nobody but you.

this is the funnest hangover day ive ever had,
hands down.

never really sleep well intoxicated.
so woke up early, force fed myself some noodles and soup
while watching push.
then spent the rest of the arvo mermaiding in bed.
bird and i just took turns doing all sorts of weird quizes on facebook.
apparently my gettho name is POOKIE,
puki means vagina in malay. WTF.
i'm missing a halo because im 0% bitchy, i have OCD,
and i need a map because im lost in your eyes.
hahaha.
phiat phiat phiat phiat.

and then i was remember all the stupid things lu and i got up to last night,
while trying to recall and equate my state of hungover-ness with how much i drank.
we had a cook up - cheesy baked rice, garlicy french fries, terriyaki salmon, veg and profiterolls
over moscato, vodka green tea and pepsi.
we watched bits of MJ's memorial...

true he was an icon and he brings the world together with his music,
more importantly, you remeber he is human;
he's someone's somebody.
i cant help but think, have I personally done enough that come my time of passing
that i'll be blessed to have people remember who i was and how i lived.
will i have made my mark on the world if not in the worlds of people close to my heart?

...anyway since we were on the youtube site, we ventured back to an old clip lu sent me before
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LniPZTtSHXU
nodoby but you by the wonder girls.
lu didnt believe me when i said i know some of the dance bits.
so i showed her, and we both ended up dancing it, WTF. haha .
in the middle of the night when everyones fast asleep u get 2 idiots giggling away
not that we did the video or dance steps any justice either!
pump room was the first stop to meet nick and the gang: olivia, cyril, jess, marcus, nick's friends tilo, william, john
bartop dancing for the chickys minus lu, who went to fetch us jaeger bombs.
i remember drinking out of the vodka bottle!! wtf was i thinking.

to zouk we trotted on. this was the highlight of the night.
the boys wanted to get hotdogs which they did.
being the lu and steph, we guarded the condiments part because...
we wanted to squeeze the sauce on the dogs!! LOL.
those who didnt let us sauce their dogs up had sauce nozzles pointed at them.
very effective i must add.
we even got creative in adding onions and relish etc.
talk about good service, we're the condiments queens :)
bumped into sean paul, and met up with sa and ian.
dancing dancing the night away, and then back to clarke quay for maccas.
that cheeseburger SO messed up my tummy for some reason.
no more drinking for me in a long while!
and no more bringing my phone out when im possibly going to get drunk!
jia yi came over. bird and her didnt believe me when i said i can do the
'nobody but you' dance.
so i did it, TWICE.
and it got me a yummo prawn noodles soup for dinner :)
thanks jia yi!

and my long time msn buddy who has been missing for ages has returned.

cliffy choppy waters poo, welcome back i missed blue.

just waiting for harpers island to start. one by one.

ill be back in perth soon.
and i can't hardly wait. :)
with so much to look forward too, i can't decide what's first!
oh, decisions decisions..

but i know im excited to live in my house.

cant believe i got the keys and flew off on the same day!!

who wouldnt be excited about a place like thi?? :)

esp the gorgeous kitchen. can't wait for our cocktail night housewarming party.

nor my taco night, wino sesh, footy game, tri nations boks vs wallabies (go boks!), movie nights, ice age 3!, scrabble ass kicking, pizza nights.

i cant remember what else, hmmmm?

knowing my next 5 steps is enough ammo to get me along just a-okly.

and i had enough of getting caught on the least favoured side,

the final straw's drawn, over my expense.

stop doing this to me, please.

ruckbee

heres the low down,
with the scrum down.

it all went down at st andrew's.
and we've had a full pack of 25 girls for once.
kick off was at 745pm. subbed in second half as a loose prop!
ok, from playing in the backs,
to kinda trying hooker at training, to prop. mama?
but its true, as long as you play with a big heart,
everything else doesnt come close to mattering.

and bucks women, WAY TO GO!
way to get in there, suck it up,
rough it out, and still party the night away.


watching the earlier match at st andrews


blacks vs bucks: scrum



bucks


post match boozin at our club sponsor BQ BAR



nothing beats a cold one....


or a boatrace full!!



nor a bartop dance...


we love it!
shi han, can you handle it?


not soo much i guess, en route to our next destination,
CHINAONE for some dancing! shi hanmerlion!
organic fertilizer she says.


rocking out to the band at chinaone...


in our stripey socks theme!! :)





one for the puki!!
and look who we bumped into....


my lil sister, bird!




one of the bucks boys drunk for their golf pub crawling.

and big friendly giant matt hall!

heres to the court session that never happened

ning - you came in time to miss the boat races!

andrea - you need shoulder pads

shi han - the picture says it all

anne - because we cant get enough of your boobies

kidd - being decevingly small but a monster beer guzzler

steph k - you wore sexy heels to the game and after because you "came from church"

crystal - the "social drinker". no such thing, drinker is drinker! :)

tiffany - for the teaspoon of beer left costing us the boatrace

pei - for actually calling the disquilification !!

steph - will just drink for the hell of it

great awesome night, and we love it long time.
looking forward to ladies nights this week,
training, and possibly game in malaysia.

might be trippin back to perth next week,

so im making the most of the rest of my time.

baby, i'm a superstar! :)

tofixu

do you ever question your existence?
or get the feeling that all you're meant to do,
is 'fix' someone, and you dont reap what you sow?
people can change, for the better.
and somehow this is the first thing i see in people;
their potential to change, if they tried enough.
and believe in what i see, know, and feel.

ive been in my share of relationships,
and often, its the ones that hurt the most that you remember.
you have that extra attachment to the person.
that extra ounce of faith and hope that one day they'll come around,
just suck it up, hang in there.
till the point where the rubber band is stretched snapped;
you're going in different directions.
but we learn to move on,
you learn to keep it real.

taking a step back and looking in, we all come out of relationships better people.
or at least we heal to be one,
its easier to find peace and ease guilt this way sometimes.
i feel happy to influence positive changes,
that he learnt to be a better man, the one i knew all along he was.
that he is capable of greater, bigger things, and he's building his dream.

but wouldn't you think, why the changes after me?
why not during? why not for me?
i dont think im not deserving.
was i impatient, or was it just meant to be?
the whys and why nots will forever haunt me,
with questions i cant answer, the nagging doubts.
but im content, the world could really use with better people.
and ive inscribed a few names on that wall.

im starting to resignate to my fate of 'fixing' people,
and having other people to come enjoy the benefit
when im still stuck here with thoughts echoing in my head.
and wondering, when is someone going to fix me instead?
and maybe this time,
stay.