2 weeks

omg its been suchhhh a looong time.
till ive forgotten everythign that i wanna blog abot.
pfft.
so whats been going on .

there was tim's birthday, finally.
first the class bought him andt he other nov babies a cake.
then the next day after his rugby match yet another chocolate cake (and whipped cream)
and the third day on our dinner plans yet another cake,
this time mango la.
dinner was, nice.
it was felix and myself from driving first.
(that boy got sooo angry coz we missed our busstop and had to walk back)
then rachel and tim came from school.
naomi couldnt make it in the end coz of that stupid hockey ball!! :(
eugene came late, pan didnt.
dinner at indochine then drinking by the river.
china man is our favourite man.
cabbed home to project datelines inching closer.

then it was the project cramping days.
monday and tuesday then presentations and everytime was over (till the term test)
but yeah. relief!
then tuesday last minute pansters called to go to attica.
wah thanks.
never got ready so fast ever.
and of all the days to ask me out, was the day i spent $500 at shopping.
and then blew another what, $20 on cab there.
but i'm glad i went. it was fun.
it was with pan, timo, eugene and a whole lot of other people i didnt know.
zach was there, long time no see, wilson aka dj funky monkey also.
(he carried a bomb bag there i swear!)
carefree fun, and vindictive highs i got from saboing people to drink.
pan say he send me home,
end up i send him and this other guy home.
$41 cab ah!
sleep till next day woke up just in time for driving.
my tp is BOOKED!
26th febauray. hopefully no paper.

friday saturday sunday there was the all schools tornament.
at first i was abit the reluctant to play,
especially after knowing a little more then i should,
though my gut feeling was already right.
but i'm fine, i'm doing this for myself.
i dont have to pretend i respect certain people when i've already lost it.
i still hold integrity for whatever i do or say because i had good intentions,
it didnt come with intention of revenge, bully, mockery, condesending attitudes, pride or for anything so selfishly vindictive and purposeful.
so the way people have twisted it out to be bad news is just ugliness of attitudes on their part.
you don't see me giving up in the way you expect me to do you?
say it in front of my face if you have that much respect for yourself, no need for me.
if i say this or not, it wont change wagging tongues.
its just so hypocritical.
would i have done the same to you (all) ?

anyways, i never felt more involved in a game before.
like only being an unsure supporter. this time, i tried to step up.
to give them something to talk about once again .
defence still needs work. but attck when it came to UWC day2, i felt like solid rock.
to pressure their defence line back and back as i ran through as dummy half,
to fake the girl who shot up on defence and broke through. small small steps that felt oh so good.
too bad i run slow, and i still and probabely always will. LOL .
thats why i need to much my teamates to finish off for me,
like nurul or azlina, or haha.
my day3 best game was the friendlies with the south african girls.
weee! 3 break throughs. 2 as dummy halves. shiokness i swear.
still lots more work to do. so again, its just a first step.
anyway ist not as if i can work alone on it.
these 3 days also brought me a tad bit closer to the girls.
at least now they have conversations with me,
versus the we'll-do-our-own thing-and-talk-among-ourselves thing.
so yeah.
and shimomo!
from the not telling me a slimmy lizard snake like thing crawled under the mat when i was sleeping.
to the shit trips i made to the port-a-loo. to the word search.
to the angel wing's pictures and the pressing of elmo's nose.
and the surprise SUDOKU BOOK!!
i couldnt love you more sweetems.
and a few girls who i was a lil closer to and want to know more a times goes.
nicole claire the lousy photographer/camwhore. liting the elmo.
i just need to find a common ground.
for now, i'll just wollow in misery that i'm half indian with flushed pink cheeks and a dried prune nose.
sunkissed i'd say.
bobby came over for abit.
that boy dont get any stubborn-er i swear.
but nothing he can help.
oh well, feel better alrights?
(you owe me ben adn jerrys and rambutans!)

the south african girls were a different bunch as last year.
different school. the girls we got clsoe to last year was harrold chrissy's school.
i miss them sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much.
oh well. then then then
when me and shimo was walking our way out of turf city past the south africa's tent,
they got so excited in wanting a picture.
at first just with one of the guy whom they fished out from the back of the tent.
who was effking gorgeous BTFW!
him me and shims, then another guy who kept holding tight onto my shoulders.
then suddenly people started joining the photos and seperated me from mr gorgeous!
wah thanks.
nvm. at least still got that overly friendly guy next to me.
but i love these people, their so warm.
they kept calling us sisters.
then i proposed a jersey swap. but they seemed reluctant.
so its ok, i we continued our way out.
so i said bye to them with hugs.
"bye nure" and her face lit up.
"OMG u remembered my name! SHE REMEMBERED MY NAME!!"
she then gave me the tightest ass hug ever.
so sweet. and that was goodbye.
till 3 of them ran after me, and giving me a jersey with my number on it.
and a handshake, a hug kiss and final goodbye.
i miss them already.
photos soon!!

today accounts test and its so, stupid. whatever.
i hate ms quah.
i hate my account balance.
ok im rushing can u tell.
naomi's nagging me off.
should i get the LG chocolate phone i quite want?
i hope i get lucky
stirke lottery and win lots of contests with cars as their grand prize.
to simpangs later?
kite flying and steamboat tmr!
then wednesday ladies night pls.
relax till the school madness starts sooner then we all know.
im not excited to xmas.
it always reminds me of the epiphimy of that xmas eve.
im over it, but its a haunting dream that scars me.
i hate ms quah.
i hate my account balance.
ok im rushing can u tell.
naomi's nagging me off.
ok bye.


perhaps i could say i'm back at sqaure-confused-one.
but theres nothing i can do about it.
nothing that i WILL do about it.
id say i'd wait around for something to happen,
though i'm prepared for it not to.
i wish i could read minds sometimes.
my love.

great 22nd nov

OMG i havnt been going to school much of late! !
die larrr steph.
back from hong kong still like on holiday mood.
(entry will be up when i get all my pictures and videos)

anyway, yesterday was a good day .
the bestest wednesday ever.
not that because i didnt go school,
but it just felt like a beautiful day.

slept in, then cabbed to tp to meet my sunshine princess shimona for foood.
somehow i miss tp food, thats what sentosa does to you .
met deedee and liting. along the way picked up pple like izzy, fizah, aini.
i miss that!! last time tp always pick up straying rugby pple.
then makan together.

so we went to ITAS canteen, i just had carrot cake instead of my usual mensa kway chap.
im switching to a healthier diet (i hope) lol.
it was fun talking or easedropping in the girls conversation.
being at tas REALLY makes me so disconnected from them.
but it was hilarious,
especially skinny legs, right fizah? LOL !!!
darn loud laughter of the gilas.

then to the sports complex to watch the game,
the crucial game between SP and TP to determine the champion.
ok la, SP does have a stronger line up.
and it was TP's best game this season.
but this year's not their,
so congrats to SP .
even though the ref was realllllly puki and seemed biased.
i swear he should have given out some cards.
PLUS! the last drop kick, didnt even make it pass the pole,
but he just award the 3 points, and ended the game.
as ruby says, "REF! get some glasses la! or YOU NEED SEX!"
lol.

after that it was our own training.
quite the fun .
MUDDY!! :) lol.
stomping on mud puddles and handprinting the girls,
reminds me of coconuts.
NAOMI LEE POI SAN say i run cute?!?!?! ape ge.
anyway, training started off slow,
but its a huge improvement in terms of team work .
and we had a game with the U17 team .
they improved SOO much.
playing along side this new team with new teamates,
at first seemed, uncertain.
but now, what started off more as obligation,
turned into, dare i say, passion.
to play with these girls who try to be more then they are.
so why cant i try?
i am aware that perhaps ive started off on the wrong foot with the girls,
but its nothing i can do now.
but i'm glad slowly we all are trying to accomodate to each other.
and yes, i WANT to play with these girls.

my white shirt became brown ah.
after that it was to hangout@ mt emily to surprise ad!
the taxi uncle scold me, say why i bring him so ulu place
i think he thinks that i want to rape him :
anyways, waited in the lobby for marli, dickie and mag to come
then we went to the fourth floor, where ju and ad had to come open the door for us
once it opened, SURPRISE!!! (shh shh shhhhhH!)
heh.
then ju went down to get ice and cups,
and called me to open the main door for her.
i took the key card to open, and when i got to the door, i realise it just opens from inside,
without the key.
so when i heard the lift come, i ducked, so did ad.
when i saw a shadow through the glass panel of the door, i JUMPED UP!
so did ju's heart. LOL!!
all she could see what a black figure suddenly popping up.
yahahah!
so we went back to the room,
and watched the girls eat their burgers in the dark. LOL! !
mixed a few drinks for ad.
basically just whisky coke.
and she had to finish each cup by the time we finish singing her a birthday song.
first song, DONE. good job ad.
the second song, we tried spelling out the song. halfway it failed.
then we one-person-one-word sang it to her.
it took a longer while for the second cup to go down.
then marli and dickie came with their 'hai dai' game (or seaweed game)
farnie la.
then 5-10.
by the time we were leaving for MOS , the bottle not even half gone ah!!
nvm . squeezed into dickie the hiphopper's car .
then to mos! had our own table under marlina. LOL .
12 sex on the beach shots, champaigne, 2 bottles house pours and a shit load of mixers .
everyone started coming. so those there were
ad, ju, marli, sujan, mag, dickie, aisyah, azlina, dayah, anne, fana, another ad, huda, jac, sakae and partner, yana and a few others including ungku who was there taking pictures
darn sway the picture my face very lighted up. i think i stood in a bad spot.

not once......

but twice. PFFT.

drinkers took turns taking shots with her,
and at the stroke of midnight we lit her cake, and sang loud loud loudly!
then it was on to more 5-10.
just champaigne for me pls!
and fruit punch vodka.
then dancing!!
never have i danced so much, (in a long time that is)
especially not in THOSE pair or shoes.
now my toes feel it.
and someone asked me to marry him ah! LOL! !
he was kidding, but it was just, utterly funny.
i wanted to leave early!!
and stayed stayed stayed till by the time i got back home,
i only had 5 mins of sleep.
i just sat on my bed, didnt wanna sleep coz i know i wont wake,
but ZZZzzzzZzzzz. -_-" oh oh.
i msged timo, again.
he never reply, maybe he angry (or just never reply again)
but i think angry.
i think he regret and dreads having me as his darn culi partner.
SORRY.

but really,
yesterday was a great day for stephanie ann hendricks.
22nd november is MY day.
i've never remember smiling so much, till my cheeks hurt!
and feeling a bounce in my step.
though i cant figure why.
my oh my, if ever day were like that.
i couldnt ask for anything else.


HAPPY _ _ th BIRTHDAY ADELINE TONG SHU LING!!!!!

zara zara number 1

ZARA DEDICATED ENTRY!


27th Sept 2006: Jalan Raya with the collegues.
borrowed ifah's kebaya pendek.
i looked so like a malay girl la.
anyway this is the only picture ive managed to get hold of so far.
felicia darling and steph at chisty's place.


Slacker staff: (L-R) Steph, Sam, Azura and Fizah


Felicia, Fizah, Wahida, Yana


(Clockwise) Felicia, Wahida, Steph, Yana, Fizah


My favourite girl Maye being brave and eating, WORMS!! (they is dead. freeze dried id like to say)

And here is the favourite past/waste time of the zara staff.
coat fitting :)


My favourite, sexy diva in a lovely golden short jacket with leopard fur lining. LOVELY DARLIN'.


A classic piece worn by the demure lady, Leen.


Ancient kung-fu inspired robe coat. Only the exquisite can carry it off quite well like Felicia.


And the much loved, Batman (wanna-be)


Going back a 2nd, who'd knew i'd have so much to learn all over again.
And so many friends i've made,
all somehow connected to my life before i even got to know them.
I'd miss working with them.
Who knows what the future has in store for us.
Its been a great 2 months guys.
Thanks for the slacker bumsness and funess.
I'd be back! (for the sale)

gone is the week and you

redandant words by some.
NATO my mother would call it.

dinner at my aunts was SWELL.
before that was vivo shopping!
most of it alone.
i bought a skirt, a shirt, a sweater, dvds, junk food,
yeah.
met felix and the movie pple ,
who left and rachel came and we were vivo marting.
we have to plan our x'mas!!
its so coming soon!
excited (for now)
then headed to meet mum and my sisters and to aunty loo's
the arguement between barney vs mr eds on who is whos brother.
silliness
jennifer's new baby is named naomi. HEH.
didi has cuttte teeth!
and all the uncles have the same 'forget your name' syndrome.
best thing that night was definately seeing grandma after a heck of a long time.
and not to mentioned fabbiebaby who dropped the duck,
and instead of wiping the floor,
he wanted to wipe the duck.
wahhh
cabbed home while explaining the logic to my mum that it's more worth it,
considering there was 4 of us and we needed to bus and train.
:)

at night, i emo.
itchy fingers.
so i ended up with a new haircut.
or rather frindge/bangs cut.
deng deng DENG!

the next day, culinary
more on time as compared to the week before.
at least my partner not that late.
the boys from the service class wanted to take shaver from me
(it was just stored in my locker)
chef joyce overheard and asked why i have shaver.
i say i use to shave my armpits.
:)
i keep having achey breaky backs during class,
no wonder why.
this week's demo was tasty! YUM :)
never have i loved carrots so much!
after class, hung out abit in school with rach, chelsea and naomi who bought me ice kachang! :)
then we headed to town via train .
far east plaza it was, shopping part II!
i needed to buy havanas (i is no want fall no more!)
and shoes, and a bag.
i only bought a bag, which i loveeeeeeeee
and a few knick knacks here and there.
then on to meet fabs at the mrt station to head down to tampines
where uncle barney wanted to eat rojak.
of all places know!
not say the place famous,
he just, wanted that one. LOL .
trained down, darn packed la the station.
stopped at tampines, bumped into gale who was in the same train .
then walked over the the hawker centre,
bumped into sham and nigel who were guessing if it was steph in the bangs.
lol.
and then, FOOD!
lots and lots of food!
chinese rojak, indian rojak, mutarbak, mee poK!!
darn full.
after that still bought 3 TUBS of icecream home.
fullness.
the next time i'll see em is prolly sunday, at uncle jude's
uncle barney's flying back on tuesday i think .

friday no school!
so i slept in.
woke up at 10 to get ready for driving though.
took my time,
till the very last minute my dad said he has the exhibitor's manual ready for me to collect
at his office at harbour front.
so i tried to make arrangements with my group members to collect it from thre,
seeing how nearby school it was.
but no.
the girls were busy with work and family commitment.
and the only other avaliable one, just have a fuck care attitude.
so i just didnt bother to ask a second time.
so after liasing with the secretary lady on time and all.
i had to rush to get ready,
and i just ended up 20 mins late.
darn thanks.
my instrustor somemore so strict. can shit my pants .
he horn pple! LOL.
after that bused to kembangan and trained down to harbour front
i dont even know how to get there from ulu ubi.
reached there a lil past 330.
went up tower 2.
the office darn style la.
the meeting room in the middle of the whole space, glass walls.
and there was a meeting in progress, way cool.
picked it up, and left.
see how simple was tat.
just 5 mins of my time
and 40 mins of my traveling time.
not say it was a personal favour, it was for the group.
nvm, it'll really serve as a good guideline.
it really urked me more, to try to figure out what my dad is up to too.
he says he's overseas, and even the car is parked here which substanciates that fact.
but dude, my phone has caller id.
and that's so your office number when u called me.
so i dont know what you're trying to prove.
to the father that's never around and pretend to be away,
thanks for the manual (smiles from ear to ear)

waited around for felix and rachel,
then we headed to city hall
rach wanted to look for audrey's gift.
ate at mos first.
prolly the healthiest of the burger joints.
and then walking around, and to MPH.
so many many books!
which reminds me, i wanna get a good read.
recomendations?!
i found 2,
my lurid past, and happiness sold seprately
rach bought a book, we walked around abit more.
then to home it was.
the station was so packed that felix got squeezed into the train,
leaving us behind.
we just waved goodbye.
3 mins later felix called and we were reunited at lavender station. LOL .
mum picked me frm the station, and we had dinner
lovely stemed prawns!
let the doggies run about, jon just sat on my lap.
he smelllllllls gooOOOOoood.
then we opened a bottle of alize passionfruit cognac.
they dont like it (means more for me!:) )
and i gave jon abit, he seems to like it too! haha!
lemon shorbet after, then tv time a little.
before getting ready yo head out to MOS!
by the time i got ready it was already time to meet.
heh, lucky naomi late.
cabbed down, reached there a lil past 11.15
went in, met her friends, met fabs and his friends.
roamed the place a lil.
the crowd mix was weird ah!
studio 54 was not nice!
i dont really like mos on fridays! :(
to 711 for the usual drink routine.
rachel finally came!
and while waiting for the rest to arrive, we accompanied her.
even till sleepy naomi got a lil cranky and demanded she danced NOW . lol
studio 54 was an utter dissapointment.
the main arena was the best
smoove was just too packed.
but not as packed for us to meet guys. lol.
she got chatted up by this nerdish guy, who she tells me said he's rich
and has a nice body and is rich :)
and steph, got chatted up by a brailian boy. heh!
he had a cute friend, who seemed irritating so.
diego his name.
he's buff ah. and he coached soccer, or so he says.
naomi had to go so we left.
headed to china 1 abit,
closed and the eurasian ladies just sat around
with the ever sexy shah
theres just somthing about him, i swear its his sexy voice.
the bday girl audrey was there, and her sister and rach pinto and sherm
sat around abit, then back to mos. lol.
it was less packed, and the crowd that stayed was better
so were the songs.
terrrrrror
danced till the music stopped at 445. on the dot. cheetot
left, and i saw hardy mirza ah!
to think i saw him at mos instead of a 711 poster or something.
lol
he seemed laid back, and a little smirk of dissapointment that no one made an exagerated recognisation of him, like the
IMG ARNT YOU HARDY MIRZA! YES U ARE HIM! OMGOMGOMG that kinda
then take picture picture picture and sign sign sign
and walking on with the red sea of girls.
oh i so mean .
curry puff! and pictures in the toilet (which hopefully wont get lost again!)
then cabbed home.
i love you rachel! and i is hold your head anytime u want.
by the time i got home, mum and bird were already gone.
so goodnight me.

started the saturday watching the incredibles.
nice nice nice show!
i want watch again!
later meeting ad for a play.
oh im so stoned.
what to do at night?
what to wear?!
hmm.
tmr uncle jude's
i cant wait! :)


and yes, the best ever closure i could ever get.

secret smile

MY ASS HURTS!!!!!!

ok, so i'm late for lecture.
reached like 11.20
so went to find naomi
only to realise that i could actually not go to school today,
and go for her lecture tmr, after my culi.
wah thanks.
nvm, i is have vivo plans!
good timing since im in good need of retail therapy
and i need for clothes for "fat days"
(part of the reason why i'm late!)
dinner at my aunt's later!
meeting the relatives from hk and perth .
nearby school.

so i wanted to buy a drink frm the machine,
and i slipped!
and fell on my ass!
youch.
new slippers pls.
(isnt that the whole point of it being called slippers?)
hmmmmm.

today feels like its going to be a good one.
thanks to that 'secret smile'

i told you so.

apparently i'm getting quite good at pretence.

today was totally off.
perhaps a prelude of what i knew was to come.
yes, there are the cream of the crop.
what gets me most is how i dont konw what i'm doing wrong,
or right.
and if i were to say i'm not alright,
so fucking what?
i must say a great thanks to ifa for helping me with the switches,
even it might be a small thing for her, helping me with passes and all,
it meant a whole shit load.
considering noone's gotten the time to even notice how hard i'm trying to be uninvisible.
yes.
uninvisible.
how hard i'm trying in every way i can, to just try .
and since its over, i might as well, pour a little
other then the usual keep to myself crap,
heck i have nothing to lose.
i dont mind taking the shitty job that no one wants
i dont really want to either coz its no way i can prove anything.
i dont mind taking the wing, u guys play all u want.
but perhaps it is not i who handicapped the team to 5 players.
i am there, if you'd see or hear.
always pulling the wing defender.
but i'd confess, that being invisible for the longest time,
gave me no fucking thing to fight for.
and dare i say, i've lost my passion.
for the team .
and slowly, for the game .

laugh at me
when i say this team and game was the best thing that ever happen to me.
ive met wonderful people, and expanded the circle.
and nothing's greater then the feeling of having pride in something.
and how just being there for a teamate is sastifaction.
now i have to write it off as past tense.
i must have done something wrong, somewhere along the way,
so i'm my own fool for where i've landed.
cheers to my now.
word of the day: resignation.
actually its a one week old word.
or perhaps longer, without me conciously knowing.
once bitten, twice shy.
and i'd have you know,
that i'm not as strong as i can seem .
how do you know i'm not alright?
whenever my msn display pic is a clownfish.
wah, i used to be a clown.
miss blooper queen.
whos gone missing halfway coz i just, lost myself.
lost my heart to be freee.

i'd scream for comfort,
but even off the field i'm unheard.
i'm sorry, i'm not that strong anymore.
now it just depends on forfillment of responsibility,
to weather or not i prolong the inevitable.

its nothing in it for me,
nothing.
and like i always do,
i'll walk away.
and find something else that i can be good at.



now, i'll just blast the music,
and paint

my song to you

I kinda thought that I'd be better off by myself
I've never been so wrong before
You made it impossible for me to ever love somebody else
And now I don't know what I left you for
See I thought that I could replace you
He can't love me the way you do
Till now I never knew, baby

I'm spoiled
By your love boy
No matter how I try to change my mind
What's the point it's just a waste of time
I'm spoiled by your touch boy
The love you give is just too hard to fight
Don't want to live without you in my life
I'm spoiled

I tried to tell myself that
I'd be over you in a week or two
But baby that was 'bout a year ago
I've never seen the word love so personified as I do with you
And that is why I just can't let go

And I would only be fooling myself if I tried to
Believe there's room for someone else in my heart
There ain't no way I'm getting over you
I don't know what I've been trying to prove
I'm hopeless, helpless when it comes to you

*

just on the top of my mind,
its always you.
and how much, you're just not here,
neither there.
i can't do anything right,
because i just get distracted and lost in the thoughts of you,
with the 'wish you were here' syndrome.
it hurts to know how badly i want you to know,
what exactly it is i have to say to you.
but its the harsh reality that i'll never fit into the calibre of 'your kinda girl'
and everytime i suck it up just to walk away from this pointless road
you work your magic
and again im fallen into the trap.
i never realise how much i might have fallen for you,
and its the ache in my heart that reminds me of how deep into the pit ive fell.
perhaps i'm tired.
of trying, or from failing
or from the pretence that i'm doing alright with everything else too.
its just an aura, of a feeling that i feel.
and i cant shake it off.
which makes walking away for he 100 milionth time more difficult again and again.
i dont know what i need now.
a sign of closure or of more pretence?
drowning myself in beer don't work no more,
its lost its effect.
besides i dont wanna go fat no more.
its just a vicious cycle,
of how much i'd picture myself with the kukubird you.
but maybe rachel's right,
i am everything you don't deserve
and yes, i should give up on this road to nowhere.

so stop playing with me cupid.
my paper heart can't take it anymore.

Does your name begin with: S

For you, it is pleasure before business. You can be romantically idealistic to a fault and is capable of much sensuality. But you never loose control of your emotions. Once you make the commitment you stick like glue. You could get jealous and possessive. You tend to be very selfish often regarding yourself as the only human being on the planet.. You like being the centre of attention. You are very caring sensitive, private & sometimes very passive. Turned on by soft lights, romantic thoughts. When it gets down to the nitty-gritty, you are an expert. You know all the little tricks of the trade, can play any role, or any game, and take your love life very seriously. You don't fool around. You have the patience to wait for the rightperson to come along. You are very generous & giving, often selfless. You are kind nature & sweet which is found to be attractive by many. You are a good friend.

JANUARY
Ambitious and serious
Loves to teach and be taught
Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses
Likes to criticize
Hardworking and productive
Smart, neat and organised
Sensitive and has deep thoughts
Knows how to make others happy
Quiet unless excited or tensed
Rather reserved
Highly attentive
Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds
Romantic but has difficulties expressing love
Loves children
Loyal
Needs to improve social abilities
Easily jealous

Capricorn

Turn ons:
Capricorn are strong and dependable hence if you want to put your money on anyone it is of course this zodiac sign no matter how many difficulties (that incidentally are many) The goat has to undertake to achieve the goals. They are practical and conservative in their outlook and they expect you to blend in their color. They set certain standards for themselves in their life and they will always try to maintain those standards. For them social status and image is very important in life.

Turn offs:
Do not expect a Capricorn mate to open their heart and pour everything to you. They are very secretive and reserved people. They are very thorough in all their affairs and hate any kind of sloppiness. Capricorn is very tightfisted and economical. Do not expect lavish gifts from them and if they do give you any gift (that is very rare) it will have some practical use (no romance please) but that does not mean you will be deprived of anything on the contrary you will be well provided.


true? some.
ok, most
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thanks to my source, nurul.

spanking week!

so many many things to do this week!

full afternoon full full afternoon.
terror shift.

friday off day, better rest first.
had lots of fun at choi's place.
I MISS THAT GIRL!
bumped into liting in the train, ruby hopped on later and to yo chu kang we went.
dee dee came later.
long walk in ah choi!
say so near. LOL.
first we got ready the bbq stuff
iron chef steph marinated the chicken.
liting and deedee did the egg mayo sandwiches
then we were talking in a way that had two meanings kinda,
especially when we were sticking sticks into the sotong balls and sausages.
stick it in more, if u know what i mean. :)
then to swimming we went!
*pictures to follow!

SELAMAT HARI RAYA!
so many customers piss me off ah.
so a point where i slammed down the phone on one
who made me waste time checking stock for her and take anew piece blazer,
only to say "its ok"
and another who i told my collegue in her face that 'she is very irritating'
dude she wanted to change a t-shirt she bought for 19.90 bcoz of i dont know what.
and she made me take out a million new pieces for her to chose the best,
but all not good enough, coz all had fold lines,
which according to her after stretching it abit, that its a different colour from the shirt.
so after 10 mins of the same arguement with my collegue i decided to offer to iron it.
so with the stem iron there were water spots.
THEN SHE SAID ITS OIL STAIN.
whatever whatever.
next time go giodarno ok.
but then got this indian customer say i pretty,
and that i have nice eyes.
wahh.
just after the bitch manager say im gonna be fat just coz she sees me in the office on break alot.
bitch bitch bitch!

then i had to husle to get my culinary stuff.
went to school in the morning for lecture which i missed 20 mins of.
darn nonsense lecture, accounts.
i think ever since i started work the second time my temper had become bad.
i get ticked off easily and im not afraid of showing it.
(which explains rightn now WHY IM NOT AFRAID TO SLAP YOUR FACE IF U TRY ANYTHING)
yes you, jaws.
i hate you for the shit youve said just to put pple down coz uve been put away.
yes, u are trash. YOU SHIT.
your the gum under my shoe.
you want to know who just ask
u think its u, come ask me.
if i slap u then u know CONFIRM u
anywayy, during lecture i had outburst of "faster!"
and after class i zoomed out and trained to outram.
decided to take a bus frm thre, but i got lost!
so end up, cab. PFFT.
then then while walking out the exit, and indian man was walking towards my direction,
he was on the phone,
and when he passes me, he pulled his phone away and said
"hi you look very beautiful"
i sombong him continue walking,
10 secs later i smiled
:)
i think only indians say i pretty
why ah
anyway, the only thing i was looking forward to the whole time was
RACHEL MERRIE CHONG'S 19TH BIRTHDAY!!
kumars it, then MOS!
she met me after work, we cabbed down.
met nao, in we go.
1-for-1 jugs pls!
kumar is getting hotter by the day.
she asked me, if i eurasian or malay.
wahh.
when she got off her first set, she touched my leg ah!
freaky.
but its nothing compared to her backup dancer squishing her boobies in my face.
fun yes?
timo eugene and pan came after,
another round of drinks.
and the saboing begins.
up on stage rachel!
not much action though.
but i must say, kumar has goooooood taste
she brought this ang mo guy up on stage,
HE'S OOZING HOTNESs.
but yeah, saboing didnt get that far,
rachel so defensive againt kumar.
and that chinese girl was too drunk that she was irritating!
margeritas for rachel, and waterfall!
oooh.
SHITLOADS OF PICTURE.
hawt ones ah.
(and they is all GONE NOW. GONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) :( :( :(
becoz someoneeeee accidentally deleted all.
i admit, I DARN SAD I TEARS WITH A MEGA WATT NEVER-SeEN-BEFORE pout
MOS we went, the boys left.
darn fun.
saw zul there, as always.
i miss this bald headed big eyed boy.
studio 54 crowd, not as good,
but i still like.
went home right before 4.
sure hope rachel have a ball!

next day, CULINARY CLASS
and timo decided to call me,
5 mins BEFORE calss started.
WAH DARN THANKS /
i just went back to slp
poor boy carried my knieve set to sch (and back)
HEH.
i quite bummed i missed lesson
but oh well.
even if i had made it, id be dead as a fish in class.
went for driving, which went well.
i think im getting the hang of it,
i cant bloody wait.
then training.

the next day jalan raya with the zara people.
went to sch for lecture first,
and bummed out doing nothing at all till i met esther,
make me SOOOO angry .
trained to bedok to meet fizah.
i look sooo like a malay girl in the kebaya la!
to kak pah house, her son DARN CUTE and chubby
then to fizah's, and chisty's
and lastly, ifah's
i didnt realise how near to techno she stayed.
and the mee soto was YUMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMy!
i like ifa's mama's one better, but this was a close similarity.
stayed with her a little while longer,
and it sucked to see her down.
which reminds me how relationships could sometimes be an aimless fall to the bottom
where something you cannot control no matter how much you try,
because the other person aint making it possible,
or isnt giving you much to make it feel its worth it.
as much as i dont know if i can handle that kinda state of a relationship,
it would be nice to have just someone,
strong and patient enough to hang on,
to know its worth it, and let me know it is.
though if you'd ask me while would i prefer,
being alone, or facing problems in a relationship,
i cant decide.
facing problems should hurt more,
since the basis of a relationship should require already, feelings.
dont have to reach the love stage as yet,
just, feelings enough for you to highly consider.

and everytime it reaches close to make a decision,
a landslide washes it all away.
i'm the impatient soul, asking for you to be patient with me.
coz when i decide,
i'll make it last forever.
cross my heart, hope to die.
i'll make it all worth it if you are.

what hurts the most

I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out

I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while

Even though going on with you gone still upsets me

There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok

But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most

Was being so close

And having so much to say

And watching you walk away

And never knowing

What could have been

And not seeing that loving you

Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go

But I'm doin' It

It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone

Still Harder

Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret

But I know if I could do it over

I would trade give away all the words that

I saved in my heart

That I left unspoken

And never knowing

What could have been

Not seeing that loving you

That’s what I was trying to do

mount e!

i'm sick!!
so mc work on monday.
shan dont believe me ah,
darn thanks.
i'm bloody coughing like an old lady
with a old record scratchy throat
and roller coaster fever.
sorry ah hat im more human then u .
went to tp to clear my insurance claim stuff.
i gotta remember to post out the original reciepts!!
argh.
then thought of going to training,
coz im really darn worried about my security of a position in the ips team .
esp with my not so regular attendence due to work commitments.
i really want to play, because i want to make a difference.
sigh.
dilema to train or not, my body really darn tired,
but no choice.
in the end lucky/unlucky training cancelled due to haze.
thursday i confirm cannot trian ill be at work.
so i really dont know how the selection would go .
it really depresses me that i cant do anything .
so to kfc with the girls to break fast .
sat with the girls and talk cock.
from sex to insertions to rings to condoms.
then shifted seats to outside kfc,
then to bubble tea shop .
darn fun.
if its one thing the cancellation brought,
it was time together for us to enjoy each others company.
its just been a long while.
at least especially for me who's somewhat evolved into an involunteery workholic.

on tuesday it was my formal off.
met ifah and her bf on the train
she help me chop seat.
ester was already at paya lebar.
geylang!! :) deng deng here i come!
the last time i went there with adi the deng deng not that good.
and i saw a damn terror rug !
like thick black border with animal prints,
fucking kinky!! I WANT!
and this time i couldnt find it!
ester bought a $10 kebaya. ifah a $60 after a looooong hunt.
she so different from work,
in front of her bf she so meragok.
but shes a girl with great substance and character.
very true to herself, which is great.
unlike ester,
who kept STEPPING ON MY FOOT!
and swinging her hair into my face!
ARGH!! :/
and again, the same person id bump into at geylang.
dearest ken .
unexpected, but yeah, it was good to see him,
even if it was for a glimpse.
id say it now, it took me a long while to decide if it was worth it,
and then get over the whole thing and he was the last thing on my mind.
but that was a long time ago .
a part of me still has a fixed mindset that he'll never get serious,
so just let go.
who knew that a glimpse could bring back so many things.
but then again i had a part to play,
i prolly demanded too much from him,
especially his time.
i still dont know if that was right or wrong,
but what the heck, its over, gone, kapooshit.
so sometimes its better to be alone,
but sometimes not.
indecisive now ah steph .
oh well, somethings are better left to rest.
anywayyyys. ikea was the initial plan,
but the kebaya hunt for ifah took too long,
so just straight to meet naomi at clarke quay,
then to mount e to see felix.

we first planned to pack him a happy meal with a toy and all,
but naomi's basket put together was lovely.
final touches included an overpriced rose,
and a cute lil sunshine card, which i wrote,
"dearest felix, sorry we didn't get you beer. READ ----->"
and it pointed to the 'get well soon' printed on the card.
sometimes i think we;re just darn cute.
we arrived to a sleeping felix with rachel sitting on his bedside,
and his mum worried in the corner,
i so can cry.
i'd never wanna be in her situation .
we girls then sat at the main area, eating and drinking and talking ,
then walked rachel out, then came back his parents went to eat.
then he woke up when the nurse came in to take his bp.
HI FELIX!! fiona xie is on tv! LOL .
poor boy. the op really took a toll on him,
and will continue to in the long run.
his crutches are EXTRA LONG. lol.
he cant even talk properly, he's sooooo drained from the morphine,
pukish without even eating yet.
and you know how fast that boy sweats up when its hot, and the place was darn stuffy .
i really hope he does get well soon.
his parents were worried sick. and can see the concern with the way they stroked his head and shoulders.
yes, its when you're vulnerable that you really know who are the realy people who care,
and would stay by your side.
which reminds me how much for the first time i saw my mum loved me when i was in hospital on my 16th .
how i long for that again.
oh well, i want to faster pass my driving,
then i can drive this poor princess around.
if he brave enough to sit my car la. HEH .
walked around town for abit with naomi,
waited for adi till 940.
went on to siglap cheesecake cafe, but closed.
jio charlotte along too.
i just had cheesecake cravings.
but starbucks packed,
anyway i remember they dont have cheesecake.
so to macs we sat!
talk talk talk talk talk talk.
adi brought cookies he made to let us try and grade.
cute, not bad actually.
just weirdly shaped.
then we sat at the park behind charlotte's house,
all the way till 140!
adi fell asleep ah!
but yes, it was just fun talking to charlotte,
its not often we get to talk,
but i really do enjoy talking to her,
she's so open to conversation, and shes a listening ear,
unlike adi the snorer.
adi sent me home, so tedah! here i am.
second time i wear skirt take bike ah,
darn thanks.

work tmr!
but dropping by to visit princess.
making him my get well soup!
thats if he can take it, STUPID MORPHINE!
ho hum.


forgive and forget,
it not, at least move on.

weekend

weeeekend.

friday full shift.
xian.
but i played x-men with this customer's kid.
he had alot of straws, he put between his fingers.
he think he wolverine.
so i take clip hanger ,and bazonker him.
hah hah .
then i wolverine him back with broken hangers.
and i bow and arrow him too.
fun la.
leen teaching him nonsense by diging her ass with the hanger!
he had toothpicks ah! he blew through the straw!
naughty boy names rusell.
but i still like the jap baby boy best.
he like, 2 yr old kind.
i clap clap my hands together he from darn far away,
RAN TO ME WITH THE BIGGEST SMILE ON HIS FACE,
arms lifted up.
he wanted to be carried ah!!
darn cute.
i want to steal .
as compared to the worse 3 monkeys to come with they expecting unshy mother.
they make darn alot of noise in the fitting room.
till one customer came out and shouted at them, they still continue,
and of corse the mother never say anything .
-_-"
looks like the closest id ever get to meeting the opposite gender,
are babies.
i'm not complaining,
they're adorable.
well, most of the time .
esp those mixed babies.
MOTHERFUckINGLY CUTE AH!
oops.

saturday morning shift.
thought want club after.
but thank you, havnt pay me yet!
and felicia very bad.
she made me feel bad the whole time thinking if i was at fault.
bad bad girl! :(
anyway, met naomi as planned.
missed the shuttle bus,
so we went the conventional way .
so to suntec to meet rachel and the boys.
wine fair they wanted to go .
dinner first at carl's jr.
bumped into paulo's family.
his youngest brother now very handsome.
and his mum was saying she opened a restuarant at lucky plaza!
yum! expect me there sometime soon! :)
filipino cuisine is YUMMY!
i miss paulo bear! he's always too busy .
so yes, narnsense talking over dinner.
darn funny.
sometimes i wished someone was contantly filming us and our nonsense.
it'll make a good sitcom cum documentary cum live version of f.r.i.e.n.d.s.
and so the indecisive people went to carrefour to see what we could buy .
in the end, ended up with anchor and tiger.
we look like drankards la, our basket all beer.
and i suggested, to top it all off and freak the cashiers out,
to take a shit load of condoms and dump it into the basket!
and even ask them if they had more.
it would have been darn funny ah.
so we walked out to esplanade to sit.
the haze is darn bad ah.
suddenly i have a strong love for the environment.
the boys as ususly, complaining about us girls wanting to take a loooong walk.
whiny the poops.
booze away! more narnsense talking .
needed to pee so wlaked back to esplanade.
me and rachel sabo naomi again, like in barks. LOL .
she was taking her pee when we threw a soaked tissue at her and rannnn out.
then we pretended that we were outside and that the lady inside did it.
but naomi just stormed out to the provision store where she wanted to get her nuts.
we hugged her from behind, and things were fine.
(we hoped) heh .
till she started throwing her kachang at us!
darn pain those nut bullets!
and it tastes like powder ah! -_-"
back to the boys and we had our little counterstrike with nuts.
we even tried throwing nuts at a empty can trying to knock it into the river.
then they played basket ball with me.
lets just say i ended up looking like a have nipples at my belly.
put two and two together.
and i fell ah! lol. i didnt see the step there.
it was darn stupid, somemoe i fell while i was dissing felix.
paiseh la.
last train home. and the ususal whinning about singlehood.
met the javin signh on the train .
well, that was it.

sunday,
afternoon shift,
started the day darn pissedly.
wanted to lunch with my mother.
so pick tiffy at church there.
already rushing for time, since work starts at 130 .
time was 1230 when we reached eastpoint.
then nvm no, she still want dilly dally.
i tahan abit, till she say "so annoying."
fuck i just lost it ah .
such a bitch. i'm sure if it was you, you would have reacted worse!
this is was i mean that people dont appreciate my efforts of making time with them.
nor do they consider my feelings with the things they do or say .
so much so that sometimes i wished the same day i'd die.
so at least id leave them with guilt for the rest of their fucking lives.
chee bai.
and worse of all, my mum didnt call me to ask why i left.
i wish she had coz i knew exactly what i wanted to say,
"YOUR FAVOURITE DAUGHTER IS A BITCH, thats why"
and the sad thing is, i'll alway lose,
because i always come in second place when it comes to my sister,
or last with sisters.
whatever, i don't know how to suck up as greatly as you .SORRAY.
anyway so met fizah on the train to o together .
work was alright.
A SMALL GIRL WAS DARN CUTE!
she in her prem i like play play with her,
she ignore me, nvm. i went back to do my stuff.
then she put out her hand, and said, "COME!"
LOL so cute! small fingers!
and she kissed me ah! on my cheek!
i also want to steal!
sales was bad.
even kids and mens were better.
i think the haze is reallllly a bitch .

monday off so driving at 1020 first.
went alright. close to completing my module one.
then to shimo's! to hang out with her and her bf,
aka my owners.
(my whole long story abt how i'm their cat!)
they prepared a play pen for me!!
got a matress and toys on it!
how cute is that!
ill scan it soon!
heh.
brought dvds. we watched the devil wears prada
over ice cream, pudding and MIRANDA orange.
and wasibi chips which they cannot tahan! lol.
well, i left the peas for timo, hes the only champion who can handle them with TLC.
while watching tom and jerry, which was darn funny,
we all fell asleep! lol.
coz i was laughing ot myself suddenly and i saw that shimo had her eyes shut,
so i had mine too, after popiahing myself in the comforter.
next thing i know, 520! :)
just nice to get redy to leave for training.
day 1 of fitness again.
but lucky syah had us easy.
training not that bad.
i realise that im somehow informally unallowed to play in the centre
coz i just never get the chance to .
sad.
after training, showered and dinner with naomi, shimo, hannan, feeeelix and jasomething.
cant spell his name. heh.
at habibie.
then bus home.
and i missed greys anotomy! :(
oh well .
its a danm tight budget week !
with my concession expired, exlink on low balance,
contacts unclaimed and half unpaid for.
and still no pay.
butoooooh!


uploaded pics in previous entry!!!
there's gotta be a heaven somewhere.

dee 21st!

work has been, long.
maybe its because my off days are for things to be done.
not to rest.
thats why im always so worn out,
at the end of every week, everyday.

I PASSED MY ADVANCE THEORY!
on my first try!
wee!
actually quite easy. and the questions are smart.
makes u think of what u SHOULD do,
not what u THINK is right.
nvm .
but wee!
and my pays not in yet.
so i cant make more bookings.
not as if our time table it out also.
but i didnt know princess and agnes has alot of slots .
boo.
bummed out la, but what for la hor.
not say my father want to pay for me so i have to work for it.
he smart, dont want me drive his car.
but when i can, he cant stop me
heh heh .
met bobby at the kopitiam there awhile,
he kuku walk in and our of camp twice to buy drink,
coz i missed him the first time round.
kway chap with felix,
darn full.
bus to bedok and had yummy goreng pisang,
(i'm a goreng pisang bitch)
plus sugar cane.
somehow i miss seah im .
nvm, soon soon when school starts.

this the first time i actually took for myself to rest.
catch up on some sleep.
first time in a long time i slept like a baby when i got home at 5 from the centre.
forced myself to wake up if not at night cannot sleep .
the girls training today for saturdays game.
i really no energy to train.
plus tmr full followed by morning shift.
talk abt no rest. :/
this saturday for 3rd and 4th placing.
against UWC.
it seems only months ago when we played our first NTL,
when i just joined n 2005.
and a year later,
this is how far we've come.
a team with blood sweat and tears,
in good standings in the league,
with an awesome season and awesome blooming of leaders, teamates and friends.
yes, we've come so far.
more to come with upcoming competitions,
all asian schools, oasis touch, IVPs.
well, its not alot i get to be proud of,
and saying how much i take pride in the team and the sport,
is an understatement.

i wanna take up more other sports.
golf, wakeboarding, kickboxing.
takers?

anyway,
HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY DEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!
hope you had a blast on your first day of 'freedom'
heh.

so myself and shimo made the plans.
to go sakura at eastpoint at 615 for dinner with miss birthday.
then last monute change of plans while i was at the driving centre.
and missy shimo was smsing dee's old number.
so she didnt get updated plans.
so while we were heading to sakura downtown at 630,
dee was already at eastpoint.
LOL.
they arrived first,
i second at like close to 7.
ate and ate and ate! :)
the food quality defnately went down!
anyway dee opened the gift myself, shimo, hannan and lu shared for her,
a key pendants necklace! wee .
plus the 20 red roses and 1 purple one.
ate ate ate ate.
first time ever i gave up fast at a buffet.
sub concious guilt of the tummy .
3 different waiters wanted to clear dee's undone plate.
it was quite funny.
too efficient? heh, right.
moving on to desert.
we pilled up on the bite size cakes.
then shimo and dee went back for fruits.
whilei took out the candle shimo brought.
so when they came back i fast handedly put the candle in,
thats when the lighter played me out. dang.
so just ask dee close her eyes.
lit the thing and me and shimo went mad taking pictures.
DARN CUTE! i'll get hold of them soon.
and what a better way to top of a 21st birthday,
other then going to ak umar show!! :)

last minute plan to watch kumar at chinaone.
since rach got us a table there already .
extremely the last minute.
shimo refused to wear slippers there,
so we went to hers first so she could wear he spanking white heals.
then we cabbed there, and picked rachel on the way .
marli was joining us too, frm her training at padang.
but detour to home to get changed.
met naomi. waited for kumar. frm 10 wait till 1030.
marli came with sujan,
finally started. but the dj play wrong song, so he/she still not yet come out.
she came out to rhianna's unfaithful.
drag sia! long time no see!
her crew cannot make it.
one too fat, one too guy, one too horse ugly,
even kumar said so.
i swear he and russel peters should have a battle.
darn racists.
first half was not bad, during the break one jug of ours already empty.
darn thanks la rachel!
2nd set, sabo time!
dee up on stage!
yeah!
:) funny la.
shall not say much, picutre speaks a thousand words,
what abt videos? HAHA!
and a guy tried to pick me up ah!

Guy : "are you really paying attention to this shit"
Steph:" yeah, coz its my friend up there! her 21st! :) "
Guy : "oh shit, that young?"
Steph:"ha, well, I'M YOUNGER"
Guy : " OH SHIT, i better stay away from this table then"

ye, go, shoo!
balding muthafarker.
end of set, needed to peee!
took rachel with us whose forehead kissed the table all through the second set ah.
and while me and naomi were heading out,
someone had to puke know. suddenly of a sudden.
at the entrace.
the bouncers face fucking funny.
priceless. like
"oh no, she didnt, darn. she did, no. dang!"
hahah!
a few steps later, again ah rachel!
mee siam you ate.
bringing her into the toilet baddd idea.
she sat her ass down, and kept saying 2 mins later she'll go.
after water she'll go.
NO AH! one hour later then.
after much persuasion from audrey, her sister and another rachel.
darn funny la. eurasian cheesiness.
rachel's adress was written on andrea's hand in eyeliner ah!
she also abit gone.
and they is all going go home together.
LOL .
naomi and myself still could play tic tac toe on her back! :)
and i sooooooooooooooo beat her.
audrey wrote a HUGE rachel rocks my socks.
and our names on her back .

lol! cool la, ang kong siao.
an hour later, we walked her out to a cab at mos there.
and to think that girl actually throughout asked us to go ahead first.
dude.
we is no leave you behind love.
not especially if you're a cow.
a drunk one at that.
cow, no cow, drunk no drunk.
steph is love you .
so dont stupid and ask us to leaveeeeeeeeee again next time .

then to mos.
met naomi's ex.
couldnt picture them together
but he's a kind person .
very nice boy.
mos was just alright.
the music sucks at all the rooms.
2 indian guys tried to dance with us.
quite a few scc boys were there.
my feet were killing me.
mos is getting boring .
i is need find good place.
studio 54 is gooood.
the dj quite cute.
the crowd could have been better!
picturesssss!!

naomi lee pui san's gorgeous!
and he ex bf got us one last drink before hitting the clubb.

STUDIO 54 is lovvvvvvvve!

end of the night, i cabbed home myself.
it just would be nice to have someone to come home to,
and cuddle and drown with kisses till i fall asleep.
more importantly,
someone who'll just be by me.
to hear me whine and bitch and complain and nag and talk .

i'm soooo tired nowadays,
i dont even know where my head is sometimes.
when i dont have the time, i make time.
just make effort to show me, you know i am trying .
coz i know what's worth my time and effort.
just let me know, i am too.





to my future boyfriend/husband/soulmate
FASTER FIND ME la.
i've forgotten how love feels like.

my love

If I wrote you a symphony,

Just to say how much you mean to me

What would you do?

If I told you, you were beautiful

Would you date me on the regular?

Tell me would you?

Because, I can see us holding hands

Walking on the beach, our toes in the sand

I can see us on the country side

Sitting in the grass laying side by side

You can be my baby

You amaze me

Ain't gotta do nothin crazy

See all I want you to do is be my love

Now If I wrote you a love note

And make you smile with every word I wrote

What would you do?

mossss

mos has been like my haunt.
havnt been able to update about the last time i've been there.
which was siti k's surprise birthday on the 2nd of sept.
sheema picked me, and we picked marli and sujan.
it was their SUSPENDER party! heh.
i didnt have one, initially, coz i not SRC crew. boo.
ad, her aunt and couz was there.
anne goh, adi, alan, src pple and other rugby pple.
main arena was packed, and i swear there was racial segretion.
like the 2nd floor was the ang mo area. oh hum .
not bad crowd.
to smoove though the music was GROSS.
where is the love? some kinda superstar. EWW.
went to house section at main arena, and i swear im startin to like it.
mad dancing.
went back to smoove and it still was boring!
decided to get tenquila pops, 1-for-1.
by the time i popped one and downed it, there was a raid.
thanks la.
45 mins of bright lights .
as soon as the lights went out, everyone shouted.
and I'M BRINGING SEXY BACK!
awesome line up of songs all the way after!
london bridge, buttons etc etc.
DARN FUN!
i borrowed ad's suspenders
most fun was when i challenged alan.
he kept dancing and pulling the suspenders over his head.
so i challenged him to see who can pull higher. HEH !
and yes, the taller dude won, DUH.
though i was good competition. nly my skirt was getting higher and higer.
then we challenged, who can hook the most number of people! :)
he had 5. i think me too.
only that he took all the skinny people and still could have gone on,
i couldnt coz the suspenders clipped off of my skirt and smacked sheema and adi.
OH DEAR!
danced the night away.
and who else appeared but zul! again.
went to 54 with adi to hunt abdul down. WEEE
young hearts, run free!
mad dancing there. suspenders make u feel sexy i swear.
i saw hiM! weee! but he was already sloshed, so forget it.
went back to smoove.
danced abit more.
and ah, throughout the whole night ah,
there was this SOMEONE who kept trying to dance with me.
i couldnt tell if it was a he or she.
but she kept looking at me, or he. OH MY.
and ad just kept sheidling me away.
danced with alan. then zul
and that person actually went to touch zul's bald head
omg the traumatic look on his face!
but ya! throughout the whole night!
ok it was abit of a complement or flattery,
but it got a lil awkward.
bumped into someone who was initially alright,
till he said he was going home but he went to drank abit more
then he kinda forced himself on me as i was leaving.
i felt so violated.
maybe so because i know him and know people who know him
or that he was drunk when he did it,
or the act of forcing itself.
too bad i was too short and all i could do was push his face.
what better way to end ending the awesome night.
PFFT.

and wednesday night was fun!
well the crowd was shitty, but we had our fun.


















pre drinking on the bridge first. felix and his first gulp.
present was him, me, naomi, rachel and lu.

after we finished the bottle,
i just had to do it again.
so i wrote your name in it,
and threw it into the ocean. (river actaully, lol)
and 2 secs later, the boat came frm below the bridge!!!
any later, people would have died dude. :
then mos here we come!

loving the camera at the entrance,
free photos what, so we take like mad.
but i like this the most.
to studio 54 it was! chilling, and more pictures!
agnes was there too!
lu left to meet the rest at cube for drinks.

i love studio 54!
anyway, just got this black dress from zara. after work.
was with sam from there, and she dissappeared.
oh well.
and yes, my shoes from novo.
$100 damage ple.
and of corse, my bandage for the stitches. HEH.
mad photos with mad people.

went to smoove and we decided that we just wernt high enough .
so king albert scotch had to do.
back to the bridge!
and yes.
we couldnt finish. and i had a lovely chat with rachel .
with her i feel i could say things without anyone judging.
anyway, house, rnb, old school
we were all over mos.
naomi and i went to house,
and 2 hot dudes tried to dance with us,
and naomi, who's face constantly flashed on the screen with the oval,
coz she's miss gorgeous,
ignored them.
:/ fine.
to smoove, then 54!
my favourite.
the whole dance floor to us! WOOOO HOOOO!
blame it on the boogie.
then naomi whined about the 2 dudes, DUDE!
pfffffffffffft.
and while walking to take a seat, i tripped over a stool ah!!
omg FELL ON MY KNEE!
thanks gawd it was still in one piece.
ended off the night at house on the podium .
mad shitheads dancing their arses off.
went outside, to find again our merlion .
goodness girl.
WE FORBID YOU TO DRINK THIS MUCH AGAIN.
tsk .

anyway mos is getting from old to older news.
the crowd is getting bad.
i need to find a good place
with good people.
then i can sing the janet jackson song la.
maybe we'll meet at the bar,
he'll drive a funky car,
i'll be the girl of his dreams,
MAYBE.

wah what only.

stitched

finally i get an off yesterday!
and YES monday.
means RUGBY DAY!

went early, met lu at the bus stop with plans to gym
she got mea red bull
so tweet.
by the time we got to school,
we didnt gy,
instead we did 1 and 2 with zaki, alan and char.
by 6++ warm up game, then warm up as usual.
lateral passes and then working on defence.
so had to have live crashing attack.
and after a few rounds,
i went to take a touch a suria, when i somehow tripped over he boot while splitting to the side.
and i flew forward on all fours.
went again towards the side of the feild,
till nurul said stop,
"clean that off first, at the boot scrub"
i looked down. OMFG!!
blood till my socks!
i ran to the toilet, knowing full well the bootscrub water was leftover rainwater -_-"
by then the blood reached my boots.
plonked my thunder thigh onto the sink while splashing water onto my wound.
i could have pissed myself with the sound of the water.
i still didnt even feel pain.
had to squeeze the cut together so i could use the twisers to remove 2 impalled grass blades in it.
ive never seen vie freak out like this ever.
and i remembered how haha said she doesnt like talking in toilets coz of germs.
heh .
anyway ruby was a darling who kept helping me wash and apply cream and all.
the bleeding stopped, i sat at the side while they did drills.
marli thought i fell on my own, the clumsy style-a-way.
after that they did a try-line defence drill kinda thing.
thats when i joined in,
after the lovely haha bandanged my wound up tight tightly.
even got to play in the 10 mins of game after, weee!
oh well, thurs im not able to make training.
got chance i wont get to play on sat though ive got off.
PFFFT.
and someone kinda ruffled my feathers.
but i wont say much, due to the fact that ive gotten over it,
and i know where my time and effort should be invested in now.
i wont say as much about it, if not itd just be on the same level.

mummy came to pick me up,
and she says need stitches.
i know she means well, but could she have spoken to me better?
like as if i want to fall and want to have this cut and want to have an ugly scar.
though i still doubt it needs stitches.
what do u think?

got to the hospital by 10.
i swear its not me knee that needs stitches,
its my heart.
never have i felt much coldness before.
and i still dont comprehend why hospitals paint their walls green.
like those sickly green when they are suppose to make people feel, unsickly.
first i had to take some anti-rust jab
which i swear the nurse just jabbed my muscle or something, it still hurts BTW .
then to the operation theathre to wait.
mummy went to floss her teeth. thanks la. left me alone.
so i made friends with an indian uncle who was waiting to get stitched also
only thing is he was still bleeding!
ok so yes. long wait.
and OMFG. the anasthetic was BLOODY PAINFUL LA.
i swear the needle prolly extended to the core of my knee on the cut itself :(
darn pain .
and he could still use the needle to poke poke my leg to test if it hurts.
it didnt but NEED YOU DO THAT!
and i swear when he snipped that bit of skin off blood squirted,
not that i saw, but after it was done, i saw a blood line. heh.
didnt feel much, but i could feel when he thugged on the thread.
6 stitches! gawd
bride of frenkenstien!

yes children. be kind to your knees,
ud never know when you're going to miss them.
its so freaaaaaaaaakin hard to walk when this knee.
always at the back of my mind im soooo afraid to rip my stitches.
SO SO AFRAID.
next day working full shift somemore.
wednesday clubbing somemore.
terror.
take care knee!
and stephaknee.

thankew to the concerned people!
made everything a lil less painful and barable.

GOODBYE!! :)

dont have to be torn between 2.
because i pull myself of this rat race.
where i can never measure up,
to whom i want to be.

to already have a new begining means to already have an end.
so why try to put on a puppet show,
when its just inevitable.
yup, i knew no one can take care of my heart,
better then myself.


anyhooots.
blew another of my off days.
oh well, anyway would be the last day that im freely free.
all my other off days in weeks to come are dedicated to rugby or driving.
hannan got his lisence, pffft.
u wait u wait, i also will.
chiong ah!
advanced theory in 2 weeks,
practicals in 1 weeks time,
then mad booking of lessons.
i cant wait!
ok, today is the last day i look at things in a darker light.
i need to start painting in neons.
get back my aura and zen. LOL.
i should take yoga i swear.

here's to the night,
save me from this darkness.
oh what the heck,
GOODBYE!! :)

hypothetically.

what if i surpressed it?
is it wrong for me to want you to stay?
would you rather have me tear you away from the family you know?
or is it just too big a secret to keep it on the low?

hypothetically of corse,
are theres somethings better left unsaid.
would you want to know instead?
hypothetically of corse,
are there some wars not worth fighting,
some tears not worth crying?
hypothetically of corse,
what if this happened to you,
what would you want me to do?

would you want to know?
tell would you do?
would you walk away or would you stay?
would you want to leave the past behind us?
or are you afraid that one day it would find us?
would it even matter?
could it even matter?
should it even matter?

hypothetically of corse.

rollercoaster.

off today! !
great chance for me to catch up sleep.

ellen de genereous is freaking funny la.
anyways, work has been, tiring.
i miss the old people there,
but the new ones are kinda the same pattern .
i dont like the new managers.
i sold this guy a $299 trenchcoat, only to let one of the managers k-po
want to entertain, until in the end he dont want to buy. good for you, bitch.
met a racist customer, under my conclusion. LOL.
a customer who asked if i was eurasian and say no wonder so pretty.
not shy la steph.
yup. 3rd day and im still surviving.
2 days breaki n a row, then 2 days full.
no rugby for me at all this week.
we'll see how that goes.

hung out with rach and felix at her place.
didnt stay long. all shagged.
what was suppose to be a drinking session only resulted in 2 cans of beer. LOL.
i just need to swollow all the heartache.
but i was just too tired to even.
i swear my eye infection is coming back .
now im so confused.
and for once, i feel the ache of losing something that could have been, great.
but everything holding me back are fears and insecurity,
of myself which i come to conclude i can never get over,
which affects everyone above myself.
and this time, when i say i dont know,
i really dont.

and i think ive learnt very much to hold things back,
especially my tears.
on saturday after my game, everything just climaxed to my brink of destruction.
firstly, was the game. i just felt, blank.
because i dont know what im doing well, or not well,
but it was certainly a game that we underperformed.
was on the way to yck to catch a match,
and there everything just went mad.
almost like, it was fate shouting in my face, that it wasnt meant to be.
to i went the other way around, and just bit my lip the whole way home.
holding back the tears.
luckily i had someone who was willing to put time aside,
just to keep me company.
so i stopped at paya lebar, and by the time he arrived,
i just broke. i just cried.
i couldnt hold it anymore.
but at least im glad he took time to be there for me.
even though i didnt share much, he was patient.
he made me feel alot better by just making me not focus on the bad,
but rather the good.
yes, sometimes it helps to not talk abt the bad things,
but rather talk about nonsense stuff that makes u just smile,
coz a smile makes you forget.
or at least, lessens the impact of all the bad bad bad stuff.
for a brief time of someone who isnt always around,
its just nice to know that people you dont expect to be there,
are readily ready to be there.
which makes everything, worth a shot for struggling a little bit more.

and attitude plays a bit part.
so now i'm trying to learn how to walk with a spring in my step .
and ive just got the best news.
which reminds me to put my wants and goals in check,
to move me to do things, i love.

what a rollercoaster.

back to work.

freaking shagged.

back to work today, day 1.
i dont know anyone there!
except for shirley cashier, and mas nino's.
working full. fizah and dina
i miss them so.
got to know afew and abit abt the other girls.
floor was boring.
fit was mad.
customers are evolving into bitchy people.
leaving their clothes they tried in the fitting rooms.
#(*&$@^#%!!!
so what if have GEMS and what fuck.
doesnt give them the ticket to be inconsiderate.
fuckers.
and its true,
working around clothes too much,
makes u want to blow ur first pay cheque on most of the stuff there.
help me. sponsor me : )
trained home with siti and fizah.
glanced past a picture of you and me.
and yes, i miss u a very little bit.
but i miss being massaged more.
i missed being kissed. LOL.
i miss being given flowers.
i miss being free.
and now i'm having a mindphuck.
where i'm just numb, but aching all through my body.
and my mind's a heavy lump of mud.
but not as heavy as my eyes and eyebags.
oh my achy breaky back.

tmr got game with the blacks.
i better take a looooong nap
im uber shagged.
and i'll just snore myself to sleeeeeeep .

gdnight.

rainbows aint forever

i dont want to have to pay for mistakes,
that wasnt mine to make.
and i know the rainbow wouldn't last forever.
i just never knew it to be this fast.

everytime i act like wonderwoman.
from trying to carry loads of stuff at one shot just so i need no make a second trip,
to building a wall in my head, and welling in my mind,
thoughts that i am invincible and nothing can break me.

but who am i kidding.
it dont even take a bulldozer to remove the foundation of my wall.
so now im crumbling under the rubble.
isolated in an environment that once was second nature.

people, who once were second nature.
familiar faces have evolved to backs, walking away.
correct me if i'm wrong, but it just says alot not about me,
but those who's left behind the weak, strengthless to even cry.

is it better or worse, that i call you my friend?
its alright, you have somewhere else better to be.

yes, the rainbow doesnt last forever.
and somehow i have lingering feeling in my bones,
that something bad is going to happen.
nothing to do with me, but just, something bad.

PASSED MY BASIC!!

I PASSED MY BASIC THEORY BIIIIAATTCH!!
so did felix and ageness too!
omg my hert stop a minute before they show the results.
cheetot.
PASSED. wah. i smiles to my computer screen .
today is an AWESOME day .
i knew it the moment i woke up. :)

woke up at 8, to meet dee at 9 for marketting.
for shimo's surprise bday party!
we just bought fry-able stuff.
and we went back to mine, and left for her's at 11.
reached there, with lu and meow into her house to deco the place.
supi and yam came after .
we blew balloons,
or rather me and meow blew most of it
coz we have power lungs!
and the balloons were rubber of stone!
yes, they looked obscene, like tits and condoms and cocks.
wtf right.
had a bird, and we made a caterpiller, bee and weight out of a few.
darn cool.
we hung a 'happy birthday' streamer, and i topped it off with her name tag,
so it says "happy birthday shimo neo" and her chinese name, heh!
hid our stuff under the bed, we hid in the toilet.
saw her through the mirror when hannan brought her home,
she hesitated to go into her room, when she did,
we chionged out, and HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!
hehe! she just smile. that one not so bad.
when we went down to cut her cake and sing song,
she kept hiding behind hannan coz she shy,
darn cute la. smile until cannot see eyes.
shimo shimo.
cannot even take photos. LOL .
the cake was good, the food by the time was already soggy.
stayed for 5 mins mre, then off to khaki ukit i went.
wanted to take a cab, which took rather long.
then a maxi cab stopped in front of me, i refuse to take,
coz i tot its expensiver.
then the lasy rationed that it was the same.
and persuaded me to take it nonetheless.
so i did, one person in the beeeeg cab,
i didnt know where to sit. HEH!.
reached also i can stand up to pay then go backto my seat to take my stuff.
terror, though the starting fee was 2.80.
its the new in rather then the merc cabs.
I AM THE KING. lol.

reached there, met felix and agness at the entrance.
and then i realise, WAH NEVER BRING IC.
an the fella REFUSE to let me in.
she bloody bitchy.
so yes, i went to counter, lucky the lady nice.
sat for the test, and PASSED lor.
even though i didnt know quite alot of the questions, LOL.
tricky shit.
but yes. heeee!
but i couldnt print my form.
neither could i apply for PDL.
coz NO IC.
stoooopid me.
i so freaking happy.
and i called shan,
and yes, she gave me the job!
even though it'll eat into my first 2 weeks of school
and some ntl's i''d have to miss :( trainings too.
triple sighs!
but i reallllly need the cash, to cover my driving.
went ot the counter, we signed up for advance and trial tests.
and i took any practical slots avaliable,
the two already have their own, so i'd be taking it alone.
the only thing that bothers me is that i still dont know how to go there by bus,
and that i'd have to find my car before the lesson through all the car parks
and confirm i kena accident.
either i trip.
or forget something,
so kena honk for anyhow crossing road. whatever.
but yessss.
815 darn early, but YAY!
excited.

gyming later.
no more zouk for me tonight. SIGh.
was quite looking forward to it.
but i paid good (and alot) of money for 100mins of practicals.
plus i need to buy concession.
then need to buy pdl tmr.
cock sure broke.
and i and wan made a pact,
to take bike lisence sugela! :) :)
prolly take it concurrently.
excited.
and getting the job is REALLY a load off my shoulders.

everything is about choices.
and i'm sure consequences would follow the ones i made.
alot of things would be affected.
for things that i'd have to forgo, or sacrifice.
personal time and space, friends, imf, school, RUGBY esp. :(
perhaps now, i'm thinking more for myself.
i need to take one day at a time ,
yet plan ahead.
im so gonna burn myself up,
and beat myself up if i lose certain things along the way.
but ive got to go down this path, for now.



to top today off, CARE BEARS ARE ON KIDS CENTRAL!!
YIPEEEE! !
lesson of the day: when happy, dont go to timo,
he'll say U SIAO.
happy = lisence to use vulgarities, to qualify emotions.
right right right.
i'm mad. FUCKING mad. LOL.

laters!

sunshine princess

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

SHIMONA & MUNA! :)
have an awesome ride through the legal world babeh!

is it me, or are people not what you thought they were.
to the one you, contant in my last thoughts before i sleep.
you're no longer there.
coz you're no longer what i thought i needed.
because i know my heart won't be in a secure place.
and i can't beat myself up thinking,
when will you ever know,
or realise that i am there.

dear you

it the things like this that you do.

that tells me in my face how important i am to you.

and why is it that each time, i always expect the same outcome,

when actually i'm expecting you to prove me wrong.

don't say you depend on me,

because it only seems that you depend on me to be there,

when others arnt.

i'll play my part, i'll go the mile,

just go that one small step for me.

i don't know what to say anymore,

it'll just be the same over and over again

that sometimes i question how much longer i can put up with this treatment

i'm hanging by a thread.

all in all,

you're not helping me find the me that i once was,

and that i can be.

that better me.

chasing cars.

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes
They're all I can see
I don't know where
Confused about how as well
I just know that these things
Will never change for us at all

I don't quite know how to say how I feel
Those three words are said too much
They're not enough

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads
I need your grace to remind me
To find my own

yuck

i feel fucking violated.

hot tempered.

how hot tempered are you? -- based on horrorscope.

CAPRICORN DECEMBER 21 - JANUARY 19
Few will believe that a hardcore practical and materialistic person like you is capable of sensitivity and genuine emotions. You project a hard exterior but are actually very sensitive, a trait you successfully hide from others. You can see things with anger but will not betray your feelings. But then, there are times that even you cannot control your temper. Under such circumstances you can shout and scream, more with frustration at the situation than with anger at any particular person. Your outbursts can shock others and can make them feel guilty too.


utterly true i feel.
especially about the part where if and when i lose my temper,
its not at people but rather situations.
am i a closet materialistic person? hmmm.
then again i'm the last day of capricorn, oh well.
but does my outburst shock an make people feel guilty?
tell me!! TELL MEEEE! !

anyway thanks nurul for the email.
for the complete list of all the horrorscopes,
drop me a note, i'll forward the mail to you.

oh i'm sick. :(
terrible don't get worse then this.

midnights

friday night study session at the airport.
yes, the eastsider is late, vs the nothsiders naomi and timooootee.
sorrrrreee
popeyes with rach, felix and the 2 above.
carol joined.
service sucked. the food not that bad, but kfc chicken is better.
still remembered how the boys tried to con me into giving my chicken skin to them.
BEST PART LA DEI.
after that scouted around for a place to study.
i suggested the sky train, but they rudely declined. (wonder why)
settled at coffee bean after we hussled seats. had to clear our own table.
rachel and me seprated from the pack coz we were leaving earlier.
anyways, yes. to the toilets we went first.
*READER DISGRESSION ADVISED*
yes, we needed to take a dump.
first she was at the verge of bombing, while i just only felt it coming on,
so she demanded me to stop making her laugh.
and we went to another toilet since the one we were at was, slow.
so yes, we had a side-by-side cubicle, and i said "let's race"
she was like "you crazy girl... you're handphone got game?"
"yes, i think got multi-player, billard!"
"yay ok lets play, we pass under the door."
"oops, my bad, its single player. but, i'm done. i wait for you outside"
-.- and then there was the pebble, right rach. LOL.
so yes, finally down to studying.
but before that we were playing open numbers to decide which cake we'd get.
she wanted tiramisu, i wanted cheeesecake :)
in the end, she "won". heh.
so yes, studying.
which i didnt really get to.
i still think i study best at home.
halfway through we had onion rings.
rachel is a clown when it came to orderin the cheesesticks for felix.
so much so that she ended up ordering from the floor.
she taught me to eat stacked up onion rings. terror la.
stuffed.
back to 'studying'. and then we were taking pictures with feli'x phone as 'evidence'
so i pretended to look studious. HEH.
2nd picture, rachel told me to get away coz i "don't fit"
"WAH, fat then say fat laaaaaaaa." *pouts as i stomped to my seat.
then i attempted to do a paper.
naomi was my chekgu who checked my work.
then sidetrack with one tree hill and other chatterings.
left the place by 2.
rachel and myself left, and we went onto the escalator not knowing where to exit.
and i just stopped. she, just stopped, stunned too.
"CHEY I THOUGHT AUTOMATED!" i swear i'm going to write to COMPRAIN.
then we decided, we're NOT going to pay the $3 extra just coz we're at the airport.
so we wanted to walk our way out of the whole airport vacinity.
but NooOOoo. just walking along the drop off point at t2 already we cannot take it.
so to the taxi stand.
starting meter already was about $7.75, thanks
went home, didnt fall asleep till like 6++.
i swear im getting insomnia.
rolling rolling rolling. weee

national touh league week 3.
excited about the game, against rp.
and OMG, i estimated my time too precisely.
that by the time my train would arrive at toapayoh, it would be excatly 1230,
the time the shuttle bus comes.
so by the time i dally to the busstand, ill just barely miss the bus.
then the next bus will be in another half hours time, and walking in somemore. DIE la.
i dont even know which area i can take cab easily from there. tsk.
lucky nurul rescue me, somemore buy food for me, hehe.
so i took the train to her area, and she picked me up in cab, and to the turf we went!
reached there just minutes before we warmed up, our other team had their game against bucks.
anyways, yes warming up, my ass felt tight. and i didnt know how to stretch my muscle, so it kinda hurt throughout the game.
but yes, i was siked. it was a beautiful day!
kept singing that in my head, and to haha. LOL .
and yes, i scored!
quite unglam la, boz i very fakely fake to supi, then i dump on the line.
on my knees, so kuku. marli thought i fall again. WAH THANKS.
ad said i caught a ball and daned 360. stop laughing la.
wasnt my best. wasnt all our best. seen better at trainings.
anyways, 6-1 to us.
happy xia. but it was REALLY a good fight.
vie played well, dispite her not being very well.
wan came down, and i was like, ah.
i just really dont like people to see me play, i cant knowing that people are scrutinizing.
stupid la, just that one thing i asked, but NOOO.
anyways, slacked at macs before we headed to CCAB for the blacks midnight 7s.

took a bus down, shimo, charlotte, angie, nurul and myself.
i think scoring a try really boosts morale and makes me happy and siao the whole day.
anyways, was talking about pubic hair and how redundant it was.
its function, waxing and stuff, till we were rudely SHHHHHshed.
whatever, but not say we talking to YOU ladeeeee.
reached the stadium, saw the twins and hadi.
and of corse, my #1. PETE WILLIAMS aka ABDUL.
you're so hot. its been awhile since i saw you and ur looking good as ever.
actually not long la, that time saw him at a glance for a split second at MOS.
but you've bulked up, oohhh i like. HEH.
we showered first, nurul and gie went to the police game coz they had someone to support.
3 of us stayed behind, to watch ;)
there were trams from uk, guam, hong kong and thailand. of coz singapore too.
quite alot of people, somewhat like scc 7s but different atmosphere.
the guam womens team was terror. so is the blacks power, or magic?
just the first team la. the guys team also impressive, for both mentioned.
was multi-tasking. watching the game, writing notes, talking to char and shimo, and later on sipping stout. WAH. lol.
i hate stout. bleah.
saw quite a few people.
haz, josh who was mc, yazid, harry, haha came, src girls were there, later src people come, marli and all, siti k, sheema, dont know who else la.
yes.
stayed till 1am. bucks had a walkover game, grr, dang coz i wanted to see pete play.
though he didnt like, show much awesomeness. he's still my #1. :)
forever and ever babe, wah.
the blacks midnight sevens is the first event seeing games running all through midnight and beoynd.
and guess how they marked midnight?
they played touch 7s, in PYJAMAS!
eah team had one representive each for the all stars vs the all nations.
darn cute, with a big foam air ball thingy.
yes. there was a fight on the field, a pull-down-your-jamies fight! darn cute la.
took bus 154 with charlotte, zaki and his teammate (i didnt catch his name)
to eunos, and thought of changing bus to NR7, but it took too damn bloody long.
i didnt wanna make charlotte and zaki wait any longer so i just got rid of myself in a cab.
dropped them off at kembangan. and home it was.
taxis are getting more and more expensive.
to sleep i went by 3am.

woke up the next day to dear shimo's sms.
asking if wanna watch the game with her and her baby then study.
but i know i cant study outside, and if i go to the game,
i'll be studying something else ;)
so yes, i stayed home. only to watch the afternoon movie on channel 5.
and they started giving me live reports on the matches,
and live information of abudl being like NEXT TO THEM. darn thanks.
then i came to know that bucks will be playing scc.
ooooh exciting.
and that was the catalyst that sparked the giving in to temptation.
so i took up ads invitation to go down. heh.
was to meet her at eunos to bus 154 down to watch,
then iwas running late. so i decided to cab and pick her and go straight.
then marli called. so had a detour to pick her and sujan up.
if i know i dont ask ad go eunos la.
one round when she lives like, there. LOL .
she baywatched ran to the cab, and off we were.
shimo was still there! she say she going off after the next game at 4,
and 6 i came, abt that. i think, i cant remember.
anyway, game after game, we just watched.
guam's team are terror.
i like lots.
they like have a set of twins in the A team, and the girls team
how cool is that. and the twins keep alternating to score, and creating scored and conversion.
power la.
and, BUCKS IS THE CHAMPION!
expected. aaron brown how big and bearly?!
adbul how hot?! lol.
went home after with ad, and he was walking behind us!
then he when the other way, dangs.
bus was the plan, till she said whichever comes first.
and then we are in the cab.
went home, i didnt study!
i decided to wake up early the next morning to study la. : )
ass.


so many times i wished u were here.
to share my every moment.