mr fart alot

this past week i've been at adrian's!

oh man that guy farts ALOT!!!
eggy fart
stalker fart
thunderous fart
you name it
fart fart fart fart

anyway on the 26th dec, after sleeping at 3am and waking up at 6am,
this silly boy finally get his chance to play soccer.
but street soccer, with baldwin.
met at potong pasir,
we were early, called mr baldwin, he said hes on the way.
but i know he just woke up and tried to "cake" his voice.
when he came his hair was still soaking wet.
tsk.
I HAVE A SOCCER HERO! who's like under 12.
he's an excellent player!! OMG.
my hearts fluttering.
it was fun seeing him play,
he was whining abt how his first game wasnt that good.
but i thought otherwise.
baldwin plays with his hands by his side!! funny.
i thought these 2 guys looked familiar.
turned out they were from rugby, just as i suspected.
ajay and sanjay (?) TWINS! lol
yeah, had a short chat about quite alot of things.
anyway, poor adrian got kicked his his shin, and elbowed in the nose.
and like he says, he 'takes it like a man'
here's some pics anyways.


me and baldwin watching the team play.


sweat machine rehydrating and gobbling down my sweets!


POSING!


water's dripping down his face!
look at the faces of the tired people!


the team.
(L-R) _______, suresh and baldwin


this is not mother theresa


the final show down to get into the finals!!
hot hot hot match! but why are they dancing?!?!


again still dancing....... with formation somemore..


and again! gosh.


my 2 heros!!
the one is blue and red.
no one knows which am i supporting! :P:


my favourite game picture. among many others.
A-D-R-I-A-N!! GO! :)


mr hotstuff cooling down.
then it was home sweet home.
and 62353535! yum.
(this made him stinky fart!)




i love this guy!
who's pants i pulled down while he was making me fries.
who's tummy i "fart' on.
who falls asleep halfway during movies.
who likes to touch himself.
who keeps whining how he still aches from playing soccer,
and whines on how he wants to play badly.
who doesnt let me sleep on "his" side of the bed.
who farts under the covers (eeeewww)
who complains more then i do.
who refuses to shower first in the morning, though he said he would.
who feeds me :)
who is getting emmuned to my tickles :(


adrian miguel COMPLAIN serrentino.
my lifes coming back into prospective.

x'mas 2005

photos photos photos :)



after dinner we opened presents!
well, all except tiffy, mel and mum.
because bird and steph got impatient!! :)


baldwin's signature pose!!


adrian likes to play balls.


then it was to church!

they never said photo-taking is not permitted in church

mummy and tiffy

we walked home! steph and adrian detoured
together with tiffy and baldwin.
but we got lost in the park while taking pictures! :)

and more pictures.....

and MORE!!

almost home!! but we got lazy.
so our arms jerked up as a cab went by.
saw mummy at the junction, DUCK!!
went to shell to buy drinks and ice cream.

yeah! we reached home!
we didnt take a picture earlier on, so
TEDAH!!
we're as TALL as the tree!

chilling out to baileys
in the company of bird, jessie, bladwin, tiffy
as well as russel, shane ang mo, shane chinese and justin.
i'm tired! and cranky.



MERRY XMAS!

when right feels wrong

"Love is luscious feelings running through your mind when you give her a warm hug.
Love is a special ord that brings you and her closer forever.
Love is a happy spirit that invokes the indugence of styles that are sophiscated.
Love is writing her name in the sky, but not letting the wind blow it away.
Love is about writing her name in the sand, but not lettting the waves wash it away.
Actually love is about writing her name in your heart, and there it forever will stay.
When you are with her, eternity is just a step awsay.
With each and every passing day, your love continues to grow.
This treasure of love is cherished within your soul and it tells her how much you love her.
Love is a feeling of forever, eterna and sincere.
Even in the mountaintops, in all places high, his love for you is the reason to be,
it will never break or bow.
Love is a great emotion that keeps you and her going strong.
Love is knowing that you can never find that feeling with anyone else other then her.
If love is a wish, you would with to wake up everyday to the feel of her heart beating next to yours.
All the love that history knows, is said to be in every rose.
Yet all that could be found in two, is less that what he feels for you.
Love is like a beacon to guide any wayward heart.
It's a light upon the shoals that will hold and cherish dreams together.
His gentle word is like a spark of light that illuminates your soul.
And as each sound goes deeper, it's him that makes you whole.
There is no corner that his love for you cannot fill.
When the world starts causing waves, his devotion to you will make it still.
Love is the greatest feeling, its like a play you can watch each and every day.
Love is a feeling that comes from somewhere, so deep within.
It has no begginging and knows no end.
Whereever you go, whatever you do, all you see is the love he has inside for you.
To love is to share life together, to build special plans just for two.
Love walks lightly into your life, captivating and lovely in your mind. And each step is a vow towards eternity.
Love stretches across the blue skies, like a rose blooming in the Sahara.
It's all the beautiful things in the world like a river through a dusty land.
The love and devotion from him covers the entire universe."

-- Goldheart Jewellery


amazing the power of advertisement.
the emotion is envokes with just a read of it.
of corse the visual aid of diamonds are captavating.
but these words are enough to make my heart go "awww",
even though i was taking a crap while reading it.
then again, advertisement for a jewellery store, and its basially poetry.
dont get me wrong, it is a good advertisement tactic, by tapping on emotions,
but any tom dick and harry could write it with ease i guess.
whoever it was/is, is prolly rolling in cash and diamonds by now.

yet a part of me still yearns to find that one, one.
(and maybe write a poem like that for me!! HEH!)
someone who makes the wrongs feel right.
because right now, it doesnt feel all that right.
and its like an anchor weighing me down with something so close yet so far.

TPIRANHAS X'MAS

the party was great!
though the turnout was dissapointing to many,
those who turned out definately had the laughs of their lifetime!!

theme: uniforms!!

i just decided to go in my secondary school uniform.
the rest really thought their costumes out.

soup was a punkie school girl
azlina and nash came as military personel (think army)
ifa wore her bf's #1 uniform, complete with gloves and shoes
dee had a pilot hat
yam a blinged out hot bimbofied chick (i dont know how to desctibe, but it was good!)
charlotte and eda came in uniform like myself, except she wore stockings and eda, socks
marli was our SIA stewardess
senior azlina was a scout! (she was the cutest!)
ad was a sailor! awww
and the bestest 2,
ruby a fench maid
shimomo a hot nurse!! (i did her make up, shes so bitchin!! MWAH!)

dinner started WAY late.
waiting for people to come but not all did anyways.
the seniors were sporting and did made dances.
steph was the pool champion who won dee, nash, ida, and ad.
(ad defeated the reining champ at the last game, coz i wasnt looking!)

we had x'mas socks, lollies, ornaments, turkey, beer and vodka!!
many thanks goes to ad for the kindness of her heart in making all this possible.
mad dancing was expected, FINALLY GOT TO MEET AISYAH!
she and huda dominated the dance floor, madness gave us stiches from laughing.
met leona the ex-sacian too.
we had a "fashion showcase"
silly girls were not impromptu, all shy shy. tehee.
knowing steph the "thailand transverstite" (ifa laughed herself off the chair)
she dancing like a funky chicken not shy one.
shimo won best dressed award, shame she didn't like, flash us! coz it would have been hot hot HOT.
steph won the sexy dancer award!! LOL
she pulled the "don't phunk with my heart" number. :/

we had our gift exchange too.
i guess a few people didnt bring a gift to exchange.
mine was from a senior, whom sad to say i didnt quite remember her name :
it was a M&Ms dispenser machine!! perfect fit for steph the choco-holic.
siti k got my gift exchange, CARE BEAR! bears that care.
suits her.
nurul who didnt come, had her present taken by eda,
SORRY THE UNDIES ARE HUGE!! nurul has a big ass :/ LOL
only one present left untaken, coz i guarded it.
don't know when i can give it to the rightful owner though.
marli gave us gifts too, or rather a x'mas ball honouring our "best of"
steph: best communication
and she also printed our "names" at the back of our jerseys.
funky, cheeky names.
mine said "STEPH-ON-ME"
wth.
part of me appreciated the thought and gesture
but at the same time that jersey was the teams pride.
the one we won our ips in.
the one we hold dearly to our hearts,
now it has a joking name on it.
felt a pinch in my heart,
and felt ifa's boot step-on-me harder!

after that headed to simpang to chill out, all the way till nearly 3am!
couldnt decide to go to china black or not.
meow joined us from after work.
she brought mini cornettos and candy canes! awww!!
the seniors left the school at nearly 1am!! that's crazy!
from the fnishing time of 10pm, to their private party extension! LOL


it was a great party. with great people.
much more greatness to come.

a year on.

its been a long time.


and its been a year from that faithful day,
that i found myself once again.
admist the painful sorrow and tears.
lets see what the past year since i broke away from the devil's been.


first of all, i found my family.
and my place in it.
i've come to learn, how its been there all along.
though bits of it have fallen and tears aggregate the fire,
i'm glad i'm home.


second, i've been found.
but friends who's nurtured me from scratch
like a bird with a broken wing.
and to a special friend, who's brought out the best in me,
a me that i never knew existed, or has been hidden to rot.


and in all, i've found myself.
the one that i thought was lost.
no longer did i find myself saying,
"if only i could turn back time"
because that's how strong i've grown to become.
with the help of the people around me.
who say they care,
instead of the one who's punches symbolises "care and love"

and day to day,
with each passing trail in my life,
the purest truth of life is,
that you can only depend on yourself,
to pull yourself through.
and decide to give the next day a decent chance,
of everything being better, again.


Drew Barrymore once said,
"if you've been to hell and back, make sure you've learnt something from it."

hello mister adrian

hello adrian.
welcome to singapore.





havnt been updating in a long while.
been busy with school.
and making time for adrian,
and pestering him to come to the east instead of me going to meet him in town.
:)
and tickling him, and pretending to laugh when he tickles me.
and biting him.
and pulling his leg hair, and chest hair, and arm hair.

we are the champions

i have a new haircut!!!!!!
went to century square to get it done,
i swear it looks like my secondary school hair,
but i hate the colour!! :(

i look younger.
ok fine, i'm only 17.
but it feels more powerful knowing that people mistake you to be older,
because u look matured (i get that sometimes)
OK FINE stop laughing.


anyway, had an early night,
and woke up early.
met jeremy, shared cab to school.
no naz i'm not dating him,
i just found out he stays near my place,
and paying $2.50 is better then $5.
but he makes a lousy taxi buddy,
especially since he's seldom late for school.

changed into our jerseys.
i'm number 14.
bus to turf city.
played games from 9.30 all the way to about 5.30.
got our way into the finals after worming our way through games with NUS, SP, NP, NUS.
finals were for 3rd and 4th placing.
but in reality it was the 1st and 2nd placing for the poly-ite games.
SIDETRACKING a lil.
it was suppose to be between poly and ite, as the name suggest,
but the host RP invited the unis to play.
so as expected they snatched up the 1st and 2nd placing.
ahem, anyways.
yes, it was TP vs RP.
we fought our hearts out.
3-3!!
goodness.
nervousness, excitement, fear, EVERYTHING i dont know!
it was sudden death.
rp was nearing the try line, but they lost control and posesion of the ball.
and just with a snap of the fingers, we scored with our bestest runner, azlina.
YEAH BABEH!!
we are the champions!!!
we've got our goal/gold.
the one we so deservingly deserved.
blood, sweat and tears are embossed on our medal.
we got this far, and we're not stopping there.
so what if it says 3rd,
we know and the other polys know damn well we got 1st.
this is all thanks to ourselves, marli and us.
euphoria.
it was crazy, the games were good.
i actually managed to score one against sp.
the mixed team didnt do too bad too!
they came in 3rd,
and they got a damn medl with REPUBLIC POLYTECHNIC on it.
-_-" talk about being humble.
highlight of the day!!
CHUN MOONED THE REFFEREE!!!! LOL.
such a chun.

took a bus back to school,
then shared cab with jeremy n lu home.
I'M FLAT BROKE!
showered and went to meet them again at 7.45
as they expected i was late,
and i left my phone at home,
DOPE!
met hannan on the train.
headed to far east, everyone else was there.
nurul, sher, haha, yam, angie, charlotte, zaki, ifa, gale, vie, nash, shimo, dee, soup, azlina, alan, baldwin,
and later on ungku and mervin.
then it was to liat towers starbucks, after the huge procrastination of corse.
marli, ida and ad came too.
sat and talked loads of cock.
people left in clusters.
in the end it was gale, ifa, marli, ida and ad who left with me to Obar.
expected that some people will last minute back out.
but Obar was packed, and fun!
ok, maybe its just that i havnt been clubbing in a long while.
ju and anne came too.
i bloody walked into the mirror while trying to find a toilet!! (EMBARASSING!)
my captain can DANCE!!! lol.
throughout i kept nugding her to "hook up" with a ramdon hemsem stranger.
just for the fun of it, THAT GIRL NEEDS TO LET LOSE I SWEAR!
our games are over, but knowing her she'll prolly stress herself over school work.
left obar at 2.
total nets damage for the day= $74.
in like, 7hrs. just on drinks and cab. bravo.
i dont know how i spend sometimes.
waited with gale for her NR.
then headed home.
i overslept my ride!!! imagine if i took the bus. alone, without a phone!
goodness.
lucky it wasnt too late too u-turn back, any later i would have hit another expressway.
came online to see if adrian was here.
and yes he was!!
msged me like, just before i msged.
COOL.
i was so sleepy.
my rooms back to its mess, OH NO!
and its only 24hrs away when i see him.
flutterbys in the stummy.
but still i can't wait.

the relatives came today.
spent an hour trying to clear my room first.
then played a few rounds of mahjong with em.
im not so much an expert as i thought i was,
with all the weird and confusing rules. OH MY.
jonathon is all grown up now. last time i saw him he was still a baby!
goodness.
aunty judy says i lost weight, so did my granny.
yet i broke one of those foldable chairs after that. :S
heh.
anyway "Star Awards" was re-tellecasted on channel 8.
and it crossed my mind.
that this award show recognises actors and actresses outstanding performances and popularity.
and when they come up to recieve their awards, and have their long winded thank you speech,
some tear filled, some comedic, some just stupid.
but does anyone wonder if its all an act?
after all, these are the "best" artists who are winning the awards aint it.
so whos to say they werent just, putting their acting into play?
silly thoughts that sometimes steph thinks.

like how come the "dollar sign" is infront of the value, like $5.60.
but u dont say DOLLARS FIVE SIXTY.
instead its five DOLLARS and sixty cents. = 5$60
where does the cents come in?
weird english. or weirder thoughts?





overall it was a GREAT WEEKEND!!!!!!
with the people i love, with the things i love, and possibly love.
found lots of old stuff while clearing my drawers.
flashbacks into memory lane makes me thankful for my today.
and the people who shaped it, good and bad.
now i'm looking forward to great weeks, for the month of december.
SEE YA TMR ADRIAN!! :)

scrapes and bruises

its down to the final 2 days, before our ips.
hopefully i can rest well, mind, body and soul.

ive let it consume so much of my time.
so much, that it ate into my schoolwork,
my personal/ social life,
and into myself.
but its all worth it.
just this week, cum 10th dec,
then it'll all be over.
hopefully everything will fall into place perfectly.
that i can only hope.


everyday its the same routine.
drag myself out of bed for school,
sleep at the sports complex during breaks,
attend lectures and tutorials with a zombified mind,
then come home late, and sleep straight away.
been so busy worrying about errands i need to run,
things i need to do, datelines to abibe with.
x'mas is coming, so is adrian,
and i still havnt figured out what to do.
most of the errands are getting x'mas stuff sorted out.
things like the tree, sock, lights, cards, tags yadder.
half my bank account is gone and i've only goten 4 gifts prepared!! :(
projects are wizzing by,
soon the tests will too.
sigh.
i better take control of my life soon,
before it controls me.


anyway, its been a long time since i spoke to adrian.
almost like ive lost direction.
time's gotten the best of me,
or rather the lazy bones in my body.
my desperate need for someone to care,
without realising that other people have emotions too.
i just hate coping alone sometimes.
only 4 more days,
note to steph,
"hang in there"



training today was good i felt.
was told otherwise about my personal performance.
though i slightly disagreed, it opened my eyes to new insight.
so i appreciated it.
but ive never felt so much pride before,
not for myself, but for dee darling.
to think she almost gave up on herself.
look what you can achieve when you just believe.
dinner at techno, my knees are hurting, and my right thigh.
thanks ungku fo the pictures,
great pictures of whom you took off (not your underwear)
ok not funny.
the gods must be crazy.
anyway i'm off.
goodnight world.




hope.

dirty boy!!

*VIDEO CONTAINING ENTRY!!*

today was quite slack.
someone pls tell me how i spent $100 in just 3 days?!?!?
and i still got loads more to buy.

sometimes i just hate the festive season....
our lecturer for macroecons today was mad.
"look at this sexy diagram, nothing to be shy about"
its just a damn graph with a curvy line.
demented humour he has.
enphesized on a female dog being a bitch.
ting tong.

lu bought this greey fat kid a chicken drumstick!! :)

met charlotte, angie, chun, zaki and baldwin at the sports complex after lecture.
hung out. talk cock.
silly chill out people.
chun is sick.
sick but funny.
stupid things he does,
faking balls and tricking people into falshing,
throwing grass on people's upper lip,
playing with the flag to the beat of the drum.
you think you've heard it all,
WRONG.
now see it.
CLICK HERE TO SEE THE QUICK CHANGE ARTIST!!!!
good laugh? not enough?
CLICK HERE TO SEE THE CONDOM HEAD MAN!!!

after that we just headed to tampines.
met tiffy and bird there.
we all just went to eat then headed to simei to meet mummy.
we bought some stuff at watsons.
ain't we cute?!

or maybe just me?


hehe, how appropriate
stephy the red nose raindeer.
had a very sunburnt nose (and face)

having a slight headache now.
and i hate that i dyed my hair to a darker shade,
try BLACK?!
dont know why,
lu keeps saying im just too brown,
cant change my tanness of my skin colour,
so i can only change my hair colour,
and i hate it LOADS!
i want my old hair back! :(
mummy!!!

i'm playing matchmaker for tiffy,
so at least this x'mas she'd have a date,
worthy of her hopefully.
hope x'mas this year won't be a reminder of the last.
i'm counting down the days like an excited school girl :)

all asian schools competition

havnt updated in a goodness-graciously long time.

am waiting for lots of pictures to upload!!! :)

i've been so tired this whole week,
from the games throughout the weekend,
to the strenious trainings in preperation for our IPs.
blue-black, scratches, sunburnt skin and aching legs are my sweethearts.

the weekend was great,
tiring, but great.
it was the All Asian Schools games.
sat started at 5.45am.
headed to pasir ris to meet dee and gie to share cab.
reached the turf by 7.30, we were first.
played 4 games,
the weather was HOT HOT HOT.
but not as hot as number 3! :)

made friends with the south african team.
nurul bloody farted while we were having briefing.
everything ended at about near 7pm,
headed home and plonked myself to bed.
sun again we were the first to arrive.
played 2 games today, and 1 friendly.
number 3 just got hotter.
i exchanged jerseys with one of the girls :)
watched the final games, then headed home.

we're taking the south african team out.
tok a cab home with yam, soup and az.
rushed to make plans and arrangements for the outing.
in the end we were late, but luckily stil able to catch them!!
*phew*
me, lu, yam, soup, az, shimo, ruby and 14(?) other girls
we went walking around far east,
then dinner at sakura, marli and ida joined us.
they went goo goo over the waiter (WHAT?!)
they were facinated with some of the items on the menu too.
chicken feet, frog legs, jellyfish!
had a picture taking frenzy
the girls are so cheeky.
went to play pool at lucky plaza.
some went for ice cream.
didnt manage to get back in time for the shuttle bus,
took public transport instead.
these people are great. they are so appreciative of us taking them out.
hung out by their pool awhile
a few left, only me marli and ida were there.
went to chill in their room.
they are so cheeky!
and i saw number 3!!!
lol.
they kept playing with their hotel phone.
number 3 came into the room for a peek.
and captain roshan said after that he wants to meet me.
AWWWW! lol.
(lu i know i say alot of times already!)
one of em exchanged with me with curency, 20 rands.
their notes are cool, like different value has different animals.
after that their coach came in for a group meeting.
one of em actually hid in the toilet troughout!
lol
but he wanted the 3 of us to be part of it.
it lasted a good 1hr 15mins.
during that meeting it opened my eyes to alot of things,
like difference in culture, yet the ironic similarity.
now i understood their facination about our "bubblegum" law
and this is the best way to show how one person can really make a difference.
they'll be coming again next year!!
and the 2007 rugby world cup will be held in south africa!!
i want to go there!!
can i can i can i can i huh !?!?!
headed home at about 2am.
marli forgot her keys from ida, so we went around to meet her,
though we were chasing her cab but she was behind us, heh.
then it was sleep tighty.


im glad this weekend happened.
even with the aches and pains.
and with meeting and going out with the girls,
i guess ive found my drive for rugby again,
the one that i once had.
now i only hope that my body and stamina can keep up with my will.


















ONE MORE WEEK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

daniel powter

today's training was horrid.

i feel that now whoever's made the team are still caught up in that excitement,
so much so that they forget the main goal of why they are even playing.
it frustrates me enough that when its made clear that im not as good as some,
i'm the only one bothered to be serious in wanting to learn my mistakes.
maybe its hypersensitve me who just desperately wants to catch up quick and proceed from there,
but chuckles and jokes and gossips just coming in the wrong time, works against me.
are we losing track, or is it just me?
its already hard enough for me to focus 100%, and now that i've found something that i want to give my all to,
its even harder to think that maybe some of us doesnt want it as much as i do,
or at least believe it is possible.
words are miniscule against actions.

this is the first ever training i felt that my efforts in wanting to make a difference is redundant.
i realised that my team's become selfish.
they forget there are people in the team as well, just coz they are silent.
who is it they are proving themselves to?
it was so disheartening and frustrating to see how making the team changed our attitudes.
complacency? excitement? pride? i dont know.
maybe its not the reason of 'making the team'
then what?
anyway i couldnt bottle up the thoughts that were in my head,
because it hurts so much to see how actions like these disables our ability to deliever so much more then we did.
and i just cried.
i just feel the team isnt playing as a team,
you're efforts arnt recognized becuase you didnt do what they expect you to.
people constantly wanted sub, even though i said i was going in.
i waited for the player to run out before taking her place,
but someone else just runs in.
once, twice, forever.
i didnt mind, just had a million thoughts.
azlina asked why i wasnt playing, why wasnt i showing people what im capable of.
that was my breaking point.
that was when i realise some were too selfish in wanting to prove themselves,
i wouldnt really blame them, theres an intense pressure to.
but really, not at the expense of another team mate.
what's this unity when you don't even see your team mate on the same side of the feild?
but it feels good to know that angie and azlina was there for me.

it hurt the most, when someone or maybe a few other, commented during the debrief,
that "people shouldnt breakdown at the sideline because it affects the whole team."
"if they want to play, do something about it."
yes its easy to say one person affects the whole team,
compare that to the margin of the whole team affecting one person.
on the feild, ignore me, fine. on the side run in to play, fine. prove yourself if you must, fine.
i dont mind being out, and from the outside point of view, from someone who believes and wants to much for the team, its hard to see how sometimes people play selfishly.
from selfishness and the need to prove themselves, it developes into an individual play.
and already with a few selfish players on the feild,
i took it upon myself to not add to that number.
i cant find of a more appropirate word for selfish.
and in the situation where i just broke down,
i admit, that didnt help in anyway, doesnt even work in my favour.
and clearly your misinterpritation of my intentions showed how much people know and understand me.
firstly, you misinterprited it. secondly, by saying it indirectly to me what does it prove?
thridly, just combine the both. saying it out fine, at least get it right.

and so i ask you again,
where is the unity?
on the contrary, while doing the cheer i couldnt say that word.


and i do give credit , love and gratitude to these people.
soup, for being the only one who didnt join in the meyham of giggles and unseriousness.
charlotte, for giving me smily-nudges in realising there was something bothering me.
ruby, for forcing me to spit out what i felt, and for knowing i was not alright because i was silent, and for actually listen to where and what she can improve on, and saying "i'll try to work on it"
shimo, for perking me up and giving me a reason to bottle up my negativity with her innocent "are you ok" look and voice.
azlina, for also pushing me to spit out my thoughts and emotions, and making me feel heard as a teammate.
angie, for being there. her words were just so impactful at that point in time. she's the only senior who makes me feel "seen"
coach marli, for still being able to maintain a straight face and make all our wrongs sound so right that it spurs us to do better. more importantly, for having the patience and strength to still believe in us, and not give up on us until we give up on ourselves.
and to my dearest ever beloved lu who stayed up late last night to paint me a picture of myself as a "special baby" even though she gave me big ears, for just being her. the same her who gives me strength to smile each trying day.

what is love?

what is love?
its when you never have to say, "i love you" and convey the message all the same, if not more. and then you'll hope, wish and pray that it'll be like this forever and ever.

really?

to a toddler,
love is when mummy and daddy showers you with the silliest toys,
and chose your outfits for you, and still hold onto your hand though you look horrendous.
and they'll buy you an ice cream after you've been forced to sunday mass.
love is when mummy and daddy says "you are right, you clever lil genius!"
even though you don't even know what you are blabbering about.
and when you fall, mummy will blow on your cut,
and daddy will tuck you in the tightest at night.


to a 10yr old,
love is when daddy starts lecturing you about how you dont use your brains enough
and actually bothers to stay up all night to make sure you do.
love is when mummy helps you sign on the test paper which you flunked,
even though her face is so long and sulky it drags on the floor.
love is when your sisters let you have the wing off the chicken,
because she knows you will offer her the drumstick after.


to a teenager,
love is when mummy stays up late secretly in bed just to hear you sneak back home
even though you had the biggest fight ever and thought that was the last straw.
love is when daddy wakes up early, even with a biggest stomach ache
just to send you to school, and waste another 2hours before he heads to work.
love is when your sisters are too busy to have time for you when you are busy too,
but somehow find the right time to be free to listen to your heart ache.

to an adult,
love is outdoing someone in gifts you are giving or recieving,
the more extravegant the gift, the more you love me.
love is juggling lots of things from family to work to personal needs,
and suffering in silence.
love is remembering those who love you and thinking on how you should make time for them,
and it just stops there, thinking. not doing.
love is only there in good times, and seldom in bad,
love is finding the person you least expected at your doorstep with 'get fat, feel better' food.
love somehow seems to be more narrow in scope. the older you are, the narrower is becomes.
from friends, to just a one special someone.
and the label of "the one" summerises up all the greatness love brings.


to a parent,
love is looking out for the highly dependant bubbles of fat, wanting the best for them,
even though you know that it could very well be the worse, and they are irritating at times.
love is taking turns to clean up the baby and lullaby em to sleep,
even though you have an important presentation the next day thats not done.
love is burping your baby, knowing full well it has a ammo of puke ready to be dispensed.
love is knowing, there's another tomorrow to teach your kid the beauty of love first hand,
in nurturing and by example.
love is, despite smelling like baby puke and milk powder, your bodies connect perfectly in embrace with your spouse, and to complete the puzzle is your kid snuggled in between.


fantasy?
actually no. very much a reality.
the good side of a reality.
maybe its a matter of how you want to fit love in your current situation?
possibly.
when just in fact, we forgot the very unmistakenable truth,
if we bother to think back and reflect,
what is love?

i'll tell you what love is to everyone.
love is.....






never enough.

where's your brains?

*video containing entry!*

went to school at 1130am.
almost late so took cab, AGAIN!
grawl.
i have to stop this habbit,
its eating into my pocket..
still got lots of things to pay for.

is it me or are datelines catching up on me?
:(
i have a feeling i'm not gonna be able to cope.

anyway, had consultation for comm skills.
i swear i'm an alien in the group,
i know nothing of what is going on,
and if it wasnt for another member of another group who told me,
i would have missed a dateline entirely.
*mega sigh*
no comments.

after that it was lunch.
packed carrot cake from ITAS
to eat at the sports complex.
yum!
after that we had fun, breaking into people's locker!!
lol.
its the same kind of locker as my front gate,
so i know how to crack the code thing.
one sucessful break in! heh.
wanted to leave a note saying "hi"
note to anyone reading this who's one of the lockers are at the sports complex,
STEPH IS HARMLESS AND HAS CHEAP THRILLS,
and i will not do anything with the comtents of the locker whatsoever.
i just have a fetish for locks. :) (yeah right)
i apologise.
then lu took a nap, and i just browsed through my macroecons book.
and i felt soooo accomplished that... i.. actually....
MADE NOTE! :)
yes exam-friendly notes so that when the time comes to study,
it'll be a breeze.
lu woke up at 1355 and we headed to our next lecture.

boring as hell.
met the racist fuckhead from haha's class,
didnt know it was the same boy from my interview.
i hate racists smucks!
throughtout the lecture i kept dropping my stationary
lu asked me where's my brains.
after lecture went with jean to meet qin sheng.
we went to the library to watch billy elliot.
i forgot about my library fine and the counter lady had to announce it. :/
i dont remember it being such a boring show.
i swear qin sheng was watching harry potter from his neighbour's screen!
the library's gonna see more of steph,
with that wide spread of movie titles. YAY!
but i better clear my fines first, heh.

after that went to training.
our friendlies are off.
marli picked the team.
somehow i feel that some people deserve it more then others,
speaking from the point of passion above skills.
i guess one can only move forward right?
i am happy that i made the team, still got lots of work to do before the final cut.
but its still a team effort.
yes there is a seperation, physically.
personally there won't be an emotion seperation.
i guess i feel that much for the girls.
this is not the end.
again i showered finished last.
headed to techno for food.
didnt feel like eating.
so just had fries and green tea.
then cab home.

reached home, mel was already back.
heard her complaining and whining, so.
its like i'm here, but no one knows.
or at least cares to know.
mums angry that i didnt go say hi to my sister.
its not me that hasnt gotten over the feud between us,
its her.
and i guess im not enough of a better person to make yet another first move of a truce.
not anymore, i guess.
after that tiffy asked me to go simpang with her.
though burried with tons of schoolworks and upcoming tests,
i agreed.
becuase i know if i dont make time, i won't have the time.
anyway its been so long since i've spent time with her.
manage to have a good chat with her,
and we actually ran for the bus together and missed it entirely.
bleah.
she told me some good, and bad news. (see below)
met sham, pat and hobday there.
long time no see.
they keep bullying the uncle those mean boys.

tiffy did a damn irritating thing ah!

CLICK HERE FOR THE VIDEO!
stayed till like 0040 then left in a cab with shamsie.


(below)
this is what i came to know from tiffy.
1) when daddy came to fetch mel from the airport,
my mum and tiff had to take a bus back,
because my dad and mum's cold war didnt permit her a ride in his car.
and mel ust cried there and then.
this isn't what i would call, coming 'home'

2) daddy dotes on me alot.
everytime we have lunch he'll remind tiffy daily to remind me to come.
and when i'm too lazy to wake up, he'll just ask about me in my absence.
when i can't come because of a weekend rugby game,
he'd ask tiffy to secretly find out where i'm playing,
so that he can surprise me.

3) that same very man who wanted to surprise me has no heart.
my mum took a cat scan of the brain today.
set aside the financial burden on her for that one scan,
i can't imagine what she went through going into that huge machine,
just to find out if the doctor's diagnose of a brain tumor is right.
worse still she didn't tell ANYONE of us about it,
so its safe to say, she went through the ordeal alone.
if she would have told us, would it change anything?
so was that dream a signal about her?
i wished i had the answers. i wished there's no one month of waiting for the results.
but, again, would it change anything?
i still cannot figure if its better to have not known or to know.
and when tiffy told daddy about it, he didnt move a muscle on his face.
is this really the end of 25yrs of marriage?
what's this promises you made then,
through sickness and in health, till death do us part?
please, at least give me the reason to continue believeing in love,
or a fantasy rhealm of happiness.
whatever.
i cannot concentrate on what i dont have (anymore)
and what is real, what is the now.
mummy i love you and you're gonna be alright.
we're gonna be alright.


sometimes i feel like i don't know why i'm going on.

sunday morning.

*video containing entry!*

hey hey so its all done!
my blog template is at last completed!! :)
had to re-do it from scratch.
stayed up till 6am!!! goodness.
but its all good.
i've finally graduated from being a HTML IDIOT!

woke up at 1300 but the superman, bird and her humps.
check out the video.
she kept playing that song from her phone and shook her ass.
joined her soon after.
fun way to get up i might add.
after that mum came into my room.
talked abit while we lazed in bed,
me and bird kept poking fun at her english. :)
had lunch.
sorta talked about what we want to do this christmas.
still dont have any good plans. bleah.
and then mummy asked.
"why do you want to get married by 23?"
errrr. errrr.
*stumped*

after that we put up the christmas tree!!!
yay.
immediate dose of christmas excitement,
yet i'm apprehenive somehow.
had touble with the stand, took awhile to put it in place.
dust was in the air as me and bird frayed out the leaves.
*achoo*
the tree was up, lights were twirled round togerther with the string of beads.
and who's the fool who only bought 2 GARLANDS?!?!?!!
i'm sure its enough. PFFFFT!!
oh boy i had sooooOOOoooo much fun putting up the tree,
especially when you have to put it up YOURSELF.
*rolls eyes*
but it looks great as always since steph did it.
oh man.
by the time the tree was done it was like 1625.
looks who's 'study weekend' plans are burnt?
so much for wanting to even go to church today.
goodness.

i cleared my room!!!
had to especially since i'll be having a V.I.G. come dec.
(pssst! its not santa)
managed to sort out all my school material,
last sem and this sem.
took me an hour and a half to be able to see my table and bed again.
by then the two younger sisters were leaving the house to go to expo.
to check out the prices of the stuff they have at the computer sale.
steph on the other hand,
took her time in the shower.
because she has got a muruku buffet appointment!! :)

off to ju's!!
lu was still bottomless so she just navigated me to her window
(just think romeo and juliet)
she came down and took me to the next block.
i know they stayed close, but had no idea on HOW CLOSE. *gulps*
ad, nora and jay(?) was already there.
i love ju's punkabi suit! it was gorgeous.
and the food was gooooood.
apart from that one ball pastry thing.
tasted funky, couldnt finish it
so i hid it under the chicken bones and a capsicum slice. *heh*
dee came!
chilled in ju's room.
she had a miniture 'ad' on her bed.
not to mention a giant ant!!
but i could tie its feelers and legs together,
so it ended up being a really fat, bloated snake with ribbons.
and her cupboard is full of saris!
never thought i'd see the day!

after that azlina and yum came,
soon after marli, ida and azlina senior too,
then huda too.
round 2 of food. *gulps*
then sat around, watched ju's small cousin drive her car around.
and her other cousins dancing in the room.
so cute all.

after that we left to tampines mart.
lu bought me some cola+lemon ice cream thingy,
good tongue exercise.
then we all sat at macdonalds.
lu was convinced that the new shaker fries were shakerlicious.
ad disagrees. anyway she got tempted by a nugget meal.
then it was the three of us at the table,
yam, azlina and dee at the other.
me and lu tried guessing ad's chinese name.
we got the "ling" part correct.
after a few guesses we sorta lost our minds.
(i think the more you eat the more kuku you become)
we started pairing up the character "ling" with every chinese word in sight.
the best part is, we didnt plan it.
only after awhile, we noticed both of us were doing the same thing.
great minds of best friends that think alike.
so poor thing, one of your chinese character paired with the chinese name of "mcdonalds"
LOL.
me and lu were laughing histerically like bimbotic witches.
yam: "you all laugh like chee bai* xia."
steph: "chee bai* can laugh?!"
louder round of laughter by the fools.
*chee bai: pussy, cunt, virgina.

even on the way to the carpark we were still at the guessing.
from "ez-LING" to "shao LING" to "cei-LING"
ad was just a good sport to maintain her cool,
though deep down in her heart a fantasy of strangling steph was brewing.
i know!
it even got until "TANG-LING- mall"
(her surname is TONG, in chinese, TANG)
LOL.
and alas lu the smarty got it
it was "shu ling" or "forest" to steph.
lu walked home, azlina went off with her bf,
ad went back to ju's, dee drove me and yum home.
MY ELDER SISTER IS COMING HOME TOMORROW!
and i'm dreading it, heh.
miss whiney the poop will be back.



**
here i am feeling anal and lousy, again.
trying to laugh eveything off.
but my clown facade seems to be weakening.
yes it was great that i had a great time with the tpiranhas babies,
as always.
but i come home broken again.
i know that material things shouldnt be the make up of feelings,
feelings of love, family, unity yadder,
and neither should the ounce of strength depend on it.
but i can't help it.
its like a representative of what you've given me,
in comparision to my sisters.
i know i shouldnt be feeling sore,
i'm all grown up now, it should be different.
but i guess all along no ones bothered to put my feelings in check.
what do i come home to?
my sisters rubbing it in my face,
that mummy dearest got them a brand new $400+++ gadget
when all i got was a $2.50 box of fries.
i dont need anything mum,
i just need for you to say,
that $400++ and $2.50 is the same value.
not only say it mum, but show me.


its the simple things in life we forget.

splashes of paint

watching football on tv.
singapore vs laos.

is it me or is singapore still as sucky?

anyway woke up at 1pm today
woke bird up too. so she could have lunch with me.
ate over watching the dvd, sky high.
surprisingly it was a cool show.

came online.
supposed to clear my table and room!!
oh man, later la.
painted my box holders that i bought from school yesterday.
initially decided on pastel blue.
but my white paints dried up.
DAMN!
it zapped up all my paints!
esp the blues.
ran out of acrylic paint,
so i got stuck with poster paints.
the boxes are now midnight blue with white splatters. :)
not inclding the splatters on my arms, legs and floor.
anyway im sure blue with fit good with a purple room.
lets just hope i dont ever spill water on my table.
if not the colour will run and run to everywhere
and everything will turn blue.

after that spent a whole lot of time trying to finish the template once and for all.
but to no avail.
apperently i cant add in another layer!!
gulps.
so now i have no clue as to how to add in my tagboard.
i hate it that im a html idiot!! :(

had dinner just awhile back.
its raining again.
everytime it rains it ust reminds me of the shitty condition the feild is in.
bleah.
even on a sunny day the feild feels cold.
not to mentioned filled with mud and potholes.
not too good for clumsy steph and ankle.

looks like im just gonna spend the rest of the night either
(a) doing up the template from scratch
(b) clearing my room

but im studyin tmr.
and going to church.
that bad dream is good enough of a reason to make me go.

good or bad?

i had a bad dream last night.
felt so real, but i wish it not be.
is it a sign, or a signal?
whatever it is, let it just stay a dream.

woke up early for business stats lecture.
after that had brunch at business park.
i swear the vegetarian stall is the best.
no queue and i ust paid $1.40 for my food :)
weet weet!
after that had comm skills group meeting with mr chris.
GOODNESS SAKES!!
zip up ur pants!!!! :S
omg omg omg.

walking towards the sports complex,
a big gigantic fat red ant crawled in between my toes.
i was so terrified of it biting my toes!!!
so i balanced on one foot and tried desperately to fling it out, gingerly.
it didnt help that i had my laptop in my bag :S.
so i was an unbalanced fool on one foot slopping to one side,
STILL WITH THE ANT WeDGED IN MY TOES!!
lu the savior "kutied" it off easily.
she couldnt have saved me earlier, instead she took joy in seeing the clown do a balancing stunt.

after that i went home.
my next class was at 6, no way was i going to stay in school from 1300 till then.
slept at home, like a log.
got all the sleep that i lacked the night before.
got up at 515 got my training gear and took a bus to school.
sociology lecture was a bore,
but the videoclip he played was nice.
as usual i cannot find my group
only saw a handfull of people from my class
after that had training.
expected it to be worse then mondays.
but surprisingly it was easier to cope with this time.
focused on defence, part 2 of assesments by marli.

my group could have done better then they did.
there was so much more the could have offered but held back.
sigh.
anyway i thought i could have given more of me too.
it was only a 90% effort
ho hum.
last game was played with the guys.
it was an overal much better game for everyone.
after that had a review of our goals made a month ago
the group was quiet.
as in, not everyone voiced their views.
hey is this what you call being part of a team?
voices shouldnt only come out from the same few.
it is painfully frustrating to hear the silence of some.
all in all, training ended at 10+
we decided we were still working for the same goals.
so what if RP invited the unis to play coz they didnt want to lose to us,
i mean it is easier to say they lost to unis then to another poly.
anyway, who knows.
we're training hard, we might earn that gold.
at least i'm not prepared to give up as yet.
if only the rest of the girls would ironise their wills.

by the time i showered finish everyone was gone.
am i that slow?
caught up with dee and we went for dinner.
bee hoon tom yam please!
then we ust chit chatted about life and the team and stuff.
i miss talking to her
like heart to heart.
its just refreshing.
hopped into a cab by 2340.
reached home barely before midnight.
so uberly shagged out i just went to sleep.

hopefully good dreams will come this time.

1 happy meal pls!

today went to school by cab,
just in time to miss the downpour.
class started at 1pm.
had Principles of Management tutorial.
Lu didnt come so i was the only rose amoung the thorns in the group.
trust them to come up with silly ideas.
one such example, lingerie shop.
our mission, "to support and seduce."
the wise words of samuel seah.

during our one hour break, headed to mensa
i had my kway chap!! :)
and ice mango, yeah yeah yeah.
went to my locker, got my stuff, headed to class.
on the way passed by the bookshop and i just HAD to buy a coke lime.
"you put the lime in the coke, you nut."
thus i was late for class.
at least i didnt get lost again.
i love my sociology class, or rather my sociology group.
but tummy man didnt come.
had fun none the less, though we couldnt follow with what the teacher asked us to do.

after class went straight to meet andy, din and fauzie
and we headed to our lecture
WHICH btw is boring and a repeat of what we already know.
halfway through i couldnt take it i just turned on my laptop and used it.
andy was surprisingly following the class.
wesley, din and fauzie left the class,
they were talking outside with the durian king.
the class finished at 8.15!! overtime dude!
had a brief meeting with the durian king and his newly wedded wife.
then it was off to eat!! :)

argued over where to eat.
whatever it is, it was andy's treat!!
settled on macdonalds.
and i had, a, HAPPY MEAL!! :)
so small the drink!
the cashier quite cute, with a baby boy/cheeky monkey face.
anyway i got my chicken litle toy!
mine was the fat fat father in his car.
im just waiting for chicken little in his baseball gear thing.
sat there, talked about movies and our project.
din left first, he was going to watch harry potter.
3 of us sat there till like 2240?
took bus 291 to tampines interchange and 38 home.
fauzie took same bus as me.
yadder yadder.
only reached home at 11+
didint join ad and the rest at momo.
sze min and charyl last min scratched their clubbing plan.

reached home, didnt do much.
im done blogging for today.
this is the earliest ive been able to sleep since school.
that's about it for today.

earthworm jim

today is a crazy day.
my mind has shrank to the size of a miniture pea due to fatigue and madness.
and the insanely cold 'air-conditioned' surroundings of everywhere.

did i mentioned that i made the worse discovery of the century this morning?
after dragging myself miserably out of bed,
with only 4 hrs of sleep, but it was easy to smile myself to sleep,
both thanks to adrian :)
before that played with the pillow man ungku on webcam with all my drawings.
(i swear sometimes i'm a truely talented artist)
BUT
i found there is a cut on my face stretching to my neck :(!!!!
prolly from rugby but why why why? when? how? HELP!!!


went to school for early macroecons tutorial which was 100% useless
spent most of the time talking to lu, shawn and samuel.
then we headed to the engine canteen for food.
carona chicken rice, yum.
lu the pig and steph the lard trotted to the sports complex after to sleep
only steph did. lu downloaded ringtones for her phone.
she played silly chinese speaking ones in my ear while i was sleeping.
even braided one braid on my hair.
this lil lulu ah.
then charlotte joined us.
talked, she told us the begginings of 'charlotte and zaki'
so cute. they really compliment each other.
hoping for a wedding soon :)
then more rugby playing babies YAY! hehe

on our way back to school to attend our macroecons lecture,
we walked through the valley of the shadowless earthworms!!
they were everywhere!
but so poor thing,
when rain the earth flooded if they dont come out they die,
they come out also get stepped to death. :s
geepers creappers.
so what they are 'farmer's friends' as we were taught when we were young.
doesnt change the fact that they are worms. gross worms that people eat when nobody likes them.
colourless slimy rubberbands that shows clearly the movement of soil through its body.
ANWAY
charlotee miss almighty spotted a worm with grass stuck on it.
so she decided to remove it for the poor, helpless, deffenceless wormie.
and with one swift motion of her finger,
she burst the worm, and its insides oozed out.
it looked like a ripe pimple.
all hail the almighty worm murderer!! LOL
(she meant well though)

lecture was complicated.
after that had group meeting regarding comm skills.
im starting to hate that subject even more.
then logged into blackboard to just pretend to post questions.
left class earlier then normal.
made plans with emile!!
left school, took bus 518 (virgin ride!) with sarah and bumped into keagan.
alighted at far east. OMG its been ages since i been to town,
or far east so to speak.
been so busy with school, rugby, school, rugby i barely have time.
but ya la have time to come online, chat all. :)
just waiting to get my bike lisence.
ANYWAY.
she brought me to a notebook shop, cool designs
(but im not a notebook person)
and she took me to see their new fountain.
and went to this shop, couldnt help but bought a t-shirt
yet another striped one. BLEAH.

just nice as i was done emile arrived in town.
met him at boarders and he started walking to god knows where.
just to get a drink. and i thought i was the one who always gets lost.
we keep overshotting our routes. LOL
i swear he reminds me of haikel.
walked one big round but ended up buying drinks at far east 711
green tea and peach tea pls!
after buying 2tickets to just like heaven
i'm in a dilema.
theres two sweaters which are gorgeous. potential money magnets.
adidas grey with yellow stripes sweater? $119
or roxy brown and pink sweater? $99
or none and save a fortune? lol
i need to do christmas shopping!!
i wanna check out springfeild, timberland, zara, phuture london, YA!
anyway saw shah at topshop. didnt talk much. oh well

then movie time!
it was a good movie. great ending.
not one of those VERY PREDICTABLE plot kinda movies
then walked to doughby gaught, sat by the fountains.
emile is mad he wants to climb the craine!!!!
then it got late, i was sleepy,
so we left. he sent me till eunos and took the opposite side train back to clementi
at least he took the effort to go halfway.
so tired. my eyes were hurting.
got off at simei. walked home.
on the way i noticed this guy,
quite good looking who alighted formthe same train, headed in the same direction.
he had the same rastafarian friendship band that i have that's on the same ankle (left)
talk about coincidences. or is it? lol
anyway there's this movie i saw in the trailers in the movie,
about love at first sight and 2 people on the train.
i forgot the title though! damn.
i chop that one to watch with adrian when he comes.


eyes are heavy, but i just have to blog.
my entry updates are lagging!
now ben is waiting to read. :)
silly boy.
anyway had an msn with tummy man to negotiate when to watch the movie for our sociology proect.
and i added the wrong group of people, TWICE!! lol.
so weird i cannot kick them out, and they dont know each other,
thinking what the hell's going on.
tmr andy's treaing dinner!!
can't believe he persuaded din to skip lecture just to play basketball.
tsk.
boys will be boys.

can't decide to go to ad's birthday or not.
i just remembered i have a one-time entrepreneurship lecture from 6 - 8 pm
and i cant skip thurs monrning the first lecture, last week already skipped.
nothing to wear. i have a cut on my face.
bleah.

ok i'm rushing to finish off so i can sleep.
today's a good day.
counting down the days.

accidental movie marathon

woke up at 2 today.
goodness
12hr+++ of sleep.
OINK


wake up, watched legends of zorro with bird
slurpped down my won tan mee at the same time
nice movie, proved me wrong.
thought was going to watch a movie with mummy and bird and jessie and her family.
especially since they have 15 free golden village tickets!!
but then didn't
planned too late
showered and went online
cheryl lek came over.
we watched valliant
silly pigeon movie, quiet cutely funy la
then she went home after dinner
while harry potter was screened on tv
and she couldnt wait for like the commercials to leave.
grawl.
yeah, 3rd movie of the day
part II's tmr. *excited*

now am just online.
fooling around with photoshop
posting up all past entries that are saved as drafts
because on this very day my template was up
yes yes.
though it still needs loads of fine tuning
its good enough to run (learnt that in entrepreneurship class, heh)
but thanks again loads to nad and ad
who has been taking my constant whining and still seeing this template tentrum out.
heh.
i swear i'm a webcam junkie
had fun, as always, on the webcam with adrian.
HE MOONED ME!! :(
he's so hairy, grawl. lol
but he says if i pay for his waxing he'll wax. YAY.
only 3 more weeks!
then he had to go do his work.
read through emile's blog.
quite cute the TOP 10 lists he comes up with.
heh heh.
finally i met my match with the many many many photos he has.
BTW it has come to my attention that alot of people in my class find my dad handsome!!
wth.
a 50yr old man.
i thought i got it bad in secondary school,
even a butch said he was handsome
but now in poly,
classmates said he was,
guys and girls?!
especially after he just stank the whole chalet and took off.
but handsome 50yr old mega stinky-shitter?
whatever it is, i'm still daddy's little girl,
a handsome daddy's little girl :)


ok my mind's starting to shut off.
i think i'm going to sleep.
do more of this blog thing tmr.
who'd ever though owning a blog would be tedious.
oh hum, its only the start up period.
tmr's class starts at 2!
then its to the gym with dee and yam and who ever else they called.
and training afterwards.
goodnight world.

tummy man

school started at 1
slept in.
still couldnt get up!
had classes.
i like my sociology class,
or rather my group.
ah mok, qin sheng and tummy man. :/
after that watched the match.
waited for lu to end french
then went to techno for yummy mee pok! *slurps
then home it was
meet steph the webcam junkie

just kiss me!!

*video containing entry!*

i woke up late!!!
dad called at 8.50am when class starts at 9am!!
"so how?"
"so die la!!'
even if i attempted to rush and shower and leave the house,
i had no cash in my wallet to rush.
dad dropped by the house coz he left something here,
he gave $10 which he made clear will be deducted from my allowance.
wanted to rush but in the end i realise if i'm 15mins late i'll be marked absent.
so i just went back to sleep :)
next class was lecture, which i also skipped.
so comm skils was at 3pm.
before that went to business park to have breakfast.

going down the lift, before the door closed,
i heard someone call my name.
turned and saw syarina.
and as the doors closed she shouted,
"deh deh deh deh deh...."
:
in other words shes saying im overloading the lift.
-_-"
this is syarina.


wanted to get a banana, so i asked how much one was. samuel was there too.
samuel: "uncle your bananas how much?
uncle: "different size banana different price"
steph: *WTH FACE* errr. errr.
samuel: errr. errrr.
uncle: "but uncle one is different price."
steph: *WTF SMILE and walks away.*
samuel: *BLUSH.*
grawl.
in the end just had 2 half-boiled eggs with toast.
and again miss syarina said,
"why you eat non-stop ah?!"
well excuse me for having my first meal of the day.
again this is the same girl. -_-"



comm skills was a waste of time.
it was a lab session for us to get aquinted with the 'blackboard' programme.
was singing the chicken little dance track thing (maiyah HEE!!)
and removing the mmc card from my phone
so that i could upload my phone pictures and videos into my laptop.
and ust then bobbed along mr chris.
"you mend phones do you?"
whatever. really. whatever.

left early like by 15mins to catch the match.
tp vs ite.
gonna be a good one, though i fear the boys might attain inuries. :/
it didnt help that it was the same stupid ref from the day before.
but the boys pulled through and won :)
as i believed they would.
13 - 8. TP!
and so funny alan wanted to fight.
took water bottle all ready to run into the feild.

after that lulu took me out for chilli crab!!!
yay!
fishermen's village here we come!
it was a long but worth while wait for our crab.
the buns were oh soooo good.
the view of the sea was great, accompanied but bolts of lightning.
played on the swing. it was so bouncy
so steph decided to jump on the swing, and lu decided to film the bouncy girl.
and she got the shock of her life!
i have it on film!
CLICK HERE TO SEE THE VIDEO!!
she happily turned the camera to her pretty self, smiling ever so sweetly,
and when she refocused on steph,
she found a hanging/dangling dead/possesed thing on the swing.
she got me scared with her scream, we just left the playground IMMEDIATELY!

kinda got lost.
but trottled unto a mama shop.
bought ice cream, i had the 'traffic light' one.
walked on, got lost further.
steph: "my lips are warm....
lu: *stares
steph: ...and tingly."
lu: "want to kiss me just say la."
WTH.
you know how after eating ice cream your lips turn warm,
especially if you sucked on the ice cream and the weather is cool.
YES.
but NOOOoooooOOOO. i wanted a KISS.
sure. LOL.

after a 45 min walk around and around, we got out of the jungle.
took a cab back.
home sweeet home.
i felt belly happy.
today was a good day.

"ice your ankle"

dad came to pick me up for school
left my laptop with him for him to configure somethings
like microsft office and some anti-virus.
went for comm skills, our group went first.
somehow i'm still unclear of what i need to do
i feel like ive got nothing to contribute.
after class, who should decide to call, but daddy dearest.
"how am i suppose to do your computer when you put a password"
OOPS.
omg i so shy, especally since my password is a not-so-nice word.
after giggles, i went "AS-SWI-PE" and tailed off with more giggles.
didnt help that he repeated it just to confirm.
anyway after reading this you can try as you may
to enter to any of my profiles with that password
but smarty pants stephy changed it all already. LOL

went for principles of management lecture,
basically just had fun la.
was drawing on my books,
lu made for me a 'springy' nametag thing.
headed to ITAS to packet food then to the sports complex is was to catch the game
between NP and RP
NP won of corse. but the ref was a cock-head-and-a-half.
stupid the way he ref.
can't wait to watch tomorrow's match!

after that it was training.
poor lu puked out the meepok.
tsk. maybe nash spat inside.
i feel that the whole sense of urgency was picking up initally,
and now it's all gone down the drain, together with what we've learnt.
and this un-urgentenss rubs off. i feel that i've slackened quite abit too.
and what a time that steph choses to be a clumsy tart.
during a drill i somehow lost balance and my ankle took the full impact.
same ankle.
hurts like a BITCH!!
was grabbing the ground! moaning like a cow.
but it was such a nice feeling to see that though the girls were concentrated on their drills,
they still could look over with the look of concern beaming in their eyes.
awwww!
when they had their water break they just came over,
with water, with love, with each other
so touching.
marli made me lie down and elevate my ankle.
and she refused to let me join back training!!! :(
i kept bugging her to
she say see her mood on how the girls performed.
that gave me hope that i can re-join
more so when she was picking out the groups
she picked me last, and said
"you, on the side."
hur hur.
i couldnt help it, i just teared.
its already bad enough that the last week's training was not as productive for me
though i was able to identify what i need to work on
that now this training is a wasted chance for me to impletment different objectives.
bad enough that i had to sit out the drills, she lead me on to think that later can play
then never! stupid ankle.
but i swear it wasnt painful at all!!
only that initial like 3 minutes?!
bleah.
lucky the girls were supportive, so i obliged and sat at the side
with the old farts and insects and dewdrops.
showered and daddy came to pick me up.
I'VE GOT MY LAPTOP BACK FORM HIM!! YAY.
and he collected my free webcam, and mouse, and headset and massager.

but then hor, cannot connect from my room! :(((((((
so its to the third floor with the normal modemn connection, bleah.
once connected, nothing was stopping me...
from...
playing webcam!!!!
was online having a video conversation with adrian!
till like, 2+am?
woahhh.
and throughout the whole time
i kept getting tlc.
"ice your ankle" demanded marli, nagged ad, smsed charlotte, shimo, lu and dee.
even sya msned me to.
so sweet.
though it really was not pain.
i love this bunch of people.
that's part of thea reason why i'm still going on.
not only for my interests, but also to not have their 'investments' in me wasted.



i'm sleeping well tonight.

at long last.

i have a new laptop!!
yessss!
more excitedly, i have a new webcam! FOC somemore!! YAY!
thanks daddy!

went for lunch with daddy and the 2 monkey sisters.
ate at jack's place, yet again.
didnt really enjoy lunch.
not because of the food,
even thought i hated that my steak was well-done instead of MEDIUM. $&%^*&#$^!!


i feel bad for my dad.
like evertime he travels, never see him for a long time,
and money's always the topic of conversation everytime we lunch.
doesnt help that mummy and daddy is disputing over money,
THROUGH US.
so who's side am i suppose to be on?
who to empethesize with?
sometimes i really stop and wonder
who actually acts as the adults in such situations.


anyway, went to check out laptops at Challenger.
didn't really have much to chose from.
had to decide between a compact one that had an external D:/
or one with an inbuilt which would be heavier la
got the inbuilt one, hopefuly it'll be a long lasting one as i planned it to be.

I CLEARED MY ROOM!! :)
much neater i guess. still got a pile of books and papers
next sunday again, PART 2.
i need file holders!
and what am i to do with my fishbowl?!?!
i dont want to stuff it with sweets anymore. i scared later mr cockroach come. :(
i think i'm overstuffed with toys. bleah.
at night manage to do some research for tmr's comm skills class.
but i really wanst sure what was needed from me. :/
bleah.


9am school. shleep time!!!

jalan raya!!

its RAYA TIME!!


borrowed dee's baju kurong.
met all the girls by 1130 at jurong. nash (abang siti!!) was early by an hour.
present were steph, lu, dee, az, soup, sher, ruby, yam and the above.
first stop, HAHA'S HOUSE.

i was reluctantly excited.
what if they mistake me as a malay girl, and i don't do the traditional customs.
"WHAT A RUDE GIRL!!" they'd think.
then no more green packets for steph :(
but it wasnt so bad.
just that one of her nieces spat a sweet in my hand,
right after muttering cutely some malay words. *gulps*
and lu just laughed.
but they are sweethearts, she kept comnig to me to sit on my lap.

she said her dress, sup and my earrings were "lawah".
her 2 nieces are just cuteness.
3 and 5 yrs of age.
the younger one was the one who spat the sweet :/
but she's so clever, she took pictures of everyone with my phone!! awwww.
had little to eat (but enough for me to add a safety pin!)
make way for the BFG.
then next stop, sher's!!


haha tricked us in taking bus 66. it took 1hr45mins!!!!!
*#^%Q*%^$^%^!!!!
passed little india and all just to get to eunos.
but her house and her room was gorgeous.
so comfy like a lil pwincess nook.
and there goes ANOTHER safety pin.
and still no sign of green packet! heh.
then it was to coach marli's place (or rather her brother's)


got lost walking around and around trying to find the block
when silly lu realised only after circles that it was just in front of her primary school. TSK TSK.
along the way had some mut motors who honked their horns. grrrr.
more food, ikes!
marli looks so small girl.
and then POOF.
the green packet fairy appeared!! :)
ehehehehehe!!
then off we were to dee's house.


upon arrival we were all so lazy and all of us changed out.
so cute everyone in their oversized shorts, ESP YAM!! :)
and the sunset there was just simply, amazing.

relaxed, refused to eat anymore.
watched the dvd "Mean Girls"
cute and funny.
her parents came home halfway during the show.
so shy we all sitting around like pigs.
after the movie they continued eating.
a few left. we struck out azlina's place.
nibbled abit on the curry.
and POOF green packet fairy number 2! :)
it was way passed soup's 8pm sleep time.
so she left myself, dee, azlina and yam to watch american pie 4.
wasnt superly funny. it was mainly about gays and all.
used the computer abit, then went home via cab.
and then the green packet value went down by half. *sigh*


so super tired and _ _ _ when i reached home.
i kept showing of my belly to tiffy, (who was reading bird her lit text as a bestime story)
who usually lies abt me looking _ _ _.
but this time her jaw just dropped when i did the belly bounce.
*SOB SOB SOB*
went online for abit for digestion time.
adrian was on.
somehow my mood changed.
slept soon after coz i've got lunch plans with daddy the next day.
and i'll be buying a laptop!! :)
excited in seeing daddy after a long time.
part of the excitement was derrived from a deprived POSB account. HEH.



i had a belly good time with the girls none the less. it was a great experience which i couldnt have with any other batch of babies. chocolated coated hugs and kisses!! and an extra cherry to dee who helped put this together and ensured a smooth raya.




belly bouncing out of here.

SCC Rugby International Sevens.

welcome to the SCC rugby international sevens.

day 1
it was to the padang to catch all the hot hot action.
team from all over the world.
free flow of beer babeh!!
chun's whole body was a eluminating blush, angie's cheeks were glowing pink!
was there with ad, clar, charlotte, zaki, angie and chun.
went to get satay and watched the games.
it was gooOOOoood.
marli and the src girls came too
left at about 5
met lu at city hall mrt.
headed to zara GWC for light shopping.
sooooOOOOoo nice to see all of em again!
ee is so cute, fizah is still my love, nora so vogue, shan so, errr, ditsy.
shopped about abit, clar left first.
sam joined us.
only done with shopping like 8+?!
goodness.
went to kenny rodgers after that for my 'quater pounder'
sam booked harry potter tickets after that.
hung around abit more, then it was home sweet home.

day 2
felt lazy as ass!
but i wanted to catch the unior rugby, played by all the U-9s (i think)
ad saved the day with her last minute decision to not be lazy too.
heh
picked me up, droved down and parked at esplanade.
wow, so cleber she, parked at the right spot, just a stone throw from the padang.
watched the game, and the finals was goOOoooD!
the team i surported won! woo hoo FIJI!
after that headed home.
on the way walking back to the esplanade carpark,
this guy came up to me and talked to me like an old time friend.
it was one of the players from a maroon jersey wearing team,
he's prolly as old as my father!!
he asked me if i was going for the party and sorta persisted i came along with him.
*gulps*
so weird i had a hard time convincing him that my NO was final.
and i swear the gaps of his teeth were bigger then his nostrils.
heh.



i have a love for contact rugby, though it looks painful. i might wanna try my hand at it. ;)