bullshit

i finally found out who the fools were who pulled the stunt,
of ringing the doorbell late at night on valentine's day.
if my sources are accurate, which i quite sure it is becoz i know where my trust is invested.
and i have a very good idea on who the mastermind is, or at the very least, who's involved.
not jumping into presumptions that i was the target of your oh-so-fun prank,
not especially since the next door neighbour had their night interuppted by you idiots too.
but the disgust is just so overwhelming.
sick.


dear you,

its about time you get a life.
it is bad enough that you screwed up mine,
it is humiliating to know that you've done nothing to yours.
how old are you man, GAWD.
i plan to be a millionare by the time i'm your age.
what happened to your 'famous legacy?'
you and your 'band of brothers' up to these kind of COOL things.
there's only one place which i can think of that you rightfully belong.
so that no one else falls prey to your puppetry of exploitation and lies.
someplace which you should have been a long time ago.
"you play with fire, you get burn."
evidentally you didnt learn.
omg its pathetic to see how you are not the controller of your own life,
but instead the manipulative controller of others to ruin theirs.
not enough in ruining yours its satisfaction to ruin others?
man, do something about your life, pick yourself up, PLS.
not that i give 2 rats ass about you, but its just way too pathetic.
evidentally sensibility and maturity doesnt come with age.

everything will just come down to the same ending with the rate your going.
the only pitiful ones are those you've got trapped by the tail.
clean up your act man, its disgusting.

yes im scared of you, knowing what you're capable of.
no i'm not intimidated by you, knowing you're not the capable 'hero' you speak yourself of.


i had enough of this bullshit i have to politely tolerate because of the vacinity of my residence.
there's a limit which you cannot cross twice.
so dont try.
you, and your band of brothers. especially you.

happy 21st ju-ter

look who survived zouk.

syah and steph plonked on the stairs.
more pics to come! (hopefully)

once again, happy 21st to ju-terrr!
the chalet, 5-10, zouking was a blast!! :)
LOVES!!

johari

johari's window on steph.

Arena (known to self and others) energetic, extroverted, knowledgable, mature, reflective	Blind Spot (known only to others) able, accepting, adaptable, bold, brave, calm, caring, cheerful, clever, complex, confident, dependable, friendly, happy, helpful, idealistic, independent, intelligent, kind, loving, powerful, quiet, relaxed, searching, self-assertive, self-conscious, sensible, sentimental, shy, silly, spontaneous, trustworthy, warm, wise
Façade (known only to self) sympathetic	Unknown (known to nobody) dignified, giving, ingenious, introverted, logical, modest, nervous, observant, organised, patient, proud, religious, responsive, tense, witty

All Percentages

able (3%) accepting (10%) adaptable (10%) bold (3%) brave (3%) calm (3%) caring (13%) cheerful (43%) clever (6%) complex (3%) confident (33%) dependable (10%) dignified (0%) energetic (33%) extroverted (33%) friendly (36%) giving (0%) happy (23%) helpful (3%) idealistic (6%) independent (10%) ingenious (0%) intelligent (3%) introverted (0%) kind (6%) knowledgable (3%) logical (0%) loving (36%) mature (3%) modest (0%) nervous (0%) observant (0%) organised (0%) patient (0%) powerful (3%) proud (0%) quiet (6%) reflective (6%) relaxed (10%) religious (0%) responsive (0%) searching (10%) self-assertive (3%) self-conscious (6%) sensible (10%) sentimental (16%) shy (3%) silly (43%) spontaneous (36%) sympathetic (0%) tense (0%) trustworthy (20%) warm (33%) wise (3%) witty (0%)

Created by the Interactive Johari Window on 18.2.2006, using data from 30 respondents.
You can make your own Johari Window, or view Stephiee's full data.

i'm going mad! mad mad mad!
i havnt done much studying today!!
mr lum called me at 12noon,
he's nice la, telling me to revise and all,
coz let's face it, i'm not exactly a model student.
true enough, does 2 chapters of studying sound gooood?

i'm still undecided.

smurf u!

meet my smurf family !!



Ungku is Greedy Smurf!
For obvious reasons, heh!


Azhar acts like Brainy Smurf, but looks like Schlips Smurf, so....

Azhar is (not so) BrainySchlips Smurf!


Steph is Smurfette!
Oh well, there's only 2 female smurfs!


Lu-anne is Sassette!
The other female smurf.


Supi is Baby Smurf!
Bcoz she's soooooo cute!


Faarisi is Painter Smurf!
Bcoz, he paints! (but he hate blue creatures:/ )


Farij is Harmony Smurf!
Bcoz he plays the trumpet. HEH.


Jeremy is Snappy Smurf!
Bcoz sometimes he loses his temper. :( though i still think he's a sweetheart.


Ruby is Flying Smurf!
Bcoz her spirit makes everyone flyyyy as well.


Baldwin is Poet Smurf!
Bcoz he uses big bombastic words (redundantly) hoo hoo. COMRADES!


Sean is Nat Smurf!
Bcoz he's a nature freak!!


Mag is Slouchy Smurf!
Its just in the way he waks!!


Mas is Vanity Smurf!
No other good smurfs left, but this one has the flower, cuteness! :)


Hannan is Grandpa Smurf!
Bcoz Hannan has crutches now.


Fai is Clockwork Smurf!
Bcoz of the lil 'trick' he does.


Haha is Jokey Smurf!
Bcoz she's a cheeky lil bugger!!!


Yeah, but Lu wants to kill my family :(
Hur Hur.

people are ugly

suddenly i don't feel well,
and i need to puke out my heart.


if its too much to act ur age,
then at least act like how a human would,
by being considerate to other people's feelings.
i can't help but feel at a loss,
and also that people are ugly.
malicious.

if i could foresee this coming one day,
i would have backed off a long time ago.
i should have maybe ignored my want of a little happiness.
stop trying to initiate things that maybe i shouldnt have tempered with.
maybe i should be contented with the current glimpse of happiness,
but so what when i just come home to a heavy heart after "hearing" what's going on.
this was exactly, what i didnt want.
and this has only been day1.

i don't care as much if i'm seen as the bad guy,
i can't deny the overwhelme guilt i feel with each mere thought.
and there's no point despising what is going on behind closed doors,
things that i'm aware and unaware of
because at the root of everything, it started with me.

could i ever hate myself more?


lucky tmr i'm going clubbing.
hopefully i'd pass out again,
at least i won't remember.
just as long as it doesnt catch up with me.

chill out

today was a fun fun fun day.
apart from our last sociology class.
the presentations were draggy and Zzzzz.
but im gonna miss my group! esp qin sheng!
sean ill still see around.


anyway i skipped POM tutorial.
I DIDNT SEE LU THE WHOLE DAY!
in her blog she say i cute. hehe.
weird that sometimes i thought shes the cute one between the 2 of us.
but i also sometimes :)

anyway, went for sociology class.
i wore my t-shit which said
"apply here before 14th february. looking for the perfect man."
LOL.
only shimmo recognised my nick and t-shirt smililarity
anyways, no one told me that class starts at 4.30 instead of 4.
bumped into ungku, charlotte, farij and ifa outside the library.
they were chosing teams for the rugby people's amazing race thingy
which is gonna be OH SO EXCITING!
i can't wait!! :):):)
i love rugby and people in it! i miss them!!! and gilbert too!! :)
went for class, basically had a picnic there while the groups presented.
played the card game "happy family" also. with my groupies. :)

me and jeanie!

me and qin sheng who won jean at happy family! heh heh heh.
sean didnt come to class, and he was uncontactable,
i wonder why.
i bought gummy bears, and guess what ?!
i found a midget bear!!

normal bear vs. shortie bear
hey! thats just like my feet and qunsheng's feet!!

so the presentations where, so-so.
so draggy felt so tired, but the food kept me away.
sugar meals! oh man.
jean fell asleep and snored!!!! LOL
the presentations only managed to get me interested... in catching the movie.
the presentations stretched till 7++?!?!
couldnt take it i left to go for dinner.

met ungku who called me from the toilet!! :S
iiikes!
then while waiting for faarisi outside the library,
i thought we could play a game of memory game with the happy family cards.
after laying like half the deck, the winds decided to blow stronger.
as ungku moaned "the wind will blow it away la"
alas! there it went!
onto the floor, and 2 went down down down to the first floor.
save the cards ungku!
ya right, its ungku, he just sat there giggling like a girl.
GO STEPH GO!
but the 2 cards were gone, lost forever.
one got stuck on some fencing thing, and another was no where in sight.
and no the ungku hasnt stopped laughing.
i think the happy family cards are not happy being in my possesion.
flashback.....

there was a time, when me and ungku and faarisi and shimona,
after training and dinner, went to slack at the void deck..
there was a cat and ungku being mr cat, put it on the table to play with it.
we were playing memory game.
and guess what that pussy did.
it bloody sat on one of the cards, (MR BONE! I REMEMBER!)
and when it stood up, there was a brown speck on it.
no prizes for guessing what it it.....

and yes.
what should i do with the remaining cards?
I KNOW!
characterise it into people i know!!
i took out mr dauber and made it into..... FAARISI!
only thing was that i had to shade his face to make it quite as dark as he is.
(now he refuses scan it and let me have it)
unlike mr ungku, aka. mrs. plod :)
that was the character that suited him best.
mr plod was too short.

looks like an ungku doesnt it?! :)
i modified his skirt into berms. like thos old school police.
and HEY he is in the police rugby club thingy thing
and yes he wear red tights sometimes! LOL
only thing he's blad now
but this is when he had dread locks! :)
just ignore the chinese characters "jing cha tai tai"
meaning "madam police"
at least ungku is a better sport in that he sent it back :)
unlike faarisi


★☆Steph//: anyway pls scan the mr dauber picture for me can :)
COUNTRY MUSIC SUCKS: my scanner doesnt work
★☆Steph//: or u pass to me i scan
COUNTRY MUSIC SUCKS: okay okay
COUNTRY MUSIC SUCKS: tmr i pass u
★☆Steph//: :)
COUNTRY MUSIC SUCKS: NO WAY! u crazy toot
COUNTRY MUSIC SUCKS: u think i wanna humiliate myself!
COUNTRY MUSIC SUCKS: u wanna put on blogger!

at least he was smart enough to know my missions :)
at least neither of them threw it away. I HOPE.
anyway we made our way to techno.
i had soya sauce chicken rice.
and OMG.
the uncle who cut my chicken ask for my "hum-phone mumber can?!?!"
wth and then ungky and faarisi just left me there to buy food.
lucky shimomo came! I MISS U GIRLIE!!! :)
ate then chit chatted,
i messaged my daddy for the first time today,
"daddy can fetch me from school"
he called back saying he havnt ate n still in the office.
he'll only reach by 9.45 so i shouldnt wait for him.
ok, then we went to chill,
at the OLD FOLKS CORNER!!! LOL
only ungku felt at home.
and its amazing how one sentence he said entertained us a hell lot.
" i use to live in a kampong."
LOL
i started imagining huts,
and leafy ceilings.

ungku: we had zinc ceilings
steph: milk has zinc!
ungku: metal la
steph: milk got metal?!!
ungku: ok, MINERALS
steph: what minerals? like the water?

HEHE HAHA HOHO! :)
then he asked faarisi to make an artist impression of a kampong.
and suddenly it became a bungalow!! LOL
so ungku drew it himself. and he say one house one person.
then he change his statement to one house one person n his family.
means ungku has his own family, kids n all. LOL
shimona was prolly jsut entertained by 3 monkeys
but a kampong should have bamboo walls.
and leafy roofs.
and wells.
and a public toilet that has mordern doors,
lucky purchasers get to buy limited edition x'mas coloured ones.
the laundry room. and chickens roamed the area.
well, sorta like this.



yeah.
9.45!
so i smsed dad yet again.
"i'm still in sch, can come fetch me? :)"
again he called back.
"i only just left the office. by the time i reach there will be 10.15, 10.20.
go home yourself k"
ok bye.
then we played bingo!!
ungku took forever to get bingo!
me and shimomo had streaks!!
and there she is saying she cant play. YEAH SURE.
ungku say no one can leave till he win,
after 1 hr he did.
msg daddy one more time saying "i still here!"
this time he replied,
"can't u just take the bus pls?"
:
and we all went home.

i took forever to type this because someone said
"I KNOW YOUR SECRET,"
and that i should change my nick.
but i didnt.
i just smiled. and the smile couldnt go away.
$2.50 chicken rice pls!

holey pants!

just came back from the airport from sending soph and yan off.
well ok, i cheated.
me and dee left halfway coz we were too tired.
today's been a chill out fun day

went to school at 9am for comm skills.
went alil earlier coz i tot the test would start early,
but NoOooOOooo
well at least i was there like early.
the test was ALRIGHT.
except the last section
wth, write minutes.
pffft.

after that had lunch at design canteen.
myself, lu, baldwin, mag, sean
YUM YUMMY CHEESE FRIES!
i had fun poking jokes at lu's lindsy lohan on her plate.
HEHE HAHA HOHO
because she ordered "chicken chop with herbs"
she said it tasted "herby"
HEHE. herbie, the car. BEEP BEEP
ok NVM.
i swear me and lu are like the singaporean version of paris and nicole.
in the simple life. WOO HOOO
so much fun if really had such thing.
faarisi joined us, but he basically just stoned.
what's up doc?
alot of the girls from the class were there too.
then it started raining.
I WANT TO PLAY IN THE RAIN! !!!
in the end we went to the sports complex at snail pace
badminton and table tennis here we come!!!!!!!

when we reached the complex,
we realised that we had to book the courts via the internet.
DAMN IT!
scissors, paper stone between magg and sean,
but in the end both went to the one-stop centre to book it,
even faarisi joined em.
LOL
and they took like 45mins to get back
but here we come!
so excited!!
lu and baldwin played their own sport.
we tried out hand at table tennis,
which became real tennis and badminton all in one :S
aie my.
ok that was it for thr 5mins of tabble tennis.
BADMINTON!
we just started hitting the cock around abit.
sean is a damn action player, but he hits the air
i know coz i played on the same side as him, with faarisi n magg behin the net.

round 1, faarisi and sean.
SEAN IS A RIP OUT FROM A CARTOON I SWEAR
seeing him play.
but they 2 damn slow.
the score was retired at 5ALL.
round 2
yeah. I WON!!!
heh heh!
magg lost to a girl! :)
hehe hehehehehehe.
but it was close la.
better then the first neverending game.
15-11
after that we all K.O.
it was too FREAKING HOT!
we played props with the rackets
sean couldnt help with his gay tendencies.
hitting mag's crowned jewels. saying mag's looking up his jeans.
but mag also power. he sandwich his **** somewhere, and in the words of sean
"do yourself"
ok stupid.
but damn funny.
STOP BEING A CLOSET GAY BOY SEAN
finished playing by 3.
mag and sean went to class.
baldwin skipped, faarisi too.
i had fun playing on the sports complex bin.
YES i say bin.

you know those rounded covers on top,
minus the ashtray thingy.
YES
i plonked my belly there and i became like a rolly polly!!
damn fun!!
bobbing about.
NOT DIRTY LA!
you dont know what you're missing out on.
BY THE WAY.
LU-ANN GAN RUI YI THE PROCLAIMED GREATEST TORE MY PANTS!!!!!!!!!!
she try and help push me and roll and bob me more by hooking onto my belt thingy thing.
and ZZZZEEECHHHH!!!
:
apa apa!
but i dont really mind la. i dont care also.
i still will wear my this pants.
coz they are comfy pants.
comfy, feel-fat, wake up late nothing to wear pants.
:)
went to norgan vaz, which i swear is the last time i step in there.
had an italian soda in a freakingly dingkingly SMALL ASS CUP!
rip offs.
sat awhile, browsed through magazines.
then went home.

planned to do my project, then nap, then go to the airport.
but my project left me no room for Zs.
finished the presentation slides first.
then i worked on a skin with photoshop for my entrepreneurship project.
am greatly pleased and proud of myself with the result of it :)
after that made a quick munch
then showered then out of the house i went.
dee came to pick me up.

it was good to see the oldies again!
tmr prolly go for the game with them.
IF im not too tired.
i'm gonna miss sophia, however little i know her.
she's a wonderful character.
all the best to u 2!
oh oh, we like huddled up in the airport and started singing can.
ok la for the first time i felt paiseh.
but then it felt warm.
maybe its just aisyah's armpit.
HEH.

goodnight world.
presentation tmr.
get well lu, take care
later downpour cover blanket properly k
cover all the little toes toes.
byeee

pressents!

i havnt had the chance to show off my presents from my 18th!
thanks again all!
though there are some thats needs to be claimed.
pls fill in the blanks, via tagboard also can.
because there was no tags to say "from: la lal al alala"
well here goes!


(L-R, clockwise)
Gilbert Size 4 by Farij! (some caremel chocolates to, not in picture.)
Gigantic Alarm Clock by Ad, Marli, Ju and Syah!
Chivas Regal by Patrick & Gang! (which they 3/4 drank! HEH)
Teddy Bear #1 by _________?!
A "STEPH" bracelet by Dee, Supi, Az & Nurul!
Bodyshop products by ________?! (not sure if it came together or in pairs)
Teddy Bear #2 sewn by Shimo, together by a heart necklace by Perlini's!
Swatch watch by Andy!


(L-R, Top to Bottom)
Piggy by Alan, Melissa, Javin & Hannan! (unsure though:/)
Pink Zebra T-shirt by Aisyah & Mel!
"STEPH" pencil box & mirror, Fairy pendant necklace, photoframe & photo, bottle of "Steph Secret Magic Happy Potion" by LUANNE!!!
My Little Pony by Ruby!
(Its cool that she got me the Janury Birthstone one, which was a RUBY birthstone! HEH! COOL RIGHT!?!)
A starry Bracelet by __________?! (its pretty! i love stars!!!!)
A box of chocolates by Nash!
A Guess Watch by Mummy Dearest!


and a bunch of purple roses which were pretty and smelt heavenly sent by XXX to my house! hehe! ;)


TELL ME WHAT I AM!
I've got a Pig.
1 GiGANTIC CLOCK.
2 WATCHES.
2 BARS OF SOAP
1 BOTTLE OF SHOWER FOAM
1 BODY SCRUB THINGY
2 BOXES/BAGS OF CHOCOLATES.
what am i?
oink


and again.
2 TEDDIES
2 BRACELETS
1 PAIR OF EARRINGS
1 NECKLACE
i'm princess piggy. LOL


from lulu!
photoframe with us
STEPH pencilbox and mirror.
fairy pendant thats oooh so pretty
Steph's magic potion!
<3

here's what is inscribed at the back too!
the bestest bestie on the best birthday ever. BEST.


and not forgetting my 18 pink and red heart shapped balloons by Gale & Ifa!!!
sweetness.
yes the picture is blurry.
but that is me and lu and the 18 balloons floating over our heads.

-------

these are the only 2 pictures i got from my party @ cocolatte.
well, not there, but on the way there.
need to get hold of the club pictures from nuruls couz. oh well.


blurry shot.

Happy B'day to me! :)
and the other janury babies Nadiah and Syahrina!
compliments of 1H03 .

thanks again for all those part of these 3 celebration days.
and for the lovely pressents.
and making 18yrs of existance worth while.
LOVES! KISSES! HUGS!
WEEET WEEEET its still hard to believe i'm 18!

hehe, get it?