daddy's girl

i feel a come around in things.
i'm gonna make it happen.
i hope my placement with the eventsco. is confirmed,
i kinda picked up the call and was still drowsy from a dream where i had my tongue pierced,
with a belly stud. so yeah.
and i swear all of them there have a radio voice,
receptionist not included.
overseas oppotunities is a big big BIG thing to work for.
and i cant wait to sink into work and just work,
so i won't have time to think about anything else.

i very hungry. grrr.
i can't wait for the rubberbands,
right shimo?
even though i should prolly be in the shower by now :)

oh dinner last night was dreadful.
dad decides to pull a stunner by bringing along his china girlfriend and her son.
thanks. on mel's welcome home cum tiffy's bday dinner,
you do this kinda thing.
bird sat in the corner next to me, and she couldnt stop crying,
it was hide to try and hide her.
didnt help that mel said,
"ARE YOU CRYING?"
aiyo.
i know where she gets her insensitive side from.

but when is it right, or wrong?
i mean, its good that he's happy, and that he wants us to meet her,
and its not in the dark, and that he holds us enough in regard to share that part of his life with us right?
or is it wrong that after he left the mother of his kids for the woman he cheated with,
and makes her forcefully part of our lives, even though we detest his leave alot,
and prolly this even more?
i don't know, i've not decided which stance to take.
but i do know, that i'm not treating him, or her any different then how i would treat a person.

i mean, its hard to find someone you love.
and thats the bottomline of it all.
and if they've found it in each other, then i'm glad.
but if she's found it at the bottom of his pockets,
she'll burn in hell.
and the fact that they are open about it,
and technically he has already broken his vows and has no marriage obligation,
there's no saying he cannot date or whatever.
i think its easier for me to accept things the way they are because of my life experience,
and maturity if you'd like to think of it (i do, HAHA)
but its hard on people around as well.
like, evientally, bird.
and i can understand why. but these things take time.
and somehow my dad shouldn't force as well. so.
we're all trying, i saw it in everyone's eyes at the dinner table,
(all but david who just wouldn't eat half his rice and thinks everything is funny)

though i'd never forgive him for walking out,
or the thought of him putting us in second place,
or that he's not there for us,
or that i somehow think that he might come back,
i just want him happy.
he's slaved so much his whole life,
from not much education to being where he is today.
he's still that special man in my life,
yes i'm daddy's little girl.


i think he'll come for my game this week.
better not be with the 2 chinese sputing people.
because lose balls fly everywhere, and they fly hard.

tomorrow's game,
SRC vs BUCKS.
at farrer park, 3pm.