today

today woke up at 12.45
skipped morning lecture.

met andy at tm.
late again coz i squeezed time to measure my pants
and send em all to alteration.
all 4 of em.
the downside of being shorttt.
we went to eat at, can you guess....
GENKI SUSHI!!!!
omg, yum yum yum yum!
salmon melting in ur mouth, GAWD.
(who needs sex? LOL)
then we sat and just talked.
its heartwarming to know that there is someone who cares enough
who tries time and time again to get to me,
so that he can tap into my troubles and worries,
and just talk it through.
our conversation got so real and thought provoking that at one point in time,
i acutally teared! omg.
i'm sorry andy, LOL!
but yeah. never thought i'd ever. but it was a good tear that flushed out 1cm of my emotions.
thanks andy! and thanks for yummilicious lunch! :)

went for class at 5, late by minutes.
late is a very popular word of steph's life.
hmmmmm.
yadder yadder.

training was _________. (cant find a right word)
saddened by the number of turnouts.
but in a way understandable.
its the season of sickness, busyness, and deadlines.
i think i hurt my foot.
my scab reopened. and i guess someone kicked a blueblack onto my thigh.
todays training went horribly for me.
i'm starting to doubt my skills.
and my position in the team, on and off the feild.
another thing to add to my heavy mind.
but god it so great.

the best thing i felt today was when i had the shower one and it was cold
i just shut my eyes
breathed in, breathed out
and WOAH
the feeling was heavenly.
really damn shiok.
just lettng the water hit u and taking in slower breathes
relaxing
first time i had that rush of feeling
like ive blocked out the world and my mind escaped my body for that mere moment
i love god
hes so great
even at sucky times, he give subtle moments of heaven
for good things to come
its almost like a silent message from him, saying
"fight on child."
awesome.
thinking and going back to the feeling makes me feel more alive and thankful
thankful that through the dark cloudy sky, there is the sun still.
the year has been great so far.
and my new beggining has been swell.

anyway, after that we went to habibie.
im loving the titanic-anhas. (titans + tpiranhas)
incredible the almost overnight bond.
had a good laugh with em, perked my day up loads! :)
esp with the "black shit" and "black sheep"
farisi should have been indian. ruby prolly got rejected. LOL
and good to find out which hand they use to wank.
they meaning ungku, sean, mag, and AZHAR!
who does everything with his right hand (shakes up n down)
after that mummy came to pick me home.
now i understand why they say
"women have no sense of direction"
*smacks forehead*
2 tests tmr.
lucky open book if not die for me.
oh well,
i'm going soon.



and like what the sun tells me everyday, sad or glad,
tomorrow is another day.