mr fart alot

this past week i've been at adrian's!

oh man that guy farts ALOT!!!
eggy fart
stalker fart
thunderous fart
you name it
fart fart fart fart

anyway on the 26th dec, after sleeping at 3am and waking up at 6am,
this silly boy finally get his chance to play soccer.
but street soccer, with baldwin.
met at potong pasir,
we were early, called mr baldwin, he said hes on the way.
but i know he just woke up and tried to "cake" his voice.
when he came his hair was still soaking wet.
tsk.
I HAVE A SOCCER HERO! who's like under 12.
he's an excellent player!! OMG.
my hearts fluttering.
it was fun seeing him play,
he was whining abt how his first game wasnt that good.
but i thought otherwise.
baldwin plays with his hands by his side!! funny.
i thought these 2 guys looked familiar.
turned out they were from rugby, just as i suspected.
ajay and sanjay (?) TWINS! lol
yeah, had a short chat about quite alot of things.
anyway, poor adrian got kicked his his shin, and elbowed in the nose.
and like he says, he 'takes it like a man'
here's some pics anyways.


me and baldwin watching the team play.


sweat machine rehydrating and gobbling down my sweets!


POSING!


water's dripping down his face!
look at the faces of the tired people!


the team.
(L-R) _______, suresh and baldwin


this is not mother theresa


the final show down to get into the finals!!
hot hot hot match! but why are they dancing?!?!


again still dancing....... with formation somemore..


and again! gosh.


my 2 heros!!
the one is blue and red.
no one knows which am i supporting! :P:


my favourite game picture. among many others.
A-D-R-I-A-N!! GO! :)


mr hotstuff cooling down.
then it was home sweet home.
and 62353535! yum.
(this made him stinky fart!)




i love this guy!
who's pants i pulled down while he was making me fries.
who's tummy i "fart' on.
who falls asleep halfway during movies.
who likes to touch himself.
who keeps whining how he still aches from playing soccer,
and whines on how he wants to play badly.
who doesnt let me sleep on "his" side of the bed.
who farts under the covers (eeeewww)
who complains more then i do.
who refuses to shower first in the morning, though he said he would.
who feeds me :)
who is getting emmuned to my tickles :(


adrian miguel COMPLAIN serrentino.
my lifes coming back into prospective.

x'mas 2005

photos photos photos :)



after dinner we opened presents!
well, all except tiffy, mel and mum.
because bird and steph got impatient!! :)


baldwin's signature pose!!


adrian likes to play balls.


then it was to church!

they never said photo-taking is not permitted in church

mummy and tiffy

we walked home! steph and adrian detoured
together with tiffy and baldwin.
but we got lost in the park while taking pictures! :)

and more pictures.....

and MORE!!

almost home!! but we got lazy.
so our arms jerked up as a cab went by.
saw mummy at the junction, DUCK!!
went to shell to buy drinks and ice cream.

yeah! we reached home!
we didnt take a picture earlier on, so
TEDAH!!
we're as TALL as the tree!

chilling out to baileys
in the company of bird, jessie, bladwin, tiffy
as well as russel, shane ang mo, shane chinese and justin.
i'm tired! and cranky.



MERRY XMAS!

when right feels wrong

"Love is luscious feelings running through your mind when you give her a warm hug.
Love is a special ord that brings you and her closer forever.
Love is a happy spirit that invokes the indugence of styles that are sophiscated.
Love is writing her name in the sky, but not letting the wind blow it away.
Love is about writing her name in the sand, but not lettting the waves wash it away.
Actually love is about writing her name in your heart, and there it forever will stay.
When you are with her, eternity is just a step awsay.
With each and every passing day, your love continues to grow.
This treasure of love is cherished within your soul and it tells her how much you love her.
Love is a feeling of forever, eterna and sincere.
Even in the mountaintops, in all places high, his love for you is the reason to be,
it will never break or bow.
Love is a great emotion that keeps you and her going strong.
Love is knowing that you can never find that feeling with anyone else other then her.
If love is a wish, you would with to wake up everyday to the feel of her heart beating next to yours.
All the love that history knows, is said to be in every rose.
Yet all that could be found in two, is less that what he feels for you.
Love is like a beacon to guide any wayward heart.
It's a light upon the shoals that will hold and cherish dreams together.
His gentle word is like a spark of light that illuminates your soul.
And as each sound goes deeper, it's him that makes you whole.
There is no corner that his love for you cannot fill.
When the world starts causing waves, his devotion to you will make it still.
Love is the greatest feeling, its like a play you can watch each and every day.
Love is a feeling that comes from somewhere, so deep within.
It has no begginging and knows no end.
Whereever you go, whatever you do, all you see is the love he has inside for you.
To love is to share life together, to build special plans just for two.
Love walks lightly into your life, captivating and lovely in your mind. And each step is a vow towards eternity.
Love stretches across the blue skies, like a rose blooming in the Sahara.
It's all the beautiful things in the world like a river through a dusty land.
The love and devotion from him covers the entire universe."

-- Goldheart Jewellery


amazing the power of advertisement.
the emotion is envokes with just a read of it.
of corse the visual aid of diamonds are captavating.
but these words are enough to make my heart go "awww",
even though i was taking a crap while reading it.
then again, advertisement for a jewellery store, and its basially poetry.
dont get me wrong, it is a good advertisement tactic, by tapping on emotions,
but any tom dick and harry could write it with ease i guess.
whoever it was/is, is prolly rolling in cash and diamonds by now.

yet a part of me still yearns to find that one, one.
(and maybe write a poem like that for me!! HEH!)
someone who makes the wrongs feel right.
because right now, it doesnt feel all that right.
and its like an anchor weighing me down with something so close yet so far.

TPIRANHAS X'MAS

the party was great!
though the turnout was dissapointing to many,
those who turned out definately had the laughs of their lifetime!!

theme: uniforms!!

i just decided to go in my secondary school uniform.
the rest really thought their costumes out.

soup was a punkie school girl
azlina and nash came as military personel (think army)
ifa wore her bf's #1 uniform, complete with gloves and shoes
dee had a pilot hat
yam a blinged out hot bimbofied chick (i dont know how to desctibe, but it was good!)
charlotte and eda came in uniform like myself, except she wore stockings and eda, socks
marli was our SIA stewardess
senior azlina was a scout! (she was the cutest!)
ad was a sailor! awww
and the bestest 2,
ruby a fench maid
shimomo a hot nurse!! (i did her make up, shes so bitchin!! MWAH!)

dinner started WAY late.
waiting for people to come but not all did anyways.
the seniors were sporting and did made dances.
steph was the pool champion who won dee, nash, ida, and ad.
(ad defeated the reining champ at the last game, coz i wasnt looking!)

we had x'mas socks, lollies, ornaments, turkey, beer and vodka!!
many thanks goes to ad for the kindness of her heart in making all this possible.
mad dancing was expected, FINALLY GOT TO MEET AISYAH!
she and huda dominated the dance floor, madness gave us stiches from laughing.
met leona the ex-sacian too.
we had a "fashion showcase"
silly girls were not impromptu, all shy shy. tehee.
knowing steph the "thailand transverstite" (ifa laughed herself off the chair)
she dancing like a funky chicken not shy one.
shimo won best dressed award, shame she didn't like, flash us! coz it would have been hot hot HOT.
steph won the sexy dancer award!! LOL
she pulled the "don't phunk with my heart" number. :/

we had our gift exchange too.
i guess a few people didnt bring a gift to exchange.
mine was from a senior, whom sad to say i didnt quite remember her name :
it was a M&Ms dispenser machine!! perfect fit for steph the choco-holic.
siti k got my gift exchange, CARE BEAR! bears that care.
suits her.
nurul who didnt come, had her present taken by eda,
SORRY THE UNDIES ARE HUGE!! nurul has a big ass :/ LOL
only one present left untaken, coz i guarded it.
don't know when i can give it to the rightful owner though.
marli gave us gifts too, or rather a x'mas ball honouring our "best of"
steph: best communication
and she also printed our "names" at the back of our jerseys.
funky, cheeky names.
mine said "STEPH-ON-ME"
wth.
part of me appreciated the thought and gesture
but at the same time that jersey was the teams pride.
the one we won our ips in.
the one we hold dearly to our hearts,
now it has a joking name on it.
felt a pinch in my heart,
and felt ifa's boot step-on-me harder!

after that headed to simpang to chill out, all the way till nearly 3am!
couldnt decide to go to china black or not.
meow joined us from after work.
she brought mini cornettos and candy canes! awww!!
the seniors left the school at nearly 1am!! that's crazy!
from the fnishing time of 10pm, to their private party extension! LOL


it was a great party. with great people.
much more greatness to come.

a year on.

its been a long time.


and its been a year from that faithful day,
that i found myself once again.
admist the painful sorrow and tears.
lets see what the past year since i broke away from the devil's been.


first of all, i found my family.
and my place in it.
i've come to learn, how its been there all along.
though bits of it have fallen and tears aggregate the fire,
i'm glad i'm home.


second, i've been found.
but friends who's nurtured me from scratch
like a bird with a broken wing.
and to a special friend, who's brought out the best in me,
a me that i never knew existed, or has been hidden to rot.


and in all, i've found myself.
the one that i thought was lost.
no longer did i find myself saying,
"if only i could turn back time"
because that's how strong i've grown to become.
with the help of the people around me.
who say they care,
instead of the one who's punches symbolises "care and love"

and day to day,
with each passing trail in my life,
the purest truth of life is,
that you can only depend on yourself,
to pull yourself through.
and decide to give the next day a decent chance,
of everything being better, again.


Drew Barrymore once said,
"if you've been to hell and back, make sure you've learnt something from it."

hello mister adrian

hello adrian.
welcome to singapore.





havnt been updating in a long while.
been busy with school.
and making time for adrian,
and pestering him to come to the east instead of me going to meet him in town.
:)
and tickling him, and pretending to laugh when he tickles me.
and biting him.
and pulling his leg hair, and chest hair, and arm hair.

we are the champions

i have a new haircut!!!!!!
went to century square to get it done,
i swear it looks like my secondary school hair,
but i hate the colour!! :(

i look younger.
ok fine, i'm only 17.
but it feels more powerful knowing that people mistake you to be older,
because u look matured (i get that sometimes)
OK FINE stop laughing.


anyway, had an early night,
and woke up early.
met jeremy, shared cab to school.
no naz i'm not dating him,
i just found out he stays near my place,
and paying $2.50 is better then $5.
but he makes a lousy taxi buddy,
especially since he's seldom late for school.

changed into our jerseys.
i'm number 14.
bus to turf city.
played games from 9.30 all the way to about 5.30.
got our way into the finals after worming our way through games with NUS, SP, NP, NUS.
finals were for 3rd and 4th placing.
but in reality it was the 1st and 2nd placing for the poly-ite games.
SIDETRACKING a lil.
it was suppose to be between poly and ite, as the name suggest,
but the host RP invited the unis to play.
so as expected they snatched up the 1st and 2nd placing.
ahem, anyways.
yes, it was TP vs RP.
we fought our hearts out.
3-3!!
goodness.
nervousness, excitement, fear, EVERYTHING i dont know!
it was sudden death.
rp was nearing the try line, but they lost control and posesion of the ball.
and just with a snap of the fingers, we scored with our bestest runner, azlina.
YEAH BABEH!!
we are the champions!!!
we've got our goal/gold.
the one we so deservingly deserved.
blood, sweat and tears are embossed on our medal.
we got this far, and we're not stopping there.
so what if it says 3rd,
we know and the other polys know damn well we got 1st.
this is all thanks to ourselves, marli and us.
euphoria.
it was crazy, the games were good.
i actually managed to score one against sp.
the mixed team didnt do too bad too!
they came in 3rd,
and they got a damn medl with REPUBLIC POLYTECHNIC on it.
-_-" talk about being humble.
highlight of the day!!
CHUN MOONED THE REFFEREE!!!! LOL.
such a chun.

took a bus back to school,
then shared cab with jeremy n lu home.
I'M FLAT BROKE!
showered and went to meet them again at 7.45
as they expected i was late,
and i left my phone at home,
DOPE!
met hannan on the train.
headed to far east, everyone else was there.
nurul, sher, haha, yam, angie, charlotte, zaki, ifa, gale, vie, nash, shimo, dee, soup, azlina, alan, baldwin,
and later on ungku and mervin.
then it was to liat towers starbucks, after the huge procrastination of corse.
marli, ida and ad came too.
sat and talked loads of cock.
people left in clusters.
in the end it was gale, ifa, marli, ida and ad who left with me to Obar.
expected that some people will last minute back out.
but Obar was packed, and fun!
ok, maybe its just that i havnt been clubbing in a long while.
ju and anne came too.
i bloody walked into the mirror while trying to find a toilet!! (EMBARASSING!)
my captain can DANCE!!! lol.
throughout i kept nugding her to "hook up" with a ramdon hemsem stranger.
just for the fun of it, THAT GIRL NEEDS TO LET LOSE I SWEAR!
our games are over, but knowing her she'll prolly stress herself over school work.
left obar at 2.
total nets damage for the day= $74.
in like, 7hrs. just on drinks and cab. bravo.
i dont know how i spend sometimes.
waited with gale for her NR.
then headed home.
i overslept my ride!!! imagine if i took the bus. alone, without a phone!
goodness.
lucky it wasnt too late too u-turn back, any later i would have hit another expressway.
came online to see if adrian was here.
and yes he was!!
msged me like, just before i msged.
COOL.
i was so sleepy.
my rooms back to its mess, OH NO!
and its only 24hrs away when i see him.
flutterbys in the stummy.
but still i can't wait.

the relatives came today.
spent an hour trying to clear my room first.
then played a few rounds of mahjong with em.
im not so much an expert as i thought i was,
with all the weird and confusing rules. OH MY.
jonathon is all grown up now. last time i saw him he was still a baby!
goodness.
aunty judy says i lost weight, so did my granny.
yet i broke one of those foldable chairs after that. :S
heh.
anyway "Star Awards" was re-tellecasted on channel 8.
and it crossed my mind.
that this award show recognises actors and actresses outstanding performances and popularity.
and when they come up to recieve their awards, and have their long winded thank you speech,
some tear filled, some comedic, some just stupid.
but does anyone wonder if its all an act?
after all, these are the "best" artists who are winning the awards aint it.
so whos to say they werent just, putting their acting into play?
silly thoughts that sometimes steph thinks.

like how come the "dollar sign" is infront of the value, like $5.60.
but u dont say DOLLARS FIVE SIXTY.
instead its five DOLLARS and sixty cents. = 5$60
where does the cents come in?
weird english. or weirder thoughts?





overall it was a GREAT WEEKEND!!!!!!
with the people i love, with the things i love, and possibly love.
found lots of old stuff while clearing my drawers.
flashbacks into memory lane makes me thankful for my today.
and the people who shaped it, good and bad.
now i'm looking forward to great weeks, for the month of december.
SEE YA TMR ADRIAN!! :)

scrapes and bruises

its down to the final 2 days, before our ips.
hopefully i can rest well, mind, body and soul.

ive let it consume so much of my time.
so much, that it ate into my schoolwork,
my personal/ social life,
and into myself.
but its all worth it.
just this week, cum 10th dec,
then it'll all be over.
hopefully everything will fall into place perfectly.
that i can only hope.


everyday its the same routine.
drag myself out of bed for school,
sleep at the sports complex during breaks,
attend lectures and tutorials with a zombified mind,
then come home late, and sleep straight away.
been so busy worrying about errands i need to run,
things i need to do, datelines to abibe with.
x'mas is coming, so is adrian,
and i still havnt figured out what to do.
most of the errands are getting x'mas stuff sorted out.
things like the tree, sock, lights, cards, tags yadder.
half my bank account is gone and i've only goten 4 gifts prepared!! :(
projects are wizzing by,
soon the tests will too.
sigh.
i better take control of my life soon,
before it controls me.


anyway, its been a long time since i spoke to adrian.
almost like ive lost direction.
time's gotten the best of me,
or rather the lazy bones in my body.
my desperate need for someone to care,
without realising that other people have emotions too.
i just hate coping alone sometimes.
only 4 more days,
note to steph,
"hang in there"



training today was good i felt.
was told otherwise about my personal performance.
though i slightly disagreed, it opened my eyes to new insight.
so i appreciated it.
but ive never felt so much pride before,
not for myself, but for dee darling.
to think she almost gave up on herself.
look what you can achieve when you just believe.
dinner at techno, my knees are hurting, and my right thigh.
thanks ungku fo the pictures,
great pictures of whom you took off (not your underwear)
ok not funny.
the gods must be crazy.
anyway i'm off.
goodnight world.




hope.

dirty boy!!

*VIDEO CONTAINING ENTRY!!*

today was quite slack.
someone pls tell me how i spent $100 in just 3 days?!?!?
and i still got loads more to buy.

sometimes i just hate the festive season....
our lecturer for macroecons today was mad.
"look at this sexy diagram, nothing to be shy about"
its just a damn graph with a curvy line.
demented humour he has.
enphesized on a female dog being a bitch.
ting tong.

lu bought this greey fat kid a chicken drumstick!! :)

met charlotte, angie, chun, zaki and baldwin at the sports complex after lecture.
hung out. talk cock.
silly chill out people.
chun is sick.
sick but funny.
stupid things he does,
faking balls and tricking people into falshing,
throwing grass on people's upper lip,
playing with the flag to the beat of the drum.
you think you've heard it all,
WRONG.
now see it.
CLICK HERE TO SEE THE QUICK CHANGE ARTIST!!!!
good laugh? not enough?
CLICK HERE TO SEE THE CONDOM HEAD MAN!!!

after that we just headed to tampines.
met tiffy and bird there.
we all just went to eat then headed to simei to meet mummy.
we bought some stuff at watsons.
ain't we cute?!

or maybe just me?


hehe, how appropriate
stephy the red nose raindeer.
had a very sunburnt nose (and face)

having a slight headache now.
and i hate that i dyed my hair to a darker shade,
try BLACK?!
dont know why,
lu keeps saying im just too brown,
cant change my tanness of my skin colour,
so i can only change my hair colour,
and i hate it LOADS!
i want my old hair back! :(
mummy!!!

i'm playing matchmaker for tiffy,
so at least this x'mas she'd have a date,
worthy of her hopefully.
hope x'mas this year won't be a reminder of the last.
i'm counting down the days like an excited school girl :)

all asian schools competition

havnt updated in a goodness-graciously long time.

am waiting for lots of pictures to upload!!! :)

i've been so tired this whole week,
from the games throughout the weekend,
to the strenious trainings in preperation for our IPs.
blue-black, scratches, sunburnt skin and aching legs are my sweethearts.

the weekend was great,
tiring, but great.
it was the All Asian Schools games.
sat started at 5.45am.
headed to pasir ris to meet dee and gie to share cab.
reached the turf by 7.30, we were first.
played 4 games,
the weather was HOT HOT HOT.
but not as hot as number 3! :)

made friends with the south african team.
nurul bloody farted while we were having briefing.
everything ended at about near 7pm,
headed home and plonked myself to bed.
sun again we were the first to arrive.
played 2 games today, and 1 friendly.
number 3 just got hotter.
i exchanged jerseys with one of the girls :)
watched the final games, then headed home.

we're taking the south african team out.
tok a cab home with yam, soup and az.
rushed to make plans and arrangements for the outing.
in the end we were late, but luckily stil able to catch them!!
*phew*
me, lu, yam, soup, az, shimo, ruby and 14(?) other girls
we went walking around far east,
then dinner at sakura, marli and ida joined us.
they went goo goo over the waiter (WHAT?!)
they were facinated with some of the items on the menu too.
chicken feet, frog legs, jellyfish!
had a picture taking frenzy
the girls are so cheeky.
went to play pool at lucky plaza.
some went for ice cream.
didnt manage to get back in time for the shuttle bus,
took public transport instead.
these people are great. they are so appreciative of us taking them out.
hung out by their pool awhile
a few left, only me marli and ida were there.
went to chill in their room.
they are so cheeky!
and i saw number 3!!!
lol.
they kept playing with their hotel phone.
number 3 came into the room for a peek.
and captain roshan said after that he wants to meet me.
AWWWW! lol.
(lu i know i say alot of times already!)
one of em exchanged with me with curency, 20 rands.
their notes are cool, like different value has different animals.
after that their coach came in for a group meeting.
one of em actually hid in the toilet troughout!
lol
but he wanted the 3 of us to be part of it.
it lasted a good 1hr 15mins.
during that meeting it opened my eyes to alot of things,
like difference in culture, yet the ironic similarity.
now i understood their facination about our "bubblegum" law
and this is the best way to show how one person can really make a difference.
they'll be coming again next year!!
and the 2007 rugby world cup will be held in south africa!!
i want to go there!!
can i can i can i can i huh !?!?!
headed home at about 2am.
marli forgot her keys from ida, so we went around to meet her,
though we were chasing her cab but she was behind us, heh.
then it was sleep tighty.


im glad this weekend happened.
even with the aches and pains.
and with meeting and going out with the girls,
i guess ive found my drive for rugby again,
the one that i once had.
now i only hope that my body and stamina can keep up with my will.


















ONE MORE WEEK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

daniel powter

today's training was horrid.

i feel that now whoever's made the team are still caught up in that excitement,
so much so that they forget the main goal of why they are even playing.
it frustrates me enough that when its made clear that im not as good as some,
i'm the only one bothered to be serious in wanting to learn my mistakes.
maybe its hypersensitve me who just desperately wants to catch up quick and proceed from there,
but chuckles and jokes and gossips just coming in the wrong time, works against me.
are we losing track, or is it just me?
its already hard enough for me to focus 100%, and now that i've found something that i want to give my all to,
its even harder to think that maybe some of us doesnt want it as much as i do,
or at least believe it is possible.
words are miniscule against actions.

this is the first ever training i felt that my efforts in wanting to make a difference is redundant.
i realised that my team's become selfish.
they forget there are people in the team as well, just coz they are silent.
who is it they are proving themselves to?
it was so disheartening and frustrating to see how making the team changed our attitudes.
complacency? excitement? pride? i dont know.
maybe its not the reason of 'making the team'
then what?
anyway i couldnt bottle up the thoughts that were in my head,
because it hurts so much to see how actions like these disables our ability to deliever so much more then we did.
and i just cried.
i just feel the team isnt playing as a team,
you're efforts arnt recognized becuase you didnt do what they expect you to.
people constantly wanted sub, even though i said i was going in.
i waited for the player to run out before taking her place,
but someone else just runs in.
once, twice, forever.
i didnt mind, just had a million thoughts.
azlina asked why i wasnt playing, why wasnt i showing people what im capable of.
that was my breaking point.
that was when i realise some were too selfish in wanting to prove themselves,
i wouldnt really blame them, theres an intense pressure to.
but really, not at the expense of another team mate.
what's this unity when you don't even see your team mate on the same side of the feild?
but it feels good to know that angie and azlina was there for me.

it hurt the most, when someone or maybe a few other, commented during the debrief,
that "people shouldnt breakdown at the sideline because it affects the whole team."
"if they want to play, do something about it."
yes its easy to say one person affects the whole team,
compare that to the margin of the whole team affecting one person.
on the feild, ignore me, fine. on the side run in to play, fine. prove yourself if you must, fine.
i dont mind being out, and from the outside point of view, from someone who believes and wants to much for the team, its hard to see how sometimes people play selfishly.
from selfishness and the need to prove themselves, it developes into an individual play.
and already with a few selfish players on the feild,
i took it upon myself to not add to that number.
i cant find of a more appropirate word for selfish.
and in the situation where i just broke down,
i admit, that didnt help in anyway, doesnt even work in my favour.
and clearly your misinterpritation of my intentions showed how much people know and understand me.
firstly, you misinterprited it. secondly, by saying it indirectly to me what does it prove?
thridly, just combine the both. saying it out fine, at least get it right.

and so i ask you again,
where is the unity?
on the contrary, while doing the cheer i couldnt say that word.


and i do give credit , love and gratitude to these people.
soup, for being the only one who didnt join in the meyham of giggles and unseriousness.
charlotte, for giving me smily-nudges in realising there was something bothering me.
ruby, for forcing me to spit out what i felt, and for knowing i was not alright because i was silent, and for actually listen to where and what she can improve on, and saying "i'll try to work on it"
shimo, for perking me up and giving me a reason to bottle up my negativity with her innocent "are you ok" look and voice.
azlina, for also pushing me to spit out my thoughts and emotions, and making me feel heard as a teammate.
angie, for being there. her words were just so impactful at that point in time. she's the only senior who makes me feel "seen"
coach marli, for still being able to maintain a straight face and make all our wrongs sound so right that it spurs us to do better. more importantly, for having the patience and strength to still believe in us, and not give up on us until we give up on ourselves.
and to my dearest ever beloved lu who stayed up late last night to paint me a picture of myself as a "special baby" even though she gave me big ears, for just being her. the same her who gives me strength to smile each trying day.