scrapes and bruises

its down to the final 2 days, before our ips.
hopefully i can rest well, mind, body and soul.

ive let it consume so much of my time.
so much, that it ate into my schoolwork,
my personal/ social life,
and into myself.
but its all worth it.
just this week, cum 10th dec,
then it'll all be over.
hopefully everything will fall into place perfectly.
that i can only hope.


everyday its the same routine.
drag myself out of bed for school,
sleep at the sports complex during breaks,
attend lectures and tutorials with a zombified mind,
then come home late, and sleep straight away.
been so busy worrying about errands i need to run,
things i need to do, datelines to abibe with.
x'mas is coming, so is adrian,
and i still havnt figured out what to do.
most of the errands are getting x'mas stuff sorted out.
things like the tree, sock, lights, cards, tags yadder.
half my bank account is gone and i've only goten 4 gifts prepared!! :(
projects are wizzing by,
soon the tests will too.
sigh.
i better take control of my life soon,
before it controls me.


anyway, its been a long time since i spoke to adrian.
almost like ive lost direction.
time's gotten the best of me,
or rather the lazy bones in my body.
my desperate need for someone to care,
without realising that other people have emotions too.
i just hate coping alone sometimes.
only 4 more days,
note to steph,
"hang in there"



training today was good i felt.
was told otherwise about my personal performance.
though i slightly disagreed, it opened my eyes to new insight.
so i appreciated it.
but ive never felt so much pride before,
not for myself, but for dee darling.
to think she almost gave up on herself.
look what you can achieve when you just believe.
dinner at techno, my knees are hurting, and my right thigh.
thanks ungku fo the pictures,
great pictures of whom you took off (not your underwear)
ok not funny.
the gods must be crazy.
anyway i'm off.
goodnight world.




hope.