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so i came to school and logged on to msn,
and i saw someone's nick.
i despise bloggers... /spit*
so i decided to probe.
(* confidentially identfied as HE)

Steph says: why say until like that.
HE says: hahai, don knw leh
Steph says: surely u got reason one la, what is it?
HE says: hahai u really wan to knw meh?
Steph says: ya, why not. though i think i know what ur going to say
HE says: oki, den tell me wat i am goint to say?
Steph says: bloggers are attention seeking
HE says: hmmm, now u said that maybe it is, haha. actually is not lah. juz that i realise bloggers gd story teller leh. so much fake, all not untrue lah. not all bloggers though
Steph says: good story teller meh? how would u know. maybe their lifestory is true? u know i realise that people would think of bloggers as being attention seeking, and showing off their life and how colourful is it or isnt. but they fail to realise that everyone is different, and so are their ways of expressing themselves.
HE says: nvr tot until there. but all i see in bloggers ah, they write n write but not all true leh
Steph says: coz i know someone who thinks of me being like that
HE says: -_- hu?
Steph -- says: i dont wanna say. its not as if the person/people knows my emotions and knows that im refering or talking abt/to certain people and my state of mind when i'm blogging
HE says: anyway is not easy to understand u. lol.
Steph -- says: i also know. i dont want people to understand thats why as much as i open up my life in my blog, i keep it closed with me writing general statements but only i know who and wht im refering to
HE says: ur blog all only happy one hehe. i read ur blog also happy
Steph -- says: no what. got some part i angry or emo mah
HE says: most of the time is happy moments which is gd
Steph -- says: ya la but i ususally only blog stupid or funny entries. more fun. u read my blog often ah?
HE spit says: yeah, everydya :0
Steph -- says: wah. see thats another thing, i dont know who reads my blog though i know thers quite a few avid readers.

so there it is.
i know ive been blogging different.
perhaps with a more concious mind that i don't know who's reading.
but what the hell.
i've laid out all the cards.
if you don't like it, don't come back.
nothing's going to change on my side.
i've lived quite enough on the silent side.
nonethess less i'm flattered that my friends or people would want to follow my life.
especially since i'd admit that i dont have the time nor take the effort to religiously update each one of them, as well as my blog can do.
and i don't need anyone to understand.
no one but myself.
take it or leave it. :)