my terrible thursday

i'm in some kind of mood,
even i dont understand.
and this is the mood i don't think alot of people will like,
coz i definately don't.

i've made sacrifices.
perhaps i need actions to justify its worth.
i pretty much already know where my priorities lie,
so i'd hate it, if you're going to compromise on that.

with whatever amount of effort and initiative you give me,
i'll make sure i match up to give you that exact, same amount.
you want more?
do more.

i'm in no mood capacity to handle different groups of people,
who have been weighing the sulk on my face down.
from you, to you, to you and then to that you.
if you're reading this and think it might apply to you,
then maybe it does. or maybe, you're just wrong.

i bet the problem lies in you,
tell me honestly,
when was the last time you believed in me?
or even tried to?

i'm tired of matching up to what you think i should do,
or be.
yes i'm not like the others,
i dont strive to be your favourite.

but i'd just like to know where i'm appreciated.
and i don't know if this is the good or bad part,
i have nobody to push away,
nobody's even trying.



meet me halfway,
but perhaps not today.
i have a feeling you won't like me,
and like all the others, you won't stay.


(dear potential "anonymous" on my tagboard, please be nice)