the last of me.

EVERYTHING'S OVER!!

no more projects
presentations, tests,
interviews, NO MORE NO MORE.
at least till the exams end the sem entirely. HEH. :)

yesterday woke up uberly early for an exhibition match at blanga rise.
it was awesome.
not so much in the game, coz all of us played at snail pace.
but more so of the kids and their enthusiasm.
the day started with dragging myself into the shower and then to the bus stop to be picked up
by the rest of the tp volunteers,
namely lu felix and dee.
gone to get my boots at tp, then made our way to the school.
omg traffic was a killer, i swear the journey nearly made me puke out my empty stomach
so initial meeting time of 715, but our arrival was at 8am.
lucky marli good mood, because got hemsem pe teacher so she chipmunkily smile smile
HEE.
he not hemsem hemsem, but body hemsem.
his adam apple is damn high i swear.
anyway, it was blues vs whites.
unfair mix BTW. haha!
halfway through kids started joining us in the play. DARN CUTE.
i helped louisa, a primary 3 ah girl.
then game time was over. marli went to the crowd of kids,
who WERN'T very much taller then her.
and and and , the towered over her saying "I WANT TO PLAY!" and they were on tiptoes please!
so it was time to say goodbye.
and off to harbour front centre to eat.
freaking funny conversation, but not as funny as dee's favourite song that was playing.

btw, it was felix's day i swear.
firstly, after the game, he came to me and lu, and said,
"that small girl quite pretty ah"
lu darted him by saying, "WAH SMALL GIRL ALSO WANT",
along those lines. LOL.
secondly, dee was looking for a source of an irritating sound.
only to say "FELIX I CAN HEAR U CHEW FROM HERE! "
heh heh.
thirdly, on the way into school, we were looking for our pet spiders,
(just one day we came across a huge web with 1 huge spider on it and another small one)
peter being the big one johnny the smaller (felix would tell u otherwise)
and while walking up the slope without finding our pets,
felix suddenly paused in his steps.
"shit" he said.
timo and i was stunned to what he was talking about.
then he pointed to his toe.
BIRDSHIT! HAHA!
right smack on his toe that kiaps the slipper. wah CANNOT TAHAN!
i even made him a song.
felix is now konwn as the BSB.
BIRDSHIT BOY!
show me the meaning, of having birdshit.
is this the slipper, i need to walk with.
tell me why, i can't be there where you are.
heh heh.

sorry la felix. i just had to.
consider adequate payback for making me carry you zinger meals,
BOTH you and timo.
hehe.

anyway after harbour front we went to meet timo at marina for my shopping.
didnt do much coz i didnt find much.
though i relly like the zara dress, its zipper was spoilt. but i LOVE IT SO! :( :( :(
oh well.
instead i bought undies from topshop (been a long while)
a skirt from warehouse.
total damage didnt even hit $50, so phew.
marketing interview was stupid for me.
i just didnt have the mood to give it well, 60%? HEH.
i just gave like 3 sentences answers at the max.
i cant help but feel that its been repeated too many times that its meaningless.
so eff it.
to training i'll go.
and on the way in the blue bus, things and people around me just suddenly made me realise.
that i dont know if the friends i have now will be friends down the road.
especially since there are early symptoms.
anyway again i was reminded of how trust is of utmost imporance.
and it cuts like a knife. and i won't be afraid to admit,
that it scares the FUCKING SHITTERS OUT OF ME.
not that ive breeched anyones trust,
but im a coward should i find out the mine has been.
on a lighter note, training was swell.
we practiced our SD move, and this training i was able to sort out my doubts regarding the appropriate gaps i'm suppose to be hitting.
note to self, IMPROVE YOUR CHEEBAI HANDS!
*ahem* pardon that. but yes.
NATIONAL TOUCH LEAGUE BEGINS THIS SATURDAY!
yes ah! im excited. and dare i say, more confident?
yes, not only of myself, but for all of US US US :)
through the training, i felt that the move was VERY well executed.
and thinking back, the times where i did it most efficiently was when it was executed with nurl, vie and myself.
just so happened it was us the trio. of it just never got round to other combos during our game.
but yes, sastifaction? definately.
and i daresay that alot of us are efficiently improving in our own ways.
i find that gale does VERY nice inserts, just bummer that sometimes the ball never gets to her.
perhaps playing next to her helped me see that, but i like that i can read her gaps easily.
goal settings after was awesome as well.
this was the first ever best goal settings i felt.
it was common and precisely what we need/want.
in conclusion, this is a good start to something great.
TIP: NEVER peel blisters with your bare hands,
you'd end up with a BEEEEG patch of skin being ripped off, leaving your bare flesh being exposed.
in case you don't know, IT HURTS.


and today.
alarm rang at 630, woke up at 715.
WAH TANKS. i dozed off.
rushed my shower, left my house just slightly before 8
met aimee and off we were to school.
bloody sentosa shuttle (internal and external) was irritatingly hogged by the NAFA people having some sports day or so they say.
who the hell has it IN SENTOSA.
thanks la, disrupt our routine.
so, together with the 1hr-late-for-culinary-class samuel who is going to be cooked by the chef,
we shared a cab in.
samel tells the best life stories,
especially of him sleeping on kitchen floors.
BET YOU DIDNT KNOW THAT! :)
so yes, $6.70 damage, great. *rolls eyes*

deployment week 2.
now THREE people take photo with me.
i manage to persuade 2 china guys to get LOADS of keychains.
they had a bucket full each.
and this couple to buy the merlion mornument, buy 4 get 1 free.
a chopin plate plus 3 of those acrylic plaque thingys.
well, ok la. though i didnt like that i had to peel myself away from one customer just because another one shouted for my attention.
oh well.

btw, the store was flooded today! yes! lol. due to some pipeage thing.
to think that sweeping the floor was something you dont see steph do often,
try picture her sweeping water! HAHA!
darn cute.
then it stopped, now just the many many puddles.
and when i was sweeping up the bit in front of the counter,
this indian uncle insisted he take over.
so OK.
and that was the start of my grammy award winning performance.
thanks to one brave photograper.
walked around aimlessly for a place to have lucnh,
ended up back at school for prison food.
the rest of the day i did redemption.
quite fun. better then last week. i felt more in control, vs the china people shoving cards in my face.
1 or 2 good lookers of the day.
overall today was alright.
though it rudely struck me that somehow, i am a closet introvert.
and yes, this is the first and only time you'd see me saying that.
i realise its hard for me to warm up to people.
so i guess they think that i'm stupid, or dumb for not saying much.
then i thought of someone's msn nick
"don't mistake a quiet man for a fool for he might be thinking more then you"
but i dont like it, that i'm sometimes like that, SO SHY FOR WHAT FUCK.
i'm just, further supressing the me i want people to know me for.
maybe i do deserve the emmy award after all.
we ended at 425 then the usual 4 pm like we did last week.
the rest didnt wait for us, freaking great right.
did urked me, though i guess i sounded unaffected,
like i always try to.
went up to the merlions mouth and head.
from there could see a few of the boys in school changing for their friday soccer. LOL
then we left, went to harbour front with kate, till she dissapeared.
met chai and nic, trained with them .
then it was with aimee all the way to bedok.
my mum bastard me.
she ask me wait for her to pick me from the simei station.
after 20mins, i called her and she say "i'm still on the highway"
wah thanks. i walk home la.

i'm hungry.
and i'm desprate to convert my frown into a smile, that i'm heart phucked.
i dont want to pretend anymore. but its the only things i know how to do.
and i'm just, stuck.
probabely thats the source of my headache.
perhaps right now, i just need to come at terms with the truth
that i might not be, who i thought i was, and can be.
and it'll help, if everyone just live with the me they get,
princess tantrums and mood swings with the ultra sensitivity, cheesy jokes and all.
i dont need much, i just need for you to understand me when the time comes.