japan hour.

happy 19th to darren.

the chalet was alright.
i hate bbqing food.
esp when the smoke gets in your eyes.
but i had fun making the burgers with naomi.
the 'flamed grilled panties on the buttered buns.'
LOL darn funny la.
SLAP THOSE PANTIES (patties) ON!
china man was not as fun as other times.
maybe the group big la.
i swear out of the 3 rounds i never took more then 3 sips.
versus darren, de li, xavier and felix who kept killing themselves by just,
not shutting up.
seriously, the cannot speak english rule totally nailed you guys.
chilled at the pool with the girls after while waiting for tim to be done with his poker.
lester made us balloon flowers on our wrists.
so rachel had hers on, and hers was white petals with a red centre.
so when i asked to checked the time, she flung out her watch and asked,
WHAT TIME?!
so steph said... can you guess?




japan hour.


WAH!
ok perhaps it was funnier there and then.
so after gazillions of mozzie bites we went back into the chalet to get our stuff
nao, rach tim and i shared a cab.
dropping me off first, at the main road.
and i had to walk in the looong ulu pandan rambutan way in.
halfway through i spooked myself.
i just don't like walking around at night when there are ALOT of trees around.
worse walking below a tree.
and not to mention that the school in front of my house is freaking haunted.
so i phoned naomi.
what a wuss.
but really laaa.
all those pontianaks and what nots like to camp on trees,
plus i've had people ever tell me they can see it there,
and i've heard noises as if they were jumping from tree to tree,
and smelt the infamous frangipani scent.
call me superstitious or just a pussy.
but these things do freak the bageesus out of me.

slept through most of the monday.
rushed to watch music and lyrics with felix.
last min plans.
chilled and ate.
and ZOMG i broke my diet, again. :(
met trev to simpang.
which part of nasi lemak is in my diet you tell me?!?

anyway trev was telling me things that were weighing on his heart,
and it just got me thinking.
hey i'm like that too sometimes.
so it was a refreshing insight to a guy's point of view.
on how they read girl's signals.
so as much as i was tongue-tied because of guilt whilst trying to reason out and defend the female species,
i could empathize with why he's feeling how he is.
walked home form simpang was funny and interesting and gross at the same time.
and only between us. LOL.
beansprouts!
but i do hope trev, that things do turn out for the better.
i'm still a precher of things happening for a reason.
and its just a matter of time till you find the reason and work around it.

and it just struck me, that i shouldnt be soooo surprise why i've been like, single for 2yrs plus.
there are things that perhaps i could have handled better,
feelings i should have taken care of more.
and somehow i just wish i could work around my own insecurities and stop victimizing people as a result of it,
or even myself.
i just wish somehow, i could just stop thinking so much,
follow my heart over my head without thinking of what ifs,
just leave it to fate to put everything into perfect prospective
and live happily ever after.




but of corse, that only happens in fairy tales :)