what is love?

what is love?
its when you never have to say, "i love you" and convey the message all the same, if not more. and then you'll hope, wish and pray that it'll be like this forever and ever.

really?

to a toddler,
love is when mummy and daddy showers you with the silliest toys,
and chose your outfits for you, and still hold onto your hand though you look horrendous.
and they'll buy you an ice cream after you've been forced to sunday mass.
love is when mummy and daddy says "you are right, you clever lil genius!"
even though you don't even know what you are blabbering about.
and when you fall, mummy will blow on your cut,
and daddy will tuck you in the tightest at night.


to a 10yr old,
love is when daddy starts lecturing you about how you dont use your brains enough
and actually bothers to stay up all night to make sure you do.
love is when mummy helps you sign on the test paper which you flunked,
even though her face is so long and sulky it drags on the floor.
love is when your sisters let you have the wing off the chicken,
because she knows you will offer her the drumstick after.


to a teenager,
love is when mummy stays up late secretly in bed just to hear you sneak back home
even though you had the biggest fight ever and thought that was the last straw.
love is when daddy wakes up early, even with a biggest stomach ache
just to send you to school, and waste another 2hours before he heads to work.
love is when your sisters are too busy to have time for you when you are busy too,
but somehow find the right time to be free to listen to your heart ache.

to an adult,
love is outdoing someone in gifts you are giving or recieving,
the more extravegant the gift, the more you love me.
love is juggling lots of things from family to work to personal needs,
and suffering in silence.
love is remembering those who love you and thinking on how you should make time for them,
and it just stops there, thinking. not doing.
love is only there in good times, and seldom in bad,
love is finding the person you least expected at your doorstep with 'get fat, feel better' food.
love somehow seems to be more narrow in scope. the older you are, the narrower is becomes.
from friends, to just a one special someone.
and the label of "the one" summerises up all the greatness love brings.


to a parent,
love is looking out for the highly dependant bubbles of fat, wanting the best for them,
even though you know that it could very well be the worse, and they are irritating at times.
love is taking turns to clean up the baby and lullaby em to sleep,
even though you have an important presentation the next day thats not done.
love is burping your baby, knowing full well it has a ammo of puke ready to be dispensed.
love is knowing, there's another tomorrow to teach your kid the beauty of love first hand,
in nurturing and by example.
love is, despite smelling like baby puke and milk powder, your bodies connect perfectly in embrace with your spouse, and to complete the puzzle is your kid snuggled in between.


fantasy?
actually no. very much a reality.
the good side of a reality.
maybe its a matter of how you want to fit love in your current situation?
possibly.
when just in fact, we forgot the very unmistakenable truth,
if we bother to think back and reflect,
what is love?

i'll tell you what love is to everyone.
love is.....






never enough.

where's your brains?

*video containing entry!*

went to school at 1130am.
almost late so took cab, AGAIN!
grawl.
i have to stop this habbit,
its eating into my pocket..
still got lots of things to pay for.

is it me or are datelines catching up on me?
:(
i have a feeling i'm not gonna be able to cope.

anyway, had consultation for comm skills.
i swear i'm an alien in the group,
i know nothing of what is going on,
and if it wasnt for another member of another group who told me,
i would have missed a dateline entirely.
*mega sigh*
no comments.

after that it was lunch.
packed carrot cake from ITAS
to eat at the sports complex.
yum!
after that we had fun, breaking into people's locker!!
lol.
its the same kind of locker as my front gate,
so i know how to crack the code thing.
one sucessful break in! heh.
wanted to leave a note saying "hi"
note to anyone reading this who's one of the lockers are at the sports complex,
STEPH IS HARMLESS AND HAS CHEAP THRILLS,
and i will not do anything with the comtents of the locker whatsoever.
i just have a fetish for locks. :) (yeah right)
i apologise.
then lu took a nap, and i just browsed through my macroecons book.
and i felt soooo accomplished that... i.. actually....
MADE NOTE! :)
yes exam-friendly notes so that when the time comes to study,
it'll be a breeze.
lu woke up at 1355 and we headed to our next lecture.

boring as hell.
met the racist fuckhead from haha's class,
didnt know it was the same boy from my interview.
i hate racists smucks!
throughtout the lecture i kept dropping my stationary
lu asked me where's my brains.
after lecture went with jean to meet qin sheng.
we went to the library to watch billy elliot.
i forgot about my library fine and the counter lady had to announce it. :/
i dont remember it being such a boring show.
i swear qin sheng was watching harry potter from his neighbour's screen!
the library's gonna see more of steph,
with that wide spread of movie titles. YAY!
but i better clear my fines first, heh.

after that went to training.
our friendlies are off.
marli picked the team.
somehow i feel that some people deserve it more then others,
speaking from the point of passion above skills.
i guess one can only move forward right?
i am happy that i made the team, still got lots of work to do before the final cut.
but its still a team effort.
yes there is a seperation, physically.
personally there won't be an emotion seperation.
i guess i feel that much for the girls.
this is not the end.
again i showered finished last.
headed to techno for food.
didnt feel like eating.
so just had fries and green tea.
then cab home.

reached home, mel was already back.
heard her complaining and whining, so.
its like i'm here, but no one knows.
or at least cares to know.
mums angry that i didnt go say hi to my sister.
its not me that hasnt gotten over the feud between us,
its her.
and i guess im not enough of a better person to make yet another first move of a truce.
not anymore, i guess.
after that tiffy asked me to go simpang with her.
though burried with tons of schoolworks and upcoming tests,
i agreed.
becuase i know if i dont make time, i won't have the time.
anyway its been so long since i've spent time with her.
manage to have a good chat with her,
and we actually ran for the bus together and missed it entirely.
bleah.
she told me some good, and bad news. (see below)
met sham, pat and hobday there.
long time no see.
they keep bullying the uncle those mean boys.

tiffy did a damn irritating thing ah!

CLICK HERE FOR THE VIDEO!
stayed till like 0040 then left in a cab with shamsie.


(below)
this is what i came to know from tiffy.
1) when daddy came to fetch mel from the airport,
my mum and tiff had to take a bus back,
because my dad and mum's cold war didnt permit her a ride in his car.
and mel ust cried there and then.
this isn't what i would call, coming 'home'

2) daddy dotes on me alot.
everytime we have lunch he'll remind tiffy daily to remind me to come.
and when i'm too lazy to wake up, he'll just ask about me in my absence.
when i can't come because of a weekend rugby game,
he'd ask tiffy to secretly find out where i'm playing,
so that he can surprise me.

3) that same very man who wanted to surprise me has no heart.
my mum took a cat scan of the brain today.
set aside the financial burden on her for that one scan,
i can't imagine what she went through going into that huge machine,
just to find out if the doctor's diagnose of a brain tumor is right.
worse still she didn't tell ANYONE of us about it,
so its safe to say, she went through the ordeal alone.
if she would have told us, would it change anything?
so was that dream a signal about her?
i wished i had the answers. i wished there's no one month of waiting for the results.
but, again, would it change anything?
i still cannot figure if its better to have not known or to know.
and when tiffy told daddy about it, he didnt move a muscle on his face.
is this really the end of 25yrs of marriage?
what's this promises you made then,
through sickness and in health, till death do us part?
please, at least give me the reason to continue believeing in love,
or a fantasy rhealm of happiness.
whatever.
i cannot concentrate on what i dont have (anymore)
and what is real, what is the now.
mummy i love you and you're gonna be alright.
we're gonna be alright.


sometimes i feel like i don't know why i'm going on.

sunday morning.

*video containing entry!*

hey hey so its all done!
my blog template is at last completed!! :)
had to re-do it from scratch.
stayed up till 6am!!! goodness.
but its all good.
i've finally graduated from being a HTML IDIOT!

woke up at 1300 but the superman, bird and her humps.
check out the video.
she kept playing that song from her phone and shook her ass.
joined her soon after.
fun way to get up i might add.
after that mum came into my room.
talked abit while we lazed in bed,
me and bird kept poking fun at her english. :)
had lunch.
sorta talked about what we want to do this christmas.
still dont have any good plans. bleah.
and then mummy asked.
"why do you want to get married by 23?"
errrr. errrr.
*stumped*

after that we put up the christmas tree!!!
yay.
immediate dose of christmas excitement,
yet i'm apprehenive somehow.
had touble with the stand, took awhile to put it in place.
dust was in the air as me and bird frayed out the leaves.
*achoo*
the tree was up, lights were twirled round togerther with the string of beads.
and who's the fool who only bought 2 GARLANDS?!?!?!!
i'm sure its enough. PFFFFT!!
oh boy i had sooooOOOoooo much fun putting up the tree,
especially when you have to put it up YOURSELF.
*rolls eyes*
but it looks great as always since steph did it.
oh man.
by the time the tree was done it was like 1625.
looks who's 'study weekend' plans are burnt?
so much for wanting to even go to church today.
goodness.

i cleared my room!!!
had to especially since i'll be having a V.I.G. come dec.
(pssst! its not santa)
managed to sort out all my school material,
last sem and this sem.
took me an hour and a half to be able to see my table and bed again.
by then the two younger sisters were leaving the house to go to expo.
to check out the prices of the stuff they have at the computer sale.
steph on the other hand,
took her time in the shower.
because she has got a muruku buffet appointment!! :)

off to ju's!!
lu was still bottomless so she just navigated me to her window
(just think romeo and juliet)
she came down and took me to the next block.
i know they stayed close, but had no idea on HOW CLOSE. *gulps*
ad, nora and jay(?) was already there.
i love ju's punkabi suit! it was gorgeous.
and the food was gooooood.
apart from that one ball pastry thing.
tasted funky, couldnt finish it
so i hid it under the chicken bones and a capsicum slice. *heh*
dee came!
chilled in ju's room.
she had a miniture 'ad' on her bed.
not to mention a giant ant!!
but i could tie its feelers and legs together,
so it ended up being a really fat, bloated snake with ribbons.
and her cupboard is full of saris!
never thought i'd see the day!

after that azlina and yum came,
soon after marli, ida and azlina senior too,
then huda too.
round 2 of food. *gulps*
then sat around, watched ju's small cousin drive her car around.
and her other cousins dancing in the room.
so cute all.

after that we left to tampines mart.
lu bought me some cola+lemon ice cream thingy,
good tongue exercise.
then we all sat at macdonalds.
lu was convinced that the new shaker fries were shakerlicious.
ad disagrees. anyway she got tempted by a nugget meal.
then it was the three of us at the table,
yam, azlina and dee at the other.
me and lu tried guessing ad's chinese name.
we got the "ling" part correct.
after a few guesses we sorta lost our minds.
(i think the more you eat the more kuku you become)
we started pairing up the character "ling" with every chinese word in sight.
the best part is, we didnt plan it.
only after awhile, we noticed both of us were doing the same thing.
great minds of best friends that think alike.
so poor thing, one of your chinese character paired with the chinese name of "mcdonalds"
LOL.
me and lu were laughing histerically like bimbotic witches.
yam: "you all laugh like chee bai* xia."
steph: "chee bai* can laugh?!"
louder round of laughter by the fools.
*chee bai: pussy, cunt, virgina.

even on the way to the carpark we were still at the guessing.
from "ez-LING" to "shao LING" to "cei-LING"
ad was just a good sport to maintain her cool,
though deep down in her heart a fantasy of strangling steph was brewing.
i know!
it even got until "TANG-LING- mall"
(her surname is TONG, in chinese, TANG)
LOL.
and alas lu the smarty got it
it was "shu ling" or "forest" to steph.
lu walked home, azlina went off with her bf,
ad went back to ju's, dee drove me and yum home.
MY ELDER SISTER IS COMING HOME TOMORROW!
and i'm dreading it, heh.
miss whiney the poop will be back.



**
here i am feeling anal and lousy, again.
trying to laugh eveything off.
but my clown facade seems to be weakening.
yes it was great that i had a great time with the tpiranhas babies,
as always.
but i come home broken again.
i know that material things shouldnt be the make up of feelings,
feelings of love, family, unity yadder,
and neither should the ounce of strength depend on it.
but i can't help it.
its like a representative of what you've given me,
in comparision to my sisters.
i know i shouldnt be feeling sore,
i'm all grown up now, it should be different.
but i guess all along no ones bothered to put my feelings in check.
what do i come home to?
my sisters rubbing it in my face,
that mummy dearest got them a brand new $400+++ gadget
when all i got was a $2.50 box of fries.
i dont need anything mum,
i just need for you to say,
that $400++ and $2.50 is the same value.
not only say it mum, but show me.


its the simple things in life we forget.

splashes of paint

watching football on tv.
singapore vs laos.

is it me or is singapore still as sucky?

anyway woke up at 1pm today
woke bird up too. so she could have lunch with me.
ate over watching the dvd, sky high.
surprisingly it was a cool show.

came online.
supposed to clear my table and room!!
oh man, later la.
painted my box holders that i bought from school yesterday.
initially decided on pastel blue.
but my white paints dried up.
DAMN!
it zapped up all my paints!
esp the blues.
ran out of acrylic paint,
so i got stuck with poster paints.
the boxes are now midnight blue with white splatters. :)
not inclding the splatters on my arms, legs and floor.
anyway im sure blue with fit good with a purple room.
lets just hope i dont ever spill water on my table.
if not the colour will run and run to everywhere
and everything will turn blue.

after that spent a whole lot of time trying to finish the template once and for all.
but to no avail.
apperently i cant add in another layer!!
gulps.
so now i have no clue as to how to add in my tagboard.
i hate it that im a html idiot!! :(

had dinner just awhile back.
its raining again.
everytime it rains it ust reminds me of the shitty condition the feild is in.
bleah.
even on a sunny day the feild feels cold.
not to mentioned filled with mud and potholes.
not too good for clumsy steph and ankle.

looks like im just gonna spend the rest of the night either
(a) doing up the template from scratch
(b) clearing my room

but im studyin tmr.
and going to church.
that bad dream is good enough of a reason to make me go.

good or bad?

i had a bad dream last night.
felt so real, but i wish it not be.
is it a sign, or a signal?
whatever it is, let it just stay a dream.

woke up early for business stats lecture.
after that had brunch at business park.
i swear the vegetarian stall is the best.
no queue and i ust paid $1.40 for my food :)
weet weet!
after that had comm skills group meeting with mr chris.
GOODNESS SAKES!!
zip up ur pants!!!! :S
omg omg omg.

walking towards the sports complex,
a big gigantic fat red ant crawled in between my toes.
i was so terrified of it biting my toes!!!
so i balanced on one foot and tried desperately to fling it out, gingerly.
it didnt help that i had my laptop in my bag :S.
so i was an unbalanced fool on one foot slopping to one side,
STILL WITH THE ANT WeDGED IN MY TOES!!
lu the savior "kutied" it off easily.
she couldnt have saved me earlier, instead she took joy in seeing the clown do a balancing stunt.

after that i went home.
my next class was at 6, no way was i going to stay in school from 1300 till then.
slept at home, like a log.
got all the sleep that i lacked the night before.
got up at 515 got my training gear and took a bus to school.
sociology lecture was a bore,
but the videoclip he played was nice.
as usual i cannot find my group
only saw a handfull of people from my class
after that had training.
expected it to be worse then mondays.
but surprisingly it was easier to cope with this time.
focused on defence, part 2 of assesments by marli.

my group could have done better then they did.
there was so much more the could have offered but held back.
sigh.
anyway i thought i could have given more of me too.
it was only a 90% effort
ho hum.
last game was played with the guys.
it was an overal much better game for everyone.
after that had a review of our goals made a month ago
the group was quiet.
as in, not everyone voiced their views.
hey is this what you call being part of a team?
voices shouldnt only come out from the same few.
it is painfully frustrating to hear the silence of some.
all in all, training ended at 10+
we decided we were still working for the same goals.
so what if RP invited the unis to play coz they didnt want to lose to us,
i mean it is easier to say they lost to unis then to another poly.
anyway, who knows.
we're training hard, we might earn that gold.
at least i'm not prepared to give up as yet.
if only the rest of the girls would ironise their wills.

by the time i showered finish everyone was gone.
am i that slow?
caught up with dee and we went for dinner.
bee hoon tom yam please!
then we ust chit chatted about life and the team and stuff.
i miss talking to her
like heart to heart.
its just refreshing.
hopped into a cab by 2340.
reached home barely before midnight.
so uberly shagged out i just went to sleep.

hopefully good dreams will come this time.

1 happy meal pls!

today went to school by cab,
just in time to miss the downpour.
class started at 1pm.
had Principles of Management tutorial.
Lu didnt come so i was the only rose amoung the thorns in the group.
trust them to come up with silly ideas.
one such example, lingerie shop.
our mission, "to support and seduce."
the wise words of samuel seah.

during our one hour break, headed to mensa
i had my kway chap!! :)
and ice mango, yeah yeah yeah.
went to my locker, got my stuff, headed to class.
on the way passed by the bookshop and i just HAD to buy a coke lime.
"you put the lime in the coke, you nut."
thus i was late for class.
at least i didnt get lost again.
i love my sociology class, or rather my sociology group.
but tummy man didnt come.
had fun none the less, though we couldnt follow with what the teacher asked us to do.

after class went straight to meet andy, din and fauzie
and we headed to our lecture
WHICH btw is boring and a repeat of what we already know.
halfway through i couldnt take it i just turned on my laptop and used it.
andy was surprisingly following the class.
wesley, din and fauzie left the class,
they were talking outside with the durian king.
the class finished at 8.15!! overtime dude!
had a brief meeting with the durian king and his newly wedded wife.
then it was off to eat!! :)

argued over where to eat.
whatever it is, it was andy's treat!!
settled on macdonalds.
and i had, a, HAPPY MEAL!! :)
so small the drink!
the cashier quite cute, with a baby boy/cheeky monkey face.
anyway i got my chicken litle toy!
mine was the fat fat father in his car.
im just waiting for chicken little in his baseball gear thing.
sat there, talked about movies and our project.
din left first, he was going to watch harry potter.
3 of us sat there till like 2240?
took bus 291 to tampines interchange and 38 home.
fauzie took same bus as me.
yadder yadder.
only reached home at 11+
didint join ad and the rest at momo.
sze min and charyl last min scratched their clubbing plan.

reached home, didnt do much.
im done blogging for today.
this is the earliest ive been able to sleep since school.
that's about it for today.

earthworm jim

today is a crazy day.
my mind has shrank to the size of a miniture pea due to fatigue and madness.
and the insanely cold 'air-conditioned' surroundings of everywhere.

did i mentioned that i made the worse discovery of the century this morning?
after dragging myself miserably out of bed,
with only 4 hrs of sleep, but it was easy to smile myself to sleep,
both thanks to adrian :)
before that played with the pillow man ungku on webcam with all my drawings.
(i swear sometimes i'm a truely talented artist)
BUT
i found there is a cut on my face stretching to my neck :(!!!!
prolly from rugby but why why why? when? how? HELP!!!


went to school for early macroecons tutorial which was 100% useless
spent most of the time talking to lu, shawn and samuel.
then we headed to the engine canteen for food.
carona chicken rice, yum.
lu the pig and steph the lard trotted to the sports complex after to sleep
only steph did. lu downloaded ringtones for her phone.
she played silly chinese speaking ones in my ear while i was sleeping.
even braided one braid on my hair.
this lil lulu ah.
then charlotte joined us.
talked, she told us the begginings of 'charlotte and zaki'
so cute. they really compliment each other.
hoping for a wedding soon :)
then more rugby playing babies YAY! hehe

on our way back to school to attend our macroecons lecture,
we walked through the valley of the shadowless earthworms!!
they were everywhere!
but so poor thing,
when rain the earth flooded if they dont come out they die,
they come out also get stepped to death. :s
geepers creappers.
so what they are 'farmer's friends' as we were taught when we were young.
doesnt change the fact that they are worms. gross worms that people eat when nobody likes them.
colourless slimy rubberbands that shows clearly the movement of soil through its body.
ANWAY
charlotee miss almighty spotted a worm with grass stuck on it.
so she decided to remove it for the poor, helpless, deffenceless wormie.
and with one swift motion of her finger,
she burst the worm, and its insides oozed out.
it looked like a ripe pimple.
all hail the almighty worm murderer!! LOL
(she meant well though)

lecture was complicated.
after that had group meeting regarding comm skills.
im starting to hate that subject even more.
then logged into blackboard to just pretend to post questions.
left class earlier then normal.
made plans with emile!!
left school, took bus 518 (virgin ride!) with sarah and bumped into keagan.
alighted at far east. OMG its been ages since i been to town,
or far east so to speak.
been so busy with school, rugby, school, rugby i barely have time.
but ya la have time to come online, chat all. :)
just waiting to get my bike lisence.
ANYWAY.
she brought me to a notebook shop, cool designs
(but im not a notebook person)
and she took me to see their new fountain.
and went to this shop, couldnt help but bought a t-shirt
yet another striped one. BLEAH.

just nice as i was done emile arrived in town.
met him at boarders and he started walking to god knows where.
just to get a drink. and i thought i was the one who always gets lost.
we keep overshotting our routes. LOL
i swear he reminds me of haikel.
walked one big round but ended up buying drinks at far east 711
green tea and peach tea pls!
after buying 2tickets to just like heaven
i'm in a dilema.
theres two sweaters which are gorgeous. potential money magnets.
adidas grey with yellow stripes sweater? $119
or roxy brown and pink sweater? $99
or none and save a fortune? lol
i need to do christmas shopping!!
i wanna check out springfeild, timberland, zara, phuture london, YA!
anyway saw shah at topshop. didnt talk much. oh well

then movie time!
it was a good movie. great ending.
not one of those VERY PREDICTABLE plot kinda movies
then walked to doughby gaught, sat by the fountains.
emile is mad he wants to climb the craine!!!!
then it got late, i was sleepy,
so we left. he sent me till eunos and took the opposite side train back to clementi
at least he took the effort to go halfway.
so tired. my eyes were hurting.
got off at simei. walked home.
on the way i noticed this guy,
quite good looking who alighted formthe same train, headed in the same direction.
he had the same rastafarian friendship band that i have that's on the same ankle (left)
talk about coincidences. or is it? lol
anyway there's this movie i saw in the trailers in the movie,
about love at first sight and 2 people on the train.
i forgot the title though! damn.
i chop that one to watch with adrian when he comes.


eyes are heavy, but i just have to blog.
my entry updates are lagging!
now ben is waiting to read. :)
silly boy.
anyway had an msn with tummy man to negotiate when to watch the movie for our sociology proect.
and i added the wrong group of people, TWICE!! lol.
so weird i cannot kick them out, and they dont know each other,
thinking what the hell's going on.
tmr andy's treaing dinner!!
can't believe he persuaded din to skip lecture just to play basketball.
tsk.
boys will be boys.

can't decide to go to ad's birthday or not.
i just remembered i have a one-time entrepreneurship lecture from 6 - 8 pm
and i cant skip thurs monrning the first lecture, last week already skipped.
nothing to wear. i have a cut on my face.
bleah.

ok i'm rushing to finish off so i can sleep.
today's a good day.
counting down the days.

accidental movie marathon

woke up at 2 today.
goodness
12hr+++ of sleep.
OINK


wake up, watched legends of zorro with bird
slurpped down my won tan mee at the same time
nice movie, proved me wrong.
thought was going to watch a movie with mummy and bird and jessie and her family.
especially since they have 15 free golden village tickets!!
but then didn't
planned too late
showered and went online
cheryl lek came over.
we watched valliant
silly pigeon movie, quiet cutely funy la
then she went home after dinner
while harry potter was screened on tv
and she couldnt wait for like the commercials to leave.
grawl.
yeah, 3rd movie of the day
part II's tmr. *excited*

now am just online.
fooling around with photoshop
posting up all past entries that are saved as drafts
because on this very day my template was up
yes yes.
though it still needs loads of fine tuning
its good enough to run (learnt that in entrepreneurship class, heh)
but thanks again loads to nad and ad
who has been taking my constant whining and still seeing this template tentrum out.
heh.
i swear i'm a webcam junkie
had fun, as always, on the webcam with adrian.
HE MOONED ME!! :(
he's so hairy, grawl. lol
but he says if i pay for his waxing he'll wax. YAY.
only 3 more weeks!
then he had to go do his work.
read through emile's blog.
quite cute the TOP 10 lists he comes up with.
heh heh.
finally i met my match with the many many many photos he has.
BTW it has come to my attention that alot of people in my class find my dad handsome!!
wth.
a 50yr old man.
i thought i got it bad in secondary school,
even a butch said he was handsome
but now in poly,
classmates said he was,
guys and girls?!
especially after he just stank the whole chalet and took off.
but handsome 50yr old mega stinky-shitter?
whatever it is, i'm still daddy's little girl,
a handsome daddy's little girl :)


ok my mind's starting to shut off.
i think i'm going to sleep.
do more of this blog thing tmr.
who'd ever though owning a blog would be tedious.
oh hum, its only the start up period.
tmr's class starts at 2!
then its to the gym with dee and yam and who ever else they called.
and training afterwards.
goodnight world.

tummy man

school started at 1
slept in.
still couldnt get up!
had classes.
i like my sociology class,
or rather my group.
ah mok, qin sheng and tummy man. :/
after that watched the match.
waited for lu to end french
then went to techno for yummy mee pok! *slurps
then home it was
meet steph the webcam junkie

just kiss me!!

*video containing entry!*

i woke up late!!!
dad called at 8.50am when class starts at 9am!!
"so how?"
"so die la!!'
even if i attempted to rush and shower and leave the house,
i had no cash in my wallet to rush.
dad dropped by the house coz he left something here,
he gave $10 which he made clear will be deducted from my allowance.
wanted to rush but in the end i realise if i'm 15mins late i'll be marked absent.
so i just went back to sleep :)
next class was lecture, which i also skipped.
so comm skils was at 3pm.
before that went to business park to have breakfast.

going down the lift, before the door closed,
i heard someone call my name.
turned and saw syarina.
and as the doors closed she shouted,
"deh deh deh deh deh...."
:
in other words shes saying im overloading the lift.
-_-"
this is syarina.


wanted to get a banana, so i asked how much one was. samuel was there too.
samuel: "uncle your bananas how much?
uncle: "different size banana different price"
steph: *WTH FACE* errr. errr.
samuel: errr. errrr.
uncle: "but uncle one is different price."
steph: *WTF SMILE and walks away.*
samuel: *BLUSH.*
grawl.
in the end just had 2 half-boiled eggs with toast.
and again miss syarina said,
"why you eat non-stop ah?!"
well excuse me for having my first meal of the day.
again this is the same girl. -_-"



comm skills was a waste of time.
it was a lab session for us to get aquinted with the 'blackboard' programme.
was singing the chicken little dance track thing (maiyah HEE!!)
and removing the mmc card from my phone
so that i could upload my phone pictures and videos into my laptop.
and ust then bobbed along mr chris.
"you mend phones do you?"
whatever. really. whatever.

left early like by 15mins to catch the match.
tp vs ite.
gonna be a good one, though i fear the boys might attain inuries. :/
it didnt help that it was the same stupid ref from the day before.
but the boys pulled through and won :)
as i believed they would.
13 - 8. TP!
and so funny alan wanted to fight.
took water bottle all ready to run into the feild.

after that lulu took me out for chilli crab!!!
yay!
fishermen's village here we come!
it was a long but worth while wait for our crab.
the buns were oh soooo good.
the view of the sea was great, accompanied but bolts of lightning.
played on the swing. it was so bouncy
so steph decided to jump on the swing, and lu decided to film the bouncy girl.
and she got the shock of her life!
i have it on film!
CLICK HERE TO SEE THE VIDEO!!
she happily turned the camera to her pretty self, smiling ever so sweetly,
and when she refocused on steph,
she found a hanging/dangling dead/possesed thing on the swing.
she got me scared with her scream, we just left the playground IMMEDIATELY!

kinda got lost.
but trottled unto a mama shop.
bought ice cream, i had the 'traffic light' one.
walked on, got lost further.
steph: "my lips are warm....
lu: *stares
steph: ...and tingly."
lu: "want to kiss me just say la."
WTH.
you know how after eating ice cream your lips turn warm,
especially if you sucked on the ice cream and the weather is cool.
YES.
but NOOOoooooOOOO. i wanted a KISS.
sure. LOL.

after a 45 min walk around and around, we got out of the jungle.
took a cab back.
home sweeet home.
i felt belly happy.
today was a good day.

"ice your ankle"

dad came to pick me up for school
left my laptop with him for him to configure somethings
like microsft office and some anti-virus.
went for comm skills, our group went first.
somehow i'm still unclear of what i need to do
i feel like ive got nothing to contribute.
after class, who should decide to call, but daddy dearest.
"how am i suppose to do your computer when you put a password"
OOPS.
omg i so shy, especally since my password is a not-so-nice word.
after giggles, i went "AS-SWI-PE" and tailed off with more giggles.
didnt help that he repeated it just to confirm.
anyway after reading this you can try as you may
to enter to any of my profiles with that password
but smarty pants stephy changed it all already. LOL

went for principles of management lecture,
basically just had fun la.
was drawing on my books,
lu made for me a 'springy' nametag thing.
headed to ITAS to packet food then to the sports complex is was to catch the game
between NP and RP
NP won of corse. but the ref was a cock-head-and-a-half.
stupid the way he ref.
can't wait to watch tomorrow's match!

after that it was training.
poor lu puked out the meepok.
tsk. maybe nash spat inside.
i feel that the whole sense of urgency was picking up initally,
and now it's all gone down the drain, together with what we've learnt.
and this un-urgentenss rubs off. i feel that i've slackened quite abit too.
and what a time that steph choses to be a clumsy tart.
during a drill i somehow lost balance and my ankle took the full impact.
same ankle.
hurts like a BITCH!!
was grabbing the ground! moaning like a cow.
but it was such a nice feeling to see that though the girls were concentrated on their drills,
they still could look over with the look of concern beaming in their eyes.
awwww!
when they had their water break they just came over,
with water, with love, with each other
so touching.
marli made me lie down and elevate my ankle.
and she refused to let me join back training!!! :(
i kept bugging her to
she say see her mood on how the girls performed.
that gave me hope that i can re-join
more so when she was picking out the groups
she picked me last, and said
"you, on the side."
hur hur.
i couldnt help it, i just teared.
its already bad enough that the last week's training was not as productive for me
though i was able to identify what i need to work on
that now this training is a wasted chance for me to impletment different objectives.
bad enough that i had to sit out the drills, she lead me on to think that later can play
then never! stupid ankle.
but i swear it wasnt painful at all!!
only that initial like 3 minutes?!
bleah.
lucky the girls were supportive, so i obliged and sat at the side
with the old farts and insects and dewdrops.
showered and daddy came to pick me up.
I'VE GOT MY LAPTOP BACK FORM HIM!! YAY.
and he collected my free webcam, and mouse, and headset and massager.

but then hor, cannot connect from my room! :(((((((
so its to the third floor with the normal modemn connection, bleah.
once connected, nothing was stopping me...
from...
playing webcam!!!!
was online having a video conversation with adrian!
till like, 2+am?
woahhh.
and throughout the whole time
i kept getting tlc.
"ice your ankle" demanded marli, nagged ad, smsed charlotte, shimo, lu and dee.
even sya msned me to.
so sweet.
though it really was not pain.
i love this bunch of people.
that's part of thea reason why i'm still going on.
not only for my interests, but also to not have their 'investments' in me wasted.



i'm sleeping well tonight.

at long last.

i have a new laptop!!
yessss!
more excitedly, i have a new webcam! FOC somemore!! YAY!
thanks daddy!

went for lunch with daddy and the 2 monkey sisters.
ate at jack's place, yet again.
didnt really enjoy lunch.
not because of the food,
even thought i hated that my steak was well-done instead of MEDIUM. $&%^*&#$^!!


i feel bad for my dad.
like evertime he travels, never see him for a long time,
and money's always the topic of conversation everytime we lunch.
doesnt help that mummy and daddy is disputing over money,
THROUGH US.
so who's side am i suppose to be on?
who to empethesize with?
sometimes i really stop and wonder
who actually acts as the adults in such situations.


anyway, went to check out laptops at Challenger.
didn't really have much to chose from.
had to decide between a compact one that had an external D:/
or one with an inbuilt which would be heavier la
got the inbuilt one, hopefuly it'll be a long lasting one as i planned it to be.

I CLEARED MY ROOM!! :)
much neater i guess. still got a pile of books and papers
next sunday again, PART 2.
i need file holders!
and what am i to do with my fishbowl?!?!
i dont want to stuff it with sweets anymore. i scared later mr cockroach come. :(
i think i'm overstuffed with toys. bleah.
at night manage to do some research for tmr's comm skills class.
but i really wanst sure what was needed from me. :/
bleah.


9am school. shleep time!!!

jalan raya!!

its RAYA TIME!!


borrowed dee's baju kurong.
met all the girls by 1130 at jurong. nash (abang siti!!) was early by an hour.
present were steph, lu, dee, az, soup, sher, ruby, yam and the above.
first stop, HAHA'S HOUSE.

i was reluctantly excited.
what if they mistake me as a malay girl, and i don't do the traditional customs.
"WHAT A RUDE GIRL!!" they'd think.
then no more green packets for steph :(
but it wasnt so bad.
just that one of her nieces spat a sweet in my hand,
right after muttering cutely some malay words. *gulps*
and lu just laughed.
but they are sweethearts, she kept comnig to me to sit on my lap.

she said her dress, sup and my earrings were "lawah".
her 2 nieces are just cuteness.
3 and 5 yrs of age.
the younger one was the one who spat the sweet :/
but she's so clever, she took pictures of everyone with my phone!! awwww.
had little to eat (but enough for me to add a safety pin!)
make way for the BFG.
then next stop, sher's!!


haha tricked us in taking bus 66. it took 1hr45mins!!!!!
*#^%Q*%^$^%^!!!!
passed little india and all just to get to eunos.
but her house and her room was gorgeous.
so comfy like a lil pwincess nook.
and there goes ANOTHER safety pin.
and still no sign of green packet! heh.
then it was to coach marli's place (or rather her brother's)


got lost walking around and around trying to find the block
when silly lu realised only after circles that it was just in front of her primary school. TSK TSK.
along the way had some mut motors who honked their horns. grrrr.
more food, ikes!
marli looks so small girl.
and then POOF.
the green packet fairy appeared!! :)
ehehehehehe!!
then off we were to dee's house.


upon arrival we were all so lazy and all of us changed out.
so cute everyone in their oversized shorts, ESP YAM!! :)
and the sunset there was just simply, amazing.

relaxed, refused to eat anymore.
watched the dvd "Mean Girls"
cute and funny.
her parents came home halfway during the show.
so shy we all sitting around like pigs.
after the movie they continued eating.
a few left. we struck out azlina's place.
nibbled abit on the curry.
and POOF green packet fairy number 2! :)
it was way passed soup's 8pm sleep time.
so she left myself, dee, azlina and yam to watch american pie 4.
wasnt superly funny. it was mainly about gays and all.
used the computer abit, then went home via cab.
and then the green packet value went down by half. *sigh*


so super tired and _ _ _ when i reached home.
i kept showing of my belly to tiffy, (who was reading bird her lit text as a bestime story)
who usually lies abt me looking _ _ _.
but this time her jaw just dropped when i did the belly bounce.
*SOB SOB SOB*
went online for abit for digestion time.
adrian was on.
somehow my mood changed.
slept soon after coz i've got lunch plans with daddy the next day.
and i'll be buying a laptop!! :)
excited in seeing daddy after a long time.
part of the excitement was derrived from a deprived POSB account. HEH.



i had a belly good time with the girls none the less. it was a great experience which i couldnt have with any other batch of babies. chocolated coated hugs and kisses!! and an extra cherry to dee who helped put this together and ensured a smooth raya.




belly bouncing out of here.

SCC Rugby International Sevens.

welcome to the SCC rugby international sevens.

day 1
it was to the padang to catch all the hot hot action.
team from all over the world.
free flow of beer babeh!!
chun's whole body was a eluminating blush, angie's cheeks were glowing pink!
was there with ad, clar, charlotte, zaki, angie and chun.
went to get satay and watched the games.
it was gooOOOoood.
marli and the src girls came too
left at about 5
met lu at city hall mrt.
headed to zara GWC for light shopping.
sooooOOOOoo nice to see all of em again!
ee is so cute, fizah is still my love, nora so vogue, shan so, errr, ditsy.
shopped about abit, clar left first.
sam joined us.
only done with shopping like 8+?!
goodness.
went to kenny rodgers after that for my 'quater pounder'
sam booked harry potter tickets after that.
hung around abit more, then it was home sweet home.

day 2
felt lazy as ass!
but i wanted to catch the unior rugby, played by all the U-9s (i think)
ad saved the day with her last minute decision to not be lazy too.
heh
picked me up, droved down and parked at esplanade.
wow, so cleber she, parked at the right spot, just a stone throw from the padang.
watched the game, and the finals was goOOoooD!
the team i surported won! woo hoo FIJI!
after that headed home.
on the way walking back to the esplanade carpark,
this guy came up to me and talked to me like an old time friend.
it was one of the players from a maroon jersey wearing team,
he's prolly as old as my father!!
he asked me if i was going for the party and sorta persisted i came along with him.
*gulps*
so weird i had a hard time convincing him that my NO was final.
and i swear the gaps of his teeth were bigger then his nostrils.
heh.



i have a love for contact rugby, though it looks painful. i might wanna try my hand at it. ;)