i dont have the heart.

and so i didn't go to school today.
i just didn't want to since my heart wasnt there.
moreso its service class where you have to smile all the time.
and who can smile without a heart? i know i can't.

so i am technically right saying i'm not feeling well.
then again, only tim kinda got it.
i like hanging out with him.
and princess felix, and haha.
they make me feel care-less and free.

to the doctor's later, for excuses to get an mc.
might check my leg out, but really, whats the most he could do.
maybe to plaza sing to get my cinderella vcd and other mickey mouse ones?
carrefour is truely the ultimate departmental store,
with all the vintage mickey episodes. I LOVE.
and it had piles of alice in wonderland vcds.
to think it took me so long to hunt for, when there was a mount everast of it there.
but lu bought me one some time back, (yays)
it really makes me happy.
i might even buy myself a canvas and go mad with my balck and white paints.
that's if dad's given me my allowance.

but i feel like staying home today.
just.
so i dont see the sun.
i feel claustraphobic and i need comfort.
the best option ive got is this house.

i can't wait for jazz by the beach tmr.
i want to just sip on my wine or beer
and be lost by the seranade of the beach.
hopefully i can drown this omen for good.