beautiful day.

slept in, then cabbed to tp to meet my sunshine princess shimona for foood.
somehow i miss tp food, thats what sentosa does to you .
met deedee and liting. along the way picked up pple like izzy, fizah, aini.
i miss that!! last time tp always pick up straying rugby pple.
then makan together.

so we went to ITAS canteen, i just had carrot cake instead of my usual mensa kway chap.
im switching to a healthier diet (i hope) lol.
it was fun talking or easedropping in the girls conversation.
being at tas REALLY makes me so disconnected from them.
but it was hilarious,
especially skinny legs, right fizah? LOL !!!
darn loud laughter of the gilas.

then to the sports complex to watch the game,
the crucial game between SP and TP to determine the champion.
ok la, SP does have a stronger line up.
and it was TP's best game this season.
but this year's not their,
so congrats to SP .
even though the ref was realllllly puki and seemed biased.
i swear he should have given out some cards.
PLUS! the last drop kick, didnt even make it pass the pole,
but he just award the 3 points, and ended the game.
as ruby says, "REF! get some glasses la! or YOU NEED SEX!"
lol.

after that it was our own training.
quite the fun .
MUDDY!! :) lol.
stomping on mud puddles and handprinting the girls,
reminds me of coconuts.
NAOMI LEE POI SAN say i run cute?!?!?! ape ge.
anyway, training started off slow,
but its a huge improvement in terms of team work .
and we had a game with the U17 team .
they improved SOO much.
playing along side this new team with new teamates,
at first seemed, uncertain.
but now, what started off more as obligation,
turned into, dare i say, passion.
to play with these girls who try to be more then they are.
so why cant i try?
i am aware that perhaps ive started off on the wrong foot with the girls,
but its nothing i can do now.
but i'm glad slowly we all are trying to accomodate to each other.
and yes, i WANT to play with these girls.

my white shirt became brown ah.
after that it was to hangout@ mt emily to surprise ad!
the taxi uncle scold me, say why i bring him so ulu place
i think he thinks that i want to rape him :
anyways, waited in the lobby for marli, dickie and mag to come
then we went to the fourth floor, where ju and ad had to come open the door for us
once it opened, SURPRISE!!! (shh shh shhhhhH!)
heh.
then ju went down to get ice and cups,
and called me to open the main door for her.
i took the key card to open, and when i got to the door, i realise it just opens from inside,
without the key.
so when i heard the lift come, i ducked, so did ad.
when i saw a shadow through the glass panel of the door, i JUMPED UP!
so did ju's heart. LOL!!
all she could see what a black figure suddenly popping up.
yahahah!
so we went back to the room,
and watched the girls eat their burgers in the dark. LOL! !
mixed a few drinks for ad.
basically just whisky coke.
and she had to finish each cup by the time we finish singing her a birthday song.
first song, DONE. good job ad.
the second song, we tried spelling out the song. halfway it failed.
then we one-person-one-word sang it to her.
it took a longer while for the second cup to go down.
then marli and dickie came with their 'hai dai' game (or seaweed game)
farnie la.
then 5-10.
by the time we were leaving for MOS , the bottle not even half gone ah!!
nvm . squeezed into dickie the hiphopper's car .
then to mos! had our own table under marlina. LOL .
12 sex on the beach shots, champaigne, 2 bottles house pours and a shit load of mixers .
everyone started coming. so those there were
ad, ju, marli, sujan, mag, dickie, aisyah, azlina, dayah, anne, fana, another ad, huda, jac, sakae and partner, yana and a few others including ungku who was there taking pictures
darn sway the picture my face very lighted up. i think i stood in a bad spot.

not once......

but twice. PFFT.

drinkers took turns taking shots with her,
and at the stroke of midnight we lit her cake, and sang loud loud loudly!
then it was on to more 5-10.
just champaigne for me pls!
and fruit punch vodka.
then dancing!!
never have i danced so much, (in a long time that is)
especially not in THOSE pair or shoes.
now my toes feel it.
and someone asked me to marry him ah! LOL! !
he was kidding, but it was just, utterly funny.
i wanted to leave early!!
and stayed stayed stayed till by the time i got back home,
i only had 5 mins of sleep.
i just sat on my bed, didnt wanna sleep coz i know i wont wake,
but ZZZzzzzZzzzz. -_-" oh oh.
i msged timo, again.
he never reply, maybe he angry (or just never reply again)
but i think angry.
i think he regret and dreads having me as his darn culi partner.
SORRY.

but really,
yesterday was a great day for stephanie ann hendricks.
22nd november is MY day.
i've never remember smiling so much, till my cheeks hurt!
and feeling a bounce in my step.
though i cant figure why.
my oh my, if ever day were like that.
i couldnt ask for anything else.


HAPPY _ _ th BIRTHDAY ADELINE TONG SHU LING!!!!!

zara zara number 1

ZARA DEDICATED ENTRY!


27th Sept 2006: Jalan Raya with the collegues.
borrowed ifah's kebaya pendek.
i looked so like a malay girl la.
anyway this is the only picture ive managed to get hold of so far.
felicia darling and steph at chisty's place.


Slacker staff: (L-R) Steph, Sam, Azura and Fizah


Felicia, Fizah, Wahida, Yana


(Clockwise) Felicia, Wahida, Steph, Yana, Fizah


My favourite girl Maye being brave and eating, WORMS!! (they is dead. freeze dried id like to say)

And here is the favourite past/waste time of the zara staff.
coat fitting :)


My favourite, sexy diva in a lovely golden short jacket with leopard fur lining. LOVELY DARLIN'.


A classic piece worn by the demure lady, Leen.


Ancient kung-fu inspired robe coat. Only the exquisite can carry it off quite well like Felicia.


And the much loved, Batman (wanna-be)


Going back a 2nd, who'd knew i'd have so much to learn all over again.
And so many friends i've made,
all somehow connected to my life before i even got to know them.
I'd miss working with them.
Who knows what the future has in store for us.
Its been a great 2 months guys.
Thanks for the slacker bumsness and funess.
I'd be back! (for the sale)

gone is the week and you

redandant words by some.
NATO my mother would call it.

dinner at my aunts was SWELL.
before that was vivo shopping!
most of it alone.
i bought a skirt, a shirt, a sweater, dvds, junk food,
yeah.
met felix and the movie pple ,
who left and rachel came and we were vivo marting.
we have to plan our x'mas!!
its so coming soon!
excited (for now)
then headed to meet mum and my sisters and to aunty loo's
the arguement between barney vs mr eds on who is whos brother.
silliness
jennifer's new baby is named naomi. HEH.
didi has cuttte teeth!
and all the uncles have the same 'forget your name' syndrome.
best thing that night was definately seeing grandma after a heck of a long time.
and not to mentioned fabbiebaby who dropped the duck,
and instead of wiping the floor,
he wanted to wipe the duck.
wahhh
cabbed home while explaining the logic to my mum that it's more worth it,
considering there was 4 of us and we needed to bus and train.
:)

at night, i emo.
itchy fingers.
so i ended up with a new haircut.
or rather frindge/bangs cut.
deng deng DENG!

the next day, culinary
more on time as compared to the week before.
at least my partner not that late.
the boys from the service class wanted to take shaver from me
(it was just stored in my locker)
chef joyce overheard and asked why i have shaver.
i say i use to shave my armpits.
:)
i keep having achey breaky backs during class,
no wonder why.
this week's demo was tasty! YUM :)
never have i loved carrots so much!
after class, hung out abit in school with rach, chelsea and naomi who bought me ice kachang! :)
then we headed to town via train .
far east plaza it was, shopping part II!
i needed to buy havanas (i is no want fall no more!)
and shoes, and a bag.
i only bought a bag, which i loveeeeeeeee
and a few knick knacks here and there.
then on to meet fabs at the mrt station to head down to tampines
where uncle barney wanted to eat rojak.
of all places know!
not say the place famous,
he just, wanted that one. LOL .
trained down, darn packed la the station.
stopped at tampines, bumped into gale who was in the same train .
then walked over the the hawker centre,
bumped into sham and nigel who were guessing if it was steph in the bangs.
lol.
and then, FOOD!
lots and lots of food!
chinese rojak, indian rojak, mutarbak, mee poK!!
darn full.
after that still bought 3 TUBS of icecream home.
fullness.
the next time i'll see em is prolly sunday, at uncle jude's
uncle barney's flying back on tuesday i think .

friday no school!
so i slept in.
woke up at 10 to get ready for driving though.
took my time,
till the very last minute my dad said he has the exhibitor's manual ready for me to collect
at his office at harbour front.
so i tried to make arrangements with my group members to collect it from thre,
seeing how nearby school it was.
but no.
the girls were busy with work and family commitment.
and the only other avaliable one, just have a fuck care attitude.
so i just didnt bother to ask a second time.
so after liasing with the secretary lady on time and all.
i had to rush to get ready,
and i just ended up 20 mins late.
darn thanks.
my instrustor somemore so strict. can shit my pants .
he horn pple! LOL.
after that bused to kembangan and trained down to harbour front
i dont even know how to get there from ulu ubi.
reached there a lil past 330.
went up tower 2.
the office darn style la.
the meeting room in the middle of the whole space, glass walls.
and there was a meeting in progress, way cool.
picked it up, and left.
see how simple was tat.
just 5 mins of my time
and 40 mins of my traveling time.
not say it was a personal favour, it was for the group.
nvm, it'll really serve as a good guideline.
it really urked me more, to try to figure out what my dad is up to too.
he says he's overseas, and even the car is parked here which substanciates that fact.
but dude, my phone has caller id.
and that's so your office number when u called me.
so i dont know what you're trying to prove.
to the father that's never around and pretend to be away,
thanks for the manual (smiles from ear to ear)

waited around for felix and rachel,
then we headed to city hall
rach wanted to look for audrey's gift.
ate at mos first.
prolly the healthiest of the burger joints.
and then walking around, and to MPH.
so many many books!
which reminds me, i wanna get a good read.
recomendations?!
i found 2,
my lurid past, and happiness sold seprately
rach bought a book, we walked around abit more.
then to home it was.
the station was so packed that felix got squeezed into the train,
leaving us behind.
we just waved goodbye.
3 mins later felix called and we were reunited at lavender station. LOL .
mum picked me frm the station, and we had dinner
lovely stemed prawns!
let the doggies run about, jon just sat on my lap.
he smelllllllls gooOOOOoood.
then we opened a bottle of alize passionfruit cognac.
they dont like it (means more for me!:) )
and i gave jon abit, he seems to like it too! haha!
lemon shorbet after, then tv time a little.
before getting ready yo head out to MOS!
by the time i got ready it was already time to meet.
heh, lucky naomi late.
cabbed down, reached there a lil past 11.15
went in, met her friends, met fabs and his friends.
roamed the place a lil.
the crowd mix was weird ah!
studio 54 was not nice!
i dont really like mos on fridays! :(
to 711 for the usual drink routine.
rachel finally came!
and while waiting for the rest to arrive, we accompanied her.
even till sleepy naomi got a lil cranky and demanded she danced NOW . lol
studio 54 was an utter dissapointment.
the main arena was the best
smoove was just too packed.
but not as packed for us to meet guys. lol.
she got chatted up by this nerdish guy, who she tells me said he's rich
and has a nice body and is rich :)
and steph, got chatted up by a brailian boy. heh!
he had a cute friend, who seemed irritating so.
diego his name.
he's buff ah. and he coached soccer, or so he says.
naomi had to go so we left.
headed to china 1 abit,
closed and the eurasian ladies just sat around
with the ever sexy shah
theres just somthing about him, i swear its his sexy voice.
the bday girl audrey was there, and her sister and rach pinto and sherm
sat around abit, then back to mos. lol.
it was less packed, and the crowd that stayed was better
so were the songs.
terrrrrror
danced till the music stopped at 445. on the dot. cheetot
left, and i saw hardy mirza ah!
to think i saw him at mos instead of a 711 poster or something.
lol
he seemed laid back, and a little smirk of dissapointment that no one made an exagerated recognisation of him, like the
IMG ARNT YOU HARDY MIRZA! YES U ARE HIM! OMGOMGOMG that kinda
then take picture picture picture and sign sign sign
and walking on with the red sea of girls.
oh i so mean .
curry puff! and pictures in the toilet (which hopefully wont get lost again!)
then cabbed home.
i love you rachel! and i is hold your head anytime u want.
by the time i got home, mum and bird were already gone.
so goodnight me.

started the saturday watching the incredibles.
nice nice nice show!
i want watch again!
later meeting ad for a play.
oh im so stoned.
what to do at night?
what to wear?!
hmm.
tmr uncle jude's
i cant wait! :)


and yes, the best ever closure i could ever get.

secret smile

MY ASS HURTS!!!!!!

ok, so i'm late for lecture.
reached like 11.20
so went to find naomi
only to realise that i could actually not go to school today,
and go for her lecture tmr, after my culi.
wah thanks.
nvm, i is have vivo plans!
good timing since im in good need of retail therapy
and i need for clothes for "fat days"
(part of the reason why i'm late!)
dinner at my aunt's later!
meeting the relatives from hk and perth .
nearby school.

so i wanted to buy a drink frm the machine,
and i slipped!
and fell on my ass!
youch.
new slippers pls.
(isnt that the whole point of it being called slippers?)
hmmmmm.

today feels like its going to be a good one.
thanks to that 'secret smile'

i told you so.

apparently i'm getting quite good at pretence.

today was totally off.
perhaps a prelude of what i knew was to come.
yes, there are the cream of the crop.
what gets me most is how i dont konw what i'm doing wrong,
or right.
and if i were to say i'm not alright,
so fucking what?
i must say a great thanks to ifa for helping me with the switches,
even it might be a small thing for her, helping me with passes and all,
it meant a whole shit load.
considering noone's gotten the time to even notice how hard i'm trying to be uninvisible.
yes.
uninvisible.
how hard i'm trying in every way i can, to just try .
and since its over, i might as well, pour a little
other then the usual keep to myself crap,
heck i have nothing to lose.
i dont mind taking the shitty job that no one wants
i dont really want to either coz its no way i can prove anything.
i dont mind taking the wing, u guys play all u want.
but perhaps it is not i who handicapped the team to 5 players.
i am there, if you'd see or hear.
always pulling the wing defender.
but i'd confess, that being invisible for the longest time,
gave me no fucking thing to fight for.
and dare i say, i've lost my passion.
for the team .
and slowly, for the game .

laugh at me
when i say this team and game was the best thing that ever happen to me.
ive met wonderful people, and expanded the circle.
and nothing's greater then the feeling of having pride in something.
and how just being there for a teamate is sastifaction.
now i have to write it off as past tense.
i must have done something wrong, somewhere along the way,
so i'm my own fool for where i've landed.
cheers to my now.
word of the day: resignation.
actually its a one week old word.
or perhaps longer, without me conciously knowing.
once bitten, twice shy.
and i'd have you know,
that i'm not as strong as i can seem .
how do you know i'm not alright?
whenever my msn display pic is a clownfish.
wah, i used to be a clown.
miss blooper queen.
whos gone missing halfway coz i just, lost myself.
lost my heart to be freee.

i'd scream for comfort,
but even off the field i'm unheard.
i'm sorry, i'm not that strong anymore.
now it just depends on forfillment of responsibility,
to weather or not i prolong the inevitable.

its nothing in it for me,
nothing.
and like i always do,
i'll walk away.
and find something else that i can be good at.



now, i'll just blast the music,
and paint

my song to you

I kinda thought that I'd be better off by myself
I've never been so wrong before
You made it impossible for me to ever love somebody else
And now I don't know what I left you for
See I thought that I could replace you
He can't love me the way you do
Till now I never knew, baby

I'm spoiled
By your love boy
No matter how I try to change my mind
What's the point it's just a waste of time
I'm spoiled by your touch boy
The love you give is just too hard to fight
Don't want to live without you in my life
I'm spoiled

I tried to tell myself that
I'd be over you in a week or two
But baby that was 'bout a year ago
I've never seen the word love so personified as I do with you
And that is why I just can't let go

And I would only be fooling myself if I tried to
Believe there's room for someone else in my heart
There ain't no way I'm getting over you
I don't know what I've been trying to prove
I'm hopeless, helpless when it comes to you

*

just on the top of my mind,
its always you.
and how much, you're just not here,
neither there.
i can't do anything right,
because i just get distracted and lost in the thoughts of you,
with the 'wish you were here' syndrome.
it hurts to know how badly i want you to know,
what exactly it is i have to say to you.
but its the harsh reality that i'll never fit into the calibre of 'your kinda girl'
and everytime i suck it up just to walk away from this pointless road
you work your magic
and again im fallen into the trap.
i never realise how much i might have fallen for you,
and its the ache in my heart that reminds me of how deep into the pit ive fell.
perhaps i'm tired.
of trying, or from failing
or from the pretence that i'm doing alright with everything else too.
its just an aura, of a feeling that i feel.
and i cant shake it off.
which makes walking away for he 100 milionth time more difficult again and again.
i dont know what i need now.
a sign of closure or of more pretence?
drowning myself in beer don't work no more,
its lost its effect.
besides i dont wanna go fat no more.
its just a vicious cycle,
of how much i'd picture myself with the kukubird you.
but maybe rachel's right,
i am everything you don't deserve
and yes, i should give up on this road to nowhere.

so stop playing with me cupid.
my paper heart can't take it anymore.