baby girl.

i had a very bad dream last night.
with weird dreams occuring days in a row, i was just waiting to see what's next.
little did i anticipate, this.

i cannot tell which is more real.
the dream, or the emotions.
but it has definately brought to light,
how things in my life, is real.

that nothing's ever genuine anymore.

and that maybe ive not take the time or effort to show that
you'll always be the baby in my life,
and that you mean the world to me.
and if anything were to happen to u, my world would crumble.

i remember once, when we were younger,
you were tossing and turning, and you couldnt sleep.
i just crept into your bed, and hugged you to sleep.
when suddenly, you turned to me and said,
"ur the bestest sister ever."

the warmth of innocence thrived through my veins.
for that mere moment, our hearts connected.
squabble and petty arguements over stickers and the television, none existent.
you'll always be that little baby sister i have.
that little smelly spoilt brat.

and my dream was a stake through my heart.
i just remember the emotions, while i carried her in my arms,
she weak and frail, clung unto me for life and support.
"why don' t you love me anymore"
she says to me, with a gleam in her eye.

yet if i said "i'm sorry" it wouldnt even be quite enough.
tears streamed down my face. my heart confused with the mixture of emotions.
i woke up to a damp pillow, wishing it never to be true.
it was only a dream. it was only a dream. it was only a dream. it was only a dream....






a dream that highlights my reality.