Wonderful

Wonderful, isn't it wonderful now

I close my eyes when I get too sad
I think thoughts that I know are bad
Close my eyes and I count to ten
Hope it's over when I open them

I want the things that I had before
Like a Star Wars poster on my bedroom door
I wish I could count to ten
And make everything be wonderful again

I hope my mom and I hope my dad
Will figure out why they get so mad
I hear them scream, I hear them fight
They say bad words that makes me want to cry

Close my eyes when I go to bed and I
Dream of angels who make me smile
I feel better when I hear them say that
Everything will be wonderful some day

Please don't tell me everthing is wonderful now
I go to school and I run and play
I tell the kids that it's all ok
I have to laugh so my friends wont know

When the bell rings I just don't want to go home
Go to my room and I close my eyes
I make believe that I have a new life
I don't believe you when you say that
Everything will be wonderful some day

Promises mean everything
When you're little and the world is so big
I just don't understand how
You can smile with all those tears in your eyes
When you tell me everything is wonderful now.

I don't want to hear you tell me everything is wonderful now.
I don't want to hear you say that I will understand some day.
I don't want to start over again

I just want my life to be the same
Just like it used to be
Somedays, I hate everything,
Everyone and everything
Please don't tell me everything is wonderful now.


there's just something weighing on my mind,
and my options are running wild.
as much as i understand the reasoning and logic,
i just can't let go, of either.
not when i've worked for it,
and looked forward to how things would turn out, for both.
i feel like just running further and further away,
and try to make sense of everything.
i don't want to have to chose.
not when things are actually starting to seem,
wonderful again.
and yes, the storm came.