mount e!

i'm sick!!
so mc work on monday.
shan dont believe me ah,
darn thanks.
i'm bloody coughing like an old lady
with a old record scratchy throat
and roller coaster fever.
sorry ah hat im more human then u .
went to tp to clear my insurance claim stuff.
i gotta remember to post out the original reciepts!!
argh.
then thought of going to training,
coz im really darn worried about my security of a position in the ips team .
esp with my not so regular attendence due to work commitments.
i really want to play, because i want to make a difference.
sigh.
dilema to train or not, my body really darn tired,
but no choice.
in the end lucky/unlucky training cancelled due to haze.
thursday i confirm cannot trian ill be at work.
so i really dont know how the selection would go .
it really depresses me that i cant do anything .
so to kfc with the girls to break fast .
sat with the girls and talk cock.
from sex to insertions to rings to condoms.
then shifted seats to outside kfc,
then to bubble tea shop .
darn fun.
if its one thing the cancellation brought,
it was time together for us to enjoy each others company.
its just been a long while.
at least especially for me who's somewhat evolved into an involunteery workholic.

on tuesday it was my formal off.
met ifah and her bf on the train
she help me chop seat.
ester was already at paya lebar.
geylang!! :) deng deng here i come!
the last time i went there with adi the deng deng not that good.
and i saw a damn terror rug !
like thick black border with animal prints,
fucking kinky!! I WANT!
and this time i couldnt find it!
ester bought a $10 kebaya. ifah a $60 after a looooong hunt.
she so different from work,
in front of her bf she so meragok.
but shes a girl with great substance and character.
very true to herself, which is great.
unlike ester,
who kept STEPPING ON MY FOOT!
and swinging her hair into my face!
ARGH!! :/
and again, the same person id bump into at geylang.
dearest ken .
unexpected, but yeah, it was good to see him,
even if it was for a glimpse.
id say it now, it took me a long while to decide if it was worth it,
and then get over the whole thing and he was the last thing on my mind.
but that was a long time ago .
a part of me still has a fixed mindset that he'll never get serious,
so just let go.
who knew that a glimpse could bring back so many things.
but then again i had a part to play,
i prolly demanded too much from him,
especially his time.
i still dont know if that was right or wrong,
but what the heck, its over, gone, kapooshit.
so sometimes its better to be alone,
but sometimes not.
indecisive now ah steph .
oh well, somethings are better left to rest.
anywayyyys. ikea was the initial plan,
but the kebaya hunt for ifah took too long,
so just straight to meet naomi at clarke quay,
then to mount e to see felix.

we first planned to pack him a happy meal with a toy and all,
but naomi's basket put together was lovely.
final touches included an overpriced rose,
and a cute lil sunshine card, which i wrote,
"dearest felix, sorry we didn't get you beer. READ ----->"
and it pointed to the 'get well soon' printed on the card.
sometimes i think we;re just darn cute.
we arrived to a sleeping felix with rachel sitting on his bedside,
and his mum worried in the corner,
i so can cry.
i'd never wanna be in her situation .
we girls then sat at the main area, eating and drinking and talking ,
then walked rachel out, then came back his parents went to eat.
then he woke up when the nurse came in to take his bp.
HI FELIX!! fiona xie is on tv! LOL .
poor boy. the op really took a toll on him,
and will continue to in the long run.
his crutches are EXTRA LONG. lol.
he cant even talk properly, he's sooooo drained from the morphine,
pukish without even eating yet.
and you know how fast that boy sweats up when its hot, and the place was darn stuffy .
i really hope he does get well soon.
his parents were worried sick. and can see the concern with the way they stroked his head and shoulders.
yes, its when you're vulnerable that you really know who are the realy people who care,
and would stay by your side.
which reminds me how much for the first time i saw my mum loved me when i was in hospital on my 16th .
how i long for that again.
oh well, i want to faster pass my driving,
then i can drive this poor princess around.
if he brave enough to sit my car la. HEH .
walked around town for abit with naomi,
waited for adi till 940.
went on to siglap cheesecake cafe, but closed.
jio charlotte along too.
i just had cheesecake cravings.
but starbucks packed,
anyway i remember they dont have cheesecake.
so to macs we sat!
talk talk talk talk talk talk.
adi brought cookies he made to let us try and grade.
cute, not bad actually.
just weirdly shaped.
then we sat at the park behind charlotte's house,
all the way till 140!
adi fell asleep ah!
but yes, it was just fun talking to charlotte,
its not often we get to talk,
but i really do enjoy talking to her,
she's so open to conversation, and shes a listening ear,
unlike adi the snorer.
adi sent me home, so tedah! here i am.
second time i wear skirt take bike ah,
darn thanks.

work tmr!
but dropping by to visit princess.
making him my get well soup!
thats if he can take it, STUPID MORPHINE!
ho hum.


forgive and forget,
it not, at least move on.